Dirty affairs 79I had never felt that much guilt that I was feeling at this point .So many things went through my mind at the same time and all that I could think of is , what would have happened , if something stupid happened to her .I could never explain how grateful that we all got back in the same peace .But this is literally her fault , she didn’t tell me about her illness , if I had known about it , then I wouldn’t have dared to do that .With each time that passed by , all that I did was watch the food that was on the table .It was just a day more to a freaking new year and a new session in school and there was literally nothing for me and all that I am thinking of is how not to get on his nerves .Both Dante and Trevor had the same character .The fact that Dante hasn’t said a word to me since the day I stepped my leg into this house made it harder for me to understand the kind of family that this was .They were acting so weird and their characters were totally out of
The drive was long , longer than I had ever thought or imagined .Never did I think that it was going to be this long but now that it was , I had to act like I was okay deep down .I knew that I had so much to say to him at this moment but I just decided to let things go .I know how much I missed him and even though he is so toxic , I don’t think that I would be able to leave him now and that is the only reason why I am in this car with him .I had seen him throw glances at me as we drove .I didn’t want to hear a thing from him , not even a word .I know he can be manipulative and I am not about to let him use that on me .I knew that his words had an effect on me and just one word from him and I would be on my knees the next moment begging for his dick .“ I am sorry , I never meant to do any of that to you , I am so sorry that you got to see that side of me and now you will have to hide me by that .Believe me when I say that it wasn’t the plan and I was so jealous when I sa
I knew that I had said my piece and I was literally trying to catch my breath after yelling at him , something that I never thought that I would be able to do .The thought that he stood just right there listening to me without saying a word got me more pissed than I had ever been He acted so chill and cool , like he wasn't the one that I had been talking to .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I had his guts to the core , I didn’t want a thing to do with him .The both stood opposite each other without saying a word to the other .Deep inside of me , I was disappointed with what I said about my sex life , my sex life is mine and it’s a part. Of me that I actually do not love sharing but right now I think that I have spoken out of proportion and I will have to pay for it .Nothing was ever going to let me go with these , I wanted to hear those words that he didn’t want to say , I wanted him to beg I want to see him crawl and tell him telling me that he never meant all that he sai
The moment Trevor threw me into the car , he drove off .I couldn’t explain how I was feeling at this moment , but I had so many unexplainable feelings at this moment .So many things were going through my mind and the only thing that I could think of was jumping Off the car .I know that he didn’t care about my feelings or my emotions and there was nothing that I could do about it at this moment .If only he cared about me that much then maybe we wouldn’t be having this conversation .The one thing that I hated more was him acting like he didn’t get what I was trying to say .I hated him in my mind but turning to look at the guy beside me , I could literally feel my heart flutter .Trevor didn’t bother to spare me a glance , he kept driving , like I didn’t exist and it hurts so much to think that he sees me like this Maybe if I am that important to him then he wouldn’t have to act that way towards me .I hated him , I knew that .“ did you really have to say all that to m
Rico stopped immediately and pulled away from me .I fell to the ground in pain , unable to stand the pains that I was feeling in my legs at that moment .I didn’t know if I should cry or be happy or even scream .There was just so much that I had in mind , that I just wanted to say out that I haven’t been able to say .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I had just being raped by the same man that I thought loved me .All these years , I had thought that Chris had been one of the worst boyfriends that I ever had , but never did I think that it was him .I knew that no matter how pissed Chris was he wouid never rape me .But this monster just did .I fell to the ground and turned , the tears blurred my vision , but when I turned I saw him there .He kept grabbing his hands and screaming at no one in particular .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I haven’t seen . Him in a state like this before .The looks on his eyes were literally killing me and I knew it .I didn’t want to push it
Trevor pov When I went back home the first person that I noticed standing just by the door was Chris .I knew why he was calling me and I knew that it was the reason why he stood there waiting for me. I could tell that he was so mad at me at this point .The anger was so obvious in his face and I wondered if there was something that I had done apart from the one that I did .I carried rissa in my hands and straight into the house .She had slept off after crying for a long time .I wouldn’t deny the fact that I hated to see her cry , but the pain in her eyes , the way that she cursed at me , the way she told me to stay away from her .Those words triggered something in me and I don’t know if I would be able to think like a normal human being anymore .I had never been this hurt my entire life the way I was , the woman I loved cursed me out and I could do nothing about it but all that I could think of in my mind is why it had to happen to me . After I had dropped her in my room
After I was done saying things that I wanted her to hear . I walked out of the room unable to understand why I did that to her .When I walked out Chris was standing just by the door .I knew that I didn’t want to listen to whatever that he had to say , I just had no time for that , I didn't want to listen to whatever it was that he had to say .“Do not act like you didn’t see me , or have been standing here and waiting for you to come out “I turned to look at Chris , he had his hands tucked inside his pocket and I could tell that he was mad at he but definitely not tonight .“ not tonight Chris , I want some time alone , whatever that it is that you want to say you can keep it tomorrow because I don’t think I want to listen to whatever that you want to say , I don’t have the time neither do I have the energy for that , so you just have to stop it and let’s not go into any argument , I am not in the best frame of mind to let that happen .“ What did you do to her ?” Chris word
Shuan sat just by the fire trying to catch some heat .From the way he sat there , you could tell that he had stuffs bothering him at that moment and even though he was doing a better job at hiding it .Shuan opened the book in his hand and flipped through the page while trying to understand why he was so fucking worried .He knew that he was trying all his best to make sure that he put it all behind him but why did it have to be so .His wife walked in through the door that was at the back and walked up to him .“ Are you sure you want nothing ?” The woman asked him again .Shuan raised up his head from the book that he held on his Hands and stood up to his wife .“You know what , I am beginning to think about having your as a wife , I am beginning to think that you are not worthy to be called my wife , I still don’t get it , I still don’t get how you can still be this calm .Today is literally the last day of the year and you have no fucking idea about where your child i
when was the last time that I instructed that none of you should dare to cross me again , I am pretty sure that I made it clear that this organization is to be ruined by me , I am the head here and I am literally the strongest but you think that since I am away , I have becomes weak and soft and I am not longer fit to be the leader and then you think that getting my goods and trying to cover my stuffs behind my back is going to give you guys the power that you need to impeach , what makes you all think that it could happen , you all really underestimate me and what I can really do . Why don’t you tell me that it was him who had asked you all to vote me out , without me not being here and being in charge and yet you all agreed thinking that it is literally the eyes test decision that you all would make .I know that you all bastard didn’t think about it all , he was the mastermind of it all and you all are literally going astray .I pointed my gun towards him and he did the sa
It’s been two long weeks since I last saw Angel .I didn’t know where she was and I couldn’t tell if she was coming or not. I had tried my best to stay away from her. It seemed like she needed time on her own , so she told me and I hoped that it was true .I didn’t want to burden her with all my issues , I didn’t want to be that friend that would only care about themselves .I know that I am going through something right now and the least that I could have was a friend but was that friend coming .I know that Angel loved me and whatever it was that was holding her was as meaningful as me being all alone .Staying in this house had been nothing but exhausting , I had thought about life in ways that I never thought that I could do , or knew that I was just being this way because I was alone but this was the least that I could do at this moment , it had her. Clear to me that I couldn’t do more .It was best that this whole stuff had gone down and all the insults were beginning to re
Rage , anger and deceit was what I felt the moment that she walked out of that door. It seems like her words left a big mark on my heart and the moment she left , I couldn’t stop thinking about what she had just told me .That bitch , she had the nerves to send her here after doing the most unthinkable things that you never think that a girl as quiet and loving and calm like her could do but then I should just let all of it go like it never happened and then act like everything is fine , that was never going to happen not even on my watch .As I stood in that room dropping the piece of taboo that I could find . I felt helpless .I didn’t know why I had to feel this way towards a bitch , yes that was exactly what she was and I know that she isn’t going to be a bitch anytime soon .For the longest that I could remember I knew that I didn’t want that girl , I never wanted anything to do with her , all of this wasn't planned but here I was stuck with some bitch who doesn’t even like me
Two more weeks passed .I was broken , broken beyond words , I had not been able to leave the house and I had been mopping my life .I felt weak , I felt like I was some kind of piece of shit and for the first time in a long while , I felt disgusted with myself . I didn’t know what I was thinking that made me mess myself up till this level , I could never have imagined that this was going to come to this level . I hadn’t been able to pick up myself after ending that relationship with Trevor .i knew that he was never dating me and I was never in a relationship with them , but what could I do , I knew that there was literally nothing that I was going to do at this point that was going to make me love again , it seems like he has no fucking intrest in me and it was time that I moved on too , it was time that I did the same thing , I wasn’t going to be mopping over a guy who had no fucking intrest on me , that would be more like a slap on me .I loved the fact that my mom hadn't
You didn’t do that to spite me off right ?”Angel loud voice came from the living room as I tried to wash off the soap that I had on my face .I couldn’t imagine what was making her scream that much .I quickly washed the water off my face and wore the shirt that I could quickly put my hands on when I got out of the room .After putting it on , I rushed out of the room and to the living room and that was when I met the greatest shock of my life .He was literally the last person that I wanted to see in my life right and seeing him here was making me go insane .Just a week ago I had made sure that I had cut off every contact that I had with shush and then he was here .I still don’t get it with this bastard , I don’t get what it was that they wanted from me .I was so done being that crazy bitch , I was done crying and thinking about what people had gotten to say about me .Everyone can go to hell for all that I care about , I actually do not care what anyone has to say about m
The worst happened , the worst really did happen to me .Never did I think that a day would come that I would be going like this with my own mother .My mom was trying to make my life a living hell and it hurts to know that she is the one doing all of this to me .From all the stuff that I had done in this life , I think that mom had done worse but the nerves that she has to throw stones like she lives in a glass house .I could never have imagined how things managed to turn out this way .She found that I was sleeping with her husband but now she was the one who had set me up to be fucked by that man and yet she has the guts to throw such tantrums .My mom had hurt me more than I could have even thought of or even still imagined .I knew that the both of us were falling off so fast but it hurts to know, this woman gave birth to me and even though I betrayed her , she betrayed me too .I knew that it was best that I try and put all the thoughts that I was having at this moment
Dirty affairs 113From what I have just heard from everyone that I care to know , you have been told that you are really pushing through with that divorce ?”You know what shuan , I think that I am done playing that dumb game with you when you know that all of this is for our own best interest .You cannot just walk in here and tell me that you are pushing through with that divorce , you and I both know that I am not going to let it go and I am sure that you do not want that to happen . “ maybe you should have thought about that when you decided to go tell her that it was a fucking plan .I know that we are both in this together but u have made it clear to you that I do not want to ne part of this anymore .I just don’t get why this is so hard for you to understand or get into those skull of yours .When I met you I knew that there was something about us that I really want to trash and I made it clear to you that I didn’t want a fucking marriage .You know how much
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the