Chapter One
Tahamik kong pinagmasdan mula sa bintana ng saksakyan ang matalahib na gilid ng dinaraanan naming daan. Simula kanina ay bilang lang ang mga sasakyan na nakasalubong namin at tila wala yatang katapusan ang daan sa unahan, hindi nakikita kung saan ito patutungo. Ang ganitong klaseng lugar ang gusto ko, malayo sa maalikabok na hangin ng Maynila. Tahimik at talagang nakakagaan ng pakiramdam. Ramdam ko ang malamig na simoy ng hangin na tumama sa aking balat kahit pa tanghali na at tirik na tirik ang araw. Siguro ay dahil ito sa dami ng mga puno na nakapalibot sa lugar. A typical scene in an isolated place. Ito ang kailangan ko ngayon, malayo sa nakaka-stress kong pamilya at malayo sa mga mapanuri at mapanghusgang mata ng mga tao.
“We’ll stop at some local store to buy food,” sabi ni Sebastian.
Tumango ako sa sinabi niya nang hindi siya tinitingnan. Tahimik lang akong nakatanaw sa labas ng bintana. Wala sa ako sa mood na makipag-usap, kahit na sa kanya.
Hindi ko naman siya pinilit na samahan ako dito, I actually insisted on going alone, but he was much more stubborn than I am. Gusto ko lang sana na mapag-isa para makapag-isip ng maayos. I want an exit. An escape from reality and the painful truth. Yes, it was painful for me kahit na hindi ko naman siya mahal. Masakit sa pride ko ang ginawa niya. I don’t think I deserved to be treated that way. I don’t think I deserved to be cheated. Everybody doesn’t deserve that. Kaya gusto ko sanang lumayo muna, give time to think what my next move would be. Pero ang isang ‘to ay napakakulit at ayaw akong hayaan. Hindi naman kami ganu’n ka close, pero ang kulit talaga kaya hinayaan ko na lang siyang samahan ako para hindi na humaba ang usapan.
“ Maghanap na lang tayo ng matutuloyan ngayong gabi. Maybe at some inn or motel. Bukas na lang tayo bi-byahe at delikado na sa daan kapag madilim na,” sambit niya, and for the nth time, tumango ulit ako nang hindi siya tiningnan.
Mas itinuon ko ang atensyon sa mga puno at talahib na nakikita ko sa daan. Ayaw ko siyang tingnan lalo’t nakaka-distract ang amoy niya. It’s not that he smelled bad, he actually smelled so good it annoys the hell out of me. The last thing I would want to happen is to be distracted by this man beside me. I’ve had enough problems to deal with right now and I don’t want to entertain the thoughts hanging on my mind.
But it’s also a good thing that he’s with me, his presence gives me comfort, and at the same time confusion. Hindi naman kasi ako dapat nadi-distract sa taong ito, e! Pero iyon ang nararamdaman ko sa tuwing nasa malapit siya o kung alam kong nasa paligid lang siya and this only adds up to my already confused mind. I don’t want to entertain those thoughts but I really can’t help it at gusto kong kastiguhin and sarili sa pag-iisip ng ganu’n kahit na may problema akong kinakaharap ngayon.
“Are you thirsty?” tanong niya. Kanina pa akong walang imik at siya lang ang palaging kumakausap sa akin.
Umiling ako at tinuon ang mga mata sa labas ng bintana. Magkukulong ako sa kwarto mamaya kapag nakahanap na kami ng matutulogan.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit niya nagawa akong lukohin, o baka may iba siyang napansin sa akin kaya nagawa niya iyon? But God knows I tried so hard to hide and deny this feeling. I guess it was not enough. Kahit na sabihing arranged lang ang kasal namin, he was still bound to be faithful to me and this marraige just as I am bound to be faithful to him kahit na iba ang gusto ko at kahit na ganoon ay wala akong ginawa. Pinabayaan ko lang at hindi pinansin kung ano man ‘yung mga nararamdaman ko.
He parked the car in front of a convenience store. Ito lang ang nag-iisang convenience store na nakita ko simula kanina.
Marty’s Inn. Iyon ang nakalagay sa karatula na may mga maliit na ilaw na nakapalibot sa mismong signage. I guess it’s a store and an inn at the same time. Very convenient nga naman para sa mga travelers like us. Glass window and door ng entrance at sa gilid nito ay mayroong separate building na sa tingin ko ay ang inn.
“ We’ll stay here for the night, “ deklara ni Seb. Iyon lang sinabi niya bago lumabas sa kotse at iniwan ako. Hindi man lang nag-abalang pag-buksan ako ng pinto.
Suplado!
Not that I want him to be a gentleman but it just amazed me how he can act so rude in front of me. Alam ko naman na suplado siyang tao, in fact, it was one of his charms, but I’m Claire dela Fuerte, people looked up to me not just because I’m a beauty queen but I am also the only heiress of a multi-billion company. I’m used to being pampered and adored by many. I grew up receiving so much love, care, and appreciation from the people around me.
“What are you still doing inside that car gawking at my butt?“ he mocking asked. I was snapped back to reality when I heard his scowling voice. Inis na tiningnan ko siya at sinundan na siya papasok sa convenience store na sa tingin ko ay reception area na din ng motel.
Yeah, this is torture. A night with Sebastian Altamirano is definitely torture.
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“ Ahhhh… fuck! That’s it, baby! Fuck me hard!”
“ Fuck, yeah! I wanna come in your mouth, babe! I’m cumming! “
“ Ohh...yes! Fuck me deep!”
Kahit anong takip ko sa tainga ay rinig na rinig ko pa rin ang kababalaghan na nangyayari sa kabilang kwarto. ‘Di man nakikita ang mukha ko ngayon ay alam kong pulang-pula na ako. Halos takpan ko na rin ang buong katawan ko dahil sa hiya! How come these people were so loud and obvious when they knew this is a public place.
At ang buwesit na kasama ko dito sa kwarto ay pinagtawanan lang ako! Ang malas lang dahil wala ng ibang bakante na kwarto at ito na lang ang available. Wala akong magawa at pumayag na lang na sa iisang kwarto kami matutulog, at mukhang tuwang-tuwa pa ang kumag!
Sharing a room with him was already awkward, hearing moaning sounds of pleasure from the other room is a disaster!
“ Why are you reacting like an old virgin, “ natatawang tanong niya. “It’s not like you haven’t experienced that before. “
My face flushed even more upon hearing his sexy laugh. This man seldom laughs but whenever he did, I can’t help myself but be amazed at how beautiful this man. Alam kong bawal itong nararamdaman ko, pero gaya ng ibang babae na nahuhumaling sa kanya, I just can’t stopped myself from liking him despite my marriage to his brother. And what bothers me, even more, is the way he treated me. Was because I am his brother’s wife or was it something else? Whatever it is, I don’t want to put meaning on it.
“Bastos!“ Hinagis ko ang isang unan na ginagamit ko.
How can he talk to me like that? Hindi ba siya nahihiya sa sitwasyon namin ngayon? It’s so awkward! He’s my husband’s older brother, at ganito siya kung magsalita sa akin. Ugh!
I heard him chuckled. Parang mas natutuwa pa siya sa sitwasyon namin ngayon!
Hindi ako natinag sa hinihigaan ko, nagtalukbong ako hanggang ulo, mas niyakap ang extra na unan. I don’t want him to see my reaction na naapektuhan ako sa mga ungol ng kabilang silid. I’m sure mas pagtatawanan niya lang ako.
Ugh! Please remind me why I’m with this annoying being! Hindi ko rin maintindihan kung bakit ganito siya ngayon. He always has this very intimidating and strict aura with him, it was something that was expected from him since he was the CEO of their company. Kaya naguguluhan ako sa ugaling pinapakita niya sa akin ngayon.
“Maliligo ulit ako. It’s so fucking hot,“ deklara niya.
Naramdaman ko na mas lalong nag-init ang mukha ko sa sinabi niya. Parang may double meaning, e!
Pumasok siya sa banyo at narinig ko ang lagaslas ng shower. Pasamantala akong nakahinga ng maluwag. Tinanggal ko ang kumot na nakatabon sa mukha ko at lumanghap ng presko hangin. Nakaka-suffocate ‘yun ha. Napako ang mata ko sa nakasarang pinto na pinasukan niya, hindi pa siguro iyon lalabas agad.
Umalis ako sa kama at dahan-dahang lumapit sa pader na nakapagitan sa amin at sa kabilang kwarto. Dinikit ko ang tainga at pinakinggan ang kabilang silid. Wala nang ingay, siguro tapos na sila. Narinig ko pa kanina na “ i’m cumming” na daw.
Kinilabotan ako sa mga pumapasok sa isip ko, hindi naman sa nagpapaka-virgin ako, noh. I’m not anymore. Actually, my husband was not the first man in my life, pero alam ko naman na hindi naman ako ganoon kaingay. Yung tipong sumisigaw na talaga. Nakaka-eskadalo kaya.
Bumontong-hininga akoa at maglalakad na sana pabalik sa kama nang biglang bumukas ang pinto ng banyo. Na-estatuwa ako sa aking kinatatayuan at nahigit ang hininga ko nang lumabas siya na walang ibang suot kundi ang tuwalya na nanganganib na mahulog.
Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig nang makita ko ang basa niyang katawan. This is the first time that I saw him half-naked, and my sinful eyes immediately feasted on his mouth-watering body.
I don’t want to compare but I can’t help it, but he’s much more ripped than his brother. Shoulders broader and I was hypnotized with how he stared at me with me gawking at his wet, half-naked and delicious body. Kahit na anong gawin ko ay hindi ko maalis ang tingin sa kanya.
You have to look away, Claire.
Don’t do this.
But my stupid eyes is so stubborn. Sige pa rin sa pagtitig sa kanya. Napalunok ako nang unti-unti siyang naglakad patungo sa kinaroroonan ko. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako titingin, kung lalabanan ko ba ang nag-aalab niyang mga titig o yuyuko na lang.
I’m pretty sure I look like a ripe tomato right now! And my rumbling heart is not helping. Pinagpapawisan na ako sa bilis ng tibok ng puso ko at pinangapusan ako ng hininga.
Iba talaga ang epekto ng isang ito sa akin, kaya pilit ko talagang iniiwasan mapalapit sa kanya dahil nag-iiba ang reaksyon ng katawan ko. It was like I’m always into him whenever I see him. Para siyang magnet.
I was wearing nothing under my shirt, and I know for sure that my nipples are extravagantly flaunting themselves, I know because of the tingles it gives.
Tumigil siya sa harapan ko, nakadungaw dahil mas matangkad siya ng ilang pulgada sa akin. He was proudly flaunting his ripped abs and he knows that I’m affected by his nudity. I can feel the heat radiating from his body. The heat penetrates my system, reciprocating what it has given. I’m sure as hell he noticed it as well.
What he did next shattered all my defenses, broke the wall I’ve been building for years.
He rubbed his index finger into my aching nipples, just above my shirt. Nahigit ko ang hininga. He drew circular motions into my pebbled nipples making it harder, and the sensation it made excites my core.
Tiningala ko siya. Pilit nilabanan ang mga titig niya. His eyes showed raw desire, and I’m sure mine also showed the same intense desire. The intensity of his stare made my knees weak, my hands shake, my throat run dry.
“ Seb,” I whispered.
Liquid heat gushed out in the middle of my thighs. I could feel my walls throbbing, the sensation is so strong I can’t help but let out a soft moan. Alam kong narinig niya iyon dahil mas lalong nagging mainit ang pagtitig niya sa akin.
“ It’s hard.“ He continued caressing my left nipple, “ Just as hard as I am.”
Bago ko pa napigilan ang sarili ay agad akong tumungo at napatingin sa parte ng katawan niya na sigurado akong iyon ang tinutukoy niyang matigas raw.
Oh, damn!
His bulge is so freaking obvious, at alam kong kaunti na lang natitirang kapit ng tuwalya niya sa kanyang bewang. Napalunok ako nang tinitigan ko iyon. It’s massive! It looked so hard and inviting. Parang ang sarap haplusin at..napalunok ako sa naisip.
And just like that, his towel fell on the floor.
Chapter TwoI heaved out a heavy breath as I stared at the woman who was hopelessly staring back at me in the mirror. The heavy makeup designed for this occasion and the crystal beads that adorned my hair was not enough to hide the sparkle of sadness in my eyes. Kung buhay pa ang kapatid ko ay sana hindi ako ang nasa sitwasyon na ito. It should be her who’s sitting now in this hotel room. She should be the one who’s dressed up for this occasion and not me. But what can I do?Another sigh escaped my lips, I signed for this one and I should be responsible for this. I forced out a smile kahit na sumasakit ang ulo ko sa kakaisip. My practiced smile, whenever I’m in front of the crowd, is plastered in the mirror. The smile everyone thought was genuine, but it was the opposite. I can do this.Nabaling ang tingin ko sa pinto nang may kumatok doon at pumasok ang isa sa mga pinsan ko, si Evany. Alanganin siyang ngumiti sa akin.
Chapter ThreeNakatulala ako na nakatingin sa kawalan habang inikot-ikot ang hawak na ballpen. Kanina pa ako wala sa sarili dahil paulit-ulit na nagre-replay sa utak ko ang mga nangyari kanina sa bahay habang naghahanda ako ng almusal. As usual, ay nasa isang out-of-town business na naman ang asawa ko at sa isang linggo pa ito uuwi.Being the wife of the CEO of one of the wealthiest companies, I expected to experience all of it. Wala namang problema sa akin kung palaging busy ang asawa ko dahil sa negosyo, naiintindihan ko ‘yun, and I had my own business kaya hindi ako masyadong nababagot. I was always left in the house alone with the maids and I was fine with it until yesterday. Sebastian suddenly appeared at our doorstep yesterday night, grinning like a Chesire cat, and said he’ll be staying here for how long we know and Niu can’t do anything about it.They were
Chapter FourFlashback“Which do you prefer?” I asked Niu. He was usually the one who picks his ties but today I made an effort to appear just a little interested in him, kahit na naiinis ako sa kanya kagabi. Our relationship was a bit complicated, being his wife has negative and positive sides. As the CEO and successor of the empire, he was expected to sire an heir, he asked for it, his parents too but, I really can’t put myself into that situation. And ever since I refused him, he changed.Tiningnan niya ang mga hawak kong necktie at tinaasan ako ng kilay. Maybe he’s confused why I’m here attending him with his needs like a devoted wife, I cringe at that thought. “The blue one,” he answered. He continued with his work at hinayaan ko na. He’s going out of town again for a project presentation in Hongkong, he said he’ll be gone for a week.
Chapter Five Tinitigan ko ang kamay ni Sebastian na nakahawak sa maliit na baywang ni Stanford, and for the first time I felt a slight pain at something that was not even hurtful for me. This was so new to me and I hated the feeling, alam ko kasi kung ano ito, I feel jealous of her. Hindi naman kasi ako dapat magkaganito sa kapatid ni Niu, because he was basically considered my brother, too. Iniwas ko ang tingin doon at binaling sa mukha ni Stanford, ngayon ko lang yata naramdaman ng pagkainis sa babaeng ito. She’s one of our best clients because she was obsessed with fine jewelry. I like her because we have the same intersest, and that is the love for jewelry. Pero ngayon ay gusto kong bawiin na gusto ko siya, I hated her now that Seb's arms were around her. Ningitian ko siya at binati pero hindi ko pinansin si Sebastian, I don’t want to look at his face and be distracted again. Kung puwede ko lang siyang irapan ay kanina
Chapter SixHindi ko na alam ilang beses ba ako bumuntong hininga simula kanina. Nagiging habit ko na yata ito simula nang dito tumira si Sebastian. I asked Niu about it but he would just shrug at sasabihin niyang hindi niya alam. Nakakainis kasi hindi ko na alam ang gagawin dito sa bahay. Every time that he’s around I get so conscious and it’s stressing me out. I noticed his every move and I get conscious with myself and with how I look and smell whenever he’s around.“Claire, mom’s here,” sigaw ni Niu.I developed this habit of locking myself in the bathroom whenever I want to think about things. It’s like it became my own personal space ever since I married Niu. Dito sa banyo ay p’wede akong maging totoo sa sarili ko, I don’t have to pretend that I’m happy in front of everybody. Dito sa banyo, I can talk to myself in the mirror, poured out my he
Tumikhim ako at umayos ng upo at itinuloy ko ang pag-scan ng ibang catalogue, but I got conscious with how his hand caressed my waist, he’s making tiny circles in the fabric of my dress, and I can’t help but compare how it felt when Sebastion touched me, I didn’t feel the same kind of electrical surge when Sebastian caressed my lips. Nakakakiliti ang bawat haplos niya at malaki ang epekto nu’n sa katawan ko.Just remembering those times when his body accidentally touched mine, I felt my body burn with need. Hindi ko maintindihan pero alam ng utak ko kung bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko kay Seb. I am completely attracted to him. My body sent me signals but my mind refused to accept that fact. The norms in our society condemned this kind of situation. It’s taboo.“Hey, are you okay?” tanong ni Niu. He leaned closer to me and whispered in my ear. I didn’t feel anything when his lips
Sebastian’sThey say a real man chooses to honor, love, and be faithful to one woman. I say feelings are just fleeting emotions subject to changes in circumstances you less expected.I smirked as I stared at the red liquid floating in my glass, it reminds me of someone who loves red lipstick so much. Red, the color of love, passion, and strong emotion. It can also signify anger and rage. Humans tend to see a different perspective in every aspect of our lives. What we see as positive might be something negative for others.Mabilis na inubos ko ang alak na natira sa baso. This thing is stressing me out lately, I’m not much of a drinker but because of this, I think I needed the aid of alcohol to calm my nerves every fucking time. Nagsalin ulit ako ng alak sa baso.Tiningnan ko ang monitor ng laptop ko. Her strawberry blonde hair suited her creamy-white skin. I can’t help but noti
Sebastian’sI got out of the car as soon as I parked it. Binigay ko sa valet ang susi at tuloy-tuloy na pumasok sa entrance ng bar. The bouncers knew me already since I’m a regular and the owner is a friend of mine. Tinanguan ko lang si Greg, one of Andrei’s bouncers at pumasok na ako.I was greeted with the loud beat of the music. Madilim ang paligid at ang mga umiikot na disco lights lang ang nagsisilbing liwanag sa buong paligid. The fresh scent of cigarette and alcohol mixed, the typical scent of a bar. The dancefloor is crowded, bodies of men and women swaying and bouncing to the beat of the sounds. They were dancing wildly. Wala pang hating-gabi pero punong-puno na ang lugar.I made my way to the second floor where the VIP area was located, alam kong nandoon silang lahat, and if not, I’m sure nasa VIP rooms ang mga gago. I just have to check first. I made my way to the spiral staircase avoid