"You bitch!" Sigaw nung kasama ni Edward na papalapit saakin ng harangin ni oakley ito at marahang inilayo
"Stop this veda, stop making a scene" pigil anf gigil at inis sa tinig ni Oakley habang para namang tuod si edward na nakatayo lang malapit saamin
"What? Are you serious Oakley, sasama ka sa kaladkarin nayan-"
"Explain how I am kaladkarin kung sya pumunta sa suite ko at nagpumilit na mag dinner kami. Tell me, who are you to point your dirty finger inside my property huh?" Matapang na saad ko saka naman sya tumawa
"I can buy your suite!" Pagmamayabang nya
"Really? Using Throne's money? Oh come on. I can buy a whole country for you wag ko lang makita pagmumuka mo" mas lalo naman sya nainis saakin at pinilit na makalapit saakin while I am still standing at my place like I am a queen
"How arrogant bitch, ang kapal ng muka mo. Napakayabang mo pa, sino kaba sa palagay mo eh kabit kalang ng asawa ko!" I smirk and I saw oakley's reaction, he look shocked.
May alas ako, I won't fight as long na wala akong kagamitan o sandata
"You're also a mistress of my husband, ano pinagkaiba mo sakin?" She look surprised while Oakley look surprised too, did I say too much?
"See for yourselves" saka ko nilapag ang envelop na kakakuha ko lang bago ako makauwi sa suite na ito, my cousins hire a private investigators last month papala yan dapat ibibigay saakin, but I'm busy on edward. Busy magpaka tanga
A picture of them, having sex in Edward's office, dating in a exclusive hotel. Sex on the beach. Fuck them!
I wanna slit their throat and fuck the wound, there's no word to describe my anger to edward and to his mistress
"What! That's not true" parang may nabara sa lalamunan nya habang tinitignan ni Oakley ang mga litrato
"I won't show this to him, pero you call me a mistress and that is enough reason to prove that you're mad at me kase gawain mo. But wait, how long both of you having a secret affair, a month? A year I guess" mas lalo naman ako nanghina sa mga lumalabas sa bibig ko, this is what I get pero wala akong nagawa, wala akong alam noong ginagawa pala sakin to ni edward, after all I sacrifice. This is what I get
I don't deserve him
"Why you are hiding there edward, hindi mo na ba nakayanan ang mga kasalanan ko, we saw each other last week and he fuck me once, how about both of you. How many times you lied to us?" My fist turn into ball while I'm waiting for his answer.
It's really hard to believe. After all years, niloloko kalang pala
"You are liar!" Nilukot nya ang papel at aamba na lalapit saakin ng tumindig padin ako sa kinakatayuan ko, I need to be strong. I'm Elisha Salvia
"Kahit anong gawin mo, hindi ako ang lumapit sa asawa mo. At mas lalong nahihiya ka sa katarantaduhan mo kase you seduce my husband, for what? For satisfaction, akala mo kagaya kitang nang aakit ng lalaki para lang masabing irresistible ka, why are you doing this? To prove that you are the boss, that's not right veda." She didn't respond pero pansin padin ang inis nya saakin, pareho lang kami. Wag syang mag malinis
Nagkagulo kami ng sumugod si edward kay oakley at nagumpisang magsuntukan ang dalawa, I keep pulling my husband away from Oakley pero masyadong malaki at malakas si edward kaya tumalsik ako ng hinawi nya ang kamay ko at na out of balance ako
I feel dizzy when my butt fell from the ground and suddenly I feel pain in my abdomen
"Elisha!" Sigaw ni oakley ng matigil silang dalawa at tumama ang balakang ko sa edge ng furniture
Hirap na hirap akong makagalaw habang naluluha ako sa sakit at hilo na nararamdaman ko sa ngayon
"What happen? May masakit ba sayo?" They asked saka ko naman naramdaman na may mainit na lumabas sa pagkababae ko at walang tigil ang pagdudugo noon na mas lalo kong kinalambot
"Fuck, no" bulong ko at parang nanlalabo ang paningin ko
"Call the ambulance veda, right now!"
Tulala din sya sa nakita nya habang nanginginig ang kamay na tumawag ng ambulansya habang si edward naman ay napaluhod at binuhat ako palabas ng suite
"What the fuck! I can't understand what's the meaning of that elisha, I'm getting scared now" kahit ako nagumpisa na matakot at mas lalo akong nanlambot ng manakit na ng sobra ang puson ko at napasigaw nalang ako sa sobrang sakit
My tears fall and I can't feel it. Para akong namanhid na nangyari saakin
"It hurts so fuckin- ah!" Sigaw ko habang may ambulance na tumigil sa harapan namin ng saktong pagkababa namin at doon na akko tuluyang nanghina at dumilim ang paligid
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"How is she?" Gising na ako ng dumating ang doktor, walang veda at Oakley ang andito, siguro nag uusap na sila tungkol sa sinabi ko kanina na secret affair nila edward at veda
Even me, I thought its a lie but it's not. Kahit anong pilit nilang itago ang katotohanan ay lalabas padin yon. It's a proof na when I am not aware of what's happening on them ay patuloy lang nila akong lolokohin
"I'm sorry Mr. Go hindi makakasurvive ang baby, at tuluyan na syang nawala. It's because of stress and her life style is not healthy for the baby, I hope you know that she's not fit for getting pregnant. Maselan sya sa pagbubuntis" natulala ako sa nalaman ko, after these weeks buntis na ako. It's my baby with edward
I feel frustrated, why this is happening on me?
"She's one month pregnant" saka naman natulala din si edward at napasabunot sa buhok nya
"Andito na ang reseta para sa kanyan. Good for 3-4 months nyang iinumin yan para hindi maapektuhan ang ibang organs mo, kung sakali kasi maaring mag fail yung iba kaya it's better if you won't stop taking your meds. Weekly check up din so I can see if the meds is good for you or not"
Tumango ako bago kami iniwan at namalagi ang katahimikan bago sya tumitig saakin at patuloy ang pagpatak ng luha nya habang kapit kapit ang kamay ko
"Why you didn't tell that you're pregnant?" Tanong nya saka ako ngumiti ng mapait at iniwas ang kamay ko
"Did I know that I am pregnant? Muka bang alam ko? Even if I know, wala padin yon halaga kase lolokohin mo padin ako hanggang hindi ko nalalaman!" Sigaw ko at kumawala ang luha ko
"All these time, I have no idea about this, kung sana alam ko lang na buntis ako hindi na ako nagpakatarantada at hinayaan ka nalang sa puday ng babae mo" naiirita ako sa tuwing naalala ko na nawala ang bata sa sinapupunan ko
"Why can you do this to me, kahit na nagkamali ka hindi ko naman sinusimbat sayo diba?"
"I made a mistake, my mistake that I regret, how about yours? You made a mistake and do it all over again. Having an affair how long edward? Tangina ka. Ako isang gabi lang nangyari. Pano yung iyo? Araw araw, gabi gabi mo bang inulit?" I said and push him when he tries to hug me
"I hate you, ayoko na makita ka pa I loathe you and veda. Stop bothering my life, you want to see me miserable? Okay fine, wag mo asahan na may babalikan kapa tandaan mo yan!" I shout before he leave and my tears fall
I keep crying way back when he's on states while he's moaning and fucking veda
I'm fooling myself.
I wish I can stop the pain
Tapos na ang lahat ng pag aasikaso ko para sa Annulment pero parang araw lang ang bawat linggo na dumaan.Napakabigat ng nararamdaman ko, it's been two months. Without edward and Oakley. I avoid drama, it's not good to my healthMy family is worried on my situation, pati sa media. People know what edward do to me, and Veda Noringco Throne is hiding, because of what she doI saw a familiar face, and I know it's herI smirk when veda is walking to my direction while her shades is not fit on her outfit."I can't believe that my husband have a interest on a rag" I laugh and show my white teeth"Yeah, I also can't believe that my husband has no taste when it's choosing a mistress. You must be thankful na mas maganda pinalit sayo, kesa naman mas mahirap sayo. Ops, did I hurt you oh so rich ego?" I asked and smile"Shut up! I'm way better than you!" She smile a
I pack my things while I am planning to have a vacation on siargao, after the hot and wild sex with oakley I left him in my suite at tumakasI also don't know why I am hiding like a criminal since that day happen, pinagsisihan ko ang lahat ng desisyon ko in this past two years. Bakit ba kase ang tanga mo elisha, pwede mo naman maging playmateKumuha ako ng isang stick ng sigarilyo at nilagay sa labi ko, I want to unwind. I want to get drunk again. But nagdadalawang isip akoWhat if I made another mistake? Makayog nanaman ako ng wala sa oras neto!I can't call china. Nahihiya padin ako kahit papano, she's Edward's cousin. I remember that day he kneel on me and ask for marriage. I thought it was sweet. Having a marriage proposal and boom. It was nightmareMarahan kong binuga ang usok, kasabay ng mga pagkawala ng lahat inaakala kong magiging maganda sa buhay koBigla nalang bumuk
Nasa private jet palang kami ni kuya sven ay nagumpisa na kaming maginomKuya Felix Sven is anak sa labas ng dad nila raffi and ang mom ni kuya sven ay isang dugong bughaw. Kaedaran nya si kuya scottI smile when I remember my family, my cousins. Andito sila kasama koMy cousins are complete now, since it's my birthday and I will treat themMga bastos! Wasak na nga wallet ko tapos neto, wasak din ang pukenilya ko!"Wow, raffi. Hiyang hiya naman ang itlog ko sayo, who said I am not daks!" Eto lagi ang pinag aawayan ng mga pinsan naming lalakiThey argue when it comes to their dick. Wtf, para silang elementary na nagdikit dikit para lang magpalakihan"I'm bigger" usal ni kuya sven at naupo"Malamang gurang kana! You're fifty years old man""It's thirty jerk, not fifty. And I am not titan gel user!" Bwelta ni kuya sven kay kuya rodd na
"Alam mo ba ang ginawa mo oakley! You ruin my night! And what the fuck are you doing here!" Sigaw ko habang buhat buhat nya ako, he push jack lately and hinatak ako papasok sa hotel"You ruin my hot make-out session with jam!" Sigaw ko at binaba nya ako sa kama ng padabog"It's jack, not jam" inismiran ko sya, I know that it's jack. Iniiba ko lang ang pangalan so he won't ruin jack"I can give you what you want elisha tapos hahanap kapa ng iba?" Naiinis na saad saakin ni oakley saka nagsalin ng alak sa basoTinangay na ang lahat ng meron saakin. Pati panty wala! I just lost my panty!"And you didn't tell me that it's your birthday" mas lalo naman nafrustrate and tono nya ngayon habang ibang iba ang titig nya saakin, his stares warm my heart. I didn't see lust in his eyes now, he's transparent and not lying on me.Is he hurt?"Ano nanaman ba gusto mo? I tol
Nakaupo ako sa upuan ng balcony ng hotel room habang kapit kapit ko ang mga bulaklak na nasa side table ng magising akoPagkagising ko ay halos gumapang ako para makapag cr dahil sa sakit ng balakang at hita ko, he's true to his word. Wala talaga syang balak palakarin akoMabuti nalang may tanda akong yoga position at mabilis na nawala ang sakit ng balakang ko, hita ko nalang ang problema ko kase bigla biglang bumibigay"Kanina kapa gising?" He kiss my temple habang nilapag ang mga pagkain at gatas na nasa tray habang nakangisi saakin"Yeah, ang hirap maglakad" reklamo ko and he laugh and sit in front of me"I told you, hindi kita palalakarin" he wink and nilagay ang plato na may lamang pancake, bacon, French toast at cocktail hotdogs"You cook all of this?" Tumango sya habang hindi padin maalis ang ngisi ng labi nya at pansin ang saya sa kanya ngayon"Do
Hindi ako nagtagal sa siargao at umuwi ako sa bahay ng grandparents namin sa batangas, nag paalam ako ng ayos sa kanila tapos ng birthday celebration koThey tease me about oakley, well. Hindi ako aasa sa panliligaw chenes nya. If he's here and do that, saka lang ako maniniwalaHindi ko naranasang maligawan, sa chukchakan agad ako nauwi. Because of edward, I don't know why he's asking for marriage at nag mamadaliSometimes I feel that he is lusting on me before and after that naghanap ng iba, marriage is not a joke. Kapag kinasal ka dapat mapanindigan moI feel sorry for my unborn baby, she/he doesn't deserve that. I must be careful. Ayoko na maulit yonMy lola walk beside me and offer wine, she's 79 pero parang nasa fifty palang, I adore my lola when she approach all of my cousins and act like a cool grandmother"Elisha, nakakailang buntong hininga kana, masama yan anak.
I look at oakley and he smile at me, nakakatawa sya sa suot nya. Ako naiinitan sa suot nya ngayon, I like him better when he's nakedNaughty elisha! Kapag naiyot iiyak iyak!I cursed softly and hit my head lightly. I swear bibisita nako sa psychiatrist para ipacheck ang kahalayan ko, sagad na sagad walang palya"Do you like the song?" I look at him saka kami umupo sa duwan ng hardin ni lola, I feel refreshing when the fresh wind touch my skin. Ang sarap sa pakiramdan"I love it, where do you study at your college?" I ask him at ngumiti lang naman sya saakin"St. Gregory" I cuss in my mind, kung third year ako, maaring naging schoolmate ko sya"Me too.." I said lazily and place my hand on my thighs and caress it, nahiya ako ng sandali, why I'm acting like a shy teenager
OakleyAfter I went home, I can't stop thinking about elisha's face, her face turn into a red, her smiles that make my heart melt and her voice, like a very beautiful melody I heard. The best of the bestAfter my hard time to sleep. I woke up early and went to her place, sobrang kabado ako ng haranahin ko sya. I thought I will fail, but I make her happy at that nightShe remember what I did when she's in her college, no one can't resist her. Kahit na saan sya pumunta, people saw her as a beautiful ladyDesidido ako na ligawan sya, I know that I am too old for courting since it's 21st century, bihira ang ligaw. Daan lang sa santong baban ng damit and boom, the magic will happenI won't deny that elisha and I also start at being a each other's affair, pareho kaming kasal, pareho kaming hindi gusto ang maitali agad, I understand her. I feel it too, but kapag nasa harap
When i was young i always seek for attention from all the people that i know they have interest in me, sa murang edad alam ko na pano malaman kung may kailangan ba ang tao sayo o gusto ka lang nila kaibiganinIt's really hard for me to have a real friend because i am crazy rich and all of them want to have the spotlight and money that i haveIt's frustrating for me to watch them walk away from me after they get what they wantIn other word, they took advantage of my kindnessKaya doon ako natuto na lumaban at ipakita ang sarili ko, ipamuka sa kanila na hindi ko kailangan ng kaibigan, all i need is myself and my family.Until i grew older, met Edward in the company. He's wearing his dashing smiles that all woman offer their body to him, his body that really goodI find him attractive but i see him as a simple guy, lahat naman ng lalaki pare-pareho kaya bakit k
"What the fuck? Don't touch me!" sigaw ko habang nakatitig sya saakin"It's me Elisha, si Oakley" nakangiti na saad neto pero tinulak ko ulit sya at pilit na kumakawala sa pag kakakapit nya saakin"I thought you don't remember me, kaya bakit andito ka?!" sigaw ko muli at nag lakad palayo sa kanyaSumunod naman sya saakin agad at kinapitan ang kamay ko"I'm sorry Elisha, nalaman ko na kasama mo si Edward, kaya nagalit ako. Nainis ako at akala ko bumalik kana kay Edward. Kaya sinabi ko na hindi kita kilala, nag panggap ako na di kita kilala kase gusto ko itago na nasasaktan ako" i smirk and slap his face"I can't remember everything, all i know is edward cheated on me and i cheated to him too, and you are my lover and the miscarriage of Edward's baby and the rest hindi ko na maalala. Just because of your pride you act like you don't know me?" naiinis na saad ko sa kanya&nbs
Tulala ako sa ginagawa ni edward habang sya ay busy sa pag lilinis ng yate na nakadaong sa isla. His personal driver is with us at pinag uusapan nila kung saan kami susunod na pupuntaAfter what happen on us he become more careful on his actions. Sobrang maalaga saakin, i can't even walk or go to the bathroom akala nya siguro tatakasan ko sya or whatNaawa ako sa kanya, because of that. Masyado ba akong gago before the accident"Edward, i have questions" he look at me and he smile at me"What is it, love?" he ask and kiss my templeI feel the love when his skin touch mine, i feel like he's really true to his words. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam lalo na kung totoo ang pinaparamdam sayo ng tao, but somehow there's a space inside my heart that i can't explain how i can fill the space"Do you think if the accident won't happen, may mangyayari bang maganda s
Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang nakatitig ako sa kawalanTangging dagat at hampas ng hangin ang nararamdaman ko, natapos ang usapan namin ni oakley ay para bang may kung ano sa kalooban ko na napakasakit, alam ko na hindi pa gaanong kumpleto ang alaala ko pero kahit ganon naniniwala ako sa lahat na sinabi ni edward saakinAno bang meron at nangyari at hindi ko binigyan ng pagkakataon na mag kaayos kami ni edward, bakit ko nagawa ang bagay na iyon noon."Mag kakasakit ka sa ginagawa mo elisha" i look at edward and my tears start falling. Kahit na umiiyak ako hindi nya kita, because its raining"I just want to answer every single questions that keeps bothering me, ang hirap ng ganito." He sit beside me and hold my hand, nilagay sa palad ko ang white gold ring na may naka engrave ng pangalan nya at taon na sa tingin ko ay araw kung kailan kami kinasal"I keep this all the time, kahi
"Sorry! shit, no Elisha, don't cry" he stop kissing me at umalis sa ibabaw ko habang di ko mapigilan ang pag hikbi ko, why i feel so weak"I want to go back where i am" i whisper when he help me to sit"Elisha" he said and i pushed edward"What do you want to me? Bakit parang iniiwas mo ako. Bakit ganto ang nangyayari saakin. I saw at the gallery on my phone, i am with other man. It's Oakley and marcist said him and i have a accident and now. Why i am with you, anong nangyari. You're acting differently, keeping me at this place makes me think that we broke up and you're being crazy now. Now tell me what happened to us? " maayos na tanong ko habang mas lalo syang hindi makasagot"Mahirap ba ang tinatanong ko?!""Hiwalay na tayo, and you cheated on me while i am on LA trip. Oakley is the guy you met on party, and have a one night stand with him, and i also cheated on you for so man
"Anak kumain ka muna habang inaantay nadin ang papa mo" i look at my mom while Edward is beside me holding my hands like he won't never let me goMy husband is so sweet, i really appreciate his effortHindi ko alam bakit ang tahimik ng nanay ko at parang naiinip na hindi nakikita ang tatay koWell, they love each other that's why"Ma, where is ate Zaraya, busy padin ba sya?" i ask saka ako sumubo ng sandwich"She's out of the town anak, pero bibisitahin kadin ng kapatid mo" tumango lang ako at tinignan si edward na may halos ipitin ako sa yakap"I miss you so damn much Elisha" he gently carress my hair and smile"I don't know what to say edward, hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko ngayon" he smile and kiss my head"It's happiness Elisha, you're happy because we will have another honeymoon trip after mong maka
"Kailan ba tayo tatantanan ng problema, lagi nalang nakasunod saatin ang problema. We can't live in peace" nakapikit ako habang nakasandal lang, kakaalis lang namin sa bahay nila Oakley after kong apihin si veda na santaSanta santahan, deputa. Hindi sya marunong tumupad sa usapan, paiba iba sya ng gusto nyang mangyareShe's a real bitch, kung di nya makuha si Edward babalik sya kay Oakley, nakakahiyang uri ng babae"Don't worry, magiging ayos din ang lahat just trust me okay?" i nod and he smile at me while looking at my eyesHe gently lift my hands and kissed it"You don't know how lucky i am when i found you Elisha, after i saw and tasted you. Alam ko na hindi na ako makakawala pa sa kung ano man ang meron sayo na wala sa ibang babae na hindi ko nakita""You're so precious, a woman like you is hard to find. Para kang nag hahanap ng perlas sa disyerto
"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star"No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet koIt's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay walaWhy? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion"What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them"Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa
People will leave you in the middle of chaos, only you can save your self.They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail and let you die in the middle of chaosThat's how it worksKung gusto mo talagang makalampas sa lahat ng dapat mong daanan, dapat hinding hindi kana lilingon pa.If you want to grow, you should learn how to grown on your own, stop believing that you need a person to make you grow. Hinding hindi mo magagamit ang tao lalo na kung ramdam mo sa sarili mo na may kulang ba ditoI heal myself because i need it, not because of Oakley"Ma'am, may package po na nag aantay sa baba" i look at my secretary and she look exhausted"Are you tired? Mag pahinga kana muna don, papaakyatin ko nalang ang delivery boy and please stop calling me ma'am if you want to keep you job. Ms. Elisha okay? Pina