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Demons In The Shadows
They say that you can’t push back a wave.
Well, I am standing on the beach about to be pummelled.
If I had known that day that I was going to break, I would have chosen differently. I could have prevented it all together; I would have. Through everything, I did the best that I could to stay alive.
It was lurking in the darkness, just waiting to strike and make itself known.
It took my dreams and left my life in pieces.
It was like a shadow that clung to me every day. A companion that I have had for years now.
I fell so hard and so fast that I had to be hospitalized for a week.
Type one, rapid cycling with moods congruent psychosis, which apparently is a devastating and severe form of Bipolar Disorder.
They told me that I had a mixed episode, which is dangerous. It has a tremendously high suicide risk, higher than a major de
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