...Lucas POV...
They say that the future is a blank sheet of paper, and we are the ones that draw the lines on it, but sometimes our hand is held, and the lines we draw aren't the lines we wanted.
That is life, isn't it? A long series of what-if's that lead from one moment to the next, time never pausing for you to catch your breath, to make sense of the cards that have been handed to you. And all you can do is play your cards and hope for the best.
Well, I am not a fucking poker player.
But, ya…
Life is also a collection of moments, some good and some bad; they ultimately form the puzzle of your life. There is someone who has stood in the same dark place, that the very same puzzle as you. It's okay not to be okay sometimes. Sometimes, it's normal, healthy, and necessary to feel defeated, so you know what it's like to rise another time.
…Lucas POV…The drive to the Hospital is near to torture as I feel torn away from Lexi for each ticking second too long. The only thought that consumed me as I sat there in silence, trying my best not to show the tears that wanted to burn with pain down cheeks that had gone pale and near damn cold, the only single thing that ran through my mind is that all of this is my fault.If I were not fucking cheating when I was supposed to be with her, then none of this would have happened. I will wallow in my own misery rightfully deserved if anything has to happen to her.So here I am, I am standing in a godforsaken waiting room. With each second that the clock ticks to a minute, there is a small piece of me that is slowly dying.The hardest thing in life is having patience. They say the longer something takes, the better the outcome. Well, I say it i
Sitting here in the darkness, there is a little piece of me that is slowly dying. I have never felt such a connection with a woman before; I cannot bear to be away from her for one second. Yes, I have had my share of women, but none of them comes close in comparison to Lexi.As long as I hear that machine beep, I know that there is still hope for us. When she opens her eyes, I know that the first thing that I shall do is go down on my knees and beg her forgiveness. After that, I will open my heart and soul to her; I will express the love that I feel in my heart for her.I know; there is that absolute certainty that she shall soon return from where she is. So I take her soft hand into mine and gently squeeze her palm. There is a smile that grows at the corner of my lips; the comfort of her touch leaves tingles on my skin.Then from nowhere, I find my hand wandering to her lips, and I do what I have been craving to do so, I touch them. I run my thumb across them.
…Lucas POV…It has been two days…The longest two days of my fucking life!I have been sitting at her bedside for each ticking moment, praying that she would open those big brown eyes but nothing…Nothing has happened.The swelling has not gone down, and the Doctor is starting to hover around like a fucking fly. I know that he is nervous and far beyond scared to tell me of his concerns out of fear that I might just shoot him. Well, the man will be damn right, for if he does not do anything soon, I am going to run out of patience.And running out of patience is these nurses that are beyond fed up with me ordering them around. So with much convincing from Colton, I have stood from my chair very reluctantly with the purpose of leaving Lexi’s side for what is going to be one agonizing night. After what was a half
…Lucas POV…In less than an inch of a second, Colton rushes over to me and stops me from entering the room. There are what seems to be one too many Doctors and a nurse standing around her bed. The sight pierces my eyes like the sting of a sharp knife, and in an instant, my knees give in, and I topple to the floor with a loud thud.Colton catches me just as my head is about to crash against the wall behind me, “Fuck, Lucas!” He growls as he lifts a body that does not want to move. “Don’t you also go…”I do not give him one second to finish that sentence, “Is she…?” The words cannot leave my mouth; I am too damn scared that it will become real if I say the words. So it is with pleading eyes that are starting to puddle with nothing but tears that I look at
Right now, life is uncertain.Yes, I know who I am, but for the last six years, I do not know where I have been. It is not only terrifying, but at the very same time, it is exhilarating to know that perhaps I can start a new life for my old one might have been really shitty.Though something tells me that the twenty-seven version of me is exactly the person I wanted to be for as it stands now, I am still firmly under the belief that I am still stuck in that hole where I have been buried under for years now.But I have come to a sense of acceptance over the past few days that life is what it is, and it will not be sunshine every day, so we will take this as it comes.And come, well, that is this Lucas that will be taking me home today. Now I have been told that I live with Savanah and that I have been for a few years now. Well, that is something that I canno
It is Lucas that is there to catch me as I am about to crumble to the floor. With what seems to be almost all the strength that I have left in me, I pull tight onto his shirt as my body shudders while the tears come rolling down my cheeks.From underneath his breath, I hear him mumble something like, “I lo...” Nah, I think my mind is just deceiving me, for my heart is breaking. Of course, I will want protection from the man that I know I can count on in my life.And it is this man that pulls me back and sits me down next to him on the edge of the bed. There is something about being so close to him that sends a rush of adrenaline racing through my veins. It feels as if I am floating on top of the world whenever I am in his presence.This is going to be a problem for me.So as I am just about to stand up from the bed, he pulls me back, and much to
I am watching a very nervous Lucas staring at me with eyes begging me to change my mind, but the man only drops his shoulders as he sees that I am not going to back down for one minute. Am I making a rather rash decision in the nick of time?Fuck yes!If Lucas did not stop me earlier on, he would be naked in my bed now. I can still not shake this incredible attraction that I feel towards him. But I will need to accept that nothing ever happened between him and me and that it will not happen either this time around.So with very reluctant steps, I follow Lucas to his car. Now, if you think that a woman can sway her hips with absolute seductive torture from side to side, well fuck, you have not seen Lucas Lucero and his goddamn fine piece of ass.He has just turned up that heat again.These are going to be the longest days of my life.Let us hop
The moment that kiss started, Lucas knew that he was crossing a line. I have never seen a man drop anything in his life so fast before. To say that he left me hanging in a spectacular way would not be a lie. He exited the room before he could even have a blink of a second to change his mind about leaving.So the air between us has been a bit tense. He has been trying his level best to avoid me as much as possible. But what he does not realize is that I need him now more than I have probably even done before. Perhaps coming onto him was not the best thing I should be doing at this moment, but I feel so fucking lost and vulnerable.I wish he could understand that right now, he is my lifeline, and he is busy taking that away by playing hard ass. I know that he wanted that just as bad; I can see the way he looks at me. He thinks that I do not notice that look in his eyes.