Chapter 1

Carmen is going on tour and I will finally meet Luke in person! We talked online for a whole year and in a week he will be at my house. As I plan on picking Luke up from the airport, I mingle with some Carmen fans to see who else is going to the same shows as us.

Luke is tall, skinny and handsome. His hair is dyed blonde but he is dying his hair blue and purple at my house. Luke is gay and we actually get along so well, he's like a sister and a brother rolled into one! He flew in to meet me and also bullying hasn't slowed down any online. Luke is not one to mess with, he creates memes of my bullies online for me. I appreciate Luke so much I would have lost my mind if I never started talking to him. Our goal is to get Luz to fly in too.

Its day of the concert and I am so stressed I'm sweating and shaking, its the first time I get to meet

Carmen after all the internet slandering on me. Luke tells me Im overthinking it, he tells me Im

Carmen's favorite because Im

Black and She loves Black and Afrolatinas .

I really trust Luke but I am not her favorite and she also has a girlfriend. I am not trying to date her Luke, but I hear you ;as we get dressed for the show.

Luke Grabs our liquor and my car keys so we can pre game. Luke states " Venues Liquor are strong but expensive we can eat now and prep game before we leave then pre game in the parking lot."

"Luke I have to buy some drinks there I am driving and You know and in an hour drive I can drink before hand." Luke says "Luna fineee" as he stresses the e's in fine. He knows I am nervous but Im not trying to kill ourselves before the show.

We arrive at the venue and Luke notices that i'm back to being nervous again. The sweating in my arm pits started my lips get chapped. I couldn't take my keys out of the ignition . Luke I screamed ! He turns to me " Don't scream Im here for you, its first time every fan knows your name and you see her again, your famous too!" Luke leads the way to the venue, the venue looks like a old movie theater, bricked building, with the marquee on the walls. We passed a poster with Carmen's name and City on it . As we walk to the line that nearly wraps around the building, we heard people chanting my name "LUNA LUNA LUNA!" I wave at people saying hi! I had no idea who they were but they knew me. All that I do for Carmen Fan club and she says my name all the time on her live streams . People knew my name and my face because my picture is on my profile. Other fans in line stared and glared at me . We heard them whispering how I think Im just perfect and everything and a bag of chips, even heard how I am a bitch because I deny their weird comments and posts," I know marry me is nature for fans but some of them when graphic about nasty sexual behavior so yeah I denied it, Carmen has a partner. We got to the venue late so Luke and I were at the end, all of a sudden I heard " OH MY FUCKING GOD and piercing murderous screams "

it was Carmen she was happy to see us together! She was loud enough that I knew the venue heard her! She makes me blush every time, she was so cute with her bagging jeans over sized t shirt and beanie. She hugged me so tightly and kept saying thank you for coming I love you so much. I couldn't even breathe she had me so tight I just inhaled her sweet perfume or body spray nodding mhm. Luke and I got way more than our moneys worth with her meet n greet. Carmen's whole team knew who I was and it was so nice and welcoming, Her Dj bought me shots and gave me a big hug. Carmen has openers and we knew them too they hung out with us too as we took dope selfies and group photos. As we said goodbye and head to the venue Carmen says "I will be looking for you guys, you make me feel so safe out there when i'm nervous " We said " upfront we will there somewhere kill it like always"

As we made our way in the actual venue room, everyone who had VIP pass looked at us and said We knew she met you, she was screaming so loud! I laughed because some faces look familiar but I couldn't say anything thing I was afraid I would be on the internet slandered . Two kind women allowed me and Luke to be upfront next to them. Luke was nervous and said do you know them? I said yes and no but i trust them they comment alot , its not Toby and raggedy Anns we are okay.

So Many of Carmen's fans knew there was war with me and other fanpages of Carmen's. They seen the hate and slander online. Everyone with eyes could see "Luna thinks she so special " " Luna is so BOSSY and UNGRATEFUL " . We have no clear answer if Carmen herself has seen it . Everyday it has been a struggle. Apparently I hate myself, I hate hispanics , I brag about everything i do for Carmen. My friends know bragging isnt me. Hating hispanics is wild

when my type is hispanic and I hate myself for not ending the drama sooner. Toby and Amanda makes my life hell . They recruited people to hate me which is why I was nervous at this show!

The concert was off the chain . Carmen has sprinklers and she popped champagne at the fans. Her shows are magical, she is truly a star! She is an independent artist. She builds everything up by herself and her team she has. Its truly an honor to be a part of her team myself. Im so thank Milo her brother snatched me up on the gram. I wished he asked me verses telling me but I wouldn't change it any other way.