I didn’t know how long I waited , but I knew that it’s been two weeks since I met Trevor and since he sent me that text but till this day , that guy never dared to text me .I knew that I shouldn’t be waiting for his text because Angel had told me that I should fall for him .But I just can’t take his face off my head and no matter how much I try to forget about him , the more the thought of him keeps coming back and it’s making me go I save becatse I knew that he is not in the same delima with me and I am just the only one don is looking herself over a man who disent give a fuck about me and it’s making me go insane thinking about it alone .For one moment , I must say that I admired that he was so good looking , but what could I say .There was absolutely nothing that I haven’t thought of and I just think all of that is just making it worse .For the past one week Angel and I had become suprinsly close and I was beginning to like her the more .I had hanged out with her just a
I didn’t know if Elsa's parents' divorce hit her that hard , but after what she told me , I was beginning to see that she was definitely not okay .But the one that made me wonder was if she was just using this divorce to show that side of her that I had never seen before , for some reasons I didn’t find that explanation to be enough .I didn’t know if I was just joking but I didn’t know why my mom would hide such crucial information from me .If something like that was happening , I think that she would have told me earlier and not me finding out in this manner .I didn’t know if I should be mad at my mom or myself , but I didn’t want to push it because all I knew was that when I got home , I was definitely going to ask my mom and I wanted her to give me good reasons why she kept something like that away from me .After that conversation with me and her in the car, I apologized to her and told her that I wasn’t going to leave her again .Elsa just nodded and we drove back to get
I didn’t know how long I slept but when I woke up , I found out that it was already dark and judging from my state , I knew that I was in Elsa's house .I could hear the screams coming out from the living room and I wondered why they were shouting that loudly .I just didn’t see why they had to shout that loudly .I walked out of the room and to the living room and when I got there all that I could was the three of them getting all dressed up .The mini skirt that they wore was nothing to write home about .I couldn’t understand why they were getting dressed when I was still sleeping .“Oh the sleeping beauty is awake “ the blonde girl said and that was when Elsa turned and when she saw me , she just smiled and mouthed an oh .I didn’t know why I felt the way I was feeling but so many things were going through my head by just standing there .I didn’t want to start thinking that they were leaving me .“Why don’t you go in and freshen up, I actually didn’t want to disturb yo
Walking out of the club , I tried to look behind to see if Elsa would text me and tell me that she was joking .But as I walked out , she didn’t even bother to look at me but instead she kept gifting with her friends like none of it ever happened .I was hurt that she would treat me this way , I was doing everything possible to make sure this friendship works again and that’s the only reason why I decided to come here with her , but that bitch had just dumped my ass for a boy and at this moment I was more than hurt .I hated the fact that I didn’t come with a car , I would have driven home .I didn’t know why a club had to be in such an areas as this .There were no moving vehicles and the only thing seems to be going on here was just the club and the street was surprisingly quite . I tried my best to hide the fear that I had in my heart .I didn’t want to be shaken .I walked away from the club and just as I walked a bit further , I could notice that there was someone follo
The drive back to my home was the longest that I had ever encountered in a while , so many thoughts went through my head as Angel drove me home .I had so many unanswered questions in my head that I really needed the answers to but I just can’t find the right words in my head to say it out .While walking out of Trevor room”I wondered why I didn’t get to see him before I leave but I just couldn’t find the right words to use or say .“You know what , I don’t think that your friendship with Elsa is going to work out , I don’t want to get mad at you because that’s your life and it had gotten nothing to do with me but I am just trying to voice out my concerns as a friend ““ that girl doesn’t like you and I know it , the fact that she could leave you to go out alone , means that she had that in mind all this while ““I don’t know what would have happened if Trevor hadn’t found you on time , the bastard almost had his ways with you after pulling off your clothed and the most stupides
It’s been one month since the whole incident that happened .I didn’t want to start thinking about the events that happened after that because the more I want to think about it , the more I feel like my brain is going to explode if I tried to do that .I didn’t know why I was so hurt that someone did that to me , but I just didn’t know why though .My mom hadn’t spoken to me even though I have apologized a billion times telling her how sorry I was .I knew I was way out of line that day with what I said to her , but I was hurt too and I just wanted her to feel the same pain that I felt that was the reason why I said that .I must say that I regret saying that and I wished that I could turn back the hands of time but I just didn’t know how I was going to do it .Since that day elsa had been on my neck telling me how sorry she was and never meant to let me go just like that , but I wasn’t having that .She just showed me how much she hated me and didn’t want me to grow .She can
Mom's uncle 's burial ceremony was fixed for the next day and so we had to fly back home to our state .Getting back to the state that I had grown up in , I felt weird , I didn’t know if this was just it or I was wrong for feeling that way .I couldn’t remember the last time that I came back home and I seem to have forgotten all about it and it brings back some memories that I didn’t want to talk about .It still hurts to know that I haven’t been able to sort things out with my mama . This wasn’t what I had planned and what I thought my life was going to be .It hurts so much knowing that my mom and I weren't in good terms and I just wished that it wasn’t true .My step dad and my mom sat in another car while I sat in another , mom said that she couldn’t stand me being in the same space with her .I was hurt but I never dared to show it in my face after all I was the one who hurt her first , now I have to dance to the music of what I started .When I saw the mansion in front of
The Night felt so long and I tried my best to have a good night's rest .It was just 8pm and since I came back I haven’t been able to get out of the room because of the judgmental look that I was definitely going to get .I just didn’t want anyone staring at me in that manner , it was definitely going to get on my nerves .Sarah walked into the room that the both of us were going to share and when she saw that I had already unpack , she just looked away , she didn’t even bother to look at me .“Hi Sarah , it’s been long since I last saw you “I told her trying to kill the awkward silence that was going on in the room , I didn’t want that .Sarah just turned to look at me and gave me that are you okay stare and didn’t even bother to look at me .She hissed and walked out of the room .I didn’t know how I felt , but that was it , I was mad and losing it , if she knew that this was how her family was going to treat me , then why did she bring me along , she would have just let me
when was the last time that I instructed that none of you should dare to cross me again , I am pretty sure that I made it clear that this organization is to be ruined by me , I am the head here and I am literally the strongest but you think that since I am away , I have becomes weak and soft and I am not longer fit to be the leader and then you think that getting my goods and trying to cover my stuffs behind my back is going to give you guys the power that you need to impeach , what makes you all think that it could happen , you all really underestimate me and what I can really do . Why don’t you tell me that it was him who had asked you all to vote me out , without me not being here and being in charge and yet you all agreed thinking that it is literally the eyes test decision that you all would make .I know that you all bastard didn’t think about it all , he was the mastermind of it all and you all are literally going astray .I pointed my gun towards him and he did the sa
It’s been two long weeks since I last saw Angel .I didn’t know where she was and I couldn’t tell if she was coming or not. I had tried my best to stay away from her. It seemed like she needed time on her own , so she told me and I hoped that it was true .I didn’t want to burden her with all my issues , I didn’t want to be that friend that would only care about themselves .I know that I am going through something right now and the least that I could have was a friend but was that friend coming .I know that Angel loved me and whatever it was that was holding her was as meaningful as me being all alone .Staying in this house had been nothing but exhausting , I had thought about life in ways that I never thought that I could do , or knew that I was just being this way because I was alone but this was the least that I could do at this moment , it had her. Clear to me that I couldn’t do more .It was best that this whole stuff had gone down and all the insults were beginning to re
Rage , anger and deceit was what I felt the moment that she walked out of that door. It seems like her words left a big mark on my heart and the moment she left , I couldn’t stop thinking about what she had just told me .That bitch , she had the nerves to send her here after doing the most unthinkable things that you never think that a girl as quiet and loving and calm like her could do but then I should just let all of it go like it never happened and then act like everything is fine , that was never going to happen not even on my watch .As I stood in that room dropping the piece of taboo that I could find . I felt helpless .I didn’t know why I had to feel this way towards a bitch , yes that was exactly what she was and I know that she isn’t going to be a bitch anytime soon .For the longest that I could remember I knew that I didn’t want that girl , I never wanted anything to do with her , all of this wasn't planned but here I was stuck with some bitch who doesn’t even like me
Two more weeks passed .I was broken , broken beyond words , I had not been able to leave the house and I had been mopping my life .I felt weak , I felt like I was some kind of piece of shit and for the first time in a long while , I felt disgusted with myself . I didn’t know what I was thinking that made me mess myself up till this level , I could never have imagined that this was going to come to this level . I hadn’t been able to pick up myself after ending that relationship with Trevor .i knew that he was never dating me and I was never in a relationship with them , but what could I do , I knew that there was literally nothing that I was going to do at this point that was going to make me love again , it seems like he has no fucking intrest in me and it was time that I moved on too , it was time that I did the same thing , I wasn’t going to be mopping over a guy who had no fucking intrest on me , that would be more like a slap on me .I loved the fact that my mom hadn't
You didn’t do that to spite me off right ?”Angel loud voice came from the living room as I tried to wash off the soap that I had on my face .I couldn’t imagine what was making her scream that much .I quickly washed the water off my face and wore the shirt that I could quickly put my hands on when I got out of the room .After putting it on , I rushed out of the room and to the living room and that was when I met the greatest shock of my life .He was literally the last person that I wanted to see in my life right and seeing him here was making me go insane .Just a week ago I had made sure that I had cut off every contact that I had with shush and then he was here .I still don’t get it with this bastard , I don’t get what it was that they wanted from me .I was so done being that crazy bitch , I was done crying and thinking about what people had gotten to say about me .Everyone can go to hell for all that I care about , I actually do not care what anyone has to say about m
The worst happened , the worst really did happen to me .Never did I think that a day would come that I would be going like this with my own mother .My mom was trying to make my life a living hell and it hurts to know that she is the one doing all of this to me .From all the stuff that I had done in this life , I think that mom had done worse but the nerves that she has to throw stones like she lives in a glass house .I could never have imagined how things managed to turn out this way .She found that I was sleeping with her husband but now she was the one who had set me up to be fucked by that man and yet she has the guts to throw such tantrums .My mom had hurt me more than I could have even thought of or even still imagined .I knew that the both of us were falling off so fast but it hurts to know, this woman gave birth to me and even though I betrayed her , she betrayed me too .I knew that it was best that I try and put all the thoughts that I was having at this moment
Dirty affairs 113From what I have just heard from everyone that I care to know , you have been told that you are really pushing through with that divorce ?”You know what shuan , I think that I am done playing that dumb game with you when you know that all of this is for our own best interest .You cannot just walk in here and tell me that you are pushing through with that divorce , you and I both know that I am not going to let it go and I am sure that you do not want that to happen . “ maybe you should have thought about that when you decided to go tell her that it was a fucking plan .I know that we are both in this together but u have made it clear to you that I do not want to ne part of this anymore .I just don’t get why this is so hard for you to understand or get into those skull of yours .When I met you I knew that there was something about us that I really want to trash and I made it clear to you that I didn’t want a fucking marriage .You know how much
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the