LEILA MILLER
The moonlight trickled through the slightly parted curtains, casting pale shadows across the room. I lay beside Matt, my body still warm from our time together, but my mind buzzed with restless thoughts.
I should have felt content, wrapped in the embrace of the man I’d loved for two years. Yet, a familiar ache stirred within me, one I couldn’t shake no matter how hard I tried.
I turned my head, watching Matt as he lay beside me, his breathing even and slow, already drifting into sleep. His arm was draped over me, possessive even in slumber. I closed my eyes, trying to focus on the steady rhythm of his breathing, hoping it might calm the storm in my chest. That was what I usually did, for I’d heard it could calm the mind. But tonight, like every other night lately, it didn’t work.
Two years together, and still no real commitment. We were still not married, despite all his promises, despite the hope I’d clung to for so long.
Matt had told me from the beginning that it would take time. He needed to prove to the pack that I was worthy of him, that I wasn’t just a rogue who had wandered in from nowhere. He said they needed to accept me before we could make our union official. I’d believed him back then, eager to win over the New Moon Pack. But now, after two years, those promises were starting to wear thin.
I pressed a hand to my stomach, feeling the emptiness there. We’d been together long enough to start a family. I wanted that so badly. It had always been my dream—maybe because I’d lost my mother at a young age; the idea of motherhood had meant the world to me. But every time I brought up the idea of children, Matt dismissed it.
“Not yet,” he would always say. “Now is not the right time. We can’t have kids until we’re married to ensure their name, and you know the pack still hasn’t fully accepted you. I just need more time to make them see.”
How much more time was he going to need? How much longer would I need to keep proving myself? Just earlier, we’d argued about one of the things I had to do to gain their approval.
“Why haven’t you gone in for your blood draw these last two months?” he had asked, his tone tight, more an accusation than a question.
Yes, the blood draw. Because of my rogue identity, the pack required me to submit to monthly blood tests. But in truth, I wasn’t rogue. I had Alpha blood, but I hid my lineage to avoid causing chaos within the pack.
I had turned to him, startled by the intensity in his voice. “I haven’t gone because—”
“How dare you!” he snapped, cutting me off before I could explain.
I flinched, taken aback by the force of his words. Still, I said, “I think it’s time to stop. My wolf... she’s weak, and I—”
Matt’s fists clenched at his sides, but then, just as quickly, his expression shifted. A practiced smile replaced the anger, and he placed a hand on my shoulder, his touch too light, too calculated. “I know,” he said, his tone dripping with false sweetness. “That’s why I’ve arranged for the chef to make you the best meals, to keep you healthy. All you need to do is go for your monthly checkups. You don’t have to worry about anything else.” That was how he had brushed it off.
But deep down, I knew I didn’t belong to this pack. I never had. I was the daughter of the Alpha of the Blood Moon Pack, destined for a different path.
I had given it all up and left my pack for Matt, for the man who had once saved me when I was in danger near my pack’s borders. Two months after I confessed my love, he proposed, and it had felt like a dream come true. I thought I’d finally found a place where I could be loved, where my Alpha blood wouldn’t matter.
I wanted him to love me for who I was, not because of the power that flowed through my veins.
That was why I never told Matt about my real identity. I thought it didn’t matter, that it wouldn’t, no matter what I was asked to do, no matter how much blood I had to give. I was the daughter of an Alpha; my body and my wolf should have been strong enough to handle however much blood they needed. But I had been wrong.
Back in the beginning, it had been all about convincing the pack to accept my rogue status. But lately, it was all about his uncle. Matt had mentioned him before, and I tried to understand, but recently, he spoke of him more and more, as though his Uncle Sebastian were a lofty figure suddenly within reach.Alpha Sebastian, from what I knew, was Matt’s mother’s brother, and he controlled territories larger than those of our New Moon Pack. I’d heard of him even back then; the stories painted him as ruthless and fearsome. At the time, I hadn’t given him much thought. But with Matt’s recent obsession, it was becoming too much.Matt kept mentioning how he wanted to prove himself to Sebastian—not just for himself, but for the Alpha of our pack as well. Alpha Sebastian’s power and territory grew alongside his company, and our—or rather, their—New Moon Pack wanted to form an alliance with him, hoping to climb higher up the ladder.Since Alpha Ferris, New Moon’s Alpha, couldn’t secure the deal
All I remembered was the intense pain in my heart as I stumbled back to my room, barely aware of how I made it through the night. When morning arrived, the sun filtered through the slightly open curtains, casting a warm golden light—a contrast to the chaos in my mind.The spot beside me on the bed, where Matt should have been, was cold and empty. I felt none of the warmth I’d once enjoyed waking up beside him.He hadn’t returned early last night, and even when he finally did, I couldn’t find peace, couldn’t sleep. His words from when he left echoed in my mind, his flimsy excuses taunting me.He had told me his great uncle, Sebastian Salvatore, would be in town soon to expand his business. In Matt’s world, that meant he needed to be on his best behavior to get on the man’s good side. He mentioned needing to ensure everything was perfect for the meeting.But after what I’d discovered, I knew it was a lie. He left to see her—Faye.Now that I thought about it, maybe he met her all those t
As Gracie and I had agreed, I was dressed and ready for a night out by 6 p.m., ready to let loose. I’d chosen a slinky black halter dress that hugged my body and accentuated my curves, reminding me of the confident, bold woman I used to be before I met Matt.The reflection staring back at me in the mirror looked like a stranger—a bold, beautiful woman I hadn’t seen in a long time. Matt had preferred a more subdued version of me, so I’d molded myself to fit that image. I’d become the perfect, timid mate, trying to be everything he wanted. I should have known I’d never be enough.A car honk sounded outside, signaling Gracie’s arrival. I grabbed my purse and phone, adjusted the straps on my heels, and headed for the front door. I didn’t bother leaving a message for Matt. He hadn’t been home all day, and frankly, I didn’t care whether he came back or not. All I cared about was getting out.I spotted Gracie’s car parked outside and made a beeline for it. She rolled down the window, waving
The pounding music of the nightclub vibrated through my body, yet I found hard to focus on anything but the dizziness swirling in my head.I didn’t know how I’d ended up here. Oh, right. I was trying to drown out thoughts of Matt—his lies, his excuses, his betrayals. Out working for his uncle or trying to expand his business? Pfft. I was sure he’d spent the day with her. The thought alone drove me to down more alcohol than I usually would. Was he screwing her right now? Probably.Determined to push him out of my mind, I followed Gracie onto the dance floor. We lost ourselves in the crowd, letting the beat carry us, the problems fading in the rhythm and the moment. I felt free, like my old self.After a while, I excused myself and made my way to the restroom, still feeling woozy from the drinks. On my way back to Gracie and the dancefloor, I crashed into a solid, muscular body and stumbled back a few steps. Thankfully, I caught myself before I fell. But damn, that was a hard wall of a
The air in the room is heavy with the scent of our bodies merged together, the tension between us so thick and suffocating it filled every space of the room. His hands wee every where, sliding over the bare skin of my thighs and pushing the hem of my dress as his lips became more intense, kissing me deeply, and his scent overwhelming me as a whole, stealing every bit of rational sense left in me.I was left with no thought but that of him in that very moment, his body on mine, his intoxicating sense that drowned me in him. His lips moving on mine were rough, insistent, and I let myself drown in it…in him too.I am not sure how we ended up in one of the rooms at the club, a vip room I supposed but my brain was too much of a mess and a haze for me to recall exactly how the events escalated. One minute we were kissing in the hallway, and the next, my back was hitting the bed as he hovered above me, his entire being taking me away to nirvana. Most of the alcohol was out of my system by t
The vibration of the device was relentless without a halt, pulling me back to reality as the pool of messages came.I blinked, trying to focus as the fog of lust lifted for just that split second. I turned my head around, glancing at the night stand where my phone lit up with a notification that came through, and my heart lurched as I saw the name that appeared on the screen.Matt. His messages poured in without a stop, as if he was typing all his emotions out in single strands of messages rather than just one message as a whole.Matt: Where are you?Matt: I just came back home early.Matt: Where did you go to?Matt: Why are you not at home?Matt: Why are you out this late, Leila.Matt: Reply me immediately you see my messages.Matt: I mean it, Leila.If I was not in my right senses up until a while ago, and I am not, the messages cleared the entire fog of lust on me. My stomach twisted in uncomfortable knots, and the surge of desire vanished as cold clarity dawned on me on what I was
LEILA MILLER The morning might filtered through the opened windows as I stepped into my house with Matt of two years. Except today, the usual enthusiasm and affection I had for this place I had poured my all into making it my home is no longer there, and in it's stead, the weight of everything from last night weighed me down as well as everything that has happened in the past few days as well. My head is throbbing, a full reminder of the mistake I had almost made last night. I had not gotten a wink of sleep last night entirely, simply tossing and turning in Gracie's Bed where I had seemed shelter the night before, not wanting to return to this place with my thoughts scattered all over like that. Despite Matt's message, I could not stand to look at him or seal with anything that has to do with him in any form last night really, especially not while still under the influence of alcohol. Now though, as I walked into the room, something within me has shifted, more like a fierce de
LEILA MILLER He move closer to me his presence shadowing over mine as he closed the distance between us. Before I could react and prepare myself for what he will throw my way, he took a hold of my arm in a bruising grip, and the shoved me hard against the wall nearest to us.A gasp escaped my lips as pain registered from where he gripped, and from the impact of my back being pressed against the wall. Panic flared within me, especially when I saw his eyes glow and it grew even more when I gent his other hand move to my dress, tugging the fabric roughly with care to my feelings it appears."What the hell are you doing, Matt?!" I claimed, the surge of panic within me growing as I struggled against him but he was stronger than I am, especially since my body is now greatly weakened.I could see the anger flaring in his eyes, it was clear as day." You really think you can say whatever it is you want to me and gt things done your way?" he hissed, his hand still fumbling with my dress, his m
LEILA MILLER."What the hell do you think you are doing?" I hissed as Matt closed the door behind us, before pushing me into the nearest wall. I snatched my hand from his hold, or at least attempted to do so but his grip was firm, refusing to let go.He held my gaze, his eyes flaring with anger as he stepped closer to me so he was crowding my inner space, his jaw clenched. "The hell, Leila?" He gritted back, his voice octaves lower, the anger in it evident. There was this sadistic, almost possesive but beyond look in his eyes, almost like an obsession. His gaze dropped as he gave me a onceover, and i have never felt as disgusted by his look as i did in that moment. His eyes found mine again, and then he said, "So this was your plan all along huh?"My eyes narrowed, my hands clenched into a fist despite being in his tight grip. "What plan?""Do not make a fool of me, Leila," He chuckled, though there was nothing amusing about it. The chuckle died as soon as it came, and the same crazed
LEILA MILLER.Sebastian held my gaze for a second longer, a whirlwind of emotions i could not quite point a finger at swirling in his orbs as he stared at me. Then, his hand reached out to take mine, his large hand taking a hold of mine and warmth instantly seeped in as our skin touch, and my heart fluttered for a split second. Except, it was not because of affection or anything of that sort. No, rather, it was the kind that comes with remembering what i had to go through because of this man, and the emotions that comes with remembering it.His hand held mine firmly, and gave it a firm shake. "Miss Reed," He acknowledged, his deep voice a baritone that resonated within me.I swallowed down a lump, and pulled my hand away before it could linger. Subconsciously, I found myself moving closer to Dylan, an act that certainly did not go unseen by the Sebastian who is standing in front of us, and i did not miss the way his brows drew in, a dark look taking over his features as Dylan's hand m
LEILA MILLER. Saturday soon enough came, with the week passing by in the blink of an eye and before I know it, the limousine Dylan and I drove to the event pulled up by the red carpet. Dylan turned his head to look at me, before his voice came. “You ready?” He asked, his voice soft and calm. I shrugged, my lips tugged into a small smile. “Ready as I will ever be.” He smiled back, just in time the door by his side was pulled open for him. Dylan fixed his suit jacket, and then he stepped out first before turning around, and extending his hand out for me. Smiling, I took his hand and allowed him to guide me out of the car, the insistent camera flashes threatening to blind me. It came from all angles, the paparazzi going about it like their life depended on it. To us, this is the Alpha Summit, a very important meeting of only those with high positions in our Kingdom while to them, it is just another event if influential billionaires from which they cannot wait to get a whiff of drama
LEILA MILLER."Good morning, Miss Reed.""Morning, Miss Red.""How is your morning going, Miss Reed?"My lips curled into a small smile directed towards those that offered their greetings, "Good Morning," i said, as I walked past them, my head held up as I made my way towards the CEO's office, There were others whose greeting came as I walked past them, and I offered them all nods in return accompanied with a small smile.Upon reaching the CEO's office, i pushed it open with one hand that held a folder, the other occupied by a coffee cup tray. Once in the confines of the office, I made my way further in as the doors closed behind automatically, and my eyes fell on the man seated behind the huge mahogany desk, with numerous files scattered in front of him, and a pen in his hand as he signed away on them. "Good morning Mr. Miller," I greeted in a song like tone as I made my way towards him.Dylan looked up, and the moment his gaze fell on me, he offered me a small smile. "The infamous
MATT WILDE.My fist hammered into the punching bag in my hold, repeatedly so, unrelentingly, and without any halt. My eyes were red and blinded by anger, fury even--the kind that cannot be tamed by anything in the slightest. My mind was a mess in that it was barely on the punching bag, but rather had drifted off to a place where I do not want it to but could not help thinking about."...Beta Matt... Beta Matt...Beta Matt!" The feel of numerous hands on my shoulders pulling me backwards with a force that threw me back snapped me back to reality, and only then did the fog clouding my thoughts cleared, and I found myself aware of my surroundings again.The voices in the background became clear, and the blurriness that covered my sight disappeared, and I watched as the new recruits all rushed towards my punching bag, which turns out to not be a punching ag but one of the new recuits I had spar with me for training. As I stare at his limp body on the floor as the others tried to tap him aw
LEILA MILLER.Dylan's assistant got me a change of outfit, and then escorted me to the changing room where I would change. As I got inside one of the stalls and got out of the dirtied outfit, I wiped my body off all the leftover stains caused by the coffee, my lips tugged down into a deep frown as I wondered just what type of employees are here in this company for every one to be acting like this.I did not let my annoyance get the best of me though as I focused on just getting my current task done so I could go about my work. And just as I was putting on the change of outfit, I heard the changing room door suddenly being pushed open, followed by hurried steps before the door was closed again. I ignored it, focusing on changing my outfit, not giving much thought to it. At least, until the voices belonging to those that came in reached my ears. "Why are you in a rush like this, even bringing me here like this?" One of them asked, though I could not tell exactly how many are there, bu
LEILA MILLER.I did not want Dylan to see me. No, I could not let him see me, not in this state, and not after how hard I tried and fought to get him to keep my identity a secret--there is no way in hell should I let him see me like this. It is a no go area.Thankfully, the rude lady was quick to get on her feet upon spotting him, in the process shielding me from him. So, I took that as my chance to slowly get up, and attempt to run away from the place without getting spotted by him. It seemed doable. All I have to do is hope she keep him entertained with whatever nonsense she wanted to spew, just long enough for me to get the hell out of here."Dylan," She called out, her voice an pitch higher, and I had to stop and stare at her back in disbelief. With how fast she changed tones and was sounding, I would have wondered if she is the same person that bullied me if I was not the one on the recieving end.I shuddered at how fake her voice sounded, but ignored it and turned around, taking
LEILA MILLER.I stayed at home and bonded with my parents and brother for a short while, simply getting used to the feeling of being at home, and being loved by my family once again. But after a short while, I deemed it the right tine to start working, and begin chasing the new life I wanted for myself. So, i brought up the work issue again, and Dylan and I came to an agreement that I would be announced as a new employee in the business department the next day--since it is what I majored in before in college.The very next day, early Monday morning I got up and got ready for work--quickly having the breakfast I had Vanessa make for me, before rushing out the house before either my parents nor Dylan could wake up and see me, lest they go all out and overboard because I know they would. Dylan did say we would go to work together, and Pa offered to have the drivers and some guards to accompany me but what is the point of trying to stay out of the radar if i go like that?So, I decided to
LEILA MILLER.He chuckled, "Good morning to you too, sunshine." When i flashed him a smile in return, he then said, elaborating on the existing protocol. "Now that are here, Ma and Pa have a few questions for you." He said, directing his gaze towards the two that stood there like deer caught in head lights."Questions for me?" I settled my gaze on them, my lips curled into a slight frown. "What is wrong?"Ma released a nervous chuckle. "Nothing, honey. We were just wondering whether you did not like the maids and stylists we sent to you earlier, seeing as you have dismissed them all."Pa took it from where she stopped. "If they are not to your liking, just let us know and we would get some much better for you."Dylan hummed, then said in a light, and accusing tone. "In simple words, they are afraid of upsetting their little Princess," He then slanted his gaze in my direction, his smile teasing. "Every one knows what happens when little Leila does not get things done her way." There wa