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Chapter 7 - Agreement
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Endless Soul Chapter 8 - First Session
Both of us were now sitting in one sofa facing each other, and we’re sitting here for almost 10 minutes already. I mean, should I do the first move because I was the one who pursued his offer? Or he should do it first since he knows what to do and he’s an expert when it comes to this?But the question is, bakit ko talaga pag-iisipan ng mabuti kung sino ang mauuna? Poproblemahin ko pa ba dapat iyon? this should be like normal especially to him dahil ekperyensyado siya. this must be a piece of cake to him.“Pwede ka pang magback-out.” He said, breaking the silence that’s been reigning for a long time. I the clicked my tongue, “Whatever.” tanging nasambit ko.“Shall we talk first about the kiss?”“What do you mean?” I asked curiously. Bakit kailangang pag-usapan pa eh magki-kiss lang naman diba? Iyon lang naman ‘yon.“Kiss agreement. Do’s and don’ts.” he said.“Gaya nang ano?”“You know, kissing is the start of everything. You don’t know if what dimension are you in because of too much s
Endless Soul Chapter 9 - Study Request
“Chukchakan na ‘yang friend natin alam mo ba?” Kaila begin to open-up to Cha na sobrang clueless sa sinabi nito. Siniko ko nga siya ng mahina sa tagiliran para pigilan kaso dinilaan lang ako.Minsan talaga ang mature ni Kaila pero madalas na isip-bata.“Bakit naman? Ang pangit ng word na ginamit mo chukchakan talaga sis?”“Remember noong nag-chill tayo noong nakaraan with high school friends’ tapos nauna siyang umalis?” pag-uumpisa nito. “Oh tapos?” sabi naman ni Cha.“Nagpaalam ako sa inyo na susundan siya para alam kong makakauwi siya ng maayos. Pero sis iba ‘yong nadatnan ko, may sundo pala ang kaibigan natin, tapos ‘yong kapatid pala ni Belle ang kasama.”“Fastforward na kasi sa highlight.” Atat na atat namang saad ni Cha habang nakangisi at mukhang excite na excite.“Halos 15 minutes silang nanatili sa loob ng sasakyan ng hindi umaandar. Tingin mo anong ginagawa ng dalawa?”“Ay, chukchakan nga, literal talagang chukchakan teh! Improving ah infairness,” komento nito.“Napaka-judgm
Endless Soul Chapter 10 - Messed Study
“Uh, welcome sa bahay?” Saad ko saka naglahad ng gesture na pwede na siyang pumasok sa loob.“You’re not that welcoming though.” He said and smirked.“Sorry naman ha, nakakabigla kasi ‘yong sinabi mo na sasama ka sa’kin.” Sabi ko saka sinara ang main door nang makapasok na siya.I saw him looking at the whole place while I put my things inside my room saka lumabas na din after.“Magluluto ako, any request?” saad ko. I have the guts to ask him dahil may laman pa naman ang fridge ko.“Adobo,” he said.Tumango ako saka nagprepare ng mga kakailanganin na ingredients. Minsan ay sinisilip ko siya kung anong ginagawa niya pero nakatingin lang sa akin, kaya kung mahuli ko siyang nakatingin sa akin ay bigla siyang magkukunwaring nagcecellphone.Minadali ko na ang paglalagay ng mga ingredients ng adobo saka pinakuluan after tapos nagsaing na rin ako ng kanin. Hihintayin ko na lang maluto iyon and good to go na kami para kumain.After that ay pinuntahan ko siya saka inoferran na i-on ko ang tv p
Endless Soul Chapter 11 - Crush
I had it all badly written in my mind long before about all the flirting, kissing, and screwing thing – until I experienced how it felt to be kissed, which was a whole experience to me. A wonderful experience to be exact.What Lexus and I have done that night was the closest I had ever come to kissing. Parang dinala lang niya ako sa ibang dimensyon ng mundo nang hindi ko alam. I was hypnotized the way he moved his tongue with me and how we did that in a slow pace.I had just stepped out of the shower, clean, fresh, and ready to take another battle in law school. A tremendous sense of motivation to keep going despite adversities pushing through because I still have dreams to accomplish.I toasted a bread and had the egg fully cooked since hindi ko gusto ‘yong malasadong itlog, then nagtimpla na rin ako ng hot chocolate. I enjoyed my breakfast in peace while remembering what happened last night when I stared at the living area.Feeling ko tuloy naging kamatis ako for a minute.When I fi
Endless Soul Chapter 12 - I Love You! As a Friend
What Lexus said that night left a lot of questions into my head, and even after he dropped me off in the house I still did. Akala ko ay makakatulog agad ako ng gabing ‘yon ng mahimbing dahil nga sobrang exhausted ko pero hindi pala, dahil masyado kong inisip at dinibdib ang sinabi niya.Tiningnan ko ang oras sa cellphone ko only to see it’s already 1:47 am and I am still wide awake na parang hindi ako antok na antok kanina.Pinilit ko na lang na matulog at inisip na lang na baka wala lang naman talagang meaning and sinabi niya kanina. I wonder kung tulog ba siya ngayon or iniisip niya rin iyong sinabi niya kanina? Kasi kung tulog na siya ngayon, bakit gising ako?Ibig bang sabihin nito ay sobrang apektado ako para isipin ng lubusan iyon? Baka nanti-trip lang talaga iyon tapos at heto ako sobrang iniisip. Nakakainis.The next morning to that, the sunlight filled my space, enough to warm and caused me to wake up. I was still on the bed though while feeling the emptiness of the day. My d
Endless Soul Chapter 13 - Uncrush
Since pupunta nga si Lexus doon sa celebration na sinabi ni Conan, kinapalan ko na ang pagmumukha ko kaya nang makita ko siyang papasok sa school ay tinawag ko ang pangalan niya. And because makapal nga ang mukha ko today, I still asked him another favour and of course naiinis siya saglit pero napa-oo rin eventually.I stil have an hour para kulitin siya before my class.I asked him if he could ask Conan about bringing me into the celebration pero sinabi ko naman sa kanya na huwag sabihin na ako ‘yong nagpapatanong. Ang saya ko nang marinig kong sinabi ni Conan sa kabilang linya na pwede raw magsama.As in dinikit ko talaga ‘yong tainga ko sa telepono para rinig ko agad ang sasabihin ni Conan kaya magkadikit ang gilid ng mga ulo namin ni Lexus no’ng time na ‘yon.“Samahan mo ako dali,” sabi ko after niyang maibaba ‘yong tawag. Dali-dali kong niligpit ang mga gamit ko saka inilagay sa dala kong bag.“Where?” he asked curiously while fixing his codal.“Mall tayo,”“Shopping?” I nodded.
Endless Soul Chapter 14 - Count me in
Since it was our final’s week ilang oras lang ng tulog ko. Kung subsob ako sa pag-aaral araw-araw, mas sobra ngayon. I almost vomit every night, and dalawang beses na rin na tumulo ang dugo sa ilong ko dahil sa kakaaral.Sabi na nga ba, maaga akong papatayin ng kursong ito.Kahit na gusto kong matulog ngayon, I still can’t dahil marami pa akong kailangang aralin, hindi pa nga ako nangangalahati. Every time na naiisip ko na sobrang dami ko pang aaralin ay naiiyak na lang talaga ako saka iisipin kung deserve ko ba ito. But at the end of that thought ay bumabalik ako lahat ng mga paghihirap ko makapasok lang sa law school.It would always be like that.It was already past 1:00. Kahit na pagod na pagod ako, pinilit kong umalis muna para bumili ng dalawang kape sa Osiris dahil itong café lang naman ‘yong 24/7, at sobrang inaantok ako.I grabbed my hoodie, wallet and my cellphone tapos umalis na rin. Iyong katawan ko gusto nang mag-backdown na parang drained cellphone. Tapos sobrang lamig n
Endless Soul Chapter 15 - Spin the Bottle
For all the times I made myself small during my shortcomings, I was still proud because I made myself conquer that feeling. Law school is hard, and sometimes, I do tell myself that I’ll be dropping my dreams because I felt like it wasn’t for me.But when Lexus said to me that night that there many people who wishes for my success, and he even said that he was and I should count him in. I felt motivated, I felt that the fire against me was able to burn again, and it’s like creating a furnace I once built.Our final’s week ended, and I didn’t feel so bombarded or sorry to myself after I took all of the exam, because I had done my part well. I studied well, and I’m contented to whatever the result would come out after.“Grabe, bakit may ganyan kang nireview?” Tanong ni Kaila kay Cha nang nakakunot ang noo.“Gaga, anong klaseng reviewer ba ang nasa’yo at hindi mo nakita eh pareho lang naman tayo?” Cha uttered. I saw that Kaila brushed her hair.“Kainis ha, bakit hindi ko nakita ‘yan, Tang
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Endless Soul Chapter 50 - Sneaky Boy
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Endless Soul Chapter 49 - Let’s Talk
All I could hear inside the car is the sound of his fingers tapping. First of all, ayokong magsalita dahil wala naman akong sasabihing importante. Pangalawa, just like what I said – I’m too embarrassed about what I did. Third, for some reason - I felt like, isang mali iyong pagkikita namin kahit coincidence lang naman ang lahat.I don’t like where this thing is heading to. Especially now that he knows what happened while he was away.“Thank you,” I said pagkatapos ko siyang intayin na makababa. And I regret waiting for him to get out of the car dahil malamig niya akong tiningnan at parang kanina pa pinipigilang magsalita.Isang beses siyang humakbang papalapit sa akin. Nanatiling ganoon ang ekspresyon niya habang nakalagay sa dalawang bulsa ng kanyang pantalong ang kanyang mga kamay. His eyes were becoming darker as it was, seems like mad, and pissed – a combination of those emotions.“You’re unbelievable…” he uttered, much more pissed right now.“What do you mean?” I said, getting
Endless Soul Chapter 48 - He Stand’s Out
At first, he was declining my kisses saying that I was just drunk and I didn’t know what I am doing, and that I will regret what will happen the next morning. But I never really cared about all the stuffs he said, I just focused myself in between my kisses to him.Despite him declining, I felt some of his responses, and I know he will never be able to resist my effect on him. He’ll never will.And at this moment. I just…wanted to feel him.I just wanted him to feel me. To fill, and make me whole. I don’t know if this is my desperate-self calling or I just want it for some reason, I just really don’t care anymore. I just want to own him this night.I stopped kissing him because I needed to breathe. And as I stopped, I saw his forehead creased and confused.“I just need air.” sabi ko sa kanya dahil alam ko na ang kinukunot ng noo nito.“Tss…” was all he could say. Lumayo siya sa akin, and for a moment I know there will be no kissing to happen. The distance he made was kind of a cue for
Endless Soul Chapter 47 - Years After Years
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Endless Soul Chapter 46 - Meeting him again
On the way home after a long day. “My love, if you’re out there send me a sign.” I said.I am a mix of contradictions: sad and entirely unhappy, alone, mourning, tired, drained, unmotivated, loss of will, and a wife with no husband. I feel loved by so many and yet no longer by one in particular.I am a woman whose husband has died. He is not late nor lost. He hasn’t passed. He is absent but not erased. I catch a glimpse of him in the curve of her mother’s jaw and the lilt of his laugh in the recorded video. He inhabits my dream world, making star appearances. I know him so well that, like a favourite character in a book, I can imagine him into any situation. But now he’s gone, I don’t know how to make the star appear again.Conan left me, but our relationship outlives him. I am grateful for the independent self that was fostered in our marriage as I carve a lone way forward through this surreal new world —although altered, I too am not late, passed or lost. But this independence has a
Endless Soul Chapter 45 - We are still we
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Endless Soul Chapter 44 - History
Marriage.It is something two people are committed to. Something more than physical touch, but more on growing into the years, and learns a lot of lessons in general.Growing up, many of us learned that true love involves princesses and guards, battles and happily ever after. But the real world just doesn’t work that way. Love isn’t always romantic as it is like how we seen in the movies. But love may be can cause pain, but never the fear.It was in a totally happy marriage, maybe an ideal one for some people. But marriage isn’t perfect, we sometimes argue about things, won’t dare to speak in each other, but we get back on to it and reflect what we did. Mayroon pa nga siyang special notebook kung saan isinusulat niya ang ilan sa mga sinasabi ko. He even makes me sign them so that the next time I clam I never said it, he can show me my own signed words. Ganoon siya.But nowadays are different, he looked sad – I could tell because I was sad too, and scared.“Are you like…going to be oka
Endless Soul Chapter 43 - Our Times, was…great
The one we tried to console with sometimes are distorted and vague that we sometimes struggle to comprehend things. Sometimes, we often closed our minds to accept truths, and refuse to ask.“Why did you left me that day and said those hurtful words? Why did you left me when I needed you the most?” malungkot na tanong ko.His eyes widened. His lips also parted…maybe because he didn’t expect that it will be directly a tough question to begin. He looked dumbfounded, shocked, and looks like didn’t know how to speak, seems like he lost words. But I waited for him to process my question, but minutes had passed and all I could get is silence.I smiled sadly, even after everything, he couldn’t still tell me things right on hand. “Minahal mo ba talaga ako?” I said. Halos hindi ko maitago ang dala ng pait ng boses ko, masyadong transparent kung gaano ko paulit-ulit na tinatanong sa sarili ko kung mahal ba niya talaga ako.Umiling siya nang sunod-sunod. “I loved you…” mahinang sagot niya. He loo
