I stood still in that same spot thinking that he was going to come back , but to my greatest surprise he never did and even his friend noah also drove past me without saying a word .I knew my life was ruined standing there in the next five minutes without knowing anybody .Was I hurt ?Yes I was but I wasn’t going to start crying over that .The pains I was literally feeling at this moment , was nothing that I had ever thought of .For the first time I regretted leaving my step dad. I knew that no matter how mad Shaun was , he would never leave me in a place like this. How could they do this to me now?From where I stood the only thing that I could see was the street light .The fact that he dumped me just after he got out of the party is the most crazy part of it .There were no vehicles and even if there were , I wasn’t in the United States , I was aside my own country and a bit was making my life hell like this .I hate Trevor , with everything that I have in me .I didn’t kn
Dirty affairs 77Watching her go with him was one of the most disappointing things that had ever happened to me .I wasn’t one that could be defeated just like that but without proof , I know that I have been defeated and it really hurts to know that I lost that one to him again .Not again not after all that I have sworn to do to him but yet it seems like there's just too much around him that I just can’t win and that really hurts like hell , I can feel it .She got into dethro car and I watched them speed off and it was then that I noticed Anna who was standing by the other side of the car waiting for me .I had even forgotten that I was here with her , all my thoughts and thinking were just her .I didn’t know why , but I guess it is because of the way things go .“ can’t believe That you left me here in the car without caring to ask about how I am or faring just to go after a girl who would later deny you and go with another .I turned to see the mocking look on Anna gav
Whatever the reasons might be or what it might be , I don’t want to be a part of it and I know that he knows it .Days had not been easy , I could tell he was pissed by just standing there and stating here without doing a thing .I wanted to go back home but I couldn’t because I am not even on good terms with my mom .I know that sooner or later I would have no choice but to do those things that I thought that I would never find myself doing .It hurts thinking that my life could be a mess just because I like a boy .For all the things that a guy had done to me ever , this had gotten to be the worst that had ever happened . It hurts to even think that I am still okay thinking about him right now and no matter what it does , it seems like I would never let him go , that is how guile I am to him right now and that really hurts like hell , more than I had ever imagined .From the day I left that party , I had not set my eyes on Trevor again .It’s just as if , he flew away from the
Dirty affairs 79I had never felt that much guilt that I was feeling at this point .So many things went through my mind at the same time and all that I could think of is , what would have happened , if something stupid happened to her .I could never explain how grateful that we all got back in the same peace .But this is literally her fault , she didn’t tell me about her illness , if I had known about it , then I wouldn’t have dared to do that .With each time that passed by , all that I did was watch the food that was on the table .It was just a day more to a freaking new year and a new session in school and there was literally nothing for me and all that I am thinking of is how not to get on his nerves .Both Dante and Trevor had the same character .The fact that Dante hasn’t said a word to me since the day I stepped my leg into this house made it harder for me to understand the kind of family that this was .They were acting so weird and their characters were totally out of
The drive was long , longer than I had ever thought or imagined .Never did I think that it was going to be this long but now that it was , I had to act like I was okay deep down .I knew that I had so much to say to him at this moment but I just decided to let things go .I know how much I missed him and even though he is so toxic , I don’t think that I would be able to leave him now and that is the only reason why I am in this car with him .I had seen him throw glances at me as we drove .I didn’t want to hear a thing from him , not even a word .I know he can be manipulative and I am not about to let him use that on me .I knew that his words had an effect on me and just one word from him and I would be on my knees the next moment begging for his dick .“ I am sorry , I never meant to do any of that to you , I am so sorry that you got to see that side of me and now you will have to hide me by that .Believe me when I say that it wasn’t the plan and I was so jealous when I sa
I knew that I had said my piece and I was literally trying to catch my breath after yelling at him , something that I never thought that I would be able to do .The thought that he stood just right there listening to me without saying a word got me more pissed than I had ever been He acted so chill and cool , like he wasn't the one that I had been talking to .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I had his guts to the core , I didn’t want a thing to do with him .The both stood opposite each other without saying a word to the other .Deep inside of me , I was disappointed with what I said about my sex life , my sex life is mine and it’s a part. Of me that I actually do not love sharing but right now I think that I have spoken out of proportion and I will have to pay for it .Nothing was ever going to let me go with these , I wanted to hear those words that he didn’t want to say , I wanted him to beg I want to see him crawl and tell him telling me that he never meant all that he sai
The moment Trevor threw me into the car , he drove off .I couldn’t explain how I was feeling at this moment , but I had so many unexplainable feelings at this moment .So many things were going through my mind and the only thing that I could think of was jumping Off the car .I know that he didn’t care about my feelings or my emotions and there was nothing that I could do about it at this moment .If only he cared about me that much then maybe we wouldn’t be having this conversation .The one thing that I hated more was him acting like he didn’t get what I was trying to say .I hated him in my mind but turning to look at the guy beside me , I could literally feel my heart flutter .Trevor didn’t bother to spare me a glance , he kept driving , like I didn’t exist and it hurts so much to think that he sees me like this Maybe if I am that important to him then he wouldn’t have to act that way towards me .I hated him , I knew that .“ did you really have to say all that to m
Rico stopped immediately and pulled away from me .I fell to the ground in pain , unable to stand the pains that I was feeling in my legs at that moment .I didn’t know if I should cry or be happy or even scream .There was just so much that I had in mind , that I just wanted to say out that I haven’t been able to say .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I had just being raped by the same man that I thought loved me .All these years , I had thought that Chris had been one of the worst boyfriends that I ever had , but never did I think that it was him .I knew that no matter how pissed Chris was he wouid never rape me .But this monster just did .I fell to the ground and turned , the tears blurred my vision , but when I turned I saw him there .He kept grabbing his hands and screaming at no one in particular .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I haven’t seen . Him in a state like this before .The looks on his eyes were literally killing me and I knew it .I didn’t want to push it