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Chapter 77 : It's perfect

Author: Niharika Nafisa
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Chrisanna

Emmy sets the laptop aside, exhaling deeply. "I don't think I ever can"

She looks at me with a smile. Heartbreaking smile.

"Why?" I drag myself close to her and place my hand on hers. "He needs to have clarity, Emmy. He has so many misunderstandings—"

"But my boy is away from the biggest trauma of his life", her voice breaks and her eyes shiver at me. "I can't do this to him, Chrissie. I know he's different. Isolated. Filled with pain. And I have been trying my best to keep him away from this pain. The hatred he might have for the things I have done— well, the false things his father might have said to him about me— I can bear that. But not the trauma he will go through all over again. He's surely a grown-up man now. But trust me, he's still a little kid inside"

"I know", I mumble, looking away. "I know that"

Her lips curve into a little smile. "I'm so lucky that he loves me. He might be angry with me. But it's a miracle that he didn't end up being a man filled with hatred.
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