The Night felt so long and I tried my best to have a good night's rest .It was just 8pm and since I came back I haven’t been able to get out of the room because of the judgmental look that I was definitely going to get .I just didn’t want anyone staring at me in that manner , it was definitely going to get on my nerves .Sarah walked into the room that the both of us were going to share and when she saw that I had already unpack , she just looked away , she didn’t even bother to look at me .“Hi Sarah , it’s been long since I last saw you “I told her trying to kill the awkward silence that was going on in the room , I didn’t want that .Sarah just turned to look at me and gave me that are you okay stare and didn’t even bother to look at me .She hissed and walked out of the room .I didn’t know how I felt , but that was it , I was mad and losing it , if she knew that this was how her family was going to treat me , then why did she bring me along , she would have just let me
My blood ran cold heading my mom ask my step dad that .I tried my best not to show the panic that I had in my face at that moment .I didn’t want to scream or cry or say trash about it .“ so tell me shuan , you are having an affair with my daughter huh “mom repeated this time more loudly “You are going nuts , I just want to believe that all of this stuff that has happened in your life that’s making you say this shit , because how can you sit there and ask me something crazy like that? Do you think that lowly of me?“I see the way you stare at her , the way you support her and the way you always offer to give her things and make her feel comfortable , I see the way you want her to be happy and always around you , I should have known , I should have known ““That’s it , I think it’s high time that I leave this place , for fuck sake girl , I love you and you know that .I didn’t care if you had a grown up daughter or not , when I found out about her , I didn’t even get mad a
Mom's uncle was laid to rest the next day just as it had been said that it would be done .Shuan and I didn’t return home last night but last night he stayed at a hotel and booked two rooms making it look like we slept in different rooms but instead we slept together and it was the best night of my life .The sex was amazing , thinking about the stuffs he did to me , I just couldn’t imagine the next time I was having him .I made sure that he ignored all of mom's texts and faced me .I knew that was his wife but my mom was way out of her line and needed to learn her lesson .I just don’t care if he loved her or not , but I am so ready to teach her that .I wasn’t going to be living here and that’s for sure , it isn’t something that’s up for discussion , I am definitely going back with them .Any minute from my step dad could kill me .I watched shuan consoled my mom as the casket was lowered to the grave .I could hear the pains from everyone's voice as they cried and I cou
Papa `` your little girl is here again and this time she's here all alone and she's so hurt because her mama had decided to choose a man over her .Mom accused me of sleeping with her husband and it’s crazy for her to think that way .I don’t know if I would be able to look at her face and call her my mother again , that’s how hurt I am right now and I don’t want that to happen .I know that it’s been long since I visited you, I just wanted to tell you that I had a lot going on and I wished that you were here to see it .You know that feeling of having your father around .I don’t know if I am feeling this way because mom and I aren’t on good terms. I shouldn’t be feeling this way and I know that , but I am hurt .It’s just as if I have a long journey and there’s no one to support apart from Elsa , dad remember Elsa the last friend I told you about .Well the both of us also got in a fight but we gave settled and along the line I have gotten a new friend and I like her and I
Summer came almost immediately .I knew how much I loved summer and I always prayed and wanted it to come and now that it was here , I was so happy .The thought that the rain was going to stop and the sun shine on us made it more unique. I just loved this and didn’t want it to end anything soon .I was so happy that things didn’t go wrong the way I thought it was going to go and things went out well .It’s been over a month since mom uncle was laid to rest .After that small talk me and mom had , I have decided to come back home and live with them .I knew that mom wanted some attention and space in the marriage and so I knew that it was best that I rented out an apartment and then I could do all the shit I wanted to do and also my mom and husband could have all the time of their lives together without me having to be in the picture but what could I do , there was absolutely nothing that I could do , just even at this moment .I wanted to start house hunting and get an a
It was funny how I thought that my life was going to end in a couple of months that had just passed but here I was , happy, alive and healthy and I was even beginning to forget about all the incident that happened over the past few months even though I do not wish to think about it , it just keeps coming back and it’s more like a memory that’s stuck in my head .“ don’t tell me you stood here waiting for me ?” Elsa asked me as she came out of her car .Elsa wore a mini ripped Jean and a black crop top to match with her hair packed in a ponytail , that only told me that she wasn’t having it and wasn’t in the mood for any convo .I watched her get to where I was and when she did , I hugged her .“ You look pretty today “ I told her and she smiled showing every tooth that she had in her mouth .“It’s so nice hearing you compliment me “ I raised my head up trying to understand what she was saying .I know that the both of us had fought a lot but I just can’t deny the f
After spending two extra weeks at home , I finally decided to resume since I didn’t have a lot going on at that moment .I was already behind in so many ways and I wondered how I was going to catch up to all of that .One thing I knew that I would do is for my result to come out and I was slacking behind , that was the only reason why I decided to go to that school , I didn’t want to be far behind .When I got into the classroom, I saw Angel already seated at some spot and also saw Elsa sitting with her two friends .In as much as I would love to make things look so normal between all of us , I have to accept the fact that no matter how much I try to get us together the two us just can’t stay in one place and so in that way I would have to respect the decisions of Elsa and just stay with my friend Angel . “ what took you so long to get here , “Well let’s just say that , I had so much going on and with different thoughts going through my head , I just thought that I should
Sitting there I felt like I was going nuts by just thinking about all the stuff that had just happened .I didn’t know why I was missing someone who didn’t even care about me and even if he did , I don’t think that he rated me that highly .I felt so hurt that he left without even saying hi to me when I had been dying to see him .I felt like I was choking sitting down here even though I knew how much it was hurting me I didn't take the matter to heart .I knew that it was best that I went home .I had to take up a call and act like my mom called me .“Is it your mama ?” I heard angel asked me .“ yes I nodded as I stood up to go pick the fake call that I have created .My mom didn’t call me , I was the one who made it so that I could leave this place now .I walked back to her when I knew that I was done with whatever that I was saying at that moment.“ Angel can I have a word with you “ She stood up almost immediately and followed me .“ you know what , my mom wants me to com
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the
First glump , second glump and I was driving straight to shuan .In the midst of all this all that I wanted at this moment was to see my step dad , it was just as if he is the only one who wouldn’t judge me for what I wasNot even my mama called to ask me how my birthday went , I had never felt this way my entire life the way I am feeling right now .Maybe I am just being punished for all the stupid decisions that I had taken in my life , maybe next time I really do have to think before I make some stupid decisions .I drove straight into the compound and to my greatest surprise , Shaun was standing by the door and he was waiting for me .This was literally the last thing that I had ever expected him to do for me .I thought that he was going to be mad because of the way that I treated him the last time but instead he acted in the direct opposite of it and if I hadn’t chased him away , I wouldn’t be here right nis .The moment I came down , shuan walked towards me and getting to wh
I had the worst birthday ever .Yes you heard me right and I wasn’t bluffing when I said that I just had the worst birthday ever .I knew that I was the one who threw everyone around me away but I never said that they should avoid me for my special day .Maybe I had turned out to be that horrible bitch that literally no one wants to associate themselves with .Angel was the only one who literally called to check up and was here with me all throughout the night .I must say that she did her best even though we still had our fight .I know that I can’t blame her for that , after all I haven’t been the best girl towards her and I know that I have been living in her face all this while .Even though this hurt so much like hell , I don’t think that I will ever be ready to let anyone know that I have been screwing my step dad .I could never l , it’s the most disgraceful thing that I had ever thought of in my entire life and it's just like hell . For the first time ever in weeks , I f
Happy birthday my darling .” Angel's voice broke me out of my thoughts as she planted a soft kiss on my back .What do you suggest we do ? Trevor isn’t coming .My head snapped at the mention of his name and I turned to look at Angel who had made that statement .I felt sick to my stomach .I didn’t know what it was with her , I had told her severally , times without number that I do not want his name to be mentioned close to me but it’s just as if she can’t understand a word of what I am saying and she keeps on making that mistake over and over again it was like she was doing this on purpose .“ I told you that I didn’t want to hear his name no more why do you keep on mentioning his name? What do you aim to achieve by trying to get on my nerves .“ grab that damn phone , call him . Tell him that you are sorry “ she told me, obviously pissed .I turned to look at her , the anger and the hate burning inside my heart .“ No “ Angel's face turned to that of total horror when she
I just don’t get it , I don’t why he acts that way towards you, I don’t know when he is going to know that if you love someone , you have to stay with them and treat them right because you will never get a better version of it again .I smiled hearing her last statement , I know that she was just trying her best to make sure that I felt okay .I could tell that by just looking at her .I loved the way Angel would always make me feel welcomed regardless of what the situation might be .“ I will be fine baby , you don’t have to worry about me .Angel turned and gave me that look. I know that she was questioning everything that had got to do with me at this moment but I couldn’t help it , there is no way on earth that I would understand why this has to happen to me in the first place .“ It's been days since I last saw Trevor , I haven’t heard from him nor have I spoken to him .I have never been this mad at anyone my entire life the way I was so mad at him at this moment .The
Dirty affairs 106 The house has been so calm since my step dad left .I had so many thoughts that were going through my mind at the same time , I didn’t want to think that it was what I was thinking .I made sure that I cleaned my whole room and taking the last look at myself I knew that I was ready to go .I grabbed my keys from where they were and just as I was about going out , I bumped into Trevor .I know what he was doing here .I thought that he had gone away .I could see those looks and I could tell that they aren’t just looks , Thomas' judgemental looks were literally killing me .He stood there watching me and the only thing that kept going through my mind at this moment was when he got into the room because I know that he never did , not one that I was aware of .The both of us stood there in total silence not saying a word to the other even though we so much wanted to .I had never felt that intense feeling ever in my entire life , I could literally feel my hear
Trevor stupid there for a while without saying a word o the both of us .I had never been in a situation like this in my entire life , all that I wanted was for the ground to open and Swallow me .I had never been so speechless and the shock was something that I never expected .I knew that he left , but I never expected him to be this back this early .I couldn’t imagine what he had heard . what if he heard us talking about it? , I didn’t want to think that he heard about all the stufff that we had just said .The tears started pouring out of my eyes without control at that moment .I am pretty’s sure that he heard us talking about it and now I know that he would be planning on breaking up with me , I could never tell , I couldn’t imagine .These were the two important people in my life and i couldn’t belive the fact that I was just throwing them away .what the fuck is he doing here ? Shuan snapped at me angrily .I knew that he was pretending to be mad , he had no right
The rays of sunlight were the first thing that I saw and when I opened my eyes , I could see a figure standing there just right in front of me .I know that I moved out of my mom's house yesterday but what I couldn’t understand was who and how he got here . My eyes opened immediately and I saw the figure that was standing there. I knew that this wasn’t a fucking dream , it was him , he was standing right there and looking at me like I was some kind of movie .I could never understand this man , what the fuck was he doing here .For the record , I never wanted him to know where my house was .I knew what I did when I kept this away from him but the fact that he could still find it made it more challenging for me .“Shuan , wtf are you doing here ?” I scream at him at the top of my voice .I had never been so pissed at anyone the way I was so pissed at this man at this moment .I couldn’t imagine what might have happened between him and Trevor as I wasn’t here .I didn’t know