Mag-log inShare
Chapter 22 (part 1)
Huling Na-update:
2021-12-05 21:38:35#FD21 || Bethylia Monteamor
Pagod kong isinukbit ang body bag na dala sa balikat bago tumayo sa kinauupuan ng lupaypay ang mga braso.
I was feeling down these days, hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari, kung bakit parang mayroong nagbago, bakit biglaang pasok ng problema samantalang parang kahapon lang ay nasa ayos pa naman ang lahat at pabor na pabor sa akin ang tadhana.
Ito ang kinakatakutan ko, at the end of the day, problem will still chase you. Nasa sa iyo na kung haharapin mo ng walang takot o pilit na tatakbuhan kahit na alam mong nasa bingit ka na rin ng pagkakahulog sa bitag na walang ibang idudulot sa iyo kung hindi sakit, sakit na pilit kukuha sa katinuan mo at hihilain ka pababa hanggang sa hindi ka na maka-ahon.
Funny how fate loves to play with us. Kung masisira rin naman sa dulo ay bakit ibinibigay pa? Kung magkakasakitan rin naman pala sa kalagitnaan ay bakit ipinakilala pa? Kung bibit
Kaugnay na kabanata
Flawed Desires Chapter 22 (part 2)
"Ask that to yourself, Bethylia. What did you do wrong?" He fired back. I pressed my lips tightly together and lowered my head. Now, even him doesn't believe me. "What's running on that mind of yours?" Gusto kong malaman, para kahit papaano ay magkaroon ako ng ideya kung papaano mapapatunayan ang sarili kahit na hindi naman dapat. "How I love you unconsciously without knowing that flawed desires of yours." Tahimik akong napasinghap at kalaunang napangisi rin. Now everythings turning three sixty degrees. Ang mga paratang na dati'y nasa kanya ay napunta naman sa akin. Karma ba 'to? Para saan? Dahil pinagdudahan ko ang damdamin niya noon? Ganito ba talaga maglaro ang tadhana? Paikot-ikot lang sa isang bilog na walang katapusan? Patuloy na magbabatuhan ng mga walang patunay na kasalanan? Patuloy na iikot kahit na alam na wala na
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-06Flawed Desires Chapter 23
#FD23 || Bethylia MonteamorMy eyes are down while walking towards work. Ang iilang nakakasalubong na tao'y hindi ko kayang patunguhan ngayon katulad ng palagi kong ginagawa noon.Smiling is the best weapon to your enemy, that's what they always say. But that's too tiring, niloloko na nga ng ibang tao ang sarili nila sa kakahusga sa ibang taong hindi naman nila kilala, lolokohin ko pa ang sarili ko sa pagpapanggap na walang naririnig at ayos lang sa lahat ng nangyayari."Mama, ano po 'yong gold digger?" I heard a child asked.Halos mapapikit ako sa narinig. Even a child is now asking about that thing."Bakit naririnig kong palagi niyo siyang tinatawag na ganon, Mama?
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-07Flawed Desires Chapter 24
#FD24 || Bethylia MonteamorAfter I woke up that day, his familiar scent leaked in the enclosed room. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba iyon sa naiwan niyang mga bakas o sa panaginip kong hindi ko sigurado kung totoong gawa lang ng utak.I didn't bother going to work that day. Dalawang araw akong nagkulong sa sanang bahay namin at pinag-iisipan ang mga susunod na gagawin.Ano ba dapat ang ginagawa ko sa mga pagkakataong ganito? Is my silence enough? Is being mute is the right way?Hindi ko na alam kung paano pa ang gagawin para bumalik sa dati ang lahat.I was only holding onto one person. Siya lang ang kaya kong kapitan pero pati siya ay tinalikuran ako.
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-09Flawed Desires Chapter 25 (part 1)
#FD25 || Bethylia MonteamorI cried, that's the only thing I could do at this time. Nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa para sa sarili. Maybe this is what my fate's plan.Siguro kulang pa ang lahat ng hirap na naranasan ko noon. Siguro ito ang kapalit ng sandaling kasiyahang ibinigay sa akin ng tadhana noon."Hayop ka, wala kang kwentang tao!" That's what I am repeatedly uttering while he's savouring my body like he's not doing something wrong.If this is my fate, might as well leave this world too. Mukhang may galit naman sa akin ang tadhana dahil puro pagpapahirap lang ang ibinibigay sa akin.I slowly opened my eyes who's filled with tears when I felt something covering my body.Nawala ang bigat ng katawang nasa ibabaw ko at tanging liwanag na ngayo'y nagmumula na sa ilaw ng silid ang nakikita ko.I heard some groans but I can't cocked my head
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-10Flawed Desires Chapter 25 (part 2)
"Are you fucking nuts, Bethyl? Paanong hindi gagawing big deal ang ganoong bagay?"My shoulders fell after hearing his words."Sa palagay mo, Mark. Sino ang magmumukhang masama kung ilalabas ko ang pangyayaring iyon? Sinong magiging katatawanan? Sinong mas nakakahiya?"I've thought of that after he said those things. Alam kong mas makapangyarihan sila kaysa sa akin kaya kung sakaling lalaban ay ako lang ang mapapahiya.Knowing how peoples mind works here, siguradong lahat ay mababaligtad at sa akin mapupunta ang lahat ng sisi."You're really so stupid, Monteamor. Akala ko matapang kang babae."Now, I am being called stupid because of being powerless.This is how life works, kung mahirap ka, tiyak na ang kalalabasan ng isang bagay kahit hindi ka pa nagsisimulang lumaban.And in order to fight people like them, I need t
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-11Flawed Desires Chapter 26 (part 1)
#FD26 || Bethylia MonteamorMy whole body is aching, but even with all the pain I am feeling, emotionally, physically and mentally, I still choose to stand from the ground and chase him before he can even left my eyes.Panay ang ngiwi ko habang mabilis ang mga hakbang na hinahabol ang papalayong bulto na ngayon ni Aaren.I bit my lower lip and winced in pain as I run towards him and wrapped my arms around his waist from his back."Don't leave..." I pleaded while sobbing on his back. "I'm in pain, you don't want to see me like this right? Don't leave."Mas hinigpitan ko ang pagkakayakap sa kanya nang maramdaman ko ang kanyang pagprotesta.My knees are wobbling in weakness, heart is shattering uncontrollably while eyes are sobbing like there's no tomorrow ahead of us."Aaren, don't leave."Marahan akong napabuga ng hang
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-12Flawed Desires Chapter 26 (part 2)
I stared at the mauve sky and sighed.I don't want him to leave, ayos lang kung walang dumating na iba sa buhay ko basta babalik siya.Lahat ng sinabi ko kanina sa kanya ay parang biglang naglaho dahil walang pagdadalawang-isip ko iyong kinain at nilunok."Let's go inside, para kang pulubing nanghihingi ng makakain diyan.""Hindi pagkain ang hinihingi ko, paniniwala niya sa akin ang nililimos ko." I unconsciously uttered.A deep and hearty laugh escape from his mouth as he held my chin to met my gaze."Limusin mo iyon kapag maayos ka na." He seriously muttered. "Solid ka rin manakit, Bethyl. Harapan talaga.""What about Arya then?" I asked after contemplating what he just said.He shrugged and sat in the ground to prop his hand at his back to support his weight. Inayos ko rin ang pagkakaupo at piniling hayaan ang natu
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-13Flawed Desires Chapter 27
#FD27 || Bethylia MonteamorI gracefully walk towards my grinning friends and rolled my eyes. Ang iilang tao sa paligid ay halos mawalan na ng pakialam dahil lahat ay nasa iisang tao lang ang atensiyon."Kamusta na ang tanga?" Blanche teased as I sat infront of them."Kamusta ang magulo ang buhay?"Ibinaling ko ang ulo kay Samm na nagsasalita ngayon sa unahan. It's her birthday and just like me, her heart is also broken.Ganoon talaga siguro kapag magkakaibigan, sabay-sabay nagiging tanga."Sinabi ko na kasi sa iyo, nandiyan naman si Mark. Handang maghintay kahit maubos." She chuckled.
Huling Na-update : 2021-12-14
Pinakabagong kabanata
Flawed Desires Special Chapter
#Special Chapter || Bethylia MonteamorNangunot ang noo ko nang marinig ang makina ng kotse sa labas ng bahay, tanda na nakauwi na ang kanina pang hinintay na asawa.I rolled my eyes at the back of my head and crossed my arms on my chest while waiting for my husband to enter the house.Mag-aalas tres na ng madaling araw at ngayon lang siya uuwi. I am not stopping him from hanging out with his friends since ngayon lang naman siya natutong makipag-kaibigan, pero 'yong hindi niya pagpapaalam o kahit pagsabi man lang na male-late siya ng uwi ay nakakainit ng ulo.I was waiting here in the living room for almost 7 hours since ang madalas na uwi niya ay alas-otso.I raised a brow when I heard the door creeking open. Agad na bumukas ang ilaw at bumungad ako sa harapan niya.Agad na napuno ng takot ang mukha niya. A hem arise from my mouth as I tap my lap, showing ho
Flawed Desires Epilogue (last part)
Kung natuto akong tumingin sa mas positibong daan, sana ay hindi ako napadpad sa katangahang kinasasadlakan ko ngayon.I am not going home. Nanatili ako sa tahanan ng ama habang si Bethylia ay naroon sa naging tahanan namin ng halos dalawang taon.Nakakatawang nakaya kong itapon ang lahat ng iyon ng dahil sa mga pagdududang nabuo ng dahil sa mga salita ng taong wala naman naiambag sa buhay namin kung hindi gulo."What did I tell you? I am the one who's right, right?" My father mocked as rumors about Mark and Bethylia spread in the whole province.Hindi na ako nagulat doon. Inaasahan ko na iyon dahil hindi lingid sa kaalaman kong mayroong pagtingin sa kanya ang sariling kaibigan. I am a guy after all. I know how a guy look at a girl he
Flawed Desires Epilogue (part 2)
Days had passed just like that. Me going to school and going home after wstching her work and walking her home even when she doesn't even have the slightest idea of it.I was close to graduating, but knowing that she's just entering college next year made me enroll myself again to se her everyday.Nanginginig at nanlalambot ang mga tuhod ko habang nakatayo ngayon sa harapan ng babaeng ilang taon ko nang pinagmamasdan mula sa malayo.She repeatedly blink her eyes as her jaw dropped at my sudden presence infront of her."Ah.. Pedro."My heart almost melted at that, hearing my name with her voice made me feel like at a time, I am the girl and he's the guy.
Flawed Desires Epilogue (part 1)
#FDEpilogue || Aaren 'Pedro' Winslow "Hey, don't run like that, Hurley! Baka madapa ka! Aaren, stop running with your son!" I playfully chuckled after hearing my wife shouting at us for being stubborn. I crinkled my nose while making my son run after me towards her mother. Nang makarating sa harapan ni Bethylia ay kaagad kong ipinulupot ang mga braso sa kanyang ngayon ay may umbok nang tiyan. She's carrying our four month old child again, hopefully, a girl. Since I already have a son, I want a daughter next. Pero kung lalaki pa rin ay ayos lang rin. As long as he or she is healthy, I have no problem with that. Her hands landed on my chest as she smack me. Natata
Flawed Desires Chapter 35
#FD35 || Bethylia MonteamorI was pacing back and forth while Aaren is just infront of me, chuckling everytime he'll lift his gaze to meet my eyes.I am nervous. Walang alam ang pamilya ko na ikinasal ako, at sa loob ng isang taon kong pagkakatali kay Aaren ay hindi ko iyon ipinaalam o kahit nabanggit man lang ng kahit isang beses, kahit sa mga kaibigan. The only one who had knowledge about it is Mark, of course, he's our witness.I just don't want to answer things, specifically those times that I am still grasping everything that happened, those time that I am still healing."Calm down, Bethylia. Wala namang mangyayaring masama. We'll just say it, no sweat."Awtomat
Flawed Desires Chapter 34
#FD34 || Bethylia Monteamor "Mabuti at naisipan niyo pa.." Mark sarcastically hissed as he frowned at me. I chuckled. "You seemed bitter.." "I am not, masyadong mataas ang tingin mo sa sarili mo." "You're the first one to know again." "Kaunti nalang iisipin ko nang ako ang Tatay mo." Hindi ko napigilan ang paghalakhak sa narinig. Aaren's face crumbled as he reach for my hand and rested it on my lap. "Palagi ka kasing nandito.." I sneered. "Why are you always here anyway? Where's your woman?" Aaren joined i
Flawed Desires Chapter 33 (part 2)
Nanlaki ang mata ko sa narinig. Marahas kong ibinaling sa kanya ang tingin habang mariing nakatikom ang mga labi. He nervously scratched the back of his head while avoiding my eyes. Funny how the things change after all the events happened in our lives. I was always the scared one back then, the one who's always apologising, the one who's always listening, obliging, and understanding but I can see the opposite things right now. "I am sorry. That's not what I mean.. I mean.. I'll just shut my fucking mouth." I can't help but burst out in laughter as I look at his pale face. Inilapat ko pa ang kamay sa tiyan habang inaabot ang kamay niyang ngayon ay nasa likod ng ulo habang halatang pinagsisisihan ang ginawang kahit saan tingnan ay hindi naman mali. He's so funny. He just made my day more. "Why are you suddenly like that? I can't believe this." I la
Flawed Desires Chapter 33 (part 1)
#FD33 || Bethylia Monteamor"Long time no see, my wife."I stared at him with longing in my eyes. I've been wanting to see him since he left Manila, but due to our circumstances, I stopped myself from doing anything to satisfy my heart.Heal first before loving fully again.I swallowed a hard lump on my throat and look at him with my inquisitive eyes. "Why are you here?"Marahan niyang inabot ang kamay kong namamahinga sa kandungan at pinisil iyon na parang sinasabi ang sagot sa tanong kong hindi ko naman makuha."I wanted to see my wife. Hinayaan na kita ng isang taon, hindi na ako papayag na madagdagan pa iyon, Bethylia. I've heal, I know you did too. Let's not be away from each other from now on."I can't help but gasped as he pulled me towards him and wrapped me around his arms. Marahan akong napabuga ng hangin at hinayaan siya sa gin
Flawed Desires Chapter 32 (part 2)
Days had passed like that. Ni hindi ko na napansin ang paglipas ng mga araw. And as expected, Aaren didn't suddenly showed up here even once. Lumipas ang dalawang buwang hinihingi ko pero hindi pa rin ako muling nagpaparamdam o kahit tuparin ang ipinangako bago siya umalis ay hindi ko ginawa. I am not ditching him, I am just still at the procees of healing and improving and I know he's also still in those process. Ayokong sa tuwing may hindi magandang mangyayari sa pagitan namin kung sakaling bumalik sa piling ng isa't-isa ay mas pipiliin niyang lumayo at isarado ang tainga. I don't want him getting aggressive and being able to hurt me in a flashed of second. He needs to change his way of absorbing things first. Not through hurting, not through avoiding but through having a good and calm talk. I stared at my hands resting on my table. I stared at it lovingly with a small smile on my face. I r
