The Night felt so long and I tried my best to have a good night's rest .It was just 8pm and since I came back I haven’t been able to get out of the room because of the judgmental look that I was definitely going to get .I just didn’t want anyone staring at me in that manner , it was definitely going to get on my nerves .Sarah walked into the room that the both of us were going to share and when she saw that I had already unpack , she just looked away , she didn’t even bother to look at me .“Hi Sarah , it’s been long since I last saw you “I told her trying to kill the awkward silence that was going on in the room , I didn’t want that .Sarah just turned to look at me and gave me that are you okay stare and didn’t even bother to look at me .She hissed and walked out of the room .I didn’t know how I felt , but that was it , I was mad and losing it , if she knew that this was how her family was going to treat me , then why did she bring me along , she would have just let me
My blood ran cold heading my mom ask my step dad that .I tried my best not to show the panic that I had in my face at that moment .I didn’t want to scream or cry or say trash about it .“ so tell me shuan , you are having an affair with my daughter huh “mom repeated this time more loudly “You are going nuts , I just want to believe that all of this stuff that has happened in your life that’s making you say this shit , because how can you sit there and ask me something crazy like that? Do you think that lowly of me?“I see the way you stare at her , the way you support her and the way you always offer to give her things and make her feel comfortable , I see the way you want her to be happy and always around you , I should have known , I should have known ““That’s it , I think it’s high time that I leave this place , for fuck sake girl , I love you and you know that .I didn’t care if you had a grown up daughter or not , when I found out about her , I didn’t even get mad a
Mom's uncle was laid to rest the next day just as it had been said that it would be done .Shuan and I didn’t return home last night but last night he stayed at a hotel and booked two rooms making it look like we slept in different rooms but instead we slept together and it was the best night of my life .The sex was amazing , thinking about the stuffs he did to me , I just couldn’t imagine the next time I was having him .I made sure that he ignored all of mom's texts and faced me .I knew that was his wife but my mom was way out of her line and needed to learn her lesson .I just don’t care if he loved her or not , but I am so ready to teach her that .I wasn’t going to be living here and that’s for sure , it isn’t something that’s up for discussion , I am definitely going back with them .Any minute from my step dad could kill me .I watched shuan consoled my mom as the casket was lowered to the grave .I could hear the pains from everyone's voice as they cried and I cou
Papa `` your little girl is here again and this time she's here all alone and she's so hurt because her mama had decided to choose a man over her .Mom accused me of sleeping with her husband and it’s crazy for her to think that way .I don’t know if I would be able to look at her face and call her my mother again , that’s how hurt I am right now and I don’t want that to happen .I know that it’s been long since I visited you, I just wanted to tell you that I had a lot going on and I wished that you were here to see it .You know that feeling of having your father around .I don’t know if I am feeling this way because mom and I aren’t on good terms. I shouldn’t be feeling this way and I know that , but I am hurt .It’s just as if I have a long journey and there’s no one to support apart from Elsa , dad remember Elsa the last friend I told you about .Well the both of us also got in a fight but we gave settled and along the line I have gotten a new friend and I like her and I
Summer came almost immediately .I knew how much I loved summer and I always prayed and wanted it to come and now that it was here , I was so happy .The thought that the rain was going to stop and the sun shine on us made it more unique. I just loved this and didn’t want it to end anything soon .I was so happy that things didn’t go wrong the way I thought it was going to go and things went out well .It’s been over a month since mom uncle was laid to rest .After that small talk me and mom had , I have decided to come back home and live with them .I knew that mom wanted some attention and space in the marriage and so I knew that it was best that I rented out an apartment and then I could do all the shit I wanted to do and also my mom and husband could have all the time of their lives together without me having to be in the picture but what could I do , there was absolutely nothing that I could do , just even at this moment .I wanted to start house hunting and get an a
It was funny how I thought that my life was going to end in a couple of months that had just passed but here I was , happy, alive and healthy and I was even beginning to forget about all the incident that happened over the past few months even though I do not wish to think about it , it just keeps coming back and it’s more like a memory that’s stuck in my head .“ don’t tell me you stood here waiting for me ?” Elsa asked me as she came out of her car .Elsa wore a mini ripped Jean and a black crop top to match with her hair packed in a ponytail , that only told me that she wasn’t having it and wasn’t in the mood for any convo .I watched her get to where I was and when she did , I hugged her .“ You look pretty today “ I told her and she smiled showing every tooth that she had in her mouth .“It’s so nice hearing you compliment me “ I raised my head up trying to understand what she was saying .I know that the both of us had fought a lot but I just can’t deny the f
After spending two extra weeks at home , I finally decided to resume since I didn’t have a lot going on at that moment .I was already behind in so many ways and I wondered how I was going to catch up to all of that .One thing I knew that I would do is for my result to come out and I was slacking behind , that was the only reason why I decided to go to that school , I didn’t want to be far behind .When I got into the classroom, I saw Angel already seated at some spot and also saw Elsa sitting with her two friends .In as much as I would love to make things look so normal between all of us , I have to accept the fact that no matter how much I try to get us together the two us just can’t stay in one place and so in that way I would have to respect the decisions of Elsa and just stay with my friend Angel . “ what took you so long to get here , “Well let’s just say that , I had so much going on and with different thoughts going through my head , I just thought that I should
Sitting there I felt like I was going nuts by just thinking about all the stuff that had just happened .I didn’t know why I was missing someone who didn’t even care about me and even if he did , I don’t think that he rated me that highly .I felt so hurt that he left without even saying hi to me when I had been dying to see him .I felt like I was choking sitting down here even though I knew how much it was hurting me I didn't take the matter to heart .I knew that it was best that I went home .I had to take up a call and act like my mom called me .“Is it your mama ?” I heard angel asked me .“ yes I nodded as I stood up to go pick the fake call that I have created .My mom didn’t call me , I was the one who made it so that I could leave this place now .I walked back to her when I knew that I was done with whatever that I was saying at that moment.“ Angel can I have a word with you “ She stood up almost immediately and followed me .“ you know what , my mom wants me to com
when was the last time that I instructed that none of you should dare to cross me again , I am pretty sure that I made it clear that this organization is to be ruined by me , I am the head here and I am literally the strongest but you think that since I am away , I have becomes weak and soft and I am not longer fit to be the leader and then you think that getting my goods and trying to cover my stuffs behind my back is going to give you guys the power that you need to impeach , what makes you all think that it could happen , you all really underestimate me and what I can really do . Why don’t you tell me that it was him who had asked you all to vote me out , without me not being here and being in charge and yet you all agreed thinking that it is literally the eyes test decision that you all would make .I know that you all bastard didn’t think about it all , he was the mastermind of it all and you all are literally going astray .I pointed my gun towards him and he did the sa
It’s been two long weeks since I last saw Angel .I didn’t know where she was and I couldn’t tell if she was coming or not. I had tried my best to stay away from her. It seemed like she needed time on her own , so she told me and I hoped that it was true .I didn’t want to burden her with all my issues , I didn’t want to be that friend that would only care about themselves .I know that I am going through something right now and the least that I could have was a friend but was that friend coming .I know that Angel loved me and whatever it was that was holding her was as meaningful as me being all alone .Staying in this house had been nothing but exhausting , I had thought about life in ways that I never thought that I could do , or knew that I was just being this way because I was alone but this was the least that I could do at this moment , it had her. Clear to me that I couldn’t do more .It was best that this whole stuff had gone down and all the insults were beginning to re
Rage , anger and deceit was what I felt the moment that she walked out of that door. It seems like her words left a big mark on my heart and the moment she left , I couldn’t stop thinking about what she had just told me .That bitch , she had the nerves to send her here after doing the most unthinkable things that you never think that a girl as quiet and loving and calm like her could do but then I should just let all of it go like it never happened and then act like everything is fine , that was never going to happen not even on my watch .As I stood in that room dropping the piece of taboo that I could find . I felt helpless .I didn’t know why I had to feel this way towards a bitch , yes that was exactly what she was and I know that she isn’t going to be a bitch anytime soon .For the longest that I could remember I knew that I didn’t want that girl , I never wanted anything to do with her , all of this wasn't planned but here I was stuck with some bitch who doesn’t even like me
Two more weeks passed .I was broken , broken beyond words , I had not been able to leave the house and I had been mopping my life .I felt weak , I felt like I was some kind of piece of shit and for the first time in a long while , I felt disgusted with myself . I didn’t know what I was thinking that made me mess myself up till this level , I could never have imagined that this was going to come to this level . I hadn’t been able to pick up myself after ending that relationship with Trevor .i knew that he was never dating me and I was never in a relationship with them , but what could I do , I knew that there was literally nothing that I was going to do at this point that was going to make me love again , it seems like he has no fucking intrest in me and it was time that I moved on too , it was time that I did the same thing , I wasn’t going to be mopping over a guy who had no fucking intrest on me , that would be more like a slap on me .I loved the fact that my mom hadn't
You didn’t do that to spite me off right ?”Angel loud voice came from the living room as I tried to wash off the soap that I had on my face .I couldn’t imagine what was making her scream that much .I quickly washed the water off my face and wore the shirt that I could quickly put my hands on when I got out of the room .After putting it on , I rushed out of the room and to the living room and that was when I met the greatest shock of my life .He was literally the last person that I wanted to see in my life right and seeing him here was making me go insane .Just a week ago I had made sure that I had cut off every contact that I had with shush and then he was here .I still don’t get it with this bastard , I don’t get what it was that they wanted from me .I was so done being that crazy bitch , I was done crying and thinking about what people had gotten to say about me .Everyone can go to hell for all that I care about , I actually do not care what anyone has to say about m
The worst happened , the worst really did happen to me .Never did I think that a day would come that I would be going like this with my own mother .My mom was trying to make my life a living hell and it hurts to know that she is the one doing all of this to me .From all the stuff that I had done in this life , I think that mom had done worse but the nerves that she has to throw stones like she lives in a glass house .I could never have imagined how things managed to turn out this way .She found that I was sleeping with her husband but now she was the one who had set me up to be fucked by that man and yet she has the guts to throw such tantrums .My mom had hurt me more than I could have even thought of or even still imagined .I knew that the both of us were falling off so fast but it hurts to know, this woman gave birth to me and even though I betrayed her , she betrayed me too .I knew that it was best that I try and put all the thoughts that I was having at this moment
Dirty affairs 113From what I have just heard from everyone that I care to know , you have been told that you are really pushing through with that divorce ?”You know what shuan , I think that I am done playing that dumb game with you when you know that all of this is for our own best interest .You cannot just walk in here and tell me that you are pushing through with that divorce , you and I both know that I am not going to let it go and I am sure that you do not want that to happen . “ maybe you should have thought about that when you decided to go tell her that it was a fucking plan .I know that we are both in this together but u have made it clear to you that I do not want to ne part of this anymore .I just don’t get why this is so hard for you to understand or get into those skull of yours .When I met you I knew that there was something about us that I really want to trash and I made it clear to you that I didn’t want a fucking marriage .You know how much
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the