A fucking disease

Whatever the reasons might be or what it might be , I don’t want to be a part of it and I know that he knows it .

Days had not been easy , I could tell he was pissed by just standing there and stating here without doing a thing .

I wanted to go back home but I couldn’t because I am not even on good terms with my mom .

I know that sooner or later I would have no choice but to do those things that I thought that I would never find myself doing .

It hurts thinking that my life could be a mess just because I like a boy .

For all the things that a guy had done to me ever , this had gotten to be the worst that had ever happened .

It hurts to even think that I am still okay thinking about him right now and no matter what it does , it seems like I would never let him go , that is how guile I am to him right now and that really hurts like hell , more than I had ever imagined .

From the day I left that party , I had not set my eyes on Trevor again .

It’s just as if , he flew away from the