Chapter 8: Why you keep running to him?

CHAPTER EIGHT 

MIRA

My heart throbbed as I hurried into my room. I could not believe what had just happened. I almost kissed Lesley. After everything he did to me, I still let him get that close to me. I was a coward. The first thing I noticed as I rushed into my room was my daughter sleeping peacefully at a side of the huge bed that was prepared for us. 

I gasped when I noticed another masculine shadow in my room. I was about to scream when he grabbed me and covered my mouth. Thoughts ran through my head. I almost thought it was a serial killer, and I wondered how he got into my room. My eyes slowly drifted back to my daughter, and my heart skipped as I thought of something silly. 

"Was she even sleeping?" I questioned my heart. 

As though everything was happening so fast, I felt my back touch the wall. The hands were slowly slipping away from my lips, and I was going to scream once I got the opportunity to. 

"You're going to wake her up." 

I heard the familiar voice, and his hands finally dropped from my lips. I felt cold shivers running through my body for a second as I turned around to confirm the voice I had just heard. I inhaled sharply when it was confirmed, and I felt my whole body fall back into place. It felt like something was lifted off my heart, and water was poured all over my system from my head down to my toe. 

"Why are you sneaking up on me now?" I demanded harshly. 

I knew Jeremy had realised that I had panicked when he held me. He would have felt it from my heartbeat and all. I didn't want anyone to know that I still got jumpy sometimes. I wanted them to see me as the almighty. I wanted them to know me as that woman with no fears. 

I shook my head and inhaled sharply. I would still set the standard. I would make sure that I proved to him that today was just a big mistake that would never repeat. 

"I saw you," Jeremy spoke, and he sounded so much like he was accusing me and not just speaking. 

"What do you mean by, you saw me?" I asked with a furrowed brow. 

My frown even deepened. 

I didn't want Jeremy to think that I was his friend and that he could come to me whenever it pleased him, and just joke around. I wasn't ready to give him that liberty. 

"Why do you want to pretend like you do not know what I'm talking about...?" 

"Come out with it," I snapped at him before realising that I actually cut in and he was going to continue. 

He sucked his lips and sighed. 

"Are you and Lesley back together?" 

Jeremy's words repeated severally in my head, and I folded my fist in an attempt to stop myself from hitting him. Why would he ask such a ridiculous question and expect me to have answers to them. 

"Why do you think I would want to have anything to do with you or any of your brothers after all you did to me?" 

Jeremy scoffed. 

"We did to you?" He asked me. 

Jeremy stared down at me as though he wanted me to recall. Like he wanted me to remember what he sacrificed that night for me and give him a sincere answer to the question he had just asked. I felt guilty for a second, but I didn't want to show it. 

I folded my arms around my breast region and rolled my head in circles. I swallowed the words that I was supposed to say. 

Jeremy exhaled deeply. 

He didn't say anything for the next six seconds. I didn't speak either. I waited patiently for Jeremy to start another argument. Even though I didn't want to entertain the brothers, I just found myself helplessly doing so. 

"You almost kissed him."

Jeremy's last words came out as a whisper, and it died down slowly, causing another few seconds of silence. I unfolded my arms and slowly looked up at Jeremy's face. There was hurt in his eyes as he tried not to look at me. 

I turned to the bed to have another glance at my daughter, who was still lying in bed and sleeping peacefully. 

I cleared my throat before speaking. 

"He was about to kiss me, and I pushed him away," I argued. "Didn't you see that part?" 

Jeremy rolled his eyes and shook his head. 

"You only pushed him away after he had already gotten so close, Emma. I saw everything. I don't even know if what you did was actually pushing him away or romancing his chest." 

"So what do you want me to do now?" I demanded. 

I was obviously pissed. I didn't like Jeremy's accusations and insinuations. 

"Are you still in love with Lesley?"

"Don't you dare!" I warned as I pointed to his face. 

He stepped closer to me and leaned towards me. 

"Unless what?" Jeremy dared me. "Unless what, Mira? What would you do?" 

I felt a lump growing in my throat already. Jeremy wasn't helping matters at all. I was trying so hard to act professional with both brothers until I achieved my aim, but he wouldn't let me do that peacefully. 

"Leave my room this minute!" I ordered. 

Jeremy grabbed both my hands and pinned me against the wall. My boobs pressed hard against the wall, while Jeremy leaned against me from behind. Both my hands were also locked behind me. 

"I asked you for something that means so much to me, Mira. You ignored me and refused to give me an answer until this moment. Why do you go back to those who hurt you and ignore those who really love you?" 

I gathered my energy while Jeremy spoke, and the moment he was distracted, I quickly turned around. I was now facing Jeremy with a very tin line between us. He placed both hands on the wall beside my head. 

"Tell me what he has that keeps you running back to him."

Men were sp dramatic and emotional. Jeremy was acting like a three year old whole sweets were taken away from him. He looked really cute as he spoke, and I fixed my eyes on his red lips. They were tempting and inviting, but I knew better than kissing Jeremy at this point. 

I was lost in my own thoughts, that I didn't realise that Jeremy had grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to himself. He began to stick his tongue deep into my throat, and I swallowed without pushing him away. Jeremy and I began to suck and bite each other's lips. My hands moved freely around his back and his broad chest while he squeezed my boobs.  I could already feel itchy and wet down there. I didn't want to think about what was going to happen next. I suddenly realised that I shouldn't be doing this. I wondered how I even got here with him. 

I placed both hands on Jeremy's chest and pushed him away from me.