CHAPTER ELEVENPIERCE**'Kai, do you know that I can't stop thinking of wanting to carve off your flesh so I can see what's beneath?'There's no emotion more powerful than obsession, and it starts so slowly that you don't even recognize the patterns, and when you do, it's already too late, you're already enthralled in the darkness and deceit of your own making. It started with a simple desire of wanting to know him, but soon, it became not nearly enough. I crave more. It's an unquenched thirst that refuses to be sated. Your whole world revolves around them while they do not know of your existence.I want to be closer to him, so close that want to just bury him beneath my skin.Kai, Do you know how much I want to see you bleed? I also want you to see me bleed and paint my blood across your face and mark you so that the others will know that you're mine!Everyone has a dream, unconscious thoughts and desires, something they want to hold on to, cherish, and are afraid to lose. My
CHAPTER TWELVE MALAKAI **We sometimes make stupid choices for the people we love, even knowing how wrong they are, but they say love is the most important thing, right...?No wait...Right?My decision brings me to this place, and I can't believe that Pierce is living in a whole freaking mansion. I mean, since his father is an influential politician and his mother is a well-known professor, it's to be expected. But still...This is too much.Nervousness squeezes up my insides with every step that I take. You know, it's not too late to change your mind, the voice in my head warns. The courage I had a few days ago is nowhere to be found. Yeah, even if not for Lana, what if Pierce actually reveals those pictures to my parents? He's one crazy son of a bitch, I know he will actually do it. I meet Pierce's mother in the luxurious modern-style living room after a maid ushers me inside. Everywhere is spotless and white. They even have servants!I've seen her on the local news a few
CHAPTER THIRTEEN MALAKAI **After our shower, Pierce leads us back to the bedroom. He kisses my shoulder before pushing me against the large bed. I land on my back and he climbs on top of me and resumes his assault on my lips.He suddenly pinches my nipples, squeezing them so hard. The sharp cry that leaves my mouth is consumed by his slick wet tongue. Lunatic!How deep is he trying to go? I'm gagging from his kisses and he doesn't even care.Wait...If he keeps being so frantic like this, then he's going to stick his weapon of mass destruction inside of me sooner or later. I have to act fast in this case. I sink my finger into his hair and try my possibly best to relax against his fierce kisses. My other hand caresses his broad shoulders. And suddenly, when he least expects it, I spin us around so I am on top of him. Pierce blinks in surprise, probably because I just told him that I'm unwilling to participate. I press my lips against him to distract him. He suddenly grabs my
CHAPTER FOURTEEN MALAKAI**I try to fight the increasing waves of pleasure that Pierce is forcing on me.I can't enjoy this! ' Remember who he is to you, he's your fucking enemy, remember how much you hate him ' I close my eyes trying to conjure memories of how awful he's always treated me. Somehow, these thoughts only manage to excite me more.I can barely hang on; what the fuck is wrong with me? Does this make me a sick fuck just like him?"Let's see how much you can hold on..." Pierce says, my eyes fly open when he suddenly grabs my cock, he starts to jerk it while his other hand remain inside of me, he continues to twist his fingers at that spot, twisting the skin with each movement. Pierce is watching me closely, this is a game to him, can he not just fuck me without humiliating me like this?He wants to see me give in, to completely submit to him.I bite my lips to suppress a moan when I start to feel the tightening sensations in my scrotum; Pierce continues to jerk my dic
CHAPTER FIFTEEN PIERCE **If you would sit close to me, that would be nice, Like it's supposed to be. If you don't, I'll make you anyway, So won't you please be nice?Kai is crying. Shit, I had been rougher with him than intended, but lost in that moment, there was little I could have done to control myself, he's just so fucking sexy, It's unbearable. Does he know that even the soft sound of his sobs turns me on?My pretty boy... Pretty hair, and pretty eyes, he's just mine, mine, and mine!My heart swells with a powerful wave of possessiveness even now as I stare at him. His is curled into a ball, his back facing me. His pale skin is red all over. My hand imprints and bite marks all over his body satisfy a twisted part of my black soul. His bare white ass is facing me; his cute butt hole is red and raw, and my cum drips out slowly, running down to his thigh. The view is mesmerizing and I'm already fully aroused again.Kai suddenly sits up; he gasps, and his expression shows hi
CHAPTER SIXTEEN MALAKAI **I wake up disoriented. My brain slowly registers the firing pain in my lower region, a small groan leaves my mouth as I gaze at the ceiling. Shit!I'm still in Pierce's house, how long have I been asleep? I look around, and my eyes suddenly land on Pierce, who is lying beside me; he's staring right back at me unwaveringly. Has he been watching me sleep the entire time?I flinch inwardly at the thought. Maybe I'm wrong, surely, he has better things to do. "You had me nearly thinking that I killed you." He stands up and walks to the drawer, he returns rapidly with a bottle of water which he extends towards me.I accept it begrudgingly, the cool water soothes my patched throat. Pierce produces a laptop and inserts a flash drive; he sits down beside me on the bed. His finger touches my hair, and he caresses it backwards in a manner so gentle that, coming from him, it's weird. "Since you were so good earlier, how about a reward for you?" He leans at me,
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN MALAKAI **' But I'll punish you, according to the fruits of thine doings...'My father has always said that there's penance for every sinful action. To atone for my sins, the heavens... Or the devil has sent Pierce to me. Fever burns through my skin, my head is throbbing, and my throat feels patched. I still don't know how I managed to endure this agonizing pain all night long.Pierce, what did you do to my body? I feel like a doll which has been crushed by a trailer, but it isn't just my body that is broken; my soul feels vacant.My eyes are still swollen from all the tears I shed last night, yesterday was a freaking nightmare. And he'd even dared to send me a stupid goodnight text after making me so miserable.I don't have studies today, but I still have to prepare for Sunday School. The task of leaving my bed seems impossible. So, I shrink deeper into the warm blankets, I'll just sleep a bit more. When I wake up, I will...My eyes weakly flutter open when
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN MALAKAI **As I slowly open my eyes, the bright fluorescent lights above me pierce through my brain like a thousand knives. I groggily try to lift my hand to shield my eyes, but my arm is too heavy, I feel like it's suppressed by an invincible weight. Panic set in as I frantically scanned my surroundings.Where am I? Why am I here?"You're awake, how do you feel?" I stare at the young man, who is dressed in a white lab coat, in blank confusion.A hospital? But how?The last thing I remember is taking some painkillers, and then... Then...Shit, did I pass out?Did my mom finally bring me here for the assessment? Anxiety thickens at the back of my throat and I swallow hard. Even my mouth tastes bitter, what the hell happened to me?"You're quite lucky that your friend brought you here right on time, otherwise, you might have suffered severe complications"Friend?I remember now!I had dialled a number just before falling unconscious. Pierce is my most recent cont
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHTMALAKAI **His face had resurfaced all the forbidden memories. A year and six months is what it took that correction facility to try and make me forget him. They still failed to cleanse me, to purge the sin and filth out of me. Pierce has been so deeply engraved in my mind that not even the tortures had been able to take him away. He's greater than any nightmares that they ever could give. In the past few months, I've tried to have sex with both genders alike, not the Reverend. Not the sister; it's Pierce who has conditioned me, branded himself in my soul. He's the reason I can't get touched by others; my mind is still his prisoner. I'm still trying to break free from his chains, why is fate playing this dangerous game with me all over again?Uriel told me that he'd been transferred to this hospital about two weeks ago for specialized care. I start to wonder if it's just a coincidence that I got a job in this same hospital, but it's Uriel who had recommended
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVENMALAKAI **When a nightmare is real, how do you even wake up from it?"You feel so real" He whispers in a deeper voice than I remember. I am the one hallucinating; I should be saying this. Our bodies are so close that I can feel his heat radiating through my cold, numb ones. His hand caresses my hair and pulls me back enough to touch my face. I shiver at the contact; looking into his dark eyes feels like falling into an endless abyss. His next words send a shiver through me, and it has nothing to do with the cold. "In here, I can see you..." He smiles, and my heart cracks; it almost does not feel like a bad dream anymore. Before I can think any further, his hand grabs the base of my neck, and raw intent flashes in his eyes as he leans in closer. I start to push his shoulders but he grasps my arms, pinning them to the sides, his glazed eyes are boiling with a fury that makes my bones melt. "This is my dream; I can do whatever I want to you; you can't escape
CHAPTER FORTY-SIXMALAKAI **The familiar smell of disinfectants in the psych ward and these sterile white walls choke me with this feeling of despair. It's too similar. Everything here is a stark reminder of that forsaken place. My anxious gaze lingers on the nuns who work here. My heart starts to pound furiously at their familiar black flowing robe and veil. They start to approach my direction and my entire body freezes. "They are caregivers; they can't hurt you," I whisper to myself, but it doesn't stop the chill that trickles down my spine as they get closer... And closer. I can see the deathly hands slowly clawing out of these white walls; I'm hopeless against the force as they drag me to that dark place. I see myself immobile, frightened, helpless on that bed in the white room.'I'm going to cleanse you!' Sister Agatha's whisper rings in my head. I can feel her hands crawling across my skin, the wide smile that spreads on her face. 'You poor sweet boy, let me take care
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVEMALAKAI **"Wow." I hear my boss mumble as he stares at the photo I hand over to him. This particular one had taken me several weeks to work on. I love pictures because they can be viewed from different perspectives, and can be interpreted depending on the subject. The Venus fly trap, a carnivorous plant swallowing a struggling bug. Capturing the moment the insect suffocates and eventually dies and is absorbed by the plants has been fascinating. "Earth is indeed a scary place, poor insect" He adds.' Or maybe the plant just needs to feed? '"Your pictures are great, but why do you always like taking such gloomy photos? Cheer up; life isn't supposed to be so serious. We gotta have some fun sometimes, you know." His eyes leer at me as he suddenly places a secure hand around my shoulders.My body flares with panic and my brain instinctively starts to count.Ninety seconds, and it will be over. One...Two...Three...Four..."I think these pictures are going to be
CHAPTER FORTY-FOURMALAKAI**The shadows of yesterday hit me hard as I walk through the town where I used to live. Nothing has changed, including the houses and convenience stores around the corner. I suppose two years is not very long. I am the only one who can barely remember who I was before. A part of me is still lost among the broken pieces of this place.Some days, I wonder if I am dead and everyone simply forgot to bury me.I can't look anybody in the eyes, I'm unresponsive to the gossips and curious stares; all I can think is 'fuck all of them!'From this distance, I watch my little brother Ezra walk to the stage to receive his diploma, after my release six months ago, he's the only person I kept contact with.The audience bursts out in applause, and I can not help but feel a wave of nostalgia wash over me. I did not even get to graduate. I have nothing.Three TwoOne.Perfectly shot!Only when I focus on these images on my camera do I feel like I have something, but ther
CHAPTER FORTY-THREEMALAKAI**Trigger Warning: This scene involves themes of homophobia, abuse, and brainwashing. Reader discretion is advised. This is pure fiction and does not depict the actions of any religious group. It's white everywhere. My head is hurting. My foggy brain can't even think of why I'm here. The only thing I feel is terror when I realize I am strapped to the bed. Is this a clinic?But... Why?The door opens, and my blurry vision adjusts to see the Reverend enter, accompanied by sister Agatha.The memories start to claw in, and my heart sears with panic.Let me out!My body begins to jerk against the straps that keep me in place. I remember everything now.'...The truth is, son, you're broken. You're sick. And we're going to fix you...'No!The only one who can fix me is him. Pierce.'Where are you, don't you love me anymore?' I want to tell him that I did not want to leave him. I want to keep my promise, but these chains are stopping me.How long have I been
CHAPTER FORTY-TWOPIERCE**The heavy rain had fallen all night, and the weather is as gloomy as my mood.Why the hell didn't he respond to any of my messages? I had waited all night long without getting any sleep, and now, as I stare at my phone, there is still no reply. I walk into my parents in the living room, Dad wears a solemn expression. I don't recall doing anything worthy of his attention, so why is he here?He is probably worried about the elections... or maybe not.My heart slams in my chest when I see something familiar in his hands.A collar."Pierce__"I find it difficult to breathe as I snatch the collar from his hand. "Where is Lou? Where is she!" "The doctors couldn't save her. We had to put her down__" Mom begins to speak, and a volcano of rage erupts within me."Shut up! You never liked her, did you fucking kill her?""She's been suffering for days, her body couldn't take the treatment anymore, we only did the best for her__" My muscles tense up at my father's
CHAPTER FORTY ONEMALAKAI **My skin itches from my father's belt; disgust and fury flash in his eyes as he repeats. "Are you gay?"If I want just one person and the person just happens to be a guy, am I still gay? Probably?I'm not afraid of the belt anymore, because when I close my eyes..."You won't speak? You're not denying it. You don't even beg when I hit you, do you want to challenge me now?!"My father's belt clatters roughly to the ground and he delivers a hard punch to my face.No!A gasp of pain leaves my mouth as I stagger backwards.Please bring back the belt!At least, I can pretend it is Pierce who's hurting me so sweetly.His blows fucking hurts, my entire face hurts, I can barely speak, but when I see the rage in his eyes, something inside of me triumphs."I'm the one going to hell, Dad, why are you so mad?""So it's true? Who is this guy you're fucking? Or maybe he's the one fucking you?" He sneers, his eyes growing colder. "I won't have an abomination as a son,
CHAPTER FORTYMALAKAI**He made the whole school hate me and isolated me from everyone and in my lonely moments, I had grown dependent on his affection, allowing myself to be deluded that our relationship wasn't as crazy as it seemed. I suppose I am just a dog, greedily leeching on my owner's emotions, and Pierce knows how to tame one. As I stand on this rooftop, a soft breeze blows across my face. The ground feels like an eternity away, and one slip..."What are you doing? Get down now!" I flinch when I hear Pierce's voice behind me. I just want some alone time, but he always finds me. I slowly turn around, and Pierce, who is normally so calm and in control, appears terrified. His weakness seems so out of character, and my shattered soul urges me to break him more; I want him to feel the hell that I'm going through."Would you die for me, Pierce? Then hold my hands... Let us die together. I take a step back and move closer to the edge."Kai, get out of there!" His face becomes