The moment that kiss started, Lucas knew that he was crossing a line. I have never seen a man drop anything in his life so fast before. To say that he left me hanging in a spectacular way would not be a lie. He exited the room before he could even have a blink of a second to change his mind about leaving.
So the air between us has been a bit tense. He has been trying his level best to avoid me as much as possible. But what he does not realize is that I need him now more than I have probably even done before. Perhaps coming onto him was not the best thing I should be doing at this moment, but I feel so fucking lost and vulnerable.
I wish he could understand that right now, he is my lifeline, and he is busy taking that away by playing hard ass. I know that he wanted that just as bad; I can see the way he looks at me. He thinks that I do not notice that look in his eyes.
…Lucas POV…“Stop!”I hear Lexi’s voice echo to every corner of the room while she pushes me away from her legs. As I rise to my feet, I look at her with fear in my eyes that she has remembered the very thing I wish that she would forget, so with much hesitation, I sit next to her and take her chin in my hand, “What is wrong baby doll?”She looks at me and only shakes her head while there are tears that are starting to build in the corner of her eyes, “Why are you doing this?”“What do you mean? What am I doing?”She only but shakes her head as the tears start to trickle down her cheek, but the minute I try to pull her in my arms, she only pushes me away, “Are you only doing this because you are trying to make me forget?”“No, baby doll. I am…” t
…Lucas POV…There is a suffocating grip over my heart as I make my way back upstairs and glance over at the fucking goddess that is lying in my bed. There is nothing more I want than to have Lexi locked in my arms for the rest of the night, but unfortunately, something has come up, and I have to leave.I know that parts of her might be mad that I did; she always used to hate when I disappeared off into the night. But this time is it different, I know we both said that it would only be for tonight, and tomorrow we will be back to being friends.If she only knew the real fucking truth.But I am not the man that wants to remind her of what a jerk I really am.So I lean closer to her ear; my breath is short and rapid as I rest my lips against her warm cheek. I watch her chest rise and fall; she is far off into a deep sleep. The Lexi I know
…Lucas POV…They say a man’s life flashes before his eyes when he is staring death in the face; well, I say it is bullshit. All that is staring me in the face are the barrels of four Rugers. Now, did I foresee this happening? Well, of course, I did not come here to have a goddamn tea party. What was a casual exchange of threats has now only stepped up one level to where I am about to have my head blown off. Yet, Sloane underestimates my determination.I have come too far and too long to where I am; there shall be no one that crosses me. Now, if Sloane does not want to listen, then I shall kindly remind him again.“You can go right ahead and blow my brains out as much as you like, but you will return my property.”Well, now if I thought that he would listen, it only makes him more furious. With somewhat of a slight tremble, hi
I have not seen Lucas for two days; I am hoping it is because he is busy at the club and not that he is avoiding me. I do not know how I ever thought we could have sex and go back to being friends. I hate being rejected this way, and for some reason, especially by him.Was I just another knot in his string?I am starting to doubt if he wanted me the way I thought he did. In fact, I do not know which way he truly wanted me to start with. I am starting to doubt that we were really such good friends as he said that we are. I honestly think he will not want me again now that he has gotten what he has desired for so long.But it is my own fucking fault!So why am I here sitting and feeling sorry for myself?I guess it is just hard to move back to where we were before the mind-blowing sex. Which was supposed to have been only once, but then he had to take
…Lucas POV…“What do you mean that we are not really friends?” I watch as the anger build on Lexi’s face as her voice travels to every corner of the room.With that, I take a very much furious Lexi to the white leather couch. She is quite shaken up so I shall not mention anything about anything to her at the moment. And while I sit her down, I turn to make my leave."Please stay," she asks with words that are strained. I can see the pain in her beautiful blue eyes and I need to be convinced if I should be anywhere else but here.So I sit down next to her and pull her close into my arms. No matter what wrong that I have done, there is no other place I would rather be than here.I need to stop for one moment and take a step back, for beyond all the craziness that fill our lives, I need to allow myself to remember what drives me, and it is Lexi. What makes this all worthwhile is the beauty that I hold in my arms. Should
…Lucas POV… I am not sure how to take Lexi, she just made love to me. She is furious with me, I do not understand why, why would she make love to me? There is a different kind of look in her eyes. She has been mad at me before and not wanted to come near me at all. Yet, now, she craved to be around me more than anything else. I do not understand if she is still upset, or are we just leaving this unsaid. Well, I have yet spoken but too soon. What does she mean by what is going to happen? The only thing we need now is to work through this and move forward from here. But I do not believe that this will be that easy. So it is with a deep sorrow that she reflects those blue eyes back into mine. The pain is clear, the pain is there, I am foolish to think any other way. And so I need to prepare myself for the worst. "Lucas, I don't know if I can forgive you. I mean of all the things that you have done wrong and hidden away from me, I do not think that I can
...Savanah's POV...These two are driving me to insanity. They are stubborn; they plain well do not want to listen. The one thinks the other is better off without the other; all clarity in their heads have gone out the door.Something has to be done.I decide to text him first."Lucas, it is time this bullshit stops. Fair if you don't want to speak to Lexi."Not even a minute later, he phones."Hey, Savanah.""Don't you hey Savanah me.""Where the hell have you been?""I am okay; I have been at a friend's place.""Don't bullshit me; you don't have friends.""I guess you are pretty mad at me?""Whatever gives you that bullshit idea?"“You have used the word bullshit three times already; I don't think I have ever heard you say it before."He is damn right that I have not said it before, but I am beyond my patience with these two."If you two are not going to act like grown-up
...Lexi POV...I look at Lucas with squinted eyes, trying to show him how displeased I am to be stuck in this damn broom closet with him. As he looks back at me, it is hard to figure out if he is finding this somewhat amusing or if he is just as annoyed as I am. Just as he is about to get that cocky smile, I snap at him."Is this just not fantastic!""Oh, believe me, I cannot think of spending my day in a better way.""What does that mean?""I don't want to be stuck in a closet with you.""What is wrong with me?"He dares to look me up and down; he studies my body too long to be comfortable with. We have been intimately close so many times; why does this feel somewhat different. It is as if he is judging by the mere look in his eye, which seems to be very hard to read; I have no idea what he is thinking."Well, where do I even start?" he says with eyes so cold. His words knock my heart back hard; how can he be so cr