Chapter 74 : I came that night

Samuel

My forehead stays pressed against the wall as the freezing water descends on my body. I don't exactly remember how long I have been inside but I never felt this worse before.

I'm angry.

I'm ashamed.

I feel guilty.

Even though all this time, I knew Chrisanna never did anything wrong, I still blame myself for that only moment when I had such the worst thoughts about her and Eric. The last ten days I spent in insecurity before the prom and on the prom night. I can't believe I doubted their relationship even for a second.

I hated myself already.

Now, I hate myself more.

Even today, when I walked inside and saw her being so happy around Eric, my nerves wrenched again, although I have no grudge against Eric either. I never had. I never had this anger on him that I used to have on any other guy who would be close to her.

It just made me feel bad about myself that Chrisanna could never breathe in relief around me. Even now.

I can sense how careful she is to talk to me. She choo