CHAPTER TWO
MALAKAI * * As I sprint down the field, the cheers of my teammates grow louder. This is the first football practice of the semester, and my heart is racing with excitement. I grasp the football tightly, but in an instant, a crushing tackle sends my body flying against the ground. The impact causes a cry of pain to escape my mouth, I look up to see my opponent, and it is none other than Pierce. Something about his arrogant stance pisses me off, the glint in his dark gaze tells me that he's mocking me. "Malakai, come on!" I can hear my teammates cheering. Despite the pain and shock, my fingers instinctively tighten around the ball, there is no way I'm going to lose to him. Lana is currently watching, if I want her to be impressed by me, I have to do more than this... I try to stand but Pierce suddenly jumps on top of me, the force of his weight flattening me to the ground, snatching the breath out of my lungs. I cannot move, not even an inch. He is simply too strong; he is much bigger than me, and his bulging muscles aren't for show. "What's a twink like you doing on the field, huh?" He sneers in my ears. He is too close; our bodies are pressing tightly against each other, the heat emanating from his body seeping into mine! This position is... Humiliating! He can just easily collect the ball from me, but he seems to rather enjoy toying with me as his large hands press my shoulder, forcing my face further into the ground, my body is trapped between his thighs. "You enjoy being dominated like this, preacher boy?" His taunts ring in my ears. If I didn't already hate him, I certainly despise him enough now. And is it my imagination, or is his thigh slowly grinding against my ass___? No! Is he excited? Then why do I feel something hard poking... "Let go!" I spit, but his grip only tightens, chuckling at my futile struggles. He's a retard! Is he being like this because I'm suddenly closer to Lana? The referee blows the whistle, and much to my relief, the rest of our teammates rush towards us, and Pierce instantly lets go; I glare at him angrily as he extends a hand towards me. "I'm just trying to help, can you stand?" He says smirking. I ignore his extended hands as Tate helps me to my feet. "You look terrible; you better visit the nurse's office; I'll escort you." Tate leads me out of the pitch. Something prompts me to look back, and I instantly regret it. My eyes clash against Pierce's, he's staring at me so intently that my legs falter a bit, what is that look for? I suddenly feel like an endangered species in this instant; the intensity of his gaze burns deeply through my skin like a hot rod of steel. I can only interpret it as hate, Perhaps he does loathe me more than I dislike him. * * "How did you offend him? Anyone will think that he's marked you!" Tate says, staring at my bruised shoulders, which bear Pierce's hand imprint. I wince at the reddish sight and curse my pale, sensitive skin. "Don't speak nonsense, he's completely nuts," I say, anger flushing through me as I recall how he'd humiliated me. Sure, I wasn't Mr. Muscular, but I certainly am no twink! I'm not that tall and stand currently at 5'7 at Eighteen years old; Pierce already stands over 6'2. I also don't have muscles compared to him when it comes to bodily hairs too... Wait! Am I getting insecure and comparing myself to that bastard? "Sorry, I have to return the practice," Tate says, glancing at the wall clock. He leaves, and I stand from the nurse's bed. Everybody has either left or is watching the practice, this is the best opportunity for me! I return to the empty classroom and head straight to Lana's bag, I search through it for some seconds, wondering what to steal this time. I gaze at her handkerchief and quickly stuff it into my pocket. My heart spikes, and I'm getting excited again. I grab one of her notebooks as well, and a smile slowly makes its way to my lips, I can't wait to be her knight in shining armour when I return it to her. I leave the classroom, the crowded hallway tells me that the game is already over. My eyes locate Lana instantly, and my smile freezes in place. She is standing in front of Pierce. On her hand is a bottle of water which she extends towards him. She is gazing at him with a soft smile, the betrayal I feel in this instant is blinding, I can taste it at the back of my throat, and it's fucking bitter. My icy eyes continue to glare at Pierce, and as though he can feel my heated gaze, he suddenly turns, and our gazes lock. One of his brows quirks challengingly; he is once again mocking me as he accepts the water from Lana and opens it. He starts to gulp it down while his gaze remains fixated on me. With Pierce's good look and height, and adding to the fact that his family is filthy rich and powerful, he's every girl's dream; Lana will most certainly fall for his type; it's clear that I stand no chance against him. They haven't announced that they are dating yet, but then again, Pierce didn't do relationship stuff; I've heard enough rumours to know that he merely fuck girls and dumps them; he changes girls weekly, and sometimes even less than that. He suddenly leans, his mouth squelching against hers in a kiss that sent my blood roaring in my ears, he continues to kiss her passionately, grabbing her ass and pulling her against him. My whole body vibrated with raw anger... And jealously. I want to kill him! My blood pulsates with the murderous intention. And the bastard is grinning at me as though daring me to act. I badly want to snatch Lana from his arms, but I know I will only end up making a fool of myself. So I stand there, watching and enduring, knowing it should be me holding Lana like that, and not him! There is nothing good about Pierce... I can love Lana more. I can treat her better. I will cherish her way more than him! I can't let him use her and crush her as he does to the other girls he sleeps with. I have to protect her, it's the only way I can trulyprove my love for her. I'm going to keep Pierce Masterson far away from her. At any cost. * *CHAPTER THREEMALAKAI**The shower feels amazing against my skin, The sports period has just ended, and there are still some minutes left before the last period. Lana and Pierce have been so intimate with each other today as well, and it's driving me crazy. I need to come up with a plan to tear them apart soon. It doesn't seem like it will be easy to deal with Pierce, I already feel exhausted merely thinking about him. I bow my head in the shower when the bathroom door suddenly opens. I turn around instantly to see him enter the bathroom.Pierce!I blink to ensure that I'm not imagining him. He walks inside nonchalantly, draped in only a white towel that is wrapped around his waist.There are other empty bathroom stalls, so why this particular one? I glare at him as he walks to stand beside me."What's your problem?!" I seeth, I am already at my wits end towards him. Pierce stares at me, looking completely unfazed by my hostile expression, if anything, he seems amused. "I shou
CHAPTER FOURMALAKAI**The whole week has been so draining.The best part about weekends for me is not about not going to school but also the fact that my parents are not around, they have to attend several church programs. Their absence is a symbol of peace and freedom. This time around, I am ecstatic that I won't have to see that lunatic.A knock sounds on my door; I look up to see my brother; he enters my room, and I can't help but notice his flashy attire."You didn't come to school today," I say. "Why? Are you going to report to Dad? Not everyone can be a great son like you, perfect attendance, top of the class, I can't even compete with you, you are so annoying, you know that?"How long has he been waiting to say these words to me?I can't even blame him. Our father is the root cause. Skipping school isn't just the problem, I am more concerned about the friends he's been hanging around with lately, they smoke and drink, I'm afraid of Ezra being influenced, he's just sixteen
CHAPTER FIVEMALAKAI**It's over... My life...My secret crush...Everything is over!I'm trembling like a leaf on a windy day as I wait for another message that doesn't arrive. Fear dries up my lungs, I don't think I'm breathing for the several minutes that follow. Who is the sender?How did he access my device even though it is password-protected?Why wait until now to message me?These thoughts are floating through my mind as my shaky fingers start to type;' Who are you...?'It takes a lot of courage to click on the sending option, even breathing becomes difficult as I wait for a response. The message tickles twice They read it...!I can't stop trembling; I bit on my thumb hard enough to draw blood. The sharp pain combined with the metallic taste that floods my mouth.Seconds slowly turn into minutes and then hours. And there is still no response.' What do you want?...' I type again, I continue to check my phone. I'm glued to my spot on the bed, several hours have passed s
CHAPTER SIXMALAKAI**Pierce ignores my questions, he merely walks to the side of the room to pour himself a drink and makes himself comfortable on the couch in the room.He takes a sip of his drink, watching me through the rim of the glass, seeming to enjoy every second of my anxiety."What do I want? Hmm, now what do I want, you tell me?" He taps his jaw with a finger. This fucker!What's he being so dramatic for? I'm still furious that he invaded my privacy.Pierce takes another sip of his drink and extends the glass towards me.Is he expecting me to drink from the same glass? I can't even hide my disgust as I stare at him."I don't drink alcohol," I say, which isn't a lie. "Well, you're gonna," Pierce says softly, but I can hear the threat laced in his voice. His hand remains extended. Right now, he practically calls all the shots; I guess I really don't have a choice.Just a drink right? If this is all it takes...I snatch the glass from his hand, pour the entire contents
CHAPTER SEVENMALAKAI **Why is Lana here?'...Maybe I don't want anything; I'm just going to show Lana what a disgusting prick you are; that's what's going to satisfy me. ' Pierce's words replay in my head and dread tightens up my insides, sobering me up for some seconds. I never knew that Lana even attended parties, and she looks so different tonight, dressed in a sleeveless black dress that hits just below her ass, showing off her long sexy legs, her face is covered with makeup. She's so fucking beautiful and in another situation, I would have loved to take a picture, but right now, I'm filled with apprehension.What is Pierce planning to do?If he tells her, she will never look at me the same again.Lana hating me is my greatest fear.I meet Pierce's gaze in panic, and the bastard has the nerve to smile at me, I guess he can see how distressed I am."I thought you'd forgotten about me, I'm happy that you finally messaged me..." Lana says, even from the distance, I can see the
CHAPTER EIGHTMALAKAI **The memories continue to haunt me. It's been almost one week, and I'm still tormented by that night. I've even tried to convince myself that it didn't happen, but my lips are still tender from where he'd bitten me, it's almost as if he'd purposely left behind the evidence. Why did Pierce act so wild that night? Maybe he was so drunk and had lost his fucking mind, that's the only reasonable explanation I can come up with. I bet he regrets that night as much as I do. He's dating Lana and has hated so many girls in the past, so there's no way he's gay. I shake my head at the thoughts. Why can't I forget?!I've skipped school these days because I don't want to face him, the thought of seeing him fills me with so much anxiety.This is the first time I've ever skipped school, I lied to my parents about being sick. It isn't even a lie because mentally, every cell in my brain is shutting down, it only gets worse the more I try to think. Pierce has been bombar
CHAPTER NINEMALAKAI **I search for Pierce like a maniac the moment I enter school, I manage to locate him during football practice, he stands out easily from the rest of his popular friends. Tate and Jeremiah are discussing with him. I'm not the only one watching him. How does he have the attention of almost all the girls without even doing anything?My footsteps halt. Everyone always wants to be around him. They want to listen to whatever he says, why do they all want his approval? Is it only because his family is rich? His personality is shitty but they're all admiring him like an angel who's fallen to earth. Pierce has so many people around him, how did he even notice me? I've always been unnoticeable; no one cares about what the pastor's kid has to say; why is Pierce so determined to drag my shadows into the light, exposing me for all to see?It's better to meet him in this public place, at least, I know he won't do anything weird, but my body grows tense at the thought of
CHAPTER TENMALAKAI **Pierce gives me only until the end of the day to make my decision, but I mean, how can anyone possibly respond to what he's proposing?And time seems to be going by too fast today, how is it the last period already?Why is Pierce so intent on having sex with me? Is this even still about revenge?I shudder at the memory of his stiff erection, he says he just wants to fuck me, but what the hell is even that?My sanity is at its wit's end. I feel soulless as I gather my study materials from my locker."Hey,"I jump at the sound of the voice, the most unbelievable person is standing in front of me.Lana."I've been looking for you all over the place."Her words tense me up. Can it be that she recalls the last time? I'm already panicking because of Pierce, if it gets worse than this, I may be having a cardiac arrest. Maybe dying is the only way I can escape."The teacher told us to work on the assignment together, but you just left."This is it?I'm so relieved th
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHTMALAKAI **His face had resurfaced all the forbidden memories. A year and six months is what it took that correction facility to try and make me forget him. They still failed to cleanse me, to purge the sin and filth out of me. Pierce has been so deeply engraved in my mind that not even the tortures had been able to take him away. He's greater than any nightmares that they ever could give. In the past few months, I've tried to have sex with both genders alike, not the Reverend. Not the sister; it's Pierce who has conditioned me, branded himself in my soul. He's the reason I can't get touched by others; my mind is still his prisoner. I'm still trying to break free from his chains, why is fate playing this dangerous game with me all over again?Uriel told me that he'd been transferred to this hospital about two weeks ago for specialized care. I start to wonder if it's just a coincidence that I got a job in this same hospital, but it's Uriel who had recommended
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVENMALAKAI **When a nightmare is real, how do you even wake up from it?"You feel so real" He whispers in a deeper voice than I remember. I am the one hallucinating; I should be saying this. Our bodies are so close that I can feel his heat radiating through my cold, numb ones. His hand caresses my hair and pulls me back enough to touch my face. I shiver at the contact; looking into his dark eyes feels like falling into an endless abyss. His next words send a shiver through me, and it has nothing to do with the cold. "In here, I can see you..." He smiles, and my heart cracks; it almost does not feel like a bad dream anymore. Before I can think any further, his hand grabs the base of my neck, and raw intent flashes in his eyes as he leans in closer. I start to push his shoulders but he grasps my arms, pinning them to the sides, his glazed eyes are boiling with a fury that makes my bones melt. "This is my dream; I can do whatever I want to you; you can't escape
CHAPTER FORTY-SIXMALAKAI **The familiar smell of disinfectants in the psych ward and these sterile white walls choke me with this feeling of despair. It's too similar. Everything here is a stark reminder of that forsaken place. My anxious gaze lingers on the nuns who work here. My heart starts to pound furiously at their familiar black flowing robe and veil. They start to approach my direction and my entire body freezes. "They are caregivers; they can't hurt you," I whisper to myself, but it doesn't stop the chill that trickles down my spine as they get closer... And closer. I can see the deathly hands slowly clawing out of these white walls; I'm hopeless against the force as they drag me to that dark place. I see myself immobile, frightened, helpless on that bed in the white room.'I'm going to cleanse you!' Sister Agatha's whisper rings in my head. I can feel her hands crawling across my skin, the wide smile that spreads on her face. 'You poor sweet boy, let me take care
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVEMALAKAI **"Wow." I hear my boss mumble as he stares at the photo I hand over to him. This particular one had taken me several weeks to work on. I love pictures because they can be viewed from different perspectives, and can be interpreted depending on the subject. The Venus fly trap, a carnivorous plant swallowing a struggling bug. Capturing the moment the insect suffocates and eventually dies and is absorbed by the plants has been fascinating. "Earth is indeed a scary place, poor insect" He adds.' Or maybe the plant just needs to feed? '"Your pictures are great, but why do you always like taking such gloomy photos? Cheer up; life isn't supposed to be so serious. We gotta have some fun sometimes, you know." His eyes leer at me as he suddenly places a secure hand around my shoulders.My body flares with panic and my brain instinctively starts to count.Ninety seconds, and it will be over. One...Two...Three...Four..."I think these pictures are going to be
CHAPTER FORTY-FOURMALAKAI**The shadows of yesterday hit me hard as I walk through the town where I used to live. Nothing has changed, including the houses and convenience stores around the corner. I suppose two years is not very long. I am the only one who can barely remember who I was before. A part of me is still lost among the broken pieces of this place.Some days, I wonder if I am dead and everyone simply forgot to bury me.I can't look anybody in the eyes, I'm unresponsive to the gossips and curious stares; all I can think is 'fuck all of them!'From this distance, I watch my little brother Ezra walk to the stage to receive his diploma, after my release six months ago, he's the only person I kept contact with.The audience bursts out in applause, and I can not help but feel a wave of nostalgia wash over me. I did not even get to graduate. I have nothing.Three TwoOne.Perfectly shot!Only when I focus on these images on my camera do I feel like I have something, but ther
CHAPTER FORTY-THREEMALAKAI**Trigger Warning: This scene involves themes of homophobia, abuse, and brainwashing. Reader discretion is advised. This is pure fiction and does not depict the actions of any religious group. It's white everywhere. My head is hurting. My foggy brain can't even think of why I'm here. The only thing I feel is terror when I realize I am strapped to the bed. Is this a clinic?But... Why?The door opens, and my blurry vision adjusts to see the Reverend enter, accompanied by sister Agatha.The memories start to claw in, and my heart sears with panic.Let me out!My body begins to jerk against the straps that keep me in place. I remember everything now.'...The truth is, son, you're broken. You're sick. And we're going to fix you...'No!The only one who can fix me is him. Pierce.'Where are you, don't you love me anymore?' I want to tell him that I did not want to leave him. I want to keep my promise, but these chains are stopping me.How long have I been
CHAPTER FORTY-TWOPIERCE**The heavy rain had fallen all night, and the weather is as gloomy as my mood.Why the hell didn't he respond to any of my messages? I had waited all night long without getting any sleep, and now, as I stare at my phone, there is still no reply. I walk into my parents in the living room, Dad wears a solemn expression. I don't recall doing anything worthy of his attention, so why is he here?He is probably worried about the elections... or maybe not.My heart slams in my chest when I see something familiar in his hands.A collar."Pierce__"I find it difficult to breathe as I snatch the collar from his hand. "Where is Lou? Where is she!" "The doctors couldn't save her. We had to put her down__" Mom begins to speak, and a volcano of rage erupts within me."Shut up! You never liked her, did you fucking kill her?""She's been suffering for days, her body couldn't take the treatment anymore, we only did the best for her__" My muscles tense up at my father's
CHAPTER FORTY ONEMALAKAI **My skin itches from my father's belt; disgust and fury flash in his eyes as he repeats. "Are you gay?"If I want just one person and the person just happens to be a guy, am I still gay? Probably?I'm not afraid of the belt anymore, because when I close my eyes..."You won't speak? You're not denying it. You don't even beg when I hit you, do you want to challenge me now?!"My father's belt clatters roughly to the ground and he delivers a hard punch to my face.No!A gasp of pain leaves my mouth as I stagger backwards.Please bring back the belt!At least, I can pretend it is Pierce who's hurting me so sweetly.His blows fucking hurts, my entire face hurts, I can barely speak, but when I see the rage in his eyes, something inside of me triumphs."I'm the one going to hell, Dad, why are you so mad?""So it's true? Who is this guy you're fucking? Or maybe he's the one fucking you?" He sneers, his eyes growing colder. "I won't have an abomination as a son,
CHAPTER FORTYMALAKAI**He made the whole school hate me and isolated me from everyone and in my lonely moments, I had grown dependent on his affection, allowing myself to be deluded that our relationship wasn't as crazy as it seemed. I suppose I am just a dog, greedily leeching on my owner's emotions, and Pierce knows how to tame one. As I stand on this rooftop, a soft breeze blows across my face. The ground feels like an eternity away, and one slip..."What are you doing? Get down now!" I flinch when I hear Pierce's voice behind me. I just want some alone time, but he always finds me. I slowly turn around, and Pierce, who is normally so calm and in control, appears terrified. His weakness seems so out of character, and my shattered soul urges me to break him more; I want him to feel the hell that I'm going through."Would you die for me, Pierce? Then hold my hands... Let us die together. I take a step back and move closer to the edge."Kai, get out of there!" His face becomes