CHAPTER THREE
MALAKAI
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The shower feels amazing against my skin, The sports period has just ended, and there are still some minutes left before the last period.
Lana and Pierce have been so intimate with each other today as well, and it's driving me crazy.
I need to come up with a plan to tear them apart soon.
It doesn't seem like it will be easy to deal with Pierce, I already feel exhausted merely thinking about him.
I bow my head in the shower when the bathroom door suddenly opens. I turn around instantly to see him enter the bathroom.
Pierce!
I blink to ensure that I'm not imagining him. He walks inside nonchalantly, draped in only a white towel that is wrapped around his waist.
There are other empty bathroom stalls, so why this particular one?
I glare at him as he walks to stand beside me.
"What's your problem?!" I seeth, I am already at my wits end towards him. Pierce stares at me, looking completely unfazed by my hostile expression, if anything, he seems amused.
"I should probably ask you that, you've been scowling at me all day, I need to know what your problem is, Preacher boy."
I tense with further irritation at the use of that name, Pierce certainly knew his to set my whole body ticking like a time fucking bomb.
"Don't call me that!" I grit.
"What do you want me to call you? You're so short, how about I call you baby?
I have a fucking name, dummy!
"Can't you see that this bathroom is already occupied?" I'm vibrating with anger while he merely cocks his head, still wearing that stupid nonchalant expression that I hate so much.
"I can see that... We are alone in here, Kai." His eyes are fixated on me, slowly trailing down my body.
Kai?
Another fucking nickname?
It is common for us boys to shower together, especially after sports. It's quite often that we see each other naked, but somehow, as Pierce gazes at me, I grow deeply uncomfortable. His gaze lingers on my cock and he smirks.
Shit!
I wish I had on a piece of underwear right now. Geez, If he's staring at me so purposely to get on my nerves, he's definitely succeeding. I bring my hands to shield my dick and his stupid smile grows even wider.
"Since you know that then leave, idiot!" My voice is highly pitched, I grow even more uncomfortable under his watchful eyes.
"You have an interesting body..." He says, it is so out of pocket that I just stare at him dumbly.
"This birthmark... Right here... Very interesting." His hand extends, and his index finger touches my chest, touching the freckle which is very close to my nipple.
I'm immobile due to shock when his palm slowly massages its way to my shoulder, which is still bruised from his attack on the pitch.
"I should have been more gentle with you, who knew know you were such a softie," he murmurs in a strangely soft voice.
For the briefest seconds, I think I see remorse flash in his eyes, but he also looks quite satisfied with himself...
What a conflicting human being!
Why am I even letting him touch me so freely? Something must be wrong with me.
I break free from the trance of his gaze and roughly swat off his hands.
"Just stay away from me weirdo, I mean it. Keep your distance!"
Something about the way he gazes at me just fills me with so much unease... Something crazy in his eyes makes me want to just get away.
"Since you won't leave... I'll go," I grab my towel and quickly wrap my waist, I start to leave when he suddenly says,
"Stay away from Lana from now on."
My finger freezes on the doorknob, I turn around to meet the icy look in his eyes.
I should have taken the warning.
"Who are you to tell me that? You don't even care about her!..."
I've loved Lana before he even knew her, he has no right to tell me what to do! Even if Lana likes him, it still doesn't permit him to order me not to...
"You're right, I don't care about her. To me, she's just like the other sluts who have been throwing themselves at me lately," He says cockily, fueling me with a renewed surge of rage.
How dare he call Lana a slut?!
"But she has a hot body, I may take up her offer, perhaps, this weekend..."
Fury explodes from within me, I barely feel myself move, but the next thing I know, I lurch at him, and my fist connects against his jaw.
"Shut up, you fucking son of a bitch!" I roar at him, pain explodes in my knuckles, but I don't fucking care, I just hope he feels just as much pain.
"Does the thought of me fucking her upset you?"
I punch him again, harder this time.
"You don't deserve Lana, stay away from her bastard, or I'll fucking make you!" I growl in infuriation.
Pierce wipes his lip with his thumb and satisfaction floods through me when I notice his bleeding bottom lip...
The bastard is still smirking. Does he fucking enjoy getting hurt?
Fuck, he's crazier than I thought.
"Is that a threat?" He steps toward me intimidatingly, and I stand my ground, meeting his gaze squarely, refusing to back down.
"You can't even land a proper blow, If you really want to hurt me, then do it properly!" He growls, and before I know it, he suddenly grabs my throat, slamming my back against the bathroom wall...
"Argh!" I cry out from the brutal force and the pain while hating myself for giving him the satisfaction.
"Look at you..." He sneers, and his grip on my neck tightens painfully.
Is he trying to kill me?
"You seem to really like her, huh? You can't even hide how you drool over her, tell me why she will ever get together with a wimp like you?" He says crudely and my eyes flash with indignation.
I attempt to shove him off, but he easily slams my body against the wall again, harder this time, knocking the breath out of me.
His harsh breath lands on my face, as he leans even closer.
"You don't even have what it takes to challenge me..." I feel his hand move against my towel, grasping it firmly.
"What are you.." Before I can let out the words, he yanks off my towel, tossing it to the floor. And then, I feel his finger wrap around ME!
My body freezes instantly from shock and humiliation.
"How are you going to impress Lana with this... Or does it get bigger when you're aroused, But still... It's not enough for you to even use on anyone!"
His grip tightens around my cock, and anger and embarrassment flood through me.
"Fucking Retard, Let it go!" I yell, but his grip only gets stronger. More painful.
"I don't like your language, tell me... Should I just crush it?" His eyes gleam abnormally, as he cups my balls, surging my entire body with panic.
He's a maniac!
He may actually just do it
I start to shove him with my palm, to no avail, one of his hands is still gripping my neck and the other is my scrotal sac, with the force of his body keeping me trapped against the wall.
"Please... Just let it go!" The plea leaves my mouth, but at this point, I just want to get away from this psychopath.
"What was that? Say it louder." He cocks his head to stare down at me.
"Let it go, let go...it hurts... Please!"
My legs cower with relief as he releases me.
"Good boy..." He says, patting my hair. I grossly feel like a dog
I set some distance between us, still struggling to catch my breath, my neck still feels very sore.
"Stay away from Lana! It's so annoying to see you hover around her every time, consider this my last warning to you!" His eyes are dead cold and flash with warning.
He leaves the bathroom. I'm left alone to replay the madness of the whole situation again and again.
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I race down the hallway, wondering why everything keeps going so wrong. First, it was the awful incident with Pierce, and now, I can't believe I forgot my laptop in the classroom.
If anyone finds it and opens it...
Shit!
I can't even think about what will happen, my whole life as it is will be completely over.
I sprint into the empty classroom, I spot my school bag on the desk.
I open my bag and much to my relief, my laptop is still safe.
Whew!
It is certainly
a close one. My laptop is password protected, so I don't have to worry about anyone gaining access to it during this short time.
I was wrong.
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CHAPTER FOURMALAKAI**The whole week has been so draining.The best part about weekends for me is not about not going to school but also the fact that my parents are not around, they have to attend several church programs. Their absence is a symbol of peace and freedom. This time around, I am ecstatic that I won't have to see that lunatic.A knock sounds on my door; I look up to see my brother; he enters my room, and I can't help but notice his flashy attire."You didn't come to school today," I say. "Why? Are you going to report to Dad? Not everyone can be a great son like you, perfect attendance, top of the class, I can't even compete with you, you are so annoying, you know that?"How long has he been waiting to say these words to me?I can't even blame him. Our father is the root cause. Skipping school isn't just the problem, I am more concerned about the friends he's been hanging around with lately, they smoke and drink, I'm afraid of Ezra being influenced, he's just sixteen
CHAPTER FIVEMALAKAI**It's over... My life...My secret crush...Everything is over!I'm trembling like a leaf on a windy day as I wait for another message that doesn't arrive. Fear dries up my lungs, I don't think I'm breathing for the several minutes that follow. Who is the sender?How did he access my device even though it is password-protected?Why wait until now to message me?These thoughts are floating through my mind as my shaky fingers start to type;' Who are you...?'It takes a lot of courage to click on the sending option, even breathing becomes difficult as I wait for a response. The message tickles twice They read it...!I can't stop trembling; I bit on my thumb hard enough to draw blood. The sharp pain combined with the metallic taste that floods my mouth.Seconds slowly turn into minutes and then hours. And there is still no response.' What do you want?...' I type again, I continue to check my phone. I'm glued to my spot on the bed, several hours have passed s
CHAPTER SIXMALAKAI**Pierce ignores my questions, he merely walks to the side of the room to pour himself a drink and makes himself comfortable on the couch in the room.He takes a sip of his drink, watching me through the rim of the glass, seeming to enjoy every second of my anxiety."What do I want? Hmm, now what do I want, you tell me?" He taps his jaw with a finger. This fucker!What's he being so dramatic for? I'm still furious that he invaded my privacy.Pierce takes another sip of his drink and extends the glass towards me.Is he expecting me to drink from the same glass? I can't even hide my disgust as I stare at him."I don't drink alcohol," I say, which isn't a lie. "Well, you're gonna," Pierce says softly, but I can hear the threat laced in his voice. His hand remains extended. Right now, he practically calls all the shots; I guess I really don't have a choice.Just a drink right? If this is all it takes...I snatch the glass from his hand, pour the entire contents
CHAPTER SEVENMALAKAI **Why is Lana here?'...Maybe I don't want anything; I'm just going to show Lana what a disgusting prick you are; that's what's going to satisfy me. ' Pierce's words replay in my head and dread tightens up my insides, sobering me up for some seconds. I never knew that Lana even attended parties, and she looks so different tonight, dressed in a sleeveless black dress that hits just below her ass, showing off her long sexy legs, her face is covered with makeup. She's so fucking beautiful and in another situation, I would have loved to take a picture, but right now, I'm filled with apprehension.What is Pierce planning to do?If he tells her, she will never look at me the same again.Lana hating me is my greatest fear.I meet Pierce's gaze in panic, and the bastard has the nerve to smile at me, I guess he can see how distressed I am."I thought you'd forgotten about me, I'm happy that you finally messaged me..." Lana says, even from the distance, I can see the
CHAPTER EIGHTMALAKAI **The memories continue to haunt me. It's been almost one week, and I'm still tormented by that night. I've even tried to convince myself that it didn't happen, but my lips are still tender from where he'd bitten me, it's almost as if he'd purposely left behind the evidence. Why did Pierce act so wild that night? Maybe he was so drunk and had lost his fucking mind, that's the only reasonable explanation I can come up with. I bet he regrets that night as much as I do. He's dating Lana and has hated so many girls in the past, so there's no way he's gay. I shake my head at the thoughts. Why can't I forget?!I've skipped school these days because I don't want to face him, the thought of seeing him fills me with so much anxiety.This is the first time I've ever skipped school, I lied to my parents about being sick. It isn't even a lie because mentally, every cell in my brain is shutting down, it only gets worse the more I try to think. Pierce has been bombar
CHAPTER NINEMALAKAI **I search for Pierce like a maniac the moment I enter school, I manage to locate him during football practice, he stands out easily from the rest of his popular friends. Tate and Jeremiah are discussing with him. I'm not the only one watching him. How does he have the attention of almost all the girls without even doing anything?My footsteps halt. Everyone always wants to be around him. They want to listen to whatever he says, why do they all want his approval? Is it only because his family is rich? His personality is shitty but they're all admiring him like an angel who's fallen to earth. Pierce has so many people around him, how did he even notice me? I've always been unnoticeable; no one cares about what the pastor's kid has to say; why is Pierce so determined to drag my shadows into the light, exposing me for all to see?It's better to meet him in this public place, at least, I know he won't do anything weird, but my body grows tense at the thought of
CHAPTER TENMALAKAI **Pierce gives me only until the end of the day to make my decision, but I mean, how can anyone possibly respond to what he's proposing?And time seems to be going by too fast today, how is it the last period already?Why is Pierce so intent on having sex with me? Is this even still about revenge?I shudder at the memory of his stiff erection, he says he just wants to fuck me, but what the hell is even that?My sanity is at its wit's end. I feel soulless as I gather my study materials from my locker."Hey,"I jump at the sound of the voice, the most unbelievable person is standing in front of me.Lana."I've been looking for you all over the place."Her words tense me up. Can it be that she recalls the last time? I'm already panicking because of Pierce, if it gets worse than this, I may be having a cardiac arrest. Maybe dying is the only way I can escape."The teacher told us to work on the assignment together, but you just left."This is it?I'm so relieved th
CHAPTER ELEVENPIERCE**'Kai, do you know that I can't stop thinking of wanting to carve off your flesh so I can see what's beneath?'There's no emotion more powerful than obsession, and it starts so slowly that you don't even recognize the patterns, and when you do, it's already too late, you're already enthralled in the darkness and deceit of your own making. It started with a simple desire of wanting to know him, but soon, it became not nearly enough. I crave more. It's an unquenched thirst that refuses to be sated. Your whole world revolves around them while they do not know of your existence.I want to be closer to him, so close that want to just bury him beneath my skin.Kai, Do you know how much I want to see you bleed? I also want you to see me bleed and paint my blood across your face and mark you so that the others will know that you're mine!Everyone has a dream, unconscious thoughts and desires, something they want to hold on to, cherish, and are afraid to lose. My
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHTMALAKAI **His face had resurfaced all the forbidden memories. A year and six months is what it took that correction facility to try and make me forget him. They still failed to cleanse me, to purge the sin and filth out of me. Pierce has been so deeply engraved in my mind that not even the tortures had been able to take him away. He's greater than any nightmares that they ever could give. In the past few months, I've tried to have sex with both genders alike, not the Reverend. Not the sister; it's Pierce who has conditioned me, branded himself in my soul. He's the reason I can't get touched by others; my mind is still his prisoner. I'm still trying to break free from his chains, why is fate playing this dangerous game with me all over again?Uriel told me that he'd been transferred to this hospital about two weeks ago for specialized care. I start to wonder if it's just a coincidence that I got a job in this same hospital, but it's Uriel who had recommended
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVENMALAKAI **When a nightmare is real, how do you even wake up from it?"You feel so real" He whispers in a deeper voice than I remember. I am the one hallucinating; I should be saying this. Our bodies are so close that I can feel his heat radiating through my cold, numb ones. His hand caresses my hair and pulls me back enough to touch my face. I shiver at the contact; looking into his dark eyes feels like falling into an endless abyss. His next words send a shiver through me, and it has nothing to do with the cold. "In here, I can see you..." He smiles, and my heart cracks; it almost does not feel like a bad dream anymore. Before I can think any further, his hand grabs the base of my neck, and raw intent flashes in his eyes as he leans in closer. I start to push his shoulders but he grasps my arms, pinning them to the sides, his glazed eyes are boiling with a fury that makes my bones melt. "This is my dream; I can do whatever I want to you; you can't escape
CHAPTER FORTY-SIXMALAKAI **The familiar smell of disinfectants in the psych ward and these sterile white walls choke me with this feeling of despair. It's too similar. Everything here is a stark reminder of that forsaken place. My anxious gaze lingers on the nuns who work here. My heart starts to pound furiously at their familiar black flowing robe and veil. They start to approach my direction and my entire body freezes. "They are caregivers; they can't hurt you," I whisper to myself, but it doesn't stop the chill that trickles down my spine as they get closer... And closer. I can see the deathly hands slowly clawing out of these white walls; I'm hopeless against the force as they drag me to that dark place. I see myself immobile, frightened, helpless on that bed in the white room.'I'm going to cleanse you!' Sister Agatha's whisper rings in my head. I can feel her hands crawling across my skin, the wide smile that spreads on her face. 'You poor sweet boy, let me take care
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVEMALAKAI **"Wow." I hear my boss mumble as he stares at the photo I hand over to him. This particular one had taken me several weeks to work on. I love pictures because they can be viewed from different perspectives, and can be interpreted depending on the subject. The Venus fly trap, a carnivorous plant swallowing a struggling bug. Capturing the moment the insect suffocates and eventually dies and is absorbed by the plants has been fascinating. "Earth is indeed a scary place, poor insect" He adds.' Or maybe the plant just needs to feed? '"Your pictures are great, but why do you always like taking such gloomy photos? Cheer up; life isn't supposed to be so serious. We gotta have some fun sometimes, you know." His eyes leer at me as he suddenly places a secure hand around my shoulders.My body flares with panic and my brain instinctively starts to count.Ninety seconds, and it will be over. One...Two...Three...Four..."I think these pictures are going to be
CHAPTER FORTY-FOURMALAKAI**The shadows of yesterday hit me hard as I walk through the town where I used to live. Nothing has changed, including the houses and convenience stores around the corner. I suppose two years is not very long. I am the only one who can barely remember who I was before. A part of me is still lost among the broken pieces of this place.Some days, I wonder if I am dead and everyone simply forgot to bury me.I can't look anybody in the eyes, I'm unresponsive to the gossips and curious stares; all I can think is 'fuck all of them!'From this distance, I watch my little brother Ezra walk to the stage to receive his diploma, after my release six months ago, he's the only person I kept contact with.The audience bursts out in applause, and I can not help but feel a wave of nostalgia wash over me. I did not even get to graduate. I have nothing.Three TwoOne.Perfectly shot!Only when I focus on these images on my camera do I feel like I have something, but ther
CHAPTER FORTY-THREEMALAKAI**Trigger Warning: This scene involves themes of homophobia, abuse, and brainwashing. Reader discretion is advised. This is pure fiction and does not depict the actions of any religious group. It's white everywhere. My head is hurting. My foggy brain can't even think of why I'm here. The only thing I feel is terror when I realize I am strapped to the bed. Is this a clinic?But... Why?The door opens, and my blurry vision adjusts to see the Reverend enter, accompanied by sister Agatha.The memories start to claw in, and my heart sears with panic.Let me out!My body begins to jerk against the straps that keep me in place. I remember everything now.'...The truth is, son, you're broken. You're sick. And we're going to fix you...'No!The only one who can fix me is him. Pierce.'Where are you, don't you love me anymore?' I want to tell him that I did not want to leave him. I want to keep my promise, but these chains are stopping me.How long have I been
CHAPTER FORTY-TWOPIERCE**The heavy rain had fallen all night, and the weather is as gloomy as my mood.Why the hell didn't he respond to any of my messages? I had waited all night long without getting any sleep, and now, as I stare at my phone, there is still no reply. I walk into my parents in the living room, Dad wears a solemn expression. I don't recall doing anything worthy of his attention, so why is he here?He is probably worried about the elections... or maybe not.My heart slams in my chest when I see something familiar in his hands.A collar."Pierce__"I find it difficult to breathe as I snatch the collar from his hand. "Where is Lou? Where is she!" "The doctors couldn't save her. We had to put her down__" Mom begins to speak, and a volcano of rage erupts within me."Shut up! You never liked her, did you fucking kill her?""She's been suffering for days, her body couldn't take the treatment anymore, we only did the best for her__" My muscles tense up at my father's
CHAPTER FORTY ONEMALAKAI **My skin itches from my father's belt; disgust and fury flash in his eyes as he repeats. "Are you gay?"If I want just one person and the person just happens to be a guy, am I still gay? Probably?I'm not afraid of the belt anymore, because when I close my eyes..."You won't speak? You're not denying it. You don't even beg when I hit you, do you want to challenge me now?!"My father's belt clatters roughly to the ground and he delivers a hard punch to my face.No!A gasp of pain leaves my mouth as I stagger backwards.Please bring back the belt!At least, I can pretend it is Pierce who's hurting me so sweetly.His blows fucking hurts, my entire face hurts, I can barely speak, but when I see the rage in his eyes, something inside of me triumphs."I'm the one going to hell, Dad, why are you so mad?""So it's true? Who is this guy you're fucking? Or maybe he's the one fucking you?" He sneers, his eyes growing colder. "I won't have an abomination as a son,
CHAPTER FORTYMALAKAI**He made the whole school hate me and isolated me from everyone and in my lonely moments, I had grown dependent on his affection, allowing myself to be deluded that our relationship wasn't as crazy as it seemed. I suppose I am just a dog, greedily leeching on my owner's emotions, and Pierce knows how to tame one. As I stand on this rooftop, a soft breeze blows across my face. The ground feels like an eternity away, and one slip..."What are you doing? Get down now!" I flinch when I hear Pierce's voice behind me. I just want some alone time, but he always finds me. I slowly turn around, and Pierce, who is normally so calm and in control, appears terrified. His weakness seems so out of character, and my shattered soul urges me to break him more; I want him to feel the hell that I'm going through."Would you die for me, Pierce? Then hold my hands... Let us die together. I take a step back and move closer to the edge."Kai, get out of there!" His face becomes