Chapter 17:

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN 

JEREMY

The entirety of the next day uneventful as I stayed back in my room all day.

Although I didn’t have engage in much physical activities, I still could not stop the wandering that went on in my mind. If was difficult for me to get my mind off the event that conspired between Mira and I last night. I didn’t know if I had planned or wanted it, but at this point, I knew that I wanted to do it over and over again with her, I wanted her over and over again.

I equally didn’t know if this feeling was right or wrong, considering the past we shared, especially the past she shared with Lesley. But that did not stop me from desiring her.

I stood up from the bed I was lying on and went over to stand by the window. 

The sun was already starting to rise, giving a hint at dawn. I had no idea why, but the beautiful burst of orange colour that filled the sky that morning somehow did much to remind me of Mira.

Beautiful, soft, delicate, sweet and mesmerising, but yet, resilient. My mind drifted back to the story she had told me, about how she had suffered alone to raise her daughter. I was beginning to imagine what it just have felt like for her and I could not help but wish that I had been there to offer her all the comfort she deserved.

My mind drifted back to our encounter last night and I felt a throbbing in my pelvis. That was what it felt like to desire a woman, especially when it was forbidden.

As I thought more and more about her, I remembered how she had ran away after the whole encounter last night. I didn’t get the chance to look into her eyes then, because she was would not let me, I wanted to look and see what tf looked like there. But from the way she use gathered her things and ran away, I was sure that regret must have dwelled there, disgust, maybe.

She regretted what happened between us ans wished it didn’t happen. That only meant that she didn’t feel the same way I felt. I was the only one head over heels.

For some reasons which I knew of, I felt a tight clench in my heart at the thought of that. How would I be able to make her fall for me and accept me?

A soft knock on my door cut into my thought and brought me back to reality, causing a constriction in my stomach.

I groaned and walked over to the door, dragging my feet along with me and not bothering to put on my T-shirt.

So, I was bare chested as I approached the door, half expecting Mira.

Maybe, she would be standing there, apologising to me for running off the way she did, she would tell me she was nervous and that was why she ran off, then she would tell me how much she loved me also and I would pull her into my arms.

My daydream did not last long because reality hug me alongside the cold air as soon as I pushed the door open.

A maid was standing in front of my door with her head bowed.

This was another sign in life that we didn’t alway get what we wanted.

I urged the maid to speak, not bothering to go back inside to throw a shirt on. She could enjoy the view for all I cared.

“I came to invited you down for breakfast.” The maid told me. And that was when I realised it was time for breakfast.

I gulped down hard and shifted from on foot to the other.

“I will be right there.” I said in a hoarse voice, unable to think of any other thing but Mira.

The maid bowed her head and walked away just as she had come and I was left alone once again in my world of darkness, I was left to sink back in as if that was where I belonged.

I walked back to the bed and sank back into it, unable to get Mira off my mind.

I could not get over how she had held me during the act, she had held me like she wanted to hold on to me forever and like she was scared of letting go. I could almost still hear her moans of ecstasy as I drove into her, it was a clear indication that I was don a good job.

I could not get over how soft she felt and how warm it had felt inside her, in fact, the mere thought of it made me hard once again.

It was at this moment that I realise that I had fallen deeply for this woman and that there was not going back. But did she feel the same?

I knew things were going to feel awkward for us now after that night.

I drifted to sleep with the thought in my mind, only to wake up a few hours later.

Actually, I had slept more than I had bargained or could even account for.

I hurried out of the bed. I didn’t need to look at the clock to guess how long I had slept because merely looking at the window and noting the absence of the sun, it was easy to tell that it was night already.

Mira crossed my mind again as I rubbed my eyes and reached it out for a T-shirt.

I needed a glass of water, so I made for the kitchen to get myself one.

The house was quiet, the sitting room was empty, too. Well, typical of how a house should look like at night.

I walked straight to the kitchen, not bothering to turn the lights on since I could properly navigate my way around the house in the dark. I had lived here long enough for that.

The kitchen was equally dark and quiet, and that was why I didn’t  expect the gasp that floated into my ears as soon as I turned on the light, neither did I expect the wide eyed woman currently staring at me.

I immediately felt a jolt in my organs at the sight of Mira standing in the kitchen. I had not expected to meet her here.

I cleared my throat, shaking my head as if to clear all the negative thoughts that insisted on staying there.

“What are you doing here?” I asked, nervously. 

She equally cleared her throat and took a step back to rest on the kitchen counter.

I gulped down hard as I gave her a once over.

I swallowed hard as if to push back the thoughts that were starting to rise in my mind.

I wanted to take another step closer, and another, and another till I had pinned her on the kitchen counter. I would put my hands on either side of her so that she would be trapped between myself and the counter. She would look up at me and breath nervously while I planted my lips on hers.

Jeremy! I heard my inner self scream at me and shook my head once more.

“I was actually about to go back to the room.” She said nervously.

She had began to walk away, but I pulled her back slightly by holding her hand.

She had on what I assumed to be her pajamas—a pair of shorts and a loose top which was made of thin fabric.

It didn’t help that her nipples were erect and were peeking out of the thin fabric. I almost began to imagine what I would like to do to her in tgat pajamas. I wouldn’t take it off completely, I would simply shift it to a corner so that I could have access to the softness of her.

Jeremy!

“Uhmm…” I cleared my throat. “I… about last night, I am really sorry, I didn’t know what came over me and I hope that…”

“It’s fine.” She said firmly. “I mean… I am fine. You don’t have to apologise, none of us was drunk, so… I am okay.”

With that, she did not give me the chance to say any other thing before she walked away, taking with her, her warmth and leaving me empty.

I took a step backwards and rested on the kitchen counter.

She walked away from me again.

I was certain that she was upset, she was just pretending that she wasn’t.

Abandoning the cup of water I had come for, I dragged ny feet sluggishly out of the kitchen.