Chapter 1: Look a like

"Miss Joyce, here are the files that Mr. Casupanan wants you to review." Yvet gave me the folder she is holding. Yvet is my secretary here at the company of my dad.

"Okay. You can go back to your work now," I said.

She politely goes out. I go back in working. This is so tiring but at least when I my mind is occupied to work files, I didn’t think about Kurt. I cannot feel the pain.

After finishing the things, I am doing, I started to look at the files my dad wants me to review.

Time passed by and finally I am done at working. Thankfully, it's time to go home now. I want to feel the bed on my back and close my eyes. I am so tired; I want to sleep already.

I placed my things in the bag I bring in work. After that I walked towards the powder room to retouch so I can still look fresh.

While I am busy doing my things, my phone vibrates, someone is calling me. When I get it, I saw Fea's name on the screen of my phone.

Fea is my friend too, I met her in the bar. As we talk, we get along. That's why every time I am going to bar, she is my company. Vice versa, she is like that to me too.

You know that I cannot bring Klhoie with me. I know Sceven too well, he will bark like a dog if I will make Khloie go to the bar. He is so clingy with her. He always wants Khloie to be by his side. Well, I am happy for my best friend, she finally found her own prince. And I know how Sceven loves her so much.

"Why did you call, Fe?" I asked to her.

I can hear the loud sound as her background. Ah, I guess she is at the bar right now. “Let's party, Joyce!" she shouted on the other line.

I closed my eyes. "Pass, Fea. Next time."

"Hep! What pass? No way. If you will not go here, don't even bother to talk to me again. As in never," she warned.

At the end she pursued me and I agreed with her. Well, the bar doesn't sound bad right now for me.

I headed downstairs and after that, I found a taxi. I didn't bring my car with me because it is on coding.

"In Valkyrie Night Club," I said to the taxi driver as I get in.

It just takes some minutes to go there because it is just nearby.

After paying the taxi fare, I get in the bar. Thankfully, I didn’t bring my bag with me. Before I headed out from the company, I thought that it is convenient if I will just leave it there.

I’m so sure that we will be drunk here. My laptop for work is inside that bag. It will just be lost here.

As I get in the loud music blasted in my ears. This is what I don’t like on bars. It is too noisy.

It is deafening. If Fea just didn't pursue me to go here, I will not.

"Hello there, Missy," Fea greeted and held my hand. She pulled towards the table. "Let's party!" she shouted. Hmm. What's her problem this time? I know her too well.

We sat at the side. Oh gosh! She drunk too many alcohols already. So that is the reason why she is so hyper right now.

I sat beside her. "What's your problem?" I directly asked.

"Problem? I don't have a problem, duh," she denied and laugh. Then she pointed herself. "Me? Have a problem? Nothing!" she said while laughing, then suddenly a tear escaped her eyes.

Crazy her. I told you so, she really has a problem.

I shrugged my shoulders off and get the one bottle of beer. After that, I swallowed all the beer on it.

Fea laughed at me. "You also have a problem?"

I just nod at her.

"Oh my gosh! Don't tell me it is about that Kurt again?"

I just nod my head again. "It is so hard to move on."

"My gosh. Boys are so irritating. I so so want to wring their necks. Why do they always hurt girls?" she asked and cried again.

I sighed. "So, tell me, Fea. What is your real problem?"

"It's Troy. I caught him kissing his ex. Fucking shit. He said that I'm the only one. He told me that he doesn't love that girl anymore," she answered. I can hear the pain in her voice. Then after that, she opened another bottle of beer and drink it.

I cried with her because I get hurt from her story. "Boys are really bad. We are just loving them, then they give us pain. Do you know that Kurt changed me so fast? Argh! Added to that is that girl looks like a clown. No taste," I said with a heavy heart.

We just laughed at each other after that dramatic scene and order more alcohol with high percent. We are really planning to get wasted tonight.

We drink and drink. After that, we decided to join the dancing crowd. This will gonna be fun!

I dance like there no more tomorrow. Ah! This is lifting up my mood.

But as I dance, my eyes found a familiar face. I slap my forehead. I am hallucinating huh.

Kurt is here and staring at me. I chuckled with that thought. I am so funny. Until up here, it is always Kurt, who I see? I am so crazy. Super crazy over him.

I shrugged that thought and walked, escaping the dancing crowd. "Where is Fea?" I asked to myself while finding her.

When I didn't find her, I stop and just dance again.

I felt someone dance at my back. And when I turned around to see him, oh well! He is handsome huh. But still incomparable with my Kurt. No. There is no "my" it is just only Kurt.

He danced, so I danced too. For now, I will just think that will gonna be my last night so I'm gonna pour my all out. I will make it the most fun night. 

I flinched tho when he snaked his arms on my waist. But I quickly recovered with that and just smile at him.

"Hey, beautiful," he charmingly said and sweetly smiled at me. Hmp! So playboy. I know that moves. He just wants to score with me. Sorry, but I will not let him.

I unlocked his arms on my waist. But he just makes it tighter.

My forehead creased. "Let me go," I emphasized. I am not liking the situation right now.

But instead of letting me go, he glues his self to me. He makes me feel his body to my body.

Oh damn. This is not good. I really need to escape now.

"I said let me go!" I shouted, repeating what I said earlier to him.

And no one notices us because the sound is so loud. This is so irritating.

I wiggled my body. He just makes his face near to mine. I just closed my eyes tightly because

I know that I cannot do anything anymore. 

While my eyes are close, I just felt that he is not in front of me anymore. I open my eyes and find out that someone is pulling me.

I think I am really drunk. Why I am seeing Kurt pulling me?

We stopped near the comfort room. After that, he traps me with his boy and wall.

"You look like him," I said and examine his face. They look like a twin. So similar.

He is just staring at me and stayed silent.

I just laughed and sang with the tone of wrecking ball. "I came like a wrecking ball. Kurt, I can't call," I said.

I heard him laughed. 

"Why are you laughing?" I grumpily asked. I sighed after that. "Do you know? You really look like the person I really love the most," I stated sadly at him.

He made his face closer to mine. "Who do you love the most?" he asked. He just whispered it, but I clearly heard it.

"My Kurt. Oops, wrong. Kurt only, he is not mine anymore. We broke up." I chuckled while tears escape my eyes. "It hurts. This is really painful here," I said while pointing to my heart.

He stops in his track, then wiped my face that is full of tears. "Shh... stop crying," he comforted.

He caressed my face after that.

I make my face closer to his face. "Can you pretend that you are my Kurt?" I pleaded. 

He was about to speak when I suddenly sealed his lips with mine. Gosh. Why is it like this?

The texture of his lips is same with the Kurt I love. Why do I feel that he is the real Kurt?

After that kiss I didn't know what happened anymore because my head suddenly felt the pain. I just saw the darkness.

Tomorrow came and as I woke up my head hurts. Hangover.

I opened my eyes while holding my head. It is hurting like hell. It seems like someone is hammering it.

Argh! Why did I drink so many alcohols?

But my eyes widened when I realized that I am not in my room. Then who is the owner of this room?

I look at my clothes. My eyes widened more because of that. This is not the same clothes I was wearing last night. I know that I am wearing a dress, but now I am wearing big shirt and boxer.

I slightly slapped myself. I also pulled my hair. Stupid. Crazy. What will I do now? Did I really lose my big V?

I stand up and look at the mirror. The thing between my legs doesn't hurt tho. Does this mean that my big V is still here. I hope so. I am saving it for Kurt.

Wait... where I am? I look at my surroundings. Omo! This room is so familiar. My gosh! Don't tell me I am in Kurt's room?

I laughed to myself. For real? How will I get to his room? Wish more, Joyce. It is just the same interior.

But it really feels like it is his room. I know his room too well.

I smelled my clothes to confirm that. It really smells like him.

I sat on the bed again. It is so impossible for me to get to his room.

While thinking, the door opens. I landed my eyes on it and a man enters. "Kurt," I mumbled.

He is holding a tray with food on it.

"You're awake now," he coldly said.

"Ah, Kurt. How did I end up here in your room?" I asked shyly.

He smirked at me. "You can't remember?"

I shake my head as an answer.

"You kissed me then suddenly you fell asleep.”

My eyes formed big. "You are that guy? I thought that you just look like him," I said while sweat is forming on my forehead. It is so embarrassing. The atmosphere became more awkward. 

He nods his head. "Now, eat. There is also a medicine for your headache. Drink that after eating." Then he left me.

I pulled my hair and lay on the bed. "You are so embarrassing, Joyce Clara!"