LEILA MILLER
I have never been much of a drinker before, always keeping it moderate no matter where I am and no matter what situation I found myself in. Back at my old pack, I do not drink no matter what. When I came here, I started because I accompany Matt to all sorts of events, but even then I always try to keep it down because I know how he is, he always ends up wasted. So I took it upon me to drink less so I can take us home safely and so I can make sure he does not not end up doing something which I know he would regret the next day. So, I did grow my alcohol tolerance level only slightly. However, in that, I found myself downing three shots straight, I knew I was in for a long, and quite possibly, wild night. Gracie did not say a thing about it, she simply allowed me as she took hers as well. The. After a while, when I had come to a stop, her own voice came as well. “Alright,” Gracie said, lenaing back against the bar and giving me her full, undivided attention. “Spill, baby girl. What is going on with you and Matt? What did he do to bring you down like this other than his usual asshole character? Or is there someone else that bullied you?” I bit my lip, unsure of where to start without making myself look like the fool I am. The , I swallowed down a lump and released a breath. I shook my head in response to her first question. “No. It is just Matt,” though I am not quite sure I can leave it as just him. But still, I finally broke the news to her, my voice barely audible over the loud music as my eyes gleamed with tears again. Almost immediately, a scoff came from her as she clicked her tongue, “Damn right it is always that asshole” she hissed, then lifted a hand as if to make a point. “He is the one problem in your life I tell you.” She hissed once again, her eyes narrowing at the mere mention of him, “what did he do this time around? Just how badly did he screw up?” I held her gaze, fearing for a split second what she would think of me if I tell her what truly happened. But this is Gracie, the exact reason I chose to confide in her is because I know she would not judge me no matter what, and hence I decided to just rip off the band aid. “I overheard him talking on the phone last night.” “And?” She asked encouragingly. I swallowed down another lump, my eyes stinging with unshed tears. “And he has been lying to me all these years, Gracie,” I whispered, hating how fragile my voice sounded but unable to help it. “He was just using me. All this while he kept making me donate my blood but it was all for her.” “Her?” She repeated with drawn in brows and a deep frown. “Who the hell is her?” “Faye.” I said, the name leaving a bitter taste in my mouth. “That woman he is working with, his coworker. He has been giving my blood to her, Gracie. For two years! She is sick, and apparently, my blood is the only thing that can save her, or I guess I am the only one dumb enough for them to take blood from.” “Wait, wait, wait! Hold up!” She sat up, her spine straightening. “So you mean to tell me that he has been giving your blood away all this while? To that bitch Faye?!” She always said there was something odd about me giving blood as she has never heard of it before done to any rogue, but since Matt is the Beta, she did not want to challenge his words. Perhaps, he knew what she does not. Not yo mention, I am sure she knew I would have defended him anyways, so she never said a thing. She then showed, her eyes swirling with anger as she gritted her teeth, “And Faye that bitch. I never liked her at work. The two are always together I knew there has to be something ongoing. I just never knew it was something like this. That he is cheating on you with that fake bimbo.” Gracie’s words would have been comforting if I was not in the midst of hating myself as a whole. “He has been lying to me all this while Gracie,” I whispered my voice sounding hoarse to my own ears. “He has taken me as nothing but a fool, and a tool as well. A means for him to get blood for her and nothing else. He said it himself.” “That fucking piece of shit,” she cursed under her breath. “He does not even deserve to breathe the same air as you.” I shrugged, “I do not know what to do now,” I said earnestly. “I just wasted two years of my life on him.” “No no no you did not,” she shook her head, her hands reaching out to rest on my shoulders as she forced me to look at her and meet her gaze. “You learned from your mistake and grew Leila. You did not waste your time. Do not ever think that way. And you deserve better than him anyway.” “I feel trapped here.” “Then we will find a way to get you out.” She said, sounding certain. “But for now.” She reached out and placed another filled shot in front of me. “We drink our problems away.”LEILA MILLER.I stumbled in the direction of the restroom, my head a mess as the alcohol runs through my veins, the adrenalin rushing along with it making teh entire place feel dizzy to me. The pounding music of the nightclub vibrated not just through out the club, but through my body entirely, making it hard for me to focus on anything other than the dizziness swirling in my head and the world that feels as though it is spinning too as well.I do not know how i found myself here really for the night seemed to have taken a sick, or a rather sharp turn quick enough. One minute i was trying to drown out the thoughts of Matt, his lies, excuses and how he strung me along all this while not to mention his disappearing act. He is not out there working for his uncle, or for the pack, or trying to expand the business. I am sure he is with her, he must have been with her the entire day and the thought alone had me downing more alcohol than i would have usually done. Is he screwing at this very
LEILA MILLER"I do not care," I whispered, my voice barely audible in the presence of all the loud music. Suddenlyl i was not so sure if the words were meant for his ears, or if it were meant for me but i really could not. The only thing going through my mind being, 'Screw it!'.Swallowing thickly, I do not know what got through my mind as I reached upwards and pressed my lips against his. He reacted almost immediately, pushing me away.“What are you doing?” His voice lowered, a certain warning in his tone but i could not tell if it was to keep me away, or just a warning of that sort.Still, i could not care less really. “Do not ruin the moment,” I pressed a finger against his lips, feeling my own lips curl upwards into a stupid grin. Why am I acting like this? I don’t even know. “Just enjoy it, please” I whispered, then leaned upwards to kiss him again, but he stopped me even before I could.“You do not know what you are doing,” He said, almost in a wanring tone once again, but there
LEILA MILLER. The moonlight trickled through the slightly parted open curtains, casting pale shadows across the room thanks to the moon light outside and the moon up above high, shinning brightly. I lay beside Matt, my body still warm from our time together, but my mind buzzed with restless thoughts. I should have felt content, wrapped in the embrace of the man i had loved for the last two years of my life. But, contrary to that, the same familiar ache stirred within me, one I could not shake no matter how hard I tried. I turned my head, watching Matt as he lay next to me, his breathing even and slow, already drifting into sleep. His arm was still draped over me, possessive even in slumber. I closed my eyes, trying to focus on the steady rhythm of his breathing, hoping it might calm the storm in my chest. That is what I usually try to do, for I heard it calms the mind. But tonight, like every other night lately, it did not work. Two years together, and still no real commitment. We
LEILA MILLER That is the reason why I never bothered to tell Matt about my real identity. It did not matter, or so I thought. I thought it would not matter no matter what I was asked to do, no matter how much blood I had to give in because of my Alpha lineage. I am the daughter of an Aloha, my body and wolf are strong enough to be able to handle no matter how many blood I am asked to give. But that turns out to be wrong, and not what I had assumed previously. Apparently, my body is not as strong as I had thought it is before.Back then it was all about convincing the lack, for them to be able to accept my rogue status. But lately, it was all about his Uncle all of the sudden. Though, admittedly it was not always about his uncle. He had mentioned him before, and I tried to understand it but recently, he spoke more of him. More of his Uncle Sebastian as though he was some reachable person that was so out of reach.Alpha Sebastian from what I know is his mother’s brother, and he owned
LEILA MILLER She is not wrong, deep down, I have always felt that there was something wrong. I know and can feel it. However, I just chose into ignore it, brushing it off as me being paranoid but now, it was proving hard to deal with.The sudden sound of Matt’s phone buzzing by the side ended the conversation between my wolf and I, just as he groaned and I turned my head around, trying to focus my attention on him just as he reached out for the device“What is wrong?” I asked, my voice low despite knowing in my mind what his response would be. It was always about work, always, and something tells me at this moment that it would be about work as well.His lips tugged into a deep frown, a crease forming between his brows. “I have to take this,” he said, “there is an urgent meeting that I need to join.”My eyes glanced at the digital clock by the side of the bed, noting the time being 1:20AM. Where does he want to go at this time? A meeting this late?I watched as he quickly hit out of
LEILA MILLERAll I know is that my heart was in pain, immense pain that I have no recollection of how I went back to my room, or how I managed to make it through the night. By the time morning came, the sun filtered through the slightly opened curtains, peeping in and casting a warm, soft golden lights across the room, a huge contrast to what my heart was feeling and the chaos ongoing in my mind. The bed spot beside me, where Matt is supposed to be, lay empty due to his absence, and I felt none of the warmth I usually feel waking up in his arms.He did not return back to the room early last night, and even when he did and sleep took over him, I could not find the peace to sleep even the tiniest wink. I just could not afford it in the slightest, my heart could not bare it. His words from earlier this morning, when he left lingered in my mind, reminding me of the excuse he used this time around.Apparently, his oh so great uncle, Sebastian Salvatore would be in town soon to expand his b
LEILA MILLERTo think all this time I have been giving him my blood, thinking he was doing it for my sake when all this while, I am nothing more than a fool in his eyes, in her eyes as well. How long has he been with her? Is she the reason he got with me in the first place? Am I the second woman here, or is she?I felt suffocated the more I think about it, and I thought to my self that I need an escape, desperately so. I needed to get out of here as soon as I can, I needed to talk to someone at the very least so I can at least get some of the weights lifted off my shoulders.Without much thought, I reached my hand out and picked up my phone, dialing the one person I know I can count on at this moment, as always. Gracie, my best friend and the only person that gets me in this pack, the only person genuinely nice to me.She picked up after the second ring, her cheerful voice instantly flooding from the other side, and I could feel some of the storm in me began to settle, calming me almo
LEILA MILLERBy the time 6 rolled and just as Gracie and I had agreed prior, I was already dressed and ready for the night and time at the club, to let loose. I had specifically picked out and put on a halter neck slinky black dress that hugged my body and all my curves, making me feel more like the woman I used to be before I met Matt.Confident, bold, and so incredibly hot and nothing like the woman I have become since falling into his web of lies that has degraded me into someone I am not. The reflection of the woman that stared back at me through the mirror looked like a stranger to me, it felt so foreign because it ahs been long since I last saw myself in this light.Matt seemed to prefer a more timid woman, so I had taught myself how to become exactly that so I can please him. So I could be the perfect little mate of his, so that I would be enough for me. I should have known that with men, you can never really be enough.The sound of the car honking came, signifying that Gracie