Chapter 82 : Deepest Scars

Samuel

I feel my entire body shaking as Chrisanna tightens her grip around my torso. The flashes! The night! The rain! The lights flickering it all took me back to the moment again. The most unwanted moment of my life.

My chest aches and tears sting my eyes. I don't wanna cry in front of her. But I feel worse!

"I could never forgive myself, firefly. I could never. I wish I never had this thought of moving on. I wish I accepted it first that I wanted to keep loving you. My one mistake ruined it for us. I wanted you to be my first. My first everything but— I don't even remember it happening. Trust me. The way I felt in your arms was like the first ever feeling I had. I felt so safe and comfortable with you. I didn't even know how it would feel until it was you. But technically, it doesn't make any sense. I betrayed you!"

"Stop!" Chrisanna's trembling palms cover my cheeks as she peers into my eyes.

Her eyes are pooled with tears and I feel like a complete asshole for making her feel thi