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Endless Soul Chapter 1 - Ex
The moment someone dies, the last person whose life was touched by them dies as well. We will clearly hear them, console us, remind us with our memories with them, and live inside our head.They would hope for us to remember all of that behind, and prior to, the cries and pain of mourning for them was also joy, insights, fascination, and sheer of fun, because they’ve lived with us and that they know how important and loved they are.We can’t tell exactly when we are going to lose our happiness, because just like anxiety, it will just trigger your being. That was me right after the happenings that took me out of the world. Right after he left me…for good.I lost my husband.That’s when I realized that it’s finer if I was being cheated, than to prepare a memorial service to your beloved partner. I swear, I look like a wrecking ball. We were happy, we’re about to build a family with two kids, a boy and a girl, that’s our plan.In the first few weeks and months, I got my first real taste o
Huling Na-update : 2022-07-28Endless Soul Chapter 2 - How we Started
“Nasaan na ba kayo?!” Usal ko sa telepono matapos kong tawagan si Kaila.“Gurl, sorry tinatamad akong bumangon. I’ll see you later! i-attendance mo ako I love you!” dali-dali nitong saad saka pinatay ang tawag.We are having a fun run right now. Ang aga kong gumising para rito kahit na ayoko naman talagang umattend, kaso nga lang ay may attendance. Pang blackmail ng mga professor sa mga college students ang attendance.After Kaila ended the call. I received the same text from Cha saying the same thing na ako na raw ang bahala sa attendance nilang dalawa.Isa pa sa mga rason kung bakit pinilit ko talagang bumangon ng maaga ay alam kong wala sa mga kaibigan ko ang may balak na umattend ng fun run.Aside from the fact that they are not a morning person, they don’t really do this kind of stuffs, they said it’s so childish daw, fun run is for high school stuffs lang daw at college na raw kami.Ewan ko sa kanilang dalawa kung bakit ganoon ang tingin nila, but that’s their opinion. I mean, w
Huling Na-update : 2022-07-28Endless Soul Chapter 3 - Little Star
I wish I knew the things I needed to know when I entered law school so I can be ready at hindi ako mukhang nahihirapan ng sobra ngayon. Kahit ngayon ay culture shock pa rin talaga ako. Like, they have this designations.Every year level kasi have these so called sections. Like, if you're in section A, you are called as a gunner which means a student who raises his hands every class. Kapag sobrang talino or tapang mo naman, sometimes you argued with the professors.Section B were called or labelled as cool kids, who participates mostly on activities. Lastly, section C comes with the students who party the most, in short madaming pera at oras para magwalwal at magwaldas ng pera.I don’t know why I was so fascinated enrolling myself in law school that time. Maybe I was amused about how the court and law works. Sobrang nakakahumaling lang panoorin kapag may defense or any cases, saka feeling ko bagay sa apelyido ko. Like tatawagin akong 'Goodmorning Atty. Pelaez.' It's like music to my e
Huling Na-update : 2022-07-28Endless Soul Chapter 4 - Beyond Boundaries
I woke up so early so I had the time to prepare myself a breakfast kahit 9 am pa naman ang start ng klase ko. Maybe I’ll clean my room and arrange my things accordingly para alam ko agad kung nasaan nakalagay ang mga gamit ko if ever hanapin ko.I know na kapag nandito lang si mama ngayon ay kanina pa nagreklamo ‘yon dahil sobrang disorganize ng mga gamit ko ngayon.Pagkadating ko sa school ay diretso na ako sa building namin. May mga kakilala akong nadadaanan ko kaya hindi ko rin maiwasan na bumati at huminto. That's life anyway. Kapag hindi kasi nabati or pinansin, sasabihin kaagad maarte, snob or galit.I mean, that's how life works right?"Tala! Oh my god kumusta? Inom tayo later sa distrito, G?" sabi ni Sab na ahead ng isang year sa akin. Umiling kaagad ako sa kanya."Pass muna Sab, maraming babasahin." Sabi ko naman. Ayokong mag-aksaya ng panahon sa mga bagay na ganito. Like hindi naman mayaman ang mga magulang ko, sapat lang para ma-enroll ako rito sa law school.I shouldn’t wa
Huling Na-update : 2022-10-18Endless Soul Chapter 5 - Try it with me
I was in front of my laptop, I already copied the link that Kaila sent to me earlier but I still can’t enter it. Kaya ngayon ay kagat-kagat ko ang kuko ko. I was still hesitating, I mean hindi naman ako inosente sa ganitong bagay but it will be my first time to watch it.My phone vibrated and got a chat from Kaila and Cha in our group chat.Charisse Vista: Ano na sis? Have you watched it already?Kaila Marie Ramirez: Hula ko naghehesitate pa ‘yan. May pagka-banal type pa naman ‘yang kaibigan natin.Me: Mga bwesit kayo, sandali lang naman mga te, first time ko gagawin to.I heaved a sigh, “Bahala na…” I uttered before clicking the search button.Pumikit muna ako sandali saka huminga ulit ng malalim. And when I finally opened my eyes, I swear nataranta ako, lalo na at sabay din na may nag-doorbell, kaya nagkanda-ugaga ako sa pagsara ng laptop.Inis kong binuksan ang pintuan, delivery lang pala ng pagkain na inorder ko. Tinatamad din kasi akong magluto kaya napa-oder na lang ako sa grab.
Huling Na-update : 2022-10-19Endless Soul Chapter 6 - The Offer
“Try it with me then…” Paulit-ulit na nagre-replay sa utak ko ang sinabi ni Lexus kahit na kanina pa ako nakauwi sa bahay.Gago?! Bakit parang gusto kong iconsider ang offer niya? Bulong ko sa sarili ko. I didn’t know my curiosity would lead to this. Baka akalain pa no’n ay uhaw ako sa kiss kaya naiisip ‘yong ideyang ‘yon?Napagdesisyunan ko na lang na maglinis ng katawan naghanda na lamang ako ng mga gamit ko bukas at nahiga na.Ritwal ko talaga sa pagtulog sa gabi ay mag-open ng socmed accounts ko. I watched some funny videos in facebook, then I posted a picture of my brewed coffee that I ordered earlier sa Osiris and then posted a tweet in twitter with my usual hashtag.your’star: muntik na akong madala sa pa-try it with me niya. #JunkTerrorLawThat’s what my tweet all about. Then after I posted that tweet, umani kaagad doon ang replied tweet ni Kaila at Cha.wastedtweetofKaila: my gosh sis ah, I feel something fishy about this.Cha_sa’umaga: Hula ko lumalandi na ‘to behind our bac
Huling Na-update : 2022-10-20Endless Soul Chapter 7 - Agreement
Rinig ko ang pagtikhim niya. I saw him licked his lower lip, he has pink lips, tapos ang ganda rin ng shape ng bibig. Napaisip tuloy ako kung he was really good in kissing.I mean, I caught her with a girl, plus he’s active, I bet he has a lot of girls lining up, tapos simula noong nakilala ko siya I heard a lot of rumours. Well, siguro dahil kilala siya?Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin kami umaalis. Nakadantay lang ang braso niya sa manibela habang kunot-noong tinititigan ako pero nakangisi pa rin ng kaunti.“Okay, you wanted to know if my offer is still up?” pag-uulit niya.I put it in a solemn and determined look while nodding to him. Tila baga nanghahamon na ngayon ang tingin niya sa akin. I felt a little scared thinking about the weight and gravity of his question. It knocked my head and only beginning to resurface.I asked myself twice if really am ready to break boundaries. But it’s still the same, ‘yong sinabi ko sa kanya kanina, pareho pa rin. I was never more certain before t
Huling Na-update : 2022-10-21Endless Soul Chapter 8 - First Session
Both of us were now sitting in one sofa facing each other, and we’re sitting here for almost 10 minutes already. I mean, should I do the first move because I was the one who pursued his offer? Or he should do it first since he knows what to do and he’s an expert when it comes to this?But the question is, bakit ko talaga pag-iisipan ng mabuti kung sino ang mauuna? Poproblemahin ko pa ba dapat iyon? this should be like normal especially to him dahil ekperyensyado siya. this must be a piece of cake to him.“Pwede ka pang magback-out.” He said, breaking the silence that’s been reigning for a long time. I the clicked my tongue, “Whatever.” tanging nasambit ko.“Shall we talk first about the kiss?”“What do you mean?” I asked curiously. Bakit kailangang pag-usapan pa eh magki-kiss lang naman diba? Iyon lang naman ‘yon.“Kiss agreement. Do’s and don’ts.” he said.“Gaya nang ano?”“You know, kissing is the start of everything. You don’t know if what dimension are you in because of too much s
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Endless Soul Chapter 49 - Let’s Talk
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Endless Soul Chapter 48 - He Stand’s Out
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Endless Soul Chapter 46 - Meeting him again
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Endless Soul Chapter 45 - We are still we
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Endless Soul Chapter 44 - History
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Endless Soul Chapter 43 - Our Times, was…great
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