I look into his eyes and don't know what to say."It's very simple, Rachel," Sebastian says again. "Do you love me?"How can I not? He is gorgeous. A few inches over six feet, he towers over me, complete with bulging muscles and broad shoulders. He has a perfect smile, eyes so green they practically glow, and thick, blond hair.Everybody loves Sebastian. And every girl in our pack wants him. Of course they do. Not only is he gorgeous—but he is our Alpha. And he's not just any Alpha, but the strongest Alpha of all the packs we have ever encountered.I know all about strong Alphas. My Dad is one, and I grew up in a pack house that was respected, where my Dad's every word was obeyed. I was always raised to be a Luna. Our two packs decided to make an alliance. I was told by my Dad to move to this new pack. Only now I realize that they had a reason: they wanted me to make the alliance firm by marrying this new Alpha of this new pack. Sebastian.It's almost like I never had a choice.
Standing there, in the open door, scowling back at me, is Violet—the girl I hate most in the world. She's just a few months older than me, but she thinks she's so much older and thinks she's the boss of me. But she's only 18, after all. And I'll be 18 soon. I don't know who she thinks she is. Everywhere I turn she reminds me that I am in her territory. In her pack house.She's just jealous. The other girls told me that Violet was desperate to be Sebastian's Luna. But he apparently never was that into her. And then I came along, and now, she blames me.Which is so unfair—because I never even courted Sebastian. He courted me! And on top of it all, I'm not sure I even want to be his Luna.But Violet doesn't care. She just wishes I was dead."So," Violent says, her voice seething with hate and envy, "precious little Rachel is too good for our Alpha?"My face reddens."I never said that," I say."Don't lie," she says. "I heard you two. You wouldn't tell him you love him. What, you
My heart slams in my chest as I wonder what's going on. Is this guy going to kill me? Is he a human predator?Or even worse. Could he be…a Rogue wolf?I can feel how strong his hands are, how strong his muscles are wrapped around my body. I feel like he could lift me into the air without even trying, like I could disappear into his arms. He feels even stronger than Sebastian.I made a mistake coming this deep into the woods. I should have been more careful.I realize that I am at his mercy now.Is he going to hurt me? Or something worse?But slowly, he releases his hand."Don't make any noise," he says.I feel a wave of relief as I catch my breath, and as I realize he's not going to kill me. I also feel…something else. The sound of his voice, the timber of it, goes right through me. I feel my entire body vibrate. It's a feeling I've never felt before. Like…being transfixed by a piece of music.It's a voice I've always known somehow. It's like it's the voice I've been waiting
I wait for his lips to meet mine and somehow I already know what they’ll feel like. Or at least, I have some sense of them. It feels like I’ve known him in a past life.I know his scent, how his lips will taste. They’ll be warm but gentle. Passionate. I know our kiss will be more than I could ever imagine.I wait, but his lips never meet mine.I’m left hanging and I wonder if he’s just nervous. Is he waiting for me to bridge the gap? Has he changed his mind?My heart breaks at the thought of him changing his mind. What if he doesn’t feel the same way I do? It seems impossible, but this is so important, so precious, I can’t help but worry. I open my eyes to escape the pain, to assure myself he’s really there except…He’s not there.I glance around me, but he’s gone. The man that was in front me disappeared in the wind like he was never even there in the first place.Did I imagine him?Even as the thought enters my mind, I know it’s not true. I can feel his presence still lingeri
My heart pounds as the pack’s colony of cabins come into view. It looks like a trap as Violet and I approach it. I want to run away. I want to be free of the pack and everything that comes with it. I need to be with Lance.“Hey love,” Sebastian says as he walks over, having caught a glimpse of us while he was walking around outside. That’s his pet name for me. As if I might start to love him if he says it enough.“I knew you’d come back.” He beams as he hugs me. It’s so difficult to be close to him like this now I met Lance. It feels all wrong. He looks at me with those green eyes that aren’t so alluring to me now.“I’m sorry for getting so upset,” he says. “I know this is all a lot for you. You’re about to turn eighteen, about to shift into your wolf form, and we’re going to get married soon. It makes sense for you to be a bit confused and emotional.“You will love me though; I know you will. I’ll help you through all of this. You’re my mate. You’ll see that soon enough.”“I wo
I know things are serious once I realize we’re heading straight towards Sebastian’s cabin. Okay, I’m not stupid. I knew things were serious before then too. But Sebastian doesn’t allow just anyone into his home. Not until we’re married and properly mated. That’s his space to clear his mind and do whatever alphas do.He knows though that no one will dare interrupt us there. No one steps inside unless they’re invited. He wants privacy, but why? What does he plan to do to me? Will he take Jasmine’s advice? Is this the end of my life?Death. I never thought about death that much before. I’m still young. It’s something that’s always seemed so far away. Now though…“Let’s go,” Sebastian says as he opens the door. I hesitate. “Sebastian, I just…”“Inside,” he orders. “Right now.”I want to plead for Lance’s life. I want to plead for my own life. Everyone knows you have to listen to an alpha though, so I step inside.If I wasn’t coming in here wondering about my fate, I’d probably
The second I saw her, I knew. It was so clear she is my mate. The connection I felt… it’s unlike anything I’ve ever felt before. I needed to be near her, I still do. I need to know everything about her.Then, I saw that other wolf watching us. That complicated everything. It’s the reason I’m not with her now.Just that glimpse and I knew she was part of an established pack. And I knew we couldn’t be mates because we’re so different. I know that. That feeling… it only felt that way because it’s been so long since I’ve had that kind of closeness with a woman, right? It’s the only explanation/Yet even as I run through the trees to get away from there, away from her, my mind can’t fully believe it. It refuses to be convinced that she’s not the one. The feeling of her body so close to mine flushes through my brain and…I freeze for just a moment. I knew once I saw that other wolf watching us in that awful that I had to run. I knew they’d come after me. So I ran and I didn’t stop runn
“Is this you choosing me?” Sebastian asks again. This time his words gain a more desperate tone.Is this me choosing him? I don’t know and I wish he would give me space and time to think about it. I wish everything would just stop for a little while so I can figure out what I want. It’s too much pressure. I feel like I’m going to explode. “Can’t it just wait until I’m eighteen?” I ask. “I’ll know by then. I need more time.”“You don’t have time,” he snarls. “I’ve given you enough time. I need to know.”He’s more than frustrated and I do understand. Because now I know what it’s like to experience such intense feelings for someone. If I felt the same way about him as I do about Lance, it would be so much easier. I wouldn’t hesitate.“Our wedding is coming up,” Sebastian says. “You need to choose. It shouldn’t be such a difficult choice. It wouldn’t be a difficult choice for anyone else. I really don’t understand this reluctance.”I don’t understand it either. It should be an eas
As I’m running for Rachel, something terrible happens. I’m so close, I can sense her. I can feel her. My mate is within reach.But then a solid body slams against me. It’s the alpha of the pack and he’s not going to let me go so easily. I fall to the ground under the unexpected force of his attack. Rachel seems further away than ever.“You’re dead,” he snarls at me. “I’m done with trying to deal with you. Your fate was sealed the moment you dared return here.”At that, he lashes out at my neck, clearly intent on tearing my throat out. But I have no intentions of backing down.I turn away from him, his teeth missing me by mere inches. So close to death, but I roll out from under him and nip at his leg. I’m the first one to draw blood, which causes him to sound a howl into the night. The fight is on and we know we’re both fighting for our lives. He’ll kill me if he gets the chance, so I have to stay ahead of him.We face off against each other, and he lunges at me again first. I s
I don’t want to make a deal with Kelsie. I know she’s a terrible person. She’s only offering this to me because she’ll gain so much from me. I suspect I’ll be at a loss.I love Lance though. I would do anything to save him, anything. I would give up my own life for his if that was required. So, I know I’ll do whatever Kelsie says just so he gets out alive.“Okay,” I say. “What do I have to do to save Lance?”Kelsie smiles this wicked grin. I already regret this. I know it’s going to be terrible. I don’t want to give in to someone like her. But I don’t feel like I have a choice.“I will free you,” she says, smiling with glee. “But only if you go to Lance and tell him you don’t love him anymore.”That makes my heart sink. I can’t even fathom telling Lance that I don’t love him because that will never be true. I will always love Lance. He’s my mate. He has my whole heart.“You have to tell him you don’t love him, and you have to leave this place,” Kelsie continues. “You can never re
“You don’t understand,” Justin says, stepping forward, clearly worried about his brother.“It’s okay,” Lance replies as he glances at the group. It’s clear we don’t stand a chance against them. And if Lance fights them now, there’s no way he’ll be accepted back into the group. He simply can’t kill them. We’re stuck in this awful lose/lose situation. “He knows he’s at fault,” Kelsie says. “At least he’s finally come back to admit it. Looks like he brought someone with him this time too.”“Don’t touch her,” Lance says, the first time he really sounds threatening. “She has nothing to do with this. It’s me you want. Leave her alone.”Kelsie glares at me, then notices the mark on my neck. She shakes her head in disbelief.“This is your mate?” she asks. “Pathetic. You should’ve just stuck with me.“Ah, well. At least we got you both in one go. She’s clearly willing to stand by you, so we can’t have her running around and potentially messing up our plans. Take them both.”“Never,” Lan
“Why are you here?” Justin asks as soon as the door closes. “You were kicked out of the pack. It’s dangerous for you to be here.”“I know,” Lance admits. “But that’s why I’m here. I wanted to talk to you about what happened and see if you’d be willing to help me.”“I shouldn’t even be listening to you,” Justin replies, looking quite uneasy as he glances around his home. “I could get into so much trouble by not sounding the alarm right now. I should be trapping you. You are the most wanted man of this pack.”“I appreciate that you haven’t sounded the alarm yet,” Lance says. He seems hopeful and I am too. Despite all he’s said so far, it seems like Justin will be at least willing to hear Lance out.“I’m still debating if I should,” Justin admits.“Hear me out first, at least,” Lance asks. “Then, you can make that decision for yourself. There have been lies spread about me. I think you know that already. I think you’ve known that from the start. Let me set things straight. Let me tel
“I’m sorry,” he says. “I just can’t. I’ve tried a couple of times and I always get chased away. They hunt me down and…”The look of hurt on his face is too bright to ignore. I take his hand and kiss his cheek.“It’s so hard,” he admits. “I hate facing their rejection, their hatred, their fear of me. That was once my pack. Now, it’s like I’m this awful stranger they’re trying to be rid of. They look at me like I’m a monster.”“I understand that,” I say, thinking back to how both of the packs I was once part of view me now. “It’s so difficult. Being an outcast is lonely, painful, just awful.“But I’m here with you now. I know that doesn’t change everything, but it does mean you don’t have to face it on your own. We’re in this together. Maybe with me there, it’ll sting less.”“It would,” he admits. “Everything is better when you’re with me. But I also don’t want to drag you into more danger.”“I’m already in danger,” I point out. “We live in danger now. Each second of each day. We’r
Bones start shifting without me having to think about it. My parents watch me, amazed by seeing their daughter in wolf form for the first time. It’s nice that at least this time I can shift into wolf form. We have a much better chance of getting away. It hurts worse than before though. This time I’ve been betrayed by my own parents. They have to know what will happen to us if we’re caught. I understand that they have to protect the pack but…“Stay,” my mother pleads, true sadness and concern in her eyes. “Please. They’ll forgive you. Just give up the rouge. We’ll make everything better.”Of course, I love them. I really do. I’ve always loved my parents. It horrifies me that things have to go like this. But there’s no way I’m leaving Lance’s side. I wouldn’t give him up for anyone.“If you love me, help us get away,” I say.Then, I turn and Lance and I start running. We take off through the fields I once played in. We dart through the garden, tearing through flowers and plants
“What do you think they’ll say?” Lance asks as we walk towards my parents.“I don’t know,” I reply. “But I think it’ll be good. I think they’ll help.”Yet I grow a bit more apprehensive as we near them. My mother and father come across as very regal sort of people that are both comforting and intimidating to those around them.My father is tall, and though there are slight hints of silver in his hair, true aging hasn’t hit him yet. He’s still strong, his dark eyes are intense as ever, and commands a sort of respect just in the way he stands alone.My mother is a bit shorter than him, more elegant, faster. She gives off a nurturing aura but I’ve seen how tough she is. I wouldn’t want to make a foe of either of them.I won’t though. I’m their daughter. We’ve loved each other for my whole life. I can’t imagine them turning against me now. I can’t imagine them turning against me ever.“Rachel,” my mother says as I approach her. I want to rush forward and hug her, but they’re both s
“Good morning, love,” Lance says as gold light filters through the leaves above us.“Good morning,” I reply, kissing him as I lay across his chest. “I have an idea of what to do today.”“Is that so?” he asks, with an amused smile on his face.“Yeah. I’ve been thinking about last night a lot. You are the Alpha of your pack and you shouldn’t have been displaced from that. It’s not fair to you and it’s not fair to the pack you’re supposed to be leading.“Everyone knows that no one can lead as well as an Alpha can. Whoever has taken your place won’t be the proper fit. We have to do something about it.”“I agree,” Lance say. “But I’ve tried a few times to fix things. I can’t get even close to my old pack without being hunted down. I don’t know what to do anymore.”“That’s why, I think we need help,” I explain.“Help?” he asks. I nod. “It seems like the whole world is against us though. I can’t think of anyone who would want to help us right now.”“I know,” I admit. “It would be a ri
“You’re incredible,” Lance whispers as he looks at me in my wolf form. I feel incredible. Now that I can shift and I have my mate, I’m complete. I’m alive in a way I wasn’t before. I’m happy in a way no one can touch.“So are you,” I say, as he shifts in front of me.Together as wolves we fit just as well as we do as humans.“I want to run,” I say. “I need to feel the forest floor beneath my feet. I need to test out what it’s like to be a wolf in my full form.”“We have to be careful,” he reminds me. “They’re going to come after us. We’re safer up here. We can’t risk getting caught.”I nod, disappointed. It’s the worst luck that I’ve shifted and found my mate during at time when we’re being hunted. It feels like I can’t enjoy this process in the same way I should be able to. It’s nothing like how I thought it’d be. But being with Lance is even more incredible than I imagine.“The boards still do stretch for a while though,” Lance relents. “Maybe we can run for just a little bit