Mom's uncle 's burial ceremony was fixed for the next day and so we had to fly back home to our state .Getting back to the state that I had grown up in , I felt weird , I didn’t know if this was just it or I was wrong for feeling that way .I couldn’t remember the last time that I came back home and I seem to have forgotten all about it and it brings back some memories that I didn’t want to talk about .It still hurts to know that I haven’t been able to sort things out with my mama . This wasn’t what I had planned and what I thought my life was going to be .It hurts so much knowing that my mom and I weren't in good terms and I just wished that it wasn’t true .My step dad and my mom sat in another car while I sat in another , mom said that she couldn’t stand me being in the same space with her .I was hurt but I never dared to show it in my face after all I was the one who hurt her first , now I have to dance to the music of what I started .When I saw the mansion in front of
The Night felt so long and I tried my best to have a good night's rest .It was just 8pm and since I came back I haven’t been able to get out of the room because of the judgmental look that I was definitely going to get .I just didn’t want anyone staring at me in that manner , it was definitely going to get on my nerves .Sarah walked into the room that the both of us were going to share and when she saw that I had already unpack , she just looked away , she didn’t even bother to look at me .“Hi Sarah , it’s been long since I last saw you “I told her trying to kill the awkward silence that was going on in the room , I didn’t want that .Sarah just turned to look at me and gave me that are you okay stare and didn’t even bother to look at me .She hissed and walked out of the room .I didn’t know how I felt , but that was it , I was mad and losing it , if she knew that this was how her family was going to treat me , then why did she bring me along , she would have just let me
My blood ran cold heading my mom ask my step dad that .I tried my best not to show the panic that I had in my face at that moment .I didn’t want to scream or cry or say trash about it .“ so tell me shuan , you are having an affair with my daughter huh “mom repeated this time more loudly “You are going nuts , I just want to believe that all of this stuff that has happened in your life that’s making you say this shit , because how can you sit there and ask me something crazy like that? Do you think that lowly of me?“I see the way you stare at her , the way you support her and the way you always offer to give her things and make her feel comfortable , I see the way you want her to be happy and always around you , I should have known , I should have known ““That’s it , I think it’s high time that I leave this place , for fuck sake girl , I love you and you know that .I didn’t care if you had a grown up daughter or not , when I found out about her , I didn’t even get mad a
Mom's uncle was laid to rest the next day just as it had been said that it would be done .Shuan and I didn’t return home last night but last night he stayed at a hotel and booked two rooms making it look like we slept in different rooms but instead we slept together and it was the best night of my life .The sex was amazing , thinking about the stuffs he did to me , I just couldn’t imagine the next time I was having him .I made sure that he ignored all of mom's texts and faced me .I knew that was his wife but my mom was way out of her line and needed to learn her lesson .I just don’t care if he loved her or not , but I am so ready to teach her that .I wasn’t going to be living here and that’s for sure , it isn’t something that’s up for discussion , I am definitely going back with them .Any minute from my step dad could kill me .I watched shuan consoled my mom as the casket was lowered to the grave .I could hear the pains from everyone's voice as they cried and I cou
Papa `` your little girl is here again and this time she's here all alone and she's so hurt because her mama had decided to choose a man over her .Mom accused me of sleeping with her husband and it’s crazy for her to think that way .I don’t know if I would be able to look at her face and call her my mother again , that’s how hurt I am right now and I don’t want that to happen .I know that it’s been long since I visited you, I just wanted to tell you that I had a lot going on and I wished that you were here to see it .You know that feeling of having your father around .I don’t know if I am feeling this way because mom and I aren’t on good terms. I shouldn’t be feeling this way and I know that , but I am hurt .It’s just as if I have a long journey and there’s no one to support apart from Elsa , dad remember Elsa the last friend I told you about .Well the both of us also got in a fight but we gave settled and along the line I have gotten a new friend and I like her and I
Summer came almost immediately .I knew how much I loved summer and I always prayed and wanted it to come and now that it was here , I was so happy .The thought that the rain was going to stop and the sun shine on us made it more unique. I just loved this and didn’t want it to end anything soon .I was so happy that things didn’t go wrong the way I thought it was going to go and things went out well .It’s been over a month since mom uncle was laid to rest .After that small talk me and mom had , I have decided to come back home and live with them .I knew that mom wanted some attention and space in the marriage and so I knew that it was best that I rented out an apartment and then I could do all the shit I wanted to do and also my mom and husband could have all the time of their lives together without me having to be in the picture but what could I do , there was absolutely nothing that I could do , just even at this moment .I wanted to start house hunting and get an a
It was funny how I thought that my life was going to end in a couple of months that had just passed but here I was , happy, alive and healthy and I was even beginning to forget about all the incident that happened over the past few months even though I do not wish to think about it , it just keeps coming back and it’s more like a memory that’s stuck in my head .“ don’t tell me you stood here waiting for me ?” Elsa asked me as she came out of her car .Elsa wore a mini ripped Jean and a black crop top to match with her hair packed in a ponytail , that only told me that she wasn’t having it and wasn’t in the mood for any convo .I watched her get to where I was and when she did , I hugged her .“ You look pretty today “ I told her and she smiled showing every tooth that she had in her mouth .“It’s so nice hearing you compliment me “ I raised my head up trying to understand what she was saying .I know that the both of us had fought a lot but I just can’t deny the f
After spending two extra weeks at home , I finally decided to resume since I didn’t have a lot going on at that moment .I was already behind in so many ways and I wondered how I was going to catch up to all of that .One thing I knew that I would do is for my result to come out and I was slacking behind , that was the only reason why I decided to go to that school , I didn’t want to be far behind .When I got into the classroom, I saw Angel already seated at some spot and also saw Elsa sitting with her two friends .In as much as I would love to make things look so normal between all of us , I have to accept the fact that no matter how much I try to get us together the two us just can’t stay in one place and so in that way I would have to respect the decisions of Elsa and just stay with my friend Angel . “ what took you so long to get here , “Well let’s just say that , I had so much going on and with different thoughts going through my head , I just thought that I should