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Chapter 2
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2024-10-29 19:42:56~ Carmen Live streams
Part of my job is watch the live streams and monitor the content and comments, make sure everyone is safe not being bullied. Allow fans to talk to her and delete spam messages. During this stream Jean one of the bullies , proceeded to say A moderator BLOCKED Amanda fromcommenting. Toby chimes in and other fans also chimes in saying "A moderator blocked Amanda she cant comment" I luna am a moderator but I didn't block her I don't even see her name on this live stream, I am confused so I text Martin a fellow moderator. " Hey Martin you see this shit online right now what is happening " Martin responds "I see it , looks like they are trying to pin it on you, but it doesn't say Luna Blocked a member so I have no idea "Carmen sees the comments on her live stream and she gets her team attention to look into the matter. Milo her brother proceeds to yell " ARE YOU TRYING TO BLAME LUNA" " Amanda is NOT BLOCKED stop it." Carmen continues with her live stream and Toby and Jean simmer down on starting an uproar in comments.Luz texts me " Hey sis what was up with the bimbos on the live stream."Me crying while watching the live stream " not sure but everything is time stamped and it shows who does what"Luz :" Girl fuck them!!! they want you out so bad but cant even compete, you do a-lot work they cant even respect you or Carmen"Luna :replies " I had to text Martin because he works with me, I wish you were a moderator too, Toby and Jean are Moderators too so why they pick on me."Luz: I have to one word KARMALuna: Karma isn't going fast enough I am tired of them , I just do what I am told nothing more nothing lessLuz: I am always here for you sis! you had my back and you helped me in this fandom so I will forever have you. I learned from you, I actually design flyers and merchandise for Carmen now! I would have not done it without you!Luna: you have talent! I saw that, I wasn't gonna let the others get a chance they don't deserve it . they are clout chasing you do it for lOVE LOVE !!Luz: I know Carmen has to see it but she keeps praising them too, they don't deserve the praise , you do all the work! they take the credit! shes so busy now she doesn't see it !Luna: I know but I love you I gotta go they aren't moderating right now, Martin is barely keeping up, text me later boo.*Texting MartinLuna: sorry martin luz was texting meMartin: I already know, shit isn't fairLuna: I wasnt trying to leave you in that chat aloneMartin: 4 thousand people in the live and only 2 moderators workingLuna: look at tobys comments (screenshot )CoochieWoochie: Slay mamas dont be afraidsuperfan111: green hair looks goodCoochiewoochie: NOONE CARES if green looks good on Carmen ! she can do whatever she wants(end of screenshot)Martin: they were just agreeing why did Toby "Cooochie" say thatLuna: no clue but look she notices me instead of him(screenshot )Lunabear : stop fucking saying your dumb shit hereIkillyou: I can say what I feelLunabear: NO ITS WEIRD STOP ITIkillyou: you are pathetic as a moderatorLunabear: who cares what you think stop sexually shit(end screenshot)Carmen yells : LUNABEAR is going off LOL I fucking love this BITCH !!Milo: you can't say that on liveCarmen: why not shes regulating hoes !!Martin: how she see your shit but not TobyLuna: every-time ! now it looks like I'm fighting and their using name was I KILL YOU like WTFMartin: jajaja I see it I was like GO LUNALuna: I love you martin thank you for being for me and not judging me ever!(live chat feed )Coochiewoochie: a MODERATOR is blocking peopleJaydenWatkins: Coochiewoochie they are not stop saying shit like this!!Martin: a moderator is not blocking anyone you can see it on the screen~~jeanbean muted user haju7777~~~Lunabear: just tell me how you really feelmartin: yeah tell herJaydenwatkins: haters everywhere in this chat I feel it !!(end of live chat feed )Jayden is a new friend of mine, I saw her on multiple platforms and we began talking and being good friends , She knows what's happening with them. She goes on the live streams so she can watch my bullies, they think because over a thousand people be in the stream no-one can see their shit. BUT they were wrong many people see how they blame me for shit that is beyond my means. they lack comprehension by all accounts. How can I block people without Carmens knowledge on the live stream, it shows up when a moderator blocks or mutes someone. I don't even fuck with amanda! I don't even talk to Jean, she has me blocked and I am like girl I barely talk to you. They mad because of Toby, Toby is a flamboyant gay boy he is 17 yrs old, he has to have all the attention. Im in 29 and he has lack of respect for me or for anyone . He told everyone I was a bully but I have the whole screen shot from the group chat on what happened. Toby makes himself a victim but in reality he is a BULLY!-flash back of the conversation-•groupchat of carmens fanpages•Susie: if everyone has tweeter we can reply Carmen to boost her upToby: that author is a republican we do not associate with the Republicans !!!Amy: huhh?Luna: its not about whose a republican or not but can we not bring political is it this is triggering for me!Toby: it does matter!! Carmen cant be a part of all that!!Luna: it doesn't matter what someones views are political thats not what susie is saying!Toby: IM TELLING YOU NOW If carmen is to collab with a republican then shit will hit the fan!!Luna: once again triggering !!! noone is saying a collab!!Luz: yall blowing up my phone and im at work! Tony what are you talking about!Toby: I said what I said!!susie and toby began to argue in the chatLuna: THIS IS WHY I HATE GROUPCHATS!! you keep being political shit in the matter and now a collaboration!! that has nothing to do with susie and what she is stating!! knock it offLuna: susie stop replyingand Toby STOP ITToby: *typing more*Luna: STOP this is why imma block YOUUToby: *blocks luna*Luna: BLOCKS TOBY BACK fucking bITchKaugnay na kabanata
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LunaAt last my work shift as ended and I can go home. Work was hell , Home is home but UGH the internet mess. I cant even finish a work shift without things going sideways online, and out of every one Carmen has Fan wise is NO WHERE to be found. For Tour I answer everyones needs and questions. I solve problems that I shouldnt even be worried about but everyone else is missing! I drive home and my phone is ringing, I glance down I see its Rita video calling me. Rita is a long term fan of Carmens, we both been a fan for the same amount of time a decade and some. Rita lives about 10hrs away from me. We began our friendship because I found her a mutual , she lives about 2 hrs away from Rita . Rita always been upset that everyone lives so far away but I found her a fan a buddy thats only 2 hrs away. I used my siri to text Rita how I am driving home i will call her when i'm walking in the doors.Rita been excited because I plan to meet her hopefully one summer. Shes been helping me mali
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Luz I was woken up to a massive texts from Luna ! it ReadsLuna: Luz , I know you sleeping but Carmen is single I need help with fans and giving her space shes on tour! Luna: her heart is so broken and there's drama brewing OMG Luna: *inserts 20 screenshots*Luna: omg sorry Luz I know your sleeping just text me when you wake up!!! I posted on my account for Carmen, asking for respecting her privacy at this time! she is on tour she will talk when shes ready!!Luna: I also texted Laura and Jane you know her manager and assistant I told them take her phone away shes crying and drunk . *end of text message* I cant even process this text properly! I immediately go to the gram , my hands are trembling I can barely search for Carmens account, its been 10hrs and everything still up! I text Luna and I tell her how I wish I had her passwords so I could remove this! Under her pictures you can see every rude comment under the sun! The only person who can get Carmen to remotely breathe is Lun
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CarmenAs I am in my green room it finally hit me , I am single! My fans have no clue that this break up was a month ago! My Ex took shit to the internet and I finally had time to remove her off my shit! Some of my fans are losing their shit just like me. I need to decompress before my show! my inbox is saying 5600 messages! my text messages are up to 300 unread messages! I have a-lot of my plate, my ex knew I couldn't handle shit while I'm on tour! I cant mourn for my self . I have to pretend I am so happy and perform for sold out shows! Jane is trying to help me but she just wants me black out drunk! My Assistant wants me drunk off my ass! My manager Laura is unbothered! She told me she was talking to Luna don't worry about comments online. They were handling it ! I am so fed up with people telling me not to worry, thats all I do is worry my anxiety is on 100! I have meet and greets in 2hours , I haven't ate since the shit blew up online . My ex claims I used to beat her ass every
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Luna The heat in June is so drastic here in Nashville. I was finally back at work, months have gone by after the breakup with Carmen. Rita has been there helping me but shes been sounding little depressed. I told Lucian I would take the kids and go on a road trip to see Rita. He was fine with it because he didn't want me to go alone. I hate driving but she was so weird lately. I told my assistant manager I needed these days off , its an emergency with a family member. I told her I would work for her Saturday and Sunday the following week. I packed our bags and loaded my black suv up. I have the Dodge Durango, black on black on black. I felt sleek in my suv, I made sure the kids had their tablets charged and snacks was loaded up. We only were going to stop for gas and potty breaks, it was nearly an 11hr drive. I didn't want to fly with 2 children alone. I also didn't want to depend on Rita and Valerie to drive us everywhere. Valerie is the friend I found for Rita, I told them both
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We arrived safely across the state lines, I calmly called my husband Lucian to let him know we were almost at our destination. Lucian's husky voice sounded more rugged than usual. I known him since we were teenagers and his voice is always a big turn on for me. "Lucian" I said quietly breathing heavily. "MHM" he replied. You cant talk like that , we are so far away I just wanted you ...you to know we almost ar.. arrived. Lucian laughs loudly, he apologizes he is exhausted from work and he's home alone. I quickly hang up the phone because I need to call my friends who live here. Valerie knows how I am in route to her, I sent her my location so she knew my every move besides my husband. Valerie send me a location to a restaurant so we can meet up. I told her I felt better if I checked in the motel first and dropped off the luggage. Arriving at the Motel, it didn't look NOTHING like the pictures. It was run down, the pool was slimy green, Kaylen groans as we go inside the room and it w
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Pulling up in the modern era apartment, its gated theres on site security, These apartments looks like little townhomes. Valerie pulls into her garage, she points to where I can park. Kaylen looks at me , I told her with my eyes " Shes little spoiled , don't start just grab your bags!!" The apartment was well lit up, with its L shaped building. Her apartment has two levels, and a garage. Javier and Kaylen walked to the garage with their bags, I carried what i could and quickly followed them into the dark garage. It was nothing but ooo's and ahhs once the garage doors closed behind us and a little light came on. We walked up some stairs and as we walked the light became brighter and at the top of the stairs we were at her front door. I looked around like did we come out the closet or the woods and how we end up at the front door. Garages lead to the back normally but this is an apartment but it was a private entrance to her apartment. It was soo beautifully crafted. Her
Drama with running a fanclub Chapter 9
Waking up in a home thats not home, has me feeling out of place. The children are up and already eating breakfast! I look around the room, Kaylen says Valerie said make yourself at home so I fixed me and Javier waffles ! She has frozen waffles, she exclaims . I told Kaylen we have frozen waffles at home you never fix those. We giggled and I go to to our luggages, I pick out everyones outfit for the day. I go shower and then as I'm finishing up and wrapping my towel around, I get Javier in the tub. I began to do my makeup while I let him splash around because its Kaylen who takes soo long to get ready . I had to use my time wisely we are waiting on Rita anyway but you aren't supposed to sit around in pajamas or clothes from yesterday till someone says hey I am on the way! As I finish just with my eyeliner , Javier is done splashing , I learned quickly to bath them first then let them play so you have time to do anything you need while they are playing in the tub. I dry him off and he g
Drama with running a fanclub Chapter 10
I tried to take pictures of the kids on this carousel, and Lucian called. I took a deep breath before answering the call. Me: Hello? Lucian: *sternly* What is wrong? me: no more hey love bug? Lucian: * in a husky but stern tone * NO ! What is wrong? Do you need me ? Are you in danger? Me: Im not sure , my foot just started hurting in my shoes .Lucian: I can fly out and bring you guys home! Me: the kids are having fun, its okay, I can see a doctor when im back in town!Lucian: *silence* Me: Brownie? Lucian: yes??? Me: are you mad? *I begin to cry because of the pain, and my voice began to crack*Lucian: I think you should end the trip, come home immediately. You're in pain . Me: Im actually fine its fine !! You're dramatic Lucian: *sexual tone* says the woman in pain crying on the phone to her lonely husband, who wants whats best for her. Come home let me rub your foot!!! Me: *aggravated I began to get lo
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The drive wasnt as long as i expected it to be, it was quite beautiful, there was a long bridge to cross which thankfully i couldnt see the water becau, se its dark out. The journey was quite beautiful . Rita's was in a smaller nit town, it looked like one of those everybody knows everybody places. Her house was cute almost like a cottage small. After parking I grabbed the bags for me and the kids and placed them inside.She shown me where we would be sleeping and i grabbed Javier first and placed him down,Kaylen is too tall so she had to wake and walk in. I told Rita we would shower in the morning, no we could shower after the beach, theres no need to run up her water bill with all of us, showering multiple times. Rita lives by herself, and is on a small income because of an work injury she cant work. I dont want to make anything harder on her, she has to watch what she does and how she does things as well. I didnt even get to finish taking my shoes off and the pain was more intense,
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It just might be my shoes, i dont wear them often Luna replies, but they make it to the table and sit down. Eat your food and I will be fine, she tells everyone sternly. Everyone silently ate their food, Kaylen who nibbled on them pretzel bites with cheese, said they were too salty. Javier's Pizza for it to be small was actually big so she ate some of his pizza instead and they drank their waters. Luna drinks her whiskey and waits for everyone to be finished eating, the bartender told everyone their cups can go with them in the arcade because we get free refills on the fountain drinks. Everyone was now finished eating and Luna does her mom thing, she points out the exits, bathrooms and off limit areas. Kaylen and Javier stay together , Kaylens phone has a tracker on it so Luna knows her location at all times. Kaylen is old enough and this place isnt currently crowded, but Luna cant run or walk fast. She wants nothing but the kids to have fun, Valerie and Rita ar
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The kids clean up there mess and gather their bags of toys and clothes! Valerie grabs her keys and checks her phone, so she can confirm the location to Rita. They wanted to go to an amusement park or an arcade or something of that sort for the kids. I honestly love how kid friendly everything they plan out. The walk to the car was really fast, I think we are all excited to see Rita, Valerie hasnt even met her yet. We are bouncing off excitement! Valerie drives to an arcade, it was the largest building i ever did see. It was a big gray bricked building with ARCADE in red and bold letters. Valerie parks the car and before she could unbuckle her seat belt. Me and the kids were jumping out the car. There was a nice fountain on the outside. Kaylen pulled out coins from her pocket and made a wish by throwing a coin in the fountain. Javier didnt want to make a wish he was ready to play in the arcade. As soon as we walked up to the double doors, a short blonde with fair skin turned around.
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The kids are happy, I am miserable but I keep a happy face.Rita is in route to us so we can all go to some place. I wasnt aware to all of the places and plans they had for us. Luna is down for a fun crazy time by all means. Valerie took us over to the crowded, loud, big food court. All of our bellies rumbled,tumbled and fumbed, making the most rambunctious noises. Kaylen and Javier picks out a chicken restaunrant to try, as if living in the south, fried chicken is soo not a thing. Valerie orders everyones meals because she eats there alot and if it was up to me I would have picked something else. Javier saw a large patio outside of the food court and asks politely if we can eat outside. Kaylen and Javier rushes by a large crowd of people, giggling as napkins fly out their little small hands.They are zooming pass people just to find a table, a fabulous table at that. They want to find the best fabulous table to eat their lunch at while we wait for Rita. Javier sits down a t
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I tried to take pictures of the kids on this carousel, and Lucian called. I took a deep breath before answering the call. Me: Hello? Lucian: *sternly* What is wrong? me: no more hey love bug? Lucian: * in a husky but stern tone * NO ! What is wrong? Do you need me ? Are you in danger? Me: Im not sure , my foot just started hurting in my shoes .Lucian: I can fly out and bring you guys home! Me: the kids are having fun, its okay, I can see a doctor when im back in town!Lucian: *silence* Me: Brownie? Lucian: yes??? Me: are you mad? *I begin to cry because of the pain, and my voice began to crack*Lucian: I think you should end the trip, come home immediately. You're in pain . Me: Im actually fine its fine !! You're dramatic Lucian: *sexual tone* says the woman in pain crying on the phone to her lonely husband, who wants whats best for her. Come home let me rub your foot!!! Me: *aggravated I began to get lo
Drama with running a fanclub Chapter 9
Waking up in a home thats not home, has me feeling out of place. The children are up and already eating breakfast! I look around the room, Kaylen says Valerie said make yourself at home so I fixed me and Javier waffles ! She has frozen waffles, she exclaims . I told Kaylen we have frozen waffles at home you never fix those. We giggled and I go to to our luggages, I pick out everyones outfit for the day. I go shower and then as I'm finishing up and wrapping my towel around, I get Javier in the tub. I began to do my makeup while I let him splash around because its Kaylen who takes soo long to get ready . I had to use my time wisely we are waiting on Rita anyway but you aren't supposed to sit around in pajamas or clothes from yesterday till someone says hey I am on the way! As I finish just with my eyeliner , Javier is done splashing , I learned quickly to bath them first then let them play so you have time to do anything you need while they are playing in the tub. I dry him off and he g
Drama with running a fanclub Chapter 8
Pulling up in the modern era apartment, its gated theres on site security, These apartments looks like little townhomes. Valerie pulls into her garage, she points to where I can park. Kaylen looks at me , I told her with my eyes " Shes little spoiled , don't start just grab your bags!!" The apartment was well lit up, with its L shaped building. Her apartment has two levels, and a garage. Javier and Kaylen walked to the garage with their bags, I carried what i could and quickly followed them into the dark garage. It was nothing but ooo's and ahhs once the garage doors closed behind us and a little light came on. We walked up some stairs and as we walked the light became brighter and at the top of the stairs we were at her front door. I looked around like did we come out the closet or the woods and how we end up at the front door. Garages lead to the back normally but this is an apartment but it was a private entrance to her apartment. It was soo beautifully crafted. Her
Drama with running a fanclub Chapter 7
We arrived safely across the state lines, I calmly called my husband Lucian to let him know we were almost at our destination. Lucian's husky voice sounded more rugged than usual. I known him since we were teenagers and his voice is always a big turn on for me. "Lucian" I said quietly breathing heavily. "MHM" he replied. You cant talk like that , we are so far away I just wanted you ...you to know we almost ar.. arrived. Lucian laughs loudly, he apologizes he is exhausted from work and he's home alone. I quickly hang up the phone because I need to call my friends who live here. Valerie knows how I am in route to her, I sent her my location so she knew my every move besides my husband. Valerie send me a location to a restaurant so we can meet up. I told her I felt better if I checked in the motel first and dropped off the luggage. Arriving at the Motel, it didn't look NOTHING like the pictures. It was run down, the pool was slimy green, Kaylen groans as we go inside the room and it w
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Luna The heat in June is so drastic here in Nashville. I was finally back at work, months have gone by after the breakup with Carmen. Rita has been there helping me but shes been sounding little depressed. I told Lucian I would take the kids and go on a road trip to see Rita. He was fine with it because he didn't want me to go alone. I hate driving but she was so weird lately. I told my assistant manager I needed these days off , its an emergency with a family member. I told her I would work for her Saturday and Sunday the following week. I packed our bags and loaded my black suv up. I have the Dodge Durango, black on black on black. I felt sleek in my suv, I made sure the kids had their tablets charged and snacks was loaded up. We only were going to stop for gas and potty breaks, it was nearly an 11hr drive. I didn't want to fly with 2 children alone. I also didn't want to depend on Rita and Valerie to drive us everywhere. Valerie is the friend I found for Rita, I told them both
