Dirty affairs 77Watching her go with him was one of the most disappointing things that had ever happened to me .I wasn’t one that could be defeated just like that but without proof , I know that I have been defeated and it really hurts to know that I lost that one to him again .Not again not after all that I have sworn to do to him but yet it seems like there's just too much around him that I just can’t win and that really hurts like hell , I can feel it .She got into dethro car and I watched them speed off and it was then that I noticed Anna who was standing by the other side of the car waiting for me .I had even forgotten that I was here with her , all my thoughts and thinking were just her .I didn’t know why , but I guess it is because of the way things go .“ can’t believe That you left me here in the car without caring to ask about how I am or faring just to go after a girl who would later deny you and go with another .I turned to see the mocking look on Anna gav
Whatever the reasons might be or what it might be , I don’t want to be a part of it and I know that he knows it .Days had not been easy , I could tell he was pissed by just standing there and stating here without doing a thing .I wanted to go back home but I couldn’t because I am not even on good terms with my mom .I know that sooner or later I would have no choice but to do those things that I thought that I would never find myself doing .It hurts thinking that my life could be a mess just because I like a boy .For all the things that a guy had done to me ever , this had gotten to be the worst that had ever happened . It hurts to even think that I am still okay thinking about him right now and no matter what it does , it seems like I would never let him go , that is how guile I am to him right now and that really hurts like hell , more than I had ever imagined .From the day I left that party , I had not set my eyes on Trevor again .It’s just as if , he flew away from the
Dirty affairs 79I had never felt that much guilt that I was feeling at this point .So many things went through my mind at the same time and all that I could think of is , what would have happened , if something stupid happened to her .I could never explain how grateful that we all got back in the same peace .But this is literally her fault , she didn’t tell me about her illness , if I had known about it , then I wouldn’t have dared to do that .With each time that passed by , all that I did was watch the food that was on the table .It was just a day more to a freaking new year and a new session in school and there was literally nothing for me and all that I am thinking of is how not to get on his nerves .Both Dante and Trevor had the same character .The fact that Dante hasn’t said a word to me since the day I stepped my leg into this house made it harder for me to understand the kind of family that this was .They were acting so weird and their characters were totally out of
The drive was long , longer than I had ever thought or imagined .Never did I think that it was going to be this long but now that it was , I had to act like I was okay deep down .I knew that I had so much to say to him at this moment but I just decided to let things go .I know how much I missed him and even though he is so toxic , I don’t think that I would be able to leave him now and that is the only reason why I am in this car with him .I had seen him throw glances at me as we drove .I didn’t want to hear a thing from him , not even a word .I know he can be manipulative and I am not about to let him use that on me .I knew that his words had an effect on me and just one word from him and I would be on my knees the next moment begging for his dick .“ I am sorry , I never meant to do any of that to you , I am so sorry that you got to see that side of me and now you will have to hide me by that .Believe me when I say that it wasn’t the plan and I was so jealous when I sa
I knew that I had said my piece and I was literally trying to catch my breath after yelling at him , something that I never thought that I would be able to do .The thought that he stood just right there listening to me without saying a word got me more pissed than I had ever been He acted so chill and cool , like he wasn't the one that I had been talking to .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I had his guts to the core , I didn’t want a thing to do with him .The both stood opposite each other without saying a word to the other .Deep inside of me , I was disappointed with what I said about my sex life , my sex life is mine and it’s a part. Of me that I actually do not love sharing but right now I think that I have spoken out of proportion and I will have to pay for it .Nothing was ever going to let me go with these , I wanted to hear those words that he didn’t want to say , I wanted him to beg I want to see him crawl and tell him telling me that he never meant all that he sai
The moment Trevor threw me into the car , he drove off .I couldn’t explain how I was feeling at this moment , but I had so many unexplainable feelings at this moment .So many things were going through my mind and the only thing that I could think of was jumping Off the car .I know that he didn’t care about my feelings or my emotions and there was nothing that I could do about it at this moment .If only he cared about me that much then maybe we wouldn’t be having this conversation .The one thing that I hated more was him acting like he didn’t get what I was trying to say .I hated him in my mind but turning to look at the guy beside me , I could literally feel my heart flutter .Trevor didn’t bother to spare me a glance , he kept driving , like I didn’t exist and it hurts so much to think that he sees me like this Maybe if I am that important to him then he wouldn’t have to act that way towards me .I hated him , I knew that .“ did you really have to say all that to m
Rico stopped immediately and pulled away from me .I fell to the ground in pain , unable to stand the pains that I was feeling in my legs at that moment .I didn’t know if I should cry or be happy or even scream .There was just so much that I had in mind , that I just wanted to say out that I haven’t been able to say .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I had just being raped by the same man that I thought loved me .All these years , I had thought that Chris had been one of the worst boyfriends that I ever had , but never did I think that it was him .I knew that no matter how pissed Chris was he wouid never rape me .But this monster just did .I fell to the ground and turned , the tears blurred my vision , but when I turned I saw him there .He kept grabbing his hands and screaming at no one in particular .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I haven’t seen . Him in a state like this before .The looks on his eyes were literally killing me and I knew it .I didn’t want to push it
Trevor pov When I went back home the first person that I noticed standing just by the door was Chris .I knew why he was calling me and I knew that it was the reason why he stood there waiting for me. I could tell that he was so mad at me at this point .The anger was so obvious in his face and I wondered if there was something that I had done apart from the one that I did .I carried rissa in my hands and straight into the house .She had slept off after crying for a long time .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I hated to see her cry , but the pain in her eyes , the way that she cursed at me , the way she told me to stay away from her .Those words triggered something in me and I don’t know if I would be able to think like a normal human being anymore .I had never been this hurt my entire life the way I was , the woman I loved cursed me out and I could do nothing about it but all that I could think of in my mind is why it had to happen to me . After I had dropped her in my room
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the
First glump , second glump and I was driving straight to shuan .In the midst of all this all that I wanted at this moment was to see my step dad , it was just as if he is the only one who wouldn’t judge me for what I wasNot even my mama called to ask me how my birthday went , I had never felt this way my entire life the way I am feeling right now .Maybe I am just being punished for all the stupid decisions that I had taken in my life , maybe next time I really do have to think before I make some stupid decisions .I drove straight into the compound and to my greatest surprise , Shaun was standing by the door and he was waiting for me .This was literally the last thing that I had ever expected him to do for me .I thought that he was going to be mad because of the way that I treated him the last time but instead he acted in the direct opposite of it and if I hadn’t chased him away , I wouldn’t be here right nis .The moment I came down , shuan walked towards me and getting to wh
I had the worst birthday ever .Yes you heard me right and I wasn’t bluffing when I said that I just had the worst birthday ever .I knew that I was the one who threw everyone around me away but I never said that they should avoid me for my special day .Maybe I had turned out to be that horrible bitch that literally no one wants to associate themselves with .Angel was the only one who literally called to check up and was here with me all throughout the night .I must say that she did her best even though we still had our fight .I know that I can’t blame her for that , after all I haven’t been the best girl towards her and I know that I have been living in her face all this while .Even though this hurt so much like hell , I don’t think that I will ever be ready to let anyone know that I have been screwing my step dad .I could never l , it’s the most disgraceful thing that I had ever thought of in my entire life and it's just like hell . For the first time ever in weeks , I f
Happy birthday my darling .” Angel's voice broke me out of my thoughts as she planted a soft kiss on my back .What do you suggest we do ? Trevor isn’t coming .My head snapped at the mention of his name and I turned to look at Angel who had made that statement .I felt sick to my stomach .I didn’t know what it was with her , I had told her severally , times without number that I do not want his name to be mentioned close to me but it’s just as if she can’t understand a word of what I am saying and she keeps on making that mistake over and over again it was like she was doing this on purpose .“ I told you that I didn’t want to hear his name no more why do you keep on mentioning his name? What do you aim to achieve by trying to get on my nerves .“ grab that damn phone , call him . Tell him that you are sorry “ she told me, obviously pissed .I turned to look at her , the anger and the hate burning inside my heart .“ No “ Angel's face turned to that of total horror when she
I just don’t get it , I don’t why he acts that way towards you, I don’t know when he is going to know that if you love someone , you have to stay with them and treat them right because you will never get a better version of it again .I smiled hearing her last statement , I know that she was just trying her best to make sure that I felt okay .I could tell that by just looking at her .I loved the way Angel would always make me feel welcomed regardless of what the situation might be .“ I will be fine baby , you don’t have to worry about me .Angel turned and gave me that look. I know that she was questioning everything that had got to do with me at this moment but I couldn’t help it , there is no way on earth that I would understand why this has to happen to me in the first place .“ It's been days since I last saw Trevor , I haven’t heard from him nor have I spoken to him .I have never been this mad at anyone my entire life the way I was so mad at him at this moment .The
Dirty affairs 106 The house has been so calm since my step dad left .I had so many thoughts that were going through my mind at the same time , I didn’t want to think that it was what I was thinking .I made sure that I cleaned my whole room and taking the last look at myself I knew that I was ready to go .I grabbed my keys from where they were and just as I was about going out , I bumped into Trevor .I know what he was doing here .I thought that he had gone away .I could see those looks and I could tell that they aren’t just looks , Thomas' judgemental looks were literally killing me .He stood there watching me and the only thing that kept going through my mind at this moment was when he got into the room because I know that he never did , not one that I was aware of .The both of us stood there in total silence not saying a word to the other even though we so much wanted to .I had never felt that intense feeling ever in my entire life , I could literally feel my hear
Trevor stupid there for a while without saying a word o the both of us .I had never been in a situation like this in my entire life , all that I wanted was for the ground to open and Swallow me .I had never been so speechless and the shock was something that I never expected .I knew that he left , but I never expected him to be this back this early .I couldn’t imagine what he had heard . what if he heard us talking about it? , I didn’t want to think that he heard about all the stufff that we had just said .The tears started pouring out of my eyes without control at that moment .I am pretty’s sure that he heard us talking about it and now I know that he would be planning on breaking up with me , I could never tell , I couldn’t imagine .These were the two important people in my life and i couldn’t belive the fact that I was just throwing them away .what the fuck is he doing here ? Shuan snapped at me angrily .I knew that he was pretending to be mad , he had no right
The rays of sunlight were the first thing that I saw and when I opened my eyes , I could see a figure standing there just right in front of me .I know that I moved out of my mom's house yesterday but what I couldn’t understand was who and how he got here . My eyes opened immediately and I saw the figure that was standing there. I knew that this wasn’t a fucking dream , it was him , he was standing right there and looking at me like I was some kind of movie .I could never understand this man , what the fuck was he doing here .For the record , I never wanted him to know where my house was .I knew what I did when I kept this away from him but the fact that he could still find it made it more challenging for me .“Shuan , wtf are you doing here ?” I scream at him at the top of my voice .I had never been so pissed at anyone the way I was so pissed at this man at this moment .I couldn’t imagine what might have happened between him and Trevor as I wasn’t here .I didn’t know