Dirty affairs 77Watching her go with him was one of the most disappointing things that had ever happened to me .I wasn’t one that could be defeated just like that but without proof , I know that I have been defeated and it really hurts to know that I lost that one to him again .Not again not after all that I have sworn to do to him but yet it seems like there's just too much around him that I just can’t win and that really hurts like hell , I can feel it .She got into dethro car and I watched them speed off and it was then that I noticed Anna who was standing by the other side of the car waiting for me .I had even forgotten that I was here with her , all my thoughts and thinking were just her .I didn’t know why , but I guess it is because of the way things go .“ can’t believe That you left me here in the car without caring to ask about how I am or faring just to go after a girl who would later deny you and go with another .I turned to see the mocking look on Anna gav
Whatever the reasons might be or what it might be , I don’t want to be a part of it and I know that he knows it .Days had not been easy , I could tell he was pissed by just standing there and stating here without doing a thing .I wanted to go back home but I couldn’t because I am not even on good terms with my mom .I know that sooner or later I would have no choice but to do those things that I thought that I would never find myself doing .It hurts thinking that my life could be a mess just because I like a boy .For all the things that a guy had done to me ever , this had gotten to be the worst that had ever happened . It hurts to even think that I am still okay thinking about him right now and no matter what it does , it seems like I would never let him go , that is how guile I am to him right now and that really hurts like hell , more than I had ever imagined .From the day I left that party , I had not set my eyes on Trevor again .It’s just as if , he flew away from the
Dirty affairs 79I had never felt that much guilt that I was feeling at this point .So many things went through my mind at the same time and all that I could think of is , what would have happened , if something stupid happened to her .I could never explain how grateful that we all got back in the same peace .But this is literally her fault , she didn’t tell me about her illness , if I had known about it , then I wouldn’t have dared to do that .With each time that passed by , all that I did was watch the food that was on the table .It was just a day more to a freaking new year and a new session in school and there was literally nothing for me and all that I am thinking of is how not to get on his nerves .Both Dante and Trevor had the same character .The fact that Dante hasn’t said a word to me since the day I stepped my leg into this house made it harder for me to understand the kind of family that this was .They were acting so weird and their characters were totally out of
The drive was long , longer than I had ever thought or imagined .Never did I think that it was going to be this long but now that it was , I had to act like I was okay deep down .I knew that I had so much to say to him at this moment but I just decided to let things go .I know how much I missed him and even though he is so toxic , I don’t think that I would be able to leave him now and that is the only reason why I am in this car with him .I had seen him throw glances at me as we drove .I didn’t want to hear a thing from him , not even a word .I know he can be manipulative and I am not about to let him use that on me .I knew that his words had an effect on me and just one word from him and I would be on my knees the next moment begging for his dick .“ I am sorry , I never meant to do any of that to you , I am so sorry that you got to see that side of me and now you will have to hide me by that .Believe me when I say that it wasn’t the plan and I was so jealous when I sa
I lost my dad to the cold hands of death two years after I was born and that only made me not meet my dad .I grew up with my mom being my backbone , my sole provider of everything that I needed and asked for in my entire life .All my life I had grown up to see that woman as my idol , she was my fucking , my god in human form , never had I felt that way for anyone the way that I felt for her .Growing up , she made sure that she never got married to any man and focused all her attention on me and made sure that I lacked nothing and I had literally everything that I needed .Taking care of me was never the problem as I had a lot of money since dad was a millionaire and he had given everything that he had to me and that made it really good for mom and I to be comfortable .The love I had for mom was second to none , all this years , I had watched her mourn my dad and still wallow in the pain of the past , but that wasn’t what I wanted for her , I wanted her to be happy and ge
I watched my mom and her husband behave all lovely dovey from where I sat .I could tell that they were both madly in love with each other .Since mom got married to her husband , we decided to move out of our apartment to that of my step dad .I would really say that I really underestimated the capability of my step dad .This wasn’t a fucking house , it was a fucking mansion .I couldn’t contain my excitement when I saw it , it was literally the best that I had ever thought of in my entire life. I loved it . My step dad, who I learned his name was Shaun, mom and her husband didn't go on any honeymoon , they said they weren’t going since they had a lot of work loads on ground and so they just gave themselves a week to have some time to themselves .I didn’t actually want to move in with my mom because I wanted to give her that privacy and time that they needed , but mom I started that I live with them . I didn’t bother to argue with her because In the next fe
It’s been two weeks since that incident with my step father took place at my room .I had made sure that since then , I did literally everything that I could to avoid him , there was no way that I was going to sit right there and watch that happen to me again .After what happened that day , I had to think about it all through , getting worked up over it , but suspringly he acted like Nothing of such ever Happened.I should really be happy that the both of us never had the chance to speak about what had happened that day and I wish that we never do because I just can’t imagine how weird it would be to find out that my step dad saw my naked body not even my best friend could find out about it .The most shocking of it all was the fact that , since that day the incident happened , I have been getting different stupid thoughts that I hoped I didn’t let into my head , but somehow , they are stuck in my head and I just can’t let them go .If my step dad , couid see my naked body , then I s
Two weeks passed and all that I wanted to do was go To college .I just couldn’t stay one more moment in this house .I felt like I was losing my senses .I couldn’t accept the fact that this was me .The thoughts going through my head we're making me go insane and making me question if I was normal.No matter what it was , I just couldn’t accept it .After the incident that happened that night at the kitchen , I have done everything humanly possible to avoid my step dad .I knew that I wasn’t in the right state of mind , but one thing I knew was that I said those words out of my mouth and when he touched me , I never stopped him .The way he touched me , I had never felt that way before , not even when my boyfriend did .There was just something about it that I just couldn’t explain .I knew that it was wrong , having dirty thoughts about my stepfather who was my mom's husband was more chilling but I just can’t accept it no matter how much I tried .Shuan touched my breast tha