MALAKAI
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Pierce ignores my questions, he merely walks to the side of the room to pour himself a drink and makes himself comfortable on the couch in the room.
He takes a sip of his drink, watching me through the rim of the glass, seeming to enjoy every second of my anxiety.
"What do I want? Hmm, now what do I want, you tell me?" He taps his jaw with a finger.
This fucker!
What's he being so dramatic for? I'm still furious that he invaded my privacy. Pierce takes another sip of his drink and extends the glass towards me. Is he expecting me to drink from the same glass? I can't even hide my disgust as I stare at him."I don't drink alcohol," I say, which isn't a lie.
"Well, you're gonna," Pierce says softly, but I can hear the threat laced in his voice. His hand remains extended. Right now, he practically calls all the shots; I guess I really don't have a choice.
Just a drink right? If this is all it takes...
I snatch the glass from his hand, pour the entire contents into my mouth, and swallow it all at once.
Big mistake!
The bitter taste is choking, and my chest feels so fucking hurt I think it may just explode. I start to cough, or is this actually poison? Is he trying to kill me?
How the hell can anyone enjoy this?
"It really shows that it's your first time drinking; you have to take it slow, you know, Poor baby, Tsk..."
"Don't call me that!" I growl, Pierce certainly has the talent of knowing exactly how to rile me up.
His eyes twitch with an unreadable emotion as he pours another glass, he lifts it to his lips and drinks before extending it to me.
Gross! Not again.
My eyes narrow at him, what the hell is his problem? "I can't continue to swallow your saliva!" I hiss at him in irritation, his dark eyes flare heatedly as he says,"You swallowed before, and you're going to keep swallowing it if that's what I want... you don't have a choice remember?" He remarks crudely.
What the hell have I gotten myself into? I know Pierce is always an asshole, but this is beyond cruel!
My tolerance for alcohol is very low. I already feel dizzy from the first drink, and the last thing I want is to end up drunk in this place; I still have to return home...
"Pierce, I really can't..."
"If you don't want it, then you can fucking leave this instant!"
It's a lie. He knows I can't leave.
I accept the drink from him and try to drink it slowly as he'd said, but it still fucking burns; my eyes are already watering before I can empty the glass.
"See? Wasn't so hard, was it? Such a good boy." Pierce smiles at me and I seeth internally with rage.
"Are you satisfied now... ?" Stupid Lunatic! I glower silently.
"Not nearly enough,"
What else does he want before he can delete those pictures? I already did what he wanted. My impatient stare meets his nonchalant ones as he sprawls on the couch as though he is king.
"You used Lana's name as your password, so stupid and predictable." He scoffs "Your life revolves only around her, and I hate it." His voice drips with a sudden chill that spreads goosebumps through my body.
Perhaps, I've been wrong all these while. He's clearly protective of Lana... Why is he so confusing?
"Then what do you want from me? For me to stay away from her..."Pierce laughs scornfully at my statement, cutting me off.
"I already warned you about that earlier... Why will I want that again?" He's watching me with that cold glint in his eyes again. "Maybe I don't want anything; I'm just going to show Lana what a disgusting prick you are; that's what's going to satisfy me."Is he joking with me?
Then the reason he called me all the way here...I rush towards him without thinking; big mistake because I can suddenly feel the blood rushing to my head, and I feel dizzy instantly.
The alcohol is already kicking in.
I grab the collar of his shirt, but my grip is weak.
"I already came here as you wanted; I did what you asked me, it's just pictures, it's not as if I'm harming her, neither am I harming you, just delete the pictures, for fuck's sake!"
Pierce suddenly yanks my arm, and I lose my balance, landing on his thighs in a sitting position.
He stares down at me; his next words stop me from worrying about this awkward position."It's just a picture? Then what about when you stole her handkerchief and... Panties? What do you have to say about that?"
I freeze.
Shock drains the blood from me as I stare at Pierce in shock and dismay.H...how does he know that?
How... Has he been stalking me?
No way! I would have noticed that!"Cat caught your tongue, huh?" Pierce's hand touches my face and his thumb starts to caress my lips, and I flinch when he leans to my ear level, his teeth nearly touching the flesh.
"What did you use those items for... Did you jerk off to it?"
Shame floods through me, and I try to look away, unable to stare at his intense gaze any longer; of course, he doesn't allow it; he grasps my jaw, forcing me to look at him.
"You're blushing so hard; You must have masturbated to it; you're such a pervert!" His eyes are shrouded with so much disappointment that only intensifies my shame.
"How many times did you jerk off to it?" He says and I don't respond.
His thumb forces my mouth open, and I flinch; I try to stand up from his thigh when his other arm suddenly snakes around me."If you answer me ... I may just go easy on you... Once? Twice? Hmm?"
Why is he so curious to know about that? Is he even aware that this position of ours is so intimate?
I feel so strange being close to him like this! I want to yell at him to get his stupid finger away from my mouth, but I can only lift both my palms in front of his face."Ten fucking times!" Pierce clenches. His anger seems to intensify.
"You're disgusting, you know that? And Lana doesn't deserve all your time and devotion; she's just an opportunistic whore like the rest of them; what about her is so good that you're so crazy for her?!" Pierce glares at me, my body already feels weak, and my eyelids are growing heavy, but I can see the upset in his dark stare.
And something else... I can't interpret it.
"She's different... And I'm going to marry her, we are going to have a lot of kids and live h_happily ever after." My words come out jumbled, shit, am I drunk already?
"Marry her? To think that I've been trying to be patient with you, but you've been having such useless thoughts of another person!" Pierce scoffs.
What does he mean by that?
He starts to text on his phone; my weak eyes are already fluttering close. No, I can't sleep here, and certainly not in Pierce's arms.
"What should I do about you? I don't want to show you, but you leave me with no other choice."
I have no idea what Pierce is talking about; once again, I attempt to leave his grip, but he suddenly stands up, lifting me in his arms.
He walks to the bed and places me on it.
"Just rest here... Until you become sober." He murmurs.
A knock sounds. The door pushes open, and even though my vision is blurry, there is no mistake about the figure that walks in. Even in my dreams, I'll still recognize her.Lana.
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CHAPTER SEVENMALAKAI **Why is Lana here?'...Maybe I don't want anything; I'm just going to show Lana what a disgusting prick you are; that's what's going to satisfy me. ' Pierce's words replay in my head and dread tightens up my insides, sobering me up for some seconds. I never knew that Lana even attended parties, and she looks so different tonight, dressed in a sleeveless black dress that hits just below her ass, showing off her long sexy legs, her face is covered with makeup. She's so fucking beautiful and in another situation, I would have loved to take a picture, but right now, I'm filled with apprehension.What is Pierce planning to do?If he tells her, she will never look at me the same again.Lana hating me is my greatest fear.I meet Pierce's gaze in panic, and the bastard has the nerve to smile at me, I guess he can see how distressed I am."I thought you'd forgotten about me, I'm happy that you finally messaged me..." Lana says, even from the distance, I can see the
CHAPTER EIGHTMALAKAI **The memories continue to haunt me. It's been almost one week, and I'm still tormented by that night. I've even tried to convince myself that it didn't happen, but my lips are still tender from where he'd bitten me, it's almost as if he'd purposely left behind the evidence. Why did Pierce act so wild that night? Maybe he was so drunk and had lost his fucking mind, that's the only reasonable explanation I can come up with. I bet he regrets that night as much as I do. He's dating Lana and has hated so many girls in the past, so there's no way he's gay. I shake my head at the thoughts. Why can't I forget?!I've skipped school these days because I don't want to face him, the thought of seeing him fills me with so much anxiety.This is the first time I've ever skipped school, I lied to my parents about being sick. It isn't even a lie because mentally, every cell in my brain is shutting down, it only gets worse the more I try to think. Pierce has been bombar
CHAPTER NINEMALAKAI **I search for Pierce like a maniac the moment I enter school, I manage to locate him during football practice, he stands out easily from the rest of his popular friends. Tate and Jeremiah are discussing with him. I'm not the only one watching him. How does he have the attention of almost all the girls without even doing anything?My footsteps halt. Everyone always wants to be around him. They want to listen to whatever he says, why do they all want his approval? Is it only because his family is rich? His personality is shitty but they're all admiring him like an angel who's fallen to earth. Pierce has so many people around him, how did he even notice me? I've always been unnoticeable; no one cares about what the pastor's kid has to say; why is Pierce so determined to drag my shadows into the light, exposing me for all to see?It's better to meet him in this public place, at least, I know he won't do anything weird, but my body grows tense at the thought of
CHAPTER TENMALAKAI **Pierce gives me only until the end of the day to make my decision, but I mean, how can anyone possibly respond to what he's proposing?And time seems to be going by too fast today, how is it the last period already?Why is Pierce so intent on having sex with me? Is this even still about revenge?I shudder at the memory of his stiff erection, he says he just wants to fuck me, but what the hell is even that?My sanity is at its wit's end. I feel soulless as I gather my study materials from my locker."Hey,"I jump at the sound of the voice, the most unbelievable person is standing in front of me.Lana."I've been looking for you all over the place."Her words tense me up. Can it be that she recalls the last time? I'm already panicking because of Pierce, if it gets worse than this, I may be having a cardiac arrest. Maybe dying is the only way I can escape."The teacher told us to work on the assignment together, but you just left."This is it?I'm so relieved th
CHAPTER ELEVENPIERCE**'Kai, do you know that I can't stop thinking of wanting to carve off your flesh so I can see what's beneath?'There's no emotion more powerful than obsession, and it starts so slowly that you don't even recognize the patterns, and when you do, it's already too late, you're already enthralled in the darkness and deceit of your own making. It started with a simple desire of wanting to know him, but soon, it became not nearly enough. I crave more. It's an unquenched thirst that refuses to be sated. Your whole world revolves around them while they do not know of your existence.I want to be closer to him, so close that want to just bury him beneath my skin.Kai, Do you know how much I want to see you bleed? I also want you to see me bleed and paint my blood across your face and mark you so that the others will know that you're mine!Everyone has a dream, unconscious thoughts and desires, something they want to hold on to, cherish, and are afraid to lose. My
CHAPTER TWELVE MALAKAI **We sometimes make stupid choices for the people we love, even knowing how wrong they are, but they say love is the most important thing, right...?No wait...Right?My decision brings me to this place, and I can't believe that Pierce is living in a whole freaking mansion. I mean, since his father is an influential politician and his mother is a well-known professor, it's to be expected. But still...This is too much.Nervousness squeezes up my insides with every step that I take. You know, it's not too late to change your mind, the voice in my head warns. The courage I had a few days ago is nowhere to be found. Yeah, even if not for Lana, what if Pierce actually reveals those pictures to my parents? He's one crazy son of a bitch, I know he will actually do it. I meet Pierce's mother in the luxurious modern-style living room after a maid ushers me inside. Everywhere is spotless and white. They even have servants!I've seen her on the local news a few
CHAPTER THIRTEEN MALAKAI **After our shower, Pierce leads us back to the bedroom. He kisses my shoulder before pushing me against the large bed. I land on my back and he climbs on top of me and resumes his assault on my lips.He suddenly pinches my nipples, squeezing them so hard. The sharp cry that leaves my mouth is consumed by his slick wet tongue. Lunatic!How deep is he trying to go? I'm gagging from his kisses and he doesn't even care.Wait...If he keeps being so frantic like this, then he's going to stick his weapon of mass destruction inside of me sooner or later. I have to act fast in this case. I sink my finger into his hair and try my possibly best to relax against his fierce kisses. My other hand caresses his broad shoulders. And suddenly, when he least expects it, I spin us around so I am on top of him. Pierce blinks in surprise, probably because I just told him that I'm unwilling to participate. I press my lips against him to distract him. He suddenly grabs my
CHAPTER FOURTEEN MALAKAI**I try to fight the increasing waves of pleasure that Pierce is forcing on me.I can't enjoy this! ' Remember who he is to you, he's your fucking enemy, remember how much you hate him ' I close my eyes trying to conjure memories of how awful he's always treated me. Somehow, these thoughts only manage to excite me more.I can barely hang on; what the fuck is wrong with me? Does this make me a sick fuck just like him?"Let's see how much you can hold on..." Pierce says, my eyes fly open when he suddenly grabs my cock, he starts to jerk it while his other hand remain inside of me, he continues to twist his fingers at that spot, twisting the skin with each movement. Pierce is watching me closely, this is a game to him, can he not just fuck me without humiliating me like this?He wants to see me give in, to completely submit to him.I bite my lips to suppress a moan when I start to feel the tightening sensations in my scrotum; Pierce continues to jerk my dic
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHTMALAKAI **His face had resurfaced all the forbidden memories. A year and six months is what it took that correction facility to try and make me forget him. They still failed to cleanse me, to purge the sin and filth out of me. Pierce has been so deeply engraved in my mind that not even the tortures had been able to take him away. He's greater than any nightmares that they ever could give. In the past few months, I've tried to have sex with both genders alike, not the Reverend. Not the sister; it's Pierce who has conditioned me, branded himself in my soul. He's the reason I can't get touched by others; my mind is still his prisoner. I'm still trying to break free from his chains, why is fate playing this dangerous game with me all over again?Uriel told me that he'd been transferred to this hospital about two weeks ago for specialized care. I start to wonder if it's just a coincidence that I got a job in this same hospital, but it's Uriel who had recommended
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVENMALAKAI **When a nightmare is real, how do you even wake up from it?"You feel so real" He whispers in a deeper voice than I remember. I am the one hallucinating; I should be saying this. Our bodies are so close that I can feel his heat radiating through my cold, numb ones. His hand caresses my hair and pulls me back enough to touch my face. I shiver at the contact; looking into his dark eyes feels like falling into an endless abyss. His next words send a shiver through me, and it has nothing to do with the cold. "In here, I can see you..." He smiles, and my heart cracks; it almost does not feel like a bad dream anymore. Before I can think any further, his hand grabs the base of my neck, and raw intent flashes in his eyes as he leans in closer. I start to push his shoulders but he grasps my arms, pinning them to the sides, his glazed eyes are boiling with a fury that makes my bones melt. "This is my dream; I can do whatever I want to you; you can't escape
CHAPTER FORTY-SIXMALAKAI **The familiar smell of disinfectants in the psych ward and these sterile white walls choke me with this feeling of despair. It's too similar. Everything here is a stark reminder of that forsaken place. My anxious gaze lingers on the nuns who work here. My heart starts to pound furiously at their familiar black flowing robe and veil. They start to approach my direction and my entire body freezes. "They are caregivers; they can't hurt you," I whisper to myself, but it doesn't stop the chill that trickles down my spine as they get closer... And closer. I can see the deathly hands slowly clawing out of these white walls; I'm hopeless against the force as they drag me to that dark place. I see myself immobile, frightened, helpless on that bed in the white room.'I'm going to cleanse you!' Sister Agatha's whisper rings in my head. I can feel her hands crawling across my skin, the wide smile that spreads on her face. 'You poor sweet boy, let me take care
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVEMALAKAI **"Wow." I hear my boss mumble as he stares at the photo I hand over to him. This particular one had taken me several weeks to work on. I love pictures because they can be viewed from different perspectives, and can be interpreted depending on the subject. The Venus fly trap, a carnivorous plant swallowing a struggling bug. Capturing the moment the insect suffocates and eventually dies and is absorbed by the plants has been fascinating. "Earth is indeed a scary place, poor insect" He adds.' Or maybe the plant just needs to feed? '"Your pictures are great, but why do you always like taking such gloomy photos? Cheer up; life isn't supposed to be so serious. We gotta have some fun sometimes, you know." His eyes leer at me as he suddenly places a secure hand around my shoulders.My body flares with panic and my brain instinctively starts to count.Ninety seconds, and it will be over. One...Two...Three...Four..."I think these pictures are going to be
CHAPTER FORTY-FOURMALAKAI**The shadows of yesterday hit me hard as I walk through the town where I used to live. Nothing has changed, including the houses and convenience stores around the corner. I suppose two years is not very long. I am the only one who can barely remember who I was before. A part of me is still lost among the broken pieces of this place.Some days, I wonder if I am dead and everyone simply forgot to bury me.I can't look anybody in the eyes, I'm unresponsive to the gossips and curious stares; all I can think is 'fuck all of them!'From this distance, I watch my little brother Ezra walk to the stage to receive his diploma, after my release six months ago, he's the only person I kept contact with.The audience bursts out in applause, and I can not help but feel a wave of nostalgia wash over me. I did not even get to graduate. I have nothing.Three TwoOne.Perfectly shot!Only when I focus on these images on my camera do I feel like I have something, but ther
CHAPTER FORTY-THREEMALAKAI**Trigger Warning: This scene involves themes of homophobia, abuse, and brainwashing. Reader discretion is advised. This is pure fiction and does not depict the actions of any religious group. It's white everywhere. My head is hurting. My foggy brain can't even think of why I'm here. The only thing I feel is terror when I realize I am strapped to the bed. Is this a clinic?But... Why?The door opens, and my blurry vision adjusts to see the Reverend enter, accompanied by sister Agatha.The memories start to claw in, and my heart sears with panic.Let me out!My body begins to jerk against the straps that keep me in place. I remember everything now.'...The truth is, son, you're broken. You're sick. And we're going to fix you...'No!The only one who can fix me is him. Pierce.'Where are you, don't you love me anymore?' I want to tell him that I did not want to leave him. I want to keep my promise, but these chains are stopping me.How long have I been
CHAPTER FORTY-TWOPIERCE**The heavy rain had fallen all night, and the weather is as gloomy as my mood.Why the hell didn't he respond to any of my messages? I had waited all night long without getting any sleep, and now, as I stare at my phone, there is still no reply. I walk into my parents in the living room, Dad wears a solemn expression. I don't recall doing anything worthy of his attention, so why is he here?He is probably worried about the elections... or maybe not.My heart slams in my chest when I see something familiar in his hands.A collar."Pierce__"I find it difficult to breathe as I snatch the collar from his hand. "Where is Lou? Where is she!" "The doctors couldn't save her. We had to put her down__" Mom begins to speak, and a volcano of rage erupts within me."Shut up! You never liked her, did you fucking kill her?""She's been suffering for days, her body couldn't take the treatment anymore, we only did the best for her__" My muscles tense up at my father's
CHAPTER FORTY ONEMALAKAI **My skin itches from my father's belt; disgust and fury flash in his eyes as he repeats. "Are you gay?"If I want just one person and the person just happens to be a guy, am I still gay? Probably?I'm not afraid of the belt anymore, because when I close my eyes..."You won't speak? You're not denying it. You don't even beg when I hit you, do you want to challenge me now?!"My father's belt clatters roughly to the ground and he delivers a hard punch to my face.No!A gasp of pain leaves my mouth as I stagger backwards.Please bring back the belt!At least, I can pretend it is Pierce who's hurting me so sweetly.His blows fucking hurts, my entire face hurts, I can barely speak, but when I see the rage in his eyes, something inside of me triumphs."I'm the one going to hell, Dad, why are you so mad?""So it's true? Who is this guy you're fucking? Or maybe he's the one fucking you?" He sneers, his eyes growing colder. "I won't have an abomination as a son,
CHAPTER FORTYMALAKAI**He made the whole school hate me and isolated me from everyone and in my lonely moments, I had grown dependent on his affection, allowing myself to be deluded that our relationship wasn't as crazy as it seemed. I suppose I am just a dog, greedily leeching on my owner's emotions, and Pierce knows how to tame one. As I stand on this rooftop, a soft breeze blows across my face. The ground feels like an eternity away, and one slip..."What are you doing? Get down now!" I flinch when I hear Pierce's voice behind me. I just want some alone time, but he always finds me. I slowly turn around, and Pierce, who is normally so calm and in control, appears terrified. His weakness seems so out of character, and my shattered soul urges me to break him more; I want him to feel the hell that I'm going through."Would you die for me, Pierce? Then hold my hands... Let us die together. I take a step back and move closer to the edge."Kai, get out of there!" His face becomes