"Alam mo ba ang ginawa mo oakley! You ruin my night! And what the fuck are you doing here!" Sigaw ko habang buhat buhat nya ako, he push jack lately and hinatak ako papasok sa hotel
"You ruin my hot make-out session with jam!" Sigaw ko at binaba nya ako sa kama ng padabog
"It's jack, not jam" inismiran ko sya, I know that it's jack. Iniiba ko lang ang pangalan so he won't ruin jack
"I can give you what you want elisha tapos hahanap kapa ng iba?" Naiinis na saad saakin ni oakley saka nagsalin ng alak sa baso
Tinangay na ang lahat ng meron saakin. Pati panty wala! I just lost my panty!
"And you didn't tell me that it's your birthday" mas lalo naman nafrustrate and tono nya ngayon habang ibang iba ang titig nya saakin, his stares warm my heart. I didn't see lust in his eyes now, he's transparent and not lying on me.
Is he hurt?
"Ano nanaman ba gusto mo? I tol
Nakaupo ako sa upuan ng balcony ng hotel room habang kapit kapit ko ang mga bulaklak na nasa side table ng magising akoPagkagising ko ay halos gumapang ako para makapag cr dahil sa sakit ng balakang at hita ko, he's true to his word. Wala talaga syang balak palakarin akoMabuti nalang may tanda akong yoga position at mabilis na nawala ang sakit ng balakang ko, hita ko nalang ang problema ko kase bigla biglang bumibigay"Kanina kapa gising?" He kiss my temple habang nilapag ang mga pagkain at gatas na nasa tray habang nakangisi saakin"Yeah, ang hirap maglakad" reklamo ko and he laugh and sit in front of me"I told you, hindi kita palalakarin" he wink and nilagay ang plato na may lamang pancake, bacon, French toast at cocktail hotdogs"You cook all of this?" Tumango sya habang hindi padin maalis ang ngisi ng labi nya at pansin ang saya sa kanya ngayon"Do
Hindi ako nagtagal sa siargao at umuwi ako sa bahay ng grandparents namin sa batangas, nag paalam ako ng ayos sa kanila tapos ng birthday celebration koThey tease me about oakley, well. Hindi ako aasa sa panliligaw chenes nya. If he's here and do that, saka lang ako maniniwalaHindi ko naranasang maligawan, sa chukchakan agad ako nauwi. Because of edward, I don't know why he's asking for marriage at nag mamadaliSometimes I feel that he is lusting on me before and after that naghanap ng iba, marriage is not a joke. Kapag kinasal ka dapat mapanindigan moI feel sorry for my unborn baby, she/he doesn't deserve that. I must be careful. Ayoko na maulit yonMy lola walk beside me and offer wine, she's 79 pero parang nasa fifty palang, I adore my lola when she approach all of my cousins and act like a cool grandmother"Elisha, nakakailang buntong hininga kana, masama yan anak.
I look at oakley and he smile at me, nakakatawa sya sa suot nya. Ako naiinitan sa suot nya ngayon, I like him better when he's nakedNaughty elisha! Kapag naiyot iiyak iyak!I cursed softly and hit my head lightly. I swear bibisita nako sa psychiatrist para ipacheck ang kahalayan ko, sagad na sagad walang palya"Do you like the song?" I look at him saka kami umupo sa duwan ng hardin ni lola, I feel refreshing when the fresh wind touch my skin. Ang sarap sa pakiramdan"I love it, where do you study at your college?" I ask him at ngumiti lang naman sya saakin"St. Gregory" I cuss in my mind, kung third year ako, maaring naging schoolmate ko sya"Me too.." I said lazily and place my hand on my thighs and caress it, nahiya ako ng sandali, why I'm acting like a shy teenager
OakleyAfter I went home, I can't stop thinking about elisha's face, her face turn into a red, her smiles that make my heart melt and her voice, like a very beautiful melody I heard. The best of the bestAfter my hard time to sleep. I woke up early and went to her place, sobrang kabado ako ng haranahin ko sya. I thought I will fail, but I make her happy at that nightShe remember what I did when she's in her college, no one can't resist her. Kahit na saan sya pumunta, people saw her as a beautiful ladyDesidido ako na ligawan sya, I know that I am too old for courting since it's 21st century, bihira ang ligaw. Daan lang sa santong baban ng damit and boom, the magic will happenI won't deny that elisha and I also start at being a each other's affair, pareho kaming kasal, pareho kaming hindi gusto ang maitali agad, I understand her. I feel it too, but kapag nasa harap
"Kuya, saglit lang. Pupuntahan ko si oakley" kuya christ chuckled and pat my head like a little baby"So you like that guy" marahan akong pumikit at hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko kay kuya, do I like oakley, do I deserve him? He's too good for me, I am afraid to disappoint him in anyway that I might do without realizing itNakakatakot kapag may aasa sayo at handang tumanggap katulad ng ginagawa ni oakley saakin ngayon, he meet my lola, and once my lola approve him, it means he's good and she like him for me"Ano, natulala kana dyan" I smile weakly and place my hand on my neck, do deserve it?"I need time to realize it kuya, I'm afraid to make a new mistake after the ridiculous problems I made last time" he light his cigarette and look at me, iniinggit ako ng gago"Wag kana magisip, sometimes you don't need to chose wisely elisha. Mamaya kakaisip mo mawawala nanaman pala sa ang pag
After I talk to lolo, I went to bar counter ng mansion at namili ng iinumin na alak, I miss the taste of alcohol"Oh bat andito kapa, welcome ka?" I hissed at kuya christ at inabot ang bote ng alak na may lamang ahasI remember that when I taste it, once you drink the alcohol pwedeng mag-apoy ang bibig mo sa sobrang tapangGumuguhit, para kang tinarakan ng kutsilyo sa lalamunan"Ang sungit mo, sabing habulin mo yung throne mo eh" I push him a bit at naabot ang bote ng brandy"Bakit ko hahabulin yon, ako babae at hindi maghahabol ang Salvia sa kanya!" Singhal ko bago nagsalin ng alak sa baso"But you cannot leave him in chaos, he saved you and you'll left him there, alone? That's not nice elisha" kuya said and I avoid looking at him, I know what he want to say"Stop standing behind your ego elisha. What do you think why he leave?" I look a
I feel my anger eat my own system, nanginginig ako habang kapit kapit ko ang steering wheel habang hindi pansin ang bilis ko ngayonI don't know how to calm myself while I am driving now. That is the worst thing that happen to me he have no right to said it to meWhy people keep acting like they knew everything. Kung makapagsalita sila parang tama lahat ng lumalabas sa bibig nila, they don't think before they judge youTangina lang"Fuck!" Gigil na gigil ako because every single words he say keep replaying in my mind. It's like a curse to me, he poisoned my mind by saying that, why I allow myself to hear that bullshits"Tangina nyong lahat!" I shout at the top of my lungs and stop my car at the open spaceNagpupumadyak ako habang palabas ako sa kotse, nasa kanang kamay ko ang yosi ko at sa kaliwa ang vodka na binigay saakin ng lalaki na iyon
Bumungad saakin ang puting kisame habang ugong ng AC ang tanging ingay sa kwarto at dahan dahan akong bumangon, I didn't wear the same clothes I wear last nightI noticed that I am laying at my bed, at the mansionMarahan at maingat akong lumakad sa kwarto ko, long sleeves and my undiesNag flash naman ang nangyari kagabi and my sweet smile fade. After I left veda, oakley find me. Hug me and I cry to his shoulder until I fall asleep last nightBahagya namang bumukas ang pinto at niluwa non si oakley na may dalang gatas habang nakatitig saakin at nilapag sa tabi ng vanity mirror ko ang gatas and he handed me a robe"Kakagising mo lang?" He ask saka ko inabot ang gatas and drink"Oakley..." I call him para saakin mapunta ang atensyon nya habang saakin na nga lumipat ang mga pagmamasid nya sa loob"The guy I'm hugging yesterday is my cousin"
When i was young i always seek for attention from all the people that i know they have interest in me, sa murang edad alam ko na pano malaman kung may kailangan ba ang tao sayo o gusto ka lang nila kaibiganinIt's really hard for me to have a real friend because i am crazy rich and all of them want to have the spotlight and money that i haveIt's frustrating for me to watch them walk away from me after they get what they wantIn other word, they took advantage of my kindnessKaya doon ako natuto na lumaban at ipakita ang sarili ko, ipamuka sa kanila na hindi ko kailangan ng kaibigan, all i need is myself and my family.Until i grew older, met Edward in the company. He's wearing his dashing smiles that all woman offer their body to him, his body that really goodI find him attractive but i see him as a simple guy, lahat naman ng lalaki pare-pareho kaya bakit k
"What the fuck? Don't touch me!" sigaw ko habang nakatitig sya saakin"It's me Elisha, si Oakley" nakangiti na saad neto pero tinulak ko ulit sya at pilit na kumakawala sa pag kakakapit nya saakin"I thought you don't remember me, kaya bakit andito ka?!" sigaw ko muli at nag lakad palayo sa kanyaSumunod naman sya saakin agad at kinapitan ang kamay ko"I'm sorry Elisha, nalaman ko na kasama mo si Edward, kaya nagalit ako. Nainis ako at akala ko bumalik kana kay Edward. Kaya sinabi ko na hindi kita kilala, nag panggap ako na di kita kilala kase gusto ko itago na nasasaktan ako" i smirk and slap his face"I can't remember everything, all i know is edward cheated on me and i cheated to him too, and you are my lover and the miscarriage of Edward's baby and the rest hindi ko na maalala. Just because of your pride you act like you don't know me?" naiinis na saad ko sa kanya&nbs
Tulala ako sa ginagawa ni edward habang sya ay busy sa pag lilinis ng yate na nakadaong sa isla. His personal driver is with us at pinag uusapan nila kung saan kami susunod na pupuntaAfter what happen on us he become more careful on his actions. Sobrang maalaga saakin, i can't even walk or go to the bathroom akala nya siguro tatakasan ko sya or whatNaawa ako sa kanya, because of that. Masyado ba akong gago before the accident"Edward, i have questions" he look at me and he smile at me"What is it, love?" he ask and kiss my templeI feel the love when his skin touch mine, i feel like he's really true to his words. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam lalo na kung totoo ang pinaparamdam sayo ng tao, but somehow there's a space inside my heart that i can't explain how i can fill the space"Do you think if the accident won't happen, may mangyayari bang maganda s
Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang nakatitig ako sa kawalanTangging dagat at hampas ng hangin ang nararamdaman ko, natapos ang usapan namin ni oakley ay para bang may kung ano sa kalooban ko na napakasakit, alam ko na hindi pa gaanong kumpleto ang alaala ko pero kahit ganon naniniwala ako sa lahat na sinabi ni edward saakinAno bang meron at nangyari at hindi ko binigyan ng pagkakataon na mag kaayos kami ni edward, bakit ko nagawa ang bagay na iyon noon."Mag kakasakit ka sa ginagawa mo elisha" i look at edward and my tears start falling. Kahit na umiiyak ako hindi nya kita, because its raining"I just want to answer every single questions that keeps bothering me, ang hirap ng ganito." He sit beside me and hold my hand, nilagay sa palad ko ang white gold ring na may naka engrave ng pangalan nya at taon na sa tingin ko ay araw kung kailan kami kinasal"I keep this all the time, kahi
"Sorry! shit, no Elisha, don't cry" he stop kissing me at umalis sa ibabaw ko habang di ko mapigilan ang pag hikbi ko, why i feel so weak"I want to go back where i am" i whisper when he help me to sit"Elisha" he said and i pushed edward"What do you want to me? Bakit parang iniiwas mo ako. Bakit ganto ang nangyayari saakin. I saw at the gallery on my phone, i am with other man. It's Oakley and marcist said him and i have a accident and now. Why i am with you, anong nangyari. You're acting differently, keeping me at this place makes me think that we broke up and you're being crazy now. Now tell me what happened to us? " maayos na tanong ko habang mas lalo syang hindi makasagot"Mahirap ba ang tinatanong ko?!""Hiwalay na tayo, and you cheated on me while i am on LA trip. Oakley is the guy you met on party, and have a one night stand with him, and i also cheated on you for so man
"Anak kumain ka muna habang inaantay nadin ang papa mo" i look at my mom while Edward is beside me holding my hands like he won't never let me goMy husband is so sweet, i really appreciate his effortHindi ko alam bakit ang tahimik ng nanay ko at parang naiinip na hindi nakikita ang tatay koWell, they love each other that's why"Ma, where is ate Zaraya, busy padin ba sya?" i ask saka ako sumubo ng sandwich"She's out of the town anak, pero bibisitahin kadin ng kapatid mo" tumango lang ako at tinignan si edward na may halos ipitin ako sa yakap"I miss you so damn much Elisha" he gently carress my hair and smile"I don't know what to say edward, hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko ngayon" he smile and kiss my head"It's happiness Elisha, you're happy because we will have another honeymoon trip after mong maka
"Kailan ba tayo tatantanan ng problema, lagi nalang nakasunod saatin ang problema. We can't live in peace" nakapikit ako habang nakasandal lang, kakaalis lang namin sa bahay nila Oakley after kong apihin si veda na santaSanta santahan, deputa. Hindi sya marunong tumupad sa usapan, paiba iba sya ng gusto nyang mangyareShe's a real bitch, kung di nya makuha si Edward babalik sya kay Oakley, nakakahiyang uri ng babae"Don't worry, magiging ayos din ang lahat just trust me okay?" i nod and he smile at me while looking at my eyesHe gently lift my hands and kissed it"You don't know how lucky i am when i found you Elisha, after i saw and tasted you. Alam ko na hindi na ako makakawala pa sa kung ano man ang meron sayo na wala sa ibang babae na hindi ko nakita""You're so precious, a woman like you is hard to find. Para kang nag hahanap ng perlas sa disyerto
"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star"No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet koIt's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay walaWhy? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion"What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them"Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa
People will leave you in the middle of chaos, only you can save your self.They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail and let you die in the middle of chaosThat's how it worksKung gusto mo talagang makalampas sa lahat ng dapat mong daanan, dapat hinding hindi kana lilingon pa.If you want to grow, you should learn how to grown on your own, stop believing that you need a person to make you grow. Hinding hindi mo magagamit ang tao lalo na kung ramdam mo sa sarili mo na may kulang ba ditoI heal myself because i need it, not because of Oakley"Ma'am, may package po na nag aantay sa baba" i look at my secretary and she look exhausted"Are you tired? Mag pahinga kana muna don, papaakyatin ko nalang ang delivery boy and please stop calling me ma'am if you want to keep you job. Ms. Elisha okay? Pina