…Lucas POV…
Lexi, she is like the song to a thousand melodies as I repeat the beauty of her name over in endless circles of my tortured mind. I have not seen the beauty that captivates my soul for what shall now be the third night in a row. The irises of my now bleeding eyes have scanned the floor endlessly for her return, yet she has made no appearance. This settles a rather deep worry in my heart, have I scared the fragile delicate angel that she is away?
This shall be one of the many things that Lucas Lucero is so known for, I cannot and have never been able to keep the same woman on my arm for much longer than a week at the most. It is not that I have never desired such a thing, I am simply not capable of commitment in any way or form. Now give me the power of the most feared man in this state and beyond, then I gladly show you my commitment beyond compare. Place a beauty on my arm and tell me to desire the one thing I do not know how to
…Lucas POV…As I stretch every inch of my perfect physique, there are long elegant fingers that start running down every crevice of my sculpted chest. Only but one thought comes to mind.Who the fuck did I bring home last night?With a very fearful heart, I catch a glance at the blonde lying next to me. She is young, a complete goddess in her own right, with curves so hot that you can melt butter on her skin. I can honestly say that I do not remember bringing her home, and what is even far more upsetting to this mind is did I live up to my reputation.So after finding the words that come trembling from my lips, I lean in closer and whisper in her ear, “How did you end up in my bed?”She is immediately taken aback, feeling somewhat, yet not truly, but insulted, “Can you not remember bringing me home?”“Well,” I hesitate for a brief few seconds as I start looking for a way out of this very awkw
They say that you can’t push back a wave.Well, I am standing on the beach about to be pummelled.If I had known that day that I was going to break, I would have chosen differently. I could have prevented it all together; I would have. Through everything, I did the best that I could to stay alive.It was lurking in the darkness, just waiting to strike and make itself known.It took my dreams and left my life in pieces.It was like a shadow that clung to me every day. A companion that I have had for years now.I fell so hard and so fast that I had to be hospitalized for a week.Type one, rapid cycling with moods congruent psychosis, which apparently is a devastating and severe form of Bipolar Disorder.They told me that I had a mixed episode, which is dangerous. It has a tremendously high suicide risk, higher than a major de
I watch him as he is busy getting dressed. He is one of the sexiest men I have ever seen and probably the only one that I will ever be with. Yes, I am saying this as I care, but there is no harm in admiring the view while you have it.Lucas Lucero is definitely a price that any woman would love to have. And for a brief moment in time, he was mine.Or was he?So it is with nothing but that fucking gorgeous smile on his face that he leans over and places his lips softly against mine, “I need to go, baby doll.”As I take his lips for mine to taste, I only softly whisper, “Will I see you later?”He fumbles a bit, looking for the right words, “I am going to be a bit busy tonight at the club, but I can come over afterward.”Well, now do I tell him that I will see him later whether he likes it or not, or do I keep
It only takes one tick of a second…That same adrenaline that I said will turn sour on me? Well, it has now turned into a fit of utter flaming rage as I watch the man that claims that he loves me with another woman on his lap.Now the question is… What do I do about it?So I look at Savanah next to me as she only drops her head, “Sav, what must I do? I feel like going over there and ripping is goddamn dick off and stick it where she probably had it a few hours ago.”“Lexi, I think we should just go home. You guys can talk this out later.”Well, that is not going to happen; I was merely asking for an opinion and not advice. So I move further into the crowd to make sure that I blend in.Savanah only but shakes her head as she heads off to the bar to get drinks. How I would love to toss that drink, in fact, I
As my entire world comes crashing down in one ball of fire, I make my way bursting through the crowds that seem to have only but grown in the past five minutes. It feels like I am suffocating; I am slowly choking on the very breath that is supposed to keep me alive.I am dying inside, and god, it fucking hurts.This time it hurts even more than the first.Why did I get close to Lucas again, I let my guard down for only one second, and he managed to drag me into those hazel eyes. He knows that they drive my knees to weakness. Did he set to do this from the start, or did he fall back in love with me too?Whichever way, I am drowning in a pool of my own tears that is making their way down cheeks that are still burning from the rage that took over my body only but moments ago. I have never lost it like that before, I don’t know what the fuck happened, but
…Lucas POV…Driving home in dead silence with the rain pounding down on the car, my thoughts are taken back to what happened earlier tonight. Yes, I am a fucking fool for treating Lexi the way I did, not only now but all those years ago. I can make up any excuse no matter how goddamn lame; it will still not make up for the way I broke her heart.I can honestly say that at this very present moment, I feel what is probably only a glimpse of what she felt. My heart is being sliced open and ripped to shreds. The pain is suffocating; it squeezes every breath of air from my lungs. There is nothing else I want to do now but cry. Lucas Lucero, even as a young boy, has never shed a tear in his entire life.It is taking such a gorgeous creature as Lexi Rose to bring him down. But it is not truly a complete undoing, for I can say for certain that the love I fee
By now, the hurt in his heart must be raging.As for the hurt in my heart, it is still burning out of control. I have not for one second let go of how angry I am at him. It has consumed every single fiber in me, and it still has not let go. I am growing closer and closer to the edge, and god, when I get there, I am going to crash and burn.My emotions are out of sync, and my mind is playing tricks on me. I have surrendered control over my demons the moment I set my foot in that club, and it still has a firm grip on me. If I don’t find myself between all the darkness soon, then I fear that I am going to be lost.And lost is what I feel. I will be very honest with myself; I am not as happy as I thought I would be when I finally bring Lucas Lucero down. My emotions are mixed. There are moments when I feel guilt and then
The phone was off.So I am left here with nothing but my thoughts and an evil that is growing inside. I have tried for the past several hours to let go of what is haunting me, but every time I think of him, I fall apart. The edges of my restraint have snapped, and I have stopped thinking straight almost an hour ago.An hour ago, I decided, what the fuck, I am going to get drunk.So it is with a bottle of cheap whiskey that I find myself sitting in complete darkness. A darkness that is surrounding me with a suffocating grip on my chest. My only aim now is to numb the pain that has consumed every fiber in my broken body.But it is not working.I am busy going fucking crazy.Should I continue on my path of self-destruction, I am going to come down in one hell of a spectacular way. Crash and burn that is what Lexi Rose is famous for, well, only si