Chapter 4: Condo

“Hey! I am speaking since we get here and yet you are not listening to me. My gosh, Joyce! You are even smiling like an idiot there. You look like crazy,” Fea said and eat her ice cream. 

We are here at ice cream parlor. She invited me here. She is craving for an ice cream. Hmm... is she pregnant?

She pinched my waist. “Why are you smiling like a fool in love? Share it to me.”

I just smiled stupidly at her and shakes my head. “Nothing. Can you repeat what are you saying earlier?”

“I don’t want to. I am so tired saying things to you then you don’t give me attention. Let’s just change the topic. Share your story to me.”

“It’s just nothing,” I said and scoop from my chocolate ice cream. 

She glared at me. “Ah! It’s a boy. The reason why you are like that is because of a boy, right?” then she looks at the ceiling. “Is it Klei or your jerk ex?”

“Just don’t think about that anymore, Fea. Finish your ice cream and we’ll go to the spa.”

Then I diverted my attention to my ice cream.

But since Fea is stubborn, she gets my ice cream. “Tell me now. I really want to know why you are smiling like that. You look so in love. I’ll repeat my question, is it Klei or your ex?”

I sighed. I cannot do anything anymore but to answer her question. Why is she so curious about that.

“It is because of Kurt. Okay? Can I get my ice cream back now?”

Finally, I get to eat my ice cream again. 

“Kurt? Why?”

I rolled my eyeballs at her. “Can you let me finish my ice cream first? I will just tell you the whole detail after this,” I said and chuckled.

She laughed and nod her head then she continues eating her ice cream. 

After some minutes, we decided to go to the spa. While we are there, I answered her question. Not really the full detail but the important details. 

When night comes, I headed to our house. While her, she will come home to her boyfriend.  

I landed to my bed. I am still not in the mood to take shower. I’m lazy.

As I am laying on my bed, I open my phone and look at our picture, me and Kurt. I hope or wish that we can bring back the happy moments we have. I want to be go back to him. I am so in love with him. 

Moving on from him is really a hard thing. Honestly, I cannot do that. 

I know that there are people who are mad at me because I kept on repeating that I should move on, but I cannot help to always think of him. 

Tomorrow came and I am so busy with my files. The merging of the companies is approaching. 

I am so focus on my laptop when Yvet knocked. 

“Ma’am, someone wants to give you this,” she said while having a plastic bag on her hand. 

What is inside of it?

“Put it on my table,” I said. She was about to leave after that when I fired a question. “Who is it from?”

She smiled widely. “From Sir Klei. He is so sweet to you, Ma’am,” she said and giggled like a teenager.

I just shook my head because of that. I know that Klei is really sweet. It’s just that sometimes he is so playful.

I finish my work and get the plastic bag. When I opened it, I saw styro. I smiled when I learnt that it is a siopao. One of my favorite foods. Ah… this is yummy.

I am enjoying my food so much. Thankfully, Klei give me this. It can relieve stress. Food is really love. 

After eating I drink water. Then I go back with what I am doing. There’s new file but I know that I can do it all. Fighting. 

Time passes by and finally I am done to all. 

I stretched my arms. And after that I fixed my things. Then enter the elevator. 

I reached the parking lot after that.

I started the engine of my car. I decided to go to the mall. I want to stroll to relieve my stress. 

Yeah. I’m still stress. But not that too much anymore. 

When I reached the inside of the mall, I saw many people. Some are even holding each other hand. And some are talking while walking. 

And her I am, alone. I cannot bring Khloie with me. We all know the reason. Just like to Fea too. And Klei is busy with his business. 

If I just have a boyfriend, I have companion right now. We even hold each other hands or his arms are in my shoulder. Sadly, I don’t have. I do really believe now that there is no forever at all. And one of the pieces of evidence is my ex.

Speaking of him. I saw him with that clown. Looks like they are not in good terms. 

He is at the front while Dessery is in his back. Because I am curious on what is happening between them. I decided to follow them. I know it’s wrong but I cannot help to. 

I did not continue on strolling around. I came back to the parking lot because they are here too. 

I hide behind some random car. They are about to talk to each other now.

“Kurt, talk to me,” Dessery pleaded. 

Kurt boringly looks at her. “Not now. I want to go home already. I want to rest.”

He was about to enter his car when Dessery pulled him. “I thought will have dinner together?” she asked with an irritated tone. “What is really your problem ha?!”

"Maybe we need to end our relation, Dessery," Kurt seriously said.

I saw how tears escape Dessery’s eyes. I don’t know but I felt some pity for her. Maybe it’s because I experienced that too. I know that feeling. That’s why I can feel that I’m about to burst tear too. 

“Can you not, Kurt?” she shouted while crying. “After that baptism, you changed like that. I cannot understand you anymore. You are so cold to me.”

“Dessery, please stop. You will be hurt more if we don’t split now.”

“Ah! You saw that Joyce there? You want to split yup with me because of her, right? What? Do you still love her? Am I a rebound here?”

I cannot anymore. I walked out. I don’t want to hear what they are talking about. Added to that is I know what will Kurt answer to her.

I am sure that I am not the reason. Why would I? He doesn’t lobe me anymore. Maybe he just really tired of their relationship. 

Although he said convincing words at me that night, he still did not clarify his feelings for me. 

I entered my car and start driving. I don’t have energy anymore to go back inside the mall.

 

I am so confused with myself. I should be happy right now. Ah! I don’t know anymore.

When I reached home, I came straight to my room. I am not hungry. I just want to rest. 

I dive to my bed. I don’t know what will I think right now. Maybe I am too bad to be happy right now. I really pity Dessery with what happen but I get Kurt’s point. If they will stay in a relationship while the other party isn’t interested anymore, the other one will just suffer. 

I really feel Dessery. I know what she feels right now. I was hurt like that too.

Because of thinking I get drowned and feel sleep. 

Days passed by and still those conversation of them still haunts me. 

I am now going to a famous bar. I want to get drunk. 

When I enter, blast of music welcomes me. I even saw that the party on the dance floor started already. 

I sat at the stool and ordered some hard drinks. I really want to forget my problems. 

Because of what I drunk; I get hyper. I walked towards the center and start to dance happily. I just dance like there is no tomorrow anymore. 

I pouted when someone pulled me out of there. 

“Let go of me!”

What the? Who is he? My vision became blurry because of being drunk. 

He placed me inside the car. “Hey! Where are we going? Are you a kidnapper? Are you selling body parts? You are a syndicate or a rapist? Oh my gosh! No way. My virginity only belongs to Kurt,” I said like rapping. I almost got out of breath. 

He laughed with what I said. “Yes, you are mine, Joyce Clara. Only mine.”

I opened my eyes. I feel like a bucket of water are spilled to me. “Kurt?” I asked while being shock. 

“Yes, I am. The next time you go in place like this, don’t get too drunk. What if someone take advantage of you?” he seriously asked while his forehead knotted. 

I smiled. “You are so cute when you are serious,” I said and traced his face with my finger. “You are so handsome,” I said with so much adoration to him. 

I moved closer so I can kiss his cheeks. 

He held me and leaned me to the seat. I though he will kiss me but he just put the seatbelt on to me. 

“My car is here,” I said while pouting. 

“I will just tell my worker to get it here. With your state, you can’t drive anymore. You are so drunk. I will send you home.”

The drive is so silent. I am just looking at the view outside. I am not in the mood anymore to speak. My head is hurting like hell now.

 

I noticed that the way we are taking is not the way to my home. “Where are we going?” I asked. 

“In my condo,” he answered and look straightly at my eyes. 

I stayed quiet in the way he stares at me. I feel like I am melting.