Right now, life is uncertain.
Yes, I know who I am, but for the last six years, I do not know where I have been. It is not only terrifying, but at the very same time, it is exhilarating to know that perhaps I can start a new life for my old one might have been really shitty.
Though something tells me that the twenty-seven version of me is exactly the person I wanted to be for as it stands now, I am still firmly under the belief that I am still stuck in that hole where I have been buried under for years now.
But I have come to a sense of acceptance over the past few days that life is what it is, and it will not be sunshine every day, so we will take this as it comes.
And come, well, that is this Lucas that will be taking me home today. Now I have been told that I live with Savanah and that I have been for a few years now. Well, that is something that I canno
It is Lucas that is there to catch me as I am about to crumble to the floor. With what seems to be almost all the strength that I have left in me, I pull tight onto his shirt as my body shudders while the tears come rolling down my cheeks.From underneath his breath, I hear him mumble something like, “I lo...” Nah, I think my mind is just deceiving me, for my heart is breaking. Of course, I will want protection from the man that I know I can count on in my life.And it is this man that pulls me back and sits me down next to him on the edge of the bed. There is something about being so close to him that sends a rush of adrenaline racing through my veins. It feels as if I am floating on top of the world whenever I am in his presence.This is going to be a problem for me.So as I am just about to stand up from the bed, he pulls me back, and much to
I am watching a very nervous Lucas staring at me with eyes begging me to change my mind, but the man only drops his shoulders as he sees that I am not going to back down for one minute. Am I making a rather rash decision in the nick of time?Fuck yes!If Lucas did not stop me earlier on, he would be naked in my bed now. I can still not shake this incredible attraction that I feel towards him. But I will need to accept that nothing ever happened between him and me and that it will not happen either this time around.So with very reluctant steps, I follow Lucas to his car. Now, if you think that a woman can sway her hips with absolute seductive torture from side to side, well fuck, you have not seen Lucas Lucero and his goddamn fine piece of ass.He has just turned up that heat again.These are going to be the longest days of my life.Let us hop
The moment that kiss started, Lucas knew that he was crossing a line. I have never seen a man drop anything in his life so fast before. To say that he left me hanging in a spectacular way would not be a lie. He exited the room before he could even have a blink of a second to change his mind about leaving.So the air between us has been a bit tense. He has been trying his level best to avoid me as much as possible. But what he does not realize is that I need him now more than I have probably even done before. Perhaps coming onto him was not the best thing I should be doing at this moment, but I feel so fucking lost and vulnerable.I wish he could understand that right now, he is my lifeline, and he is busy taking that away by playing hard ass. I know that he wanted that just as bad; I can see the way he looks at me. He thinks that I do not notice that look in his eyes.
…Lucas POV…“Stop!”I hear Lexi’s voice echo to every corner of the room while she pushes me away from her legs. As I rise to my feet, I look at her with fear in my eyes that she has remembered the very thing I wish that she would forget, so with much hesitation, I sit next to her and take her chin in my hand, “What is wrong baby doll?”She looks at me and only shakes her head while there are tears that are starting to build in the corner of her eyes, “Why are you doing this?”“What do you mean? What am I doing?”She only but shakes her head as the tears start to trickle down her cheek, but the minute I try to pull her in my arms, she only pushes me away, “Are you only doing this because you are trying to make me forget?”“No, baby doll. I am…” t
…Lucas POV…There is a suffocating grip over my heart as I make my way back upstairs and glance over at the fucking goddess that is lying in my bed. There is nothing more I want than to have Lexi locked in my arms for the rest of the night, but unfortunately, something has come up, and I have to leave.I know that parts of her might be mad that I did; she always used to hate when I disappeared off into the night. But this time is it different, I know we both said that it would only be for tonight, and tomorrow we will be back to being friends.If she only knew the real fucking truth.But I am not the man that wants to remind her of what a jerk I really am.So I lean closer to her ear; my breath is short and rapid as I rest my lips against her warm cheek. I watch her chest rise and fall; she is far off into a deep sleep. The Lexi I know
…Lucas POV…They say a man’s life flashes before his eyes when he is staring death in the face; well, I say it is bullshit. All that is staring me in the face are the barrels of four Rugers. Now, did I foresee this happening? Well, of course, I did not come here to have a goddamn tea party. What was a casual exchange of threats has now only stepped up one level to where I am about to have my head blown off. Yet, Sloane underestimates my determination.I have come too far and too long to where I am; there shall be no one that crosses me. Now, if Sloane does not want to listen, then I shall kindly remind him again.“You can go right ahead and blow my brains out as much as you like, but you will return my property.”Well, now if I thought that he would listen, it only makes him more furious. With somewhat of a slight tremble, hi
I have not seen Lucas for two days; I am hoping it is because he is busy at the club and not that he is avoiding me. I do not know how I ever thought we could have sex and go back to being friends. I hate being rejected this way, and for some reason, especially by him.Was I just another knot in his string?I am starting to doubt if he wanted me the way I thought he did. In fact, I do not know which way he truly wanted me to start with. I am starting to doubt that we were really such good friends as he said that we are. I honestly think he will not want me again now that he has gotten what he has desired for so long.But it is my own fucking fault!So why am I here sitting and feeling sorry for myself?I guess it is just hard to move back to where we were before the mind-blowing sex. Which was supposed to have been only once, but then he had to take
…Lucas POV…“What do you mean that we are not really friends?” I watch as the anger build on Lexi’s face as her voice travels to every corner of the room.With that, I take a very much furious Lexi to the white leather couch. She is quite shaken up so I shall not mention anything about anything to her at the moment. And while I sit her down, I turn to make my leave."Please stay," she asks with words that are strained. I can see the pain in her beautiful blue eyes and I need to be convinced if I should be anywhere else but here.So I sit down next to her and pull her close into my arms. No matter what wrong that I have done, there is no other place I would rather be than here.I need to stop for one moment and take a step back, for beyond all the craziness that fill our lives, I need to allow myself to remember what drives me, and it is Lexi. What makes this all worthwhile is the beauty that I hold in my arms. Should