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2021-12-15 13:33:12By now, the hurt in his heart must be raging.
As for the hurt in my heart, it is still burning out of control. I have not for one second let go of how angry I am at him. It has consumed every single fiber in me, and it still has not let go. I am growing closer and closer to the edge, and god, when I get there, I am going to crash and burn.
My emotions are out of sync, and my mind is playing tricks on me. I have surrendered control over my demons the moment I set my foot in that club, and it still has a firm grip on me. If I don’t find myself between all the darkness soon, then I fear that I am going to be lost.
And lost is what I feel. I will be very honest with myself; I am not as happy as I thought I would be when I finally bring Lucas Lucero down. My emotions are mixed. There are moments when I feel guilt and then
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