IVANA'S POV
These past two weeks in Russia were probably the worst moments of my life after the death of my father, fifteen years ago. I had gone through hell and was currently going through it, due to the imprinted blood stains that spilled all over the carpet from my father's head. That image remained imprinted in my head for the past fifteen years, despite seeing different therapists. None could help me end my phobia for blood or wipe those memories out of my head. And currently, staying with the Orlovs topped it all. Especially Ruslan, my overbearing step-brother. He always has a way to make me bend to his demands no matter how stubborn I claim to be. And today, was one of those days I wished would remain a nightmare. “What did you just say, Mom?” I didn't quiet catch what she had said earlier, so I needed her to explain it more clearer this time. “Your step-father and step-brother are in discussion concerning your marriage.” Mom said as drank from a cup of hot tea. “You are joking right?” A chuckle rippled out of my throat as I took my seat across hers in the dining room. “It's no joke, Ivana. Your marriage will help the clan to be more stronger.” Mom added and the chuckle slowly changed into ripples of laughter. Her words were so ridiculous that I couldn't help but laugh. Marriage? Me? “It seems you're forgetting how old I am, Mom.” I stopped laughing, turning all serious as I tried to explain the weight her words carry. “No, Ivana. You're twenty-one and I'm aware of that. I have no say in that. I couldn't stop you from getting married. I wish I could.” She reached out to hold my hand but I withdrew it immediately. “Can you take a minute to listen to yourself, Mom. You tried to stop it, but you can't. How? You gave birth to me not them!” I slammed my hands on the table. I have had enough of everything and at this rate, I might go crazy if I don't leave this place instantly. “You can't run away from it, Ivana. You have to get married willingly or forcefully.” Mom’s soft voice couldn't stop me from saying my next words. “Well, that leaves me with just one choice,” I pushed the dining chair backwards and stood up, maintaining eye contact with Mom. “Leave. I'm leaving, Mom. You can remain a mafia queen, but I won't be part of any of this.” “Ivana! Ivana!” My mother's voice rang behind me but I didn't stop walking until I got upstairs, grabbed my suitcase and return downstairs. Upon getting to the entrance door, I was just about to push the door open and walk out of this prison forever, when that deep baritone voice rang out. That voice that makes my stomach churn made me halt on my track. “And where do you think you're going, Step-sister?” His voice carried a hint of mockery and was downright terrifying, but I remained composed, trying to mask my fear. Turning around slowly, my gaze met his. “I won't let any of you define my life for me. I never chose to be a mafia princess.” With that said, I proceeded to twist the door open, when his voice came again, this time, sending spirals of adrenaline through my spine. “Nicko, shut that door. She's not allowed to leave this clan without my permission.” Swinging my head to his direction, my brows furrowed and my jaw dropped in shock. “What? Why won't you let me leave?” “Because, dear sister, you're now an Orlov,” he stepped closer, his hands in his sweatpants, walking in all his grace and powerful presence. “And as an Orlov, you're under the Clan’s protection and without my permission, you can't leave just as you please.” My heart dropped to the pit of my stomach, as I felt my world crumbling before my very eyes. I was fighting a lost battle, I could feel it inside of me.IVANA'S POV How did it all got to this? I just couldn't understand.Just three weeks ago, I was a free bird. Free from family problems and living my life just like every other normal person, but it all changed now.I couldn't blame anyone but my mother. For the sake of her happiness, she has dragged me to hell, to stay with a goddamn, evil, heartless, ruthless man. Ruslan Orlov.I have been confined to my room for the past two days without stepping out.When he told his right hand man to lock the door and not let me out, except with his permission, I thought he was joking.But, devil be damned. He wasn’t playing or joking. He was serious as hell.A sigh escaped my lips, as I stared at the white ceiling up above, lost in thoughts.Who would have thought my life would end up like this?I hate violence to the core, but my step-brother and the whole Orlovs family thrives in violence, conflict, blood, and death.I wasn't fit into their family, but I was shoved in nonetheless.A soft knock
IVANA'S POV My heart instantly scampered off at a crazy beat, not because of anything, but because of the thoughts of having sex with a man I share no mutual feelings or barely know.The Orlovs be damned. They're all crazy for forcing such rules on a twenty-one year old college student.I inhaled and exhaled, fidgeting with the hem of my crop top, below the table.No one must see my weakness, most especially, Ruslan.He would pry on it, feed on it and leave me vulnerable.“I'm barely twenty-one years old.” I let out a heavy shaky breath, trying to calm my racing heart. “Lara was eighteen when she got engaged.” Ruslan fucking Orlov always have a word of weapon to counter my attack, no matter how I try to outsmart him or talk my way out.“She was born and raised in the Vipers Clan, but I wasn't. I joined this family barely three weeks ago.” My gaze shot towards Ruslan, whose face was blank without any form of expression.“You will learn. You have to.” His words came out as a command,
IVANA'S POV Ruslan Orlov is not to be messed with.I thought I could break through his ruthless facade and make him change his mind concerning the arranged marriage, but he just proved to me that he was not to be messed with.The chill that rushed through every nook and cranny of my body after he said those words, back at the parking lots, were second to none.He wants to break me, bend me and make me eat from the palm of his hands. My step-brother wanted to do all this to me.Though, I wasn't expecting less from someone like him, but he exceeded my expectations, or more like, I underestimated what he could do.I stood outside the compound, watching as he got into his car, shut the door and drove off.He meant every damn words!Fury flared in my eyes, burning like hellfire. I wished I could burn him alive, until he is nothing but ashes left, but right now, I can't. I don't have such superpowers.He has the upper hands and to survive, I have to abide, eat from the palm of his hands a
IVANA'S POV “Let's begin, Miss Ivana.” The voice of a female reverberated inside the office, it was soft and soothing.Seated on a chair across hers, I stared at the woman, who happens to be my new therapist.She is a beautiful lady with Auburn hair and blue eyes. I bet her cheeks would be hurting soon due to the stretch of her smile.I wasn't comfortable around her, maybe because it was my first time.My fingers fiddled with the edge of my sunflower dress as I inhaled and exhaled, trying to calm the dread that rolled through my stomach.The thought of opening up about my past, my trauma to a strange woman who I just met few minutes ago, didn't seat right with me, but like always, I never had a choice.After the breakup with Roman, I haven't been myself and Mom misunderstood it.Ruslan wasn't helping matters also. He always returned to the clan in clothes covered and soaked in the blood of his prey.I've no idea if it was intentional or not, but each time I came across him, the need
IVANA'S POV I was lying more often than usual.It became a new trait I portrayed ever since I came to Russia to join Mom’s new family. The Orlovs.Each time my mind drifted back to Roman, I always imagine him fucking Anna on the bed.Different sounds leaving their lips, with them covered in sweats.That imagination created by my shallow mind, caused my heart to bleed and made it even harder to move on.Once the imagination was registered inside my head and imprinted in my mind, it was hard to get it out. No matter how hard I tried to pull myself together and move on, just the way Roman did, it wasn't working.I bet he already moved on like nothing happened. He just wanted to clear his guilty conscience or better still, make it known to me incase I find out that he has been fucking Anna behind my back.If it weren't the case, he wouldn't have broken up with me over the phone, knowing fully well that I was on a different side of the continent and it wouldn't be easy to fly back to New
IVANA'S POV If Ruslan Fucking Orlov thinks he can make me bend to every of his damn rules, he is so wrong. When it comes to what I wear, I have preference and not even God can change my mind from wearing flower dresses. Hell, I have come to love flowers designer gowns that it has become a part of me now. Out of anger, I typed a reply.The anger lasted for just a minute before it wore off, only for me to realise the mistake I created for myself. ‘You can go to hell. I would rather look like a fucking plant than look like an elegant lady, which infact, I'm not.’ I already pressed the ‘send button’ before realising what I've done. Ruslan would surely come for me tonight. “Whatever!” I heaved a sigh with an eye roll before shoving my phone back into my backpack. Staring out of the window, we were already at the entrance of the college. Once the car got into the parking lots, I alighted and made my way into the school. I have no friends other than Aria. Being an introvert, maki
RUSLAN POV Seated in my office and typing away on my laptop, I was so engrossed in my work that I didn't hear the knocking on the door.Another knock snapped me out of my thoughts and I took off my glasses, shutting the laptop at once.I could tell from the desperation behind the knock, that there was something important I should know about.“Yes, come in.” I replied and almost immediately, Nicko burst in, his face blank, but I could see the rapid movement in his eyes.“Why are you here? Report.” I ordered and Nicko drove his fingers into his wavy black hair.“If you aren't ready to report, leave now and take care of the matter yourself.” I glared.“Someone stole from our goods.” He finally spoke up after few seconds of silence.I knew it. Something was wrong from the way he knocked and the desperation in his eyes.I guess some motherfucker will be dying tonight, by my hands.“Who is it?” I asked, my voice deep and calm.It implied to; a calm before the storm.“We don't know for sure
TRIGGER WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS VIOLENCE. RUSLAN'S POV They laughed. They fucking laughed at me like I was the most funniest person on earth. And I swear to God, the urge. The sudden will to gouge out all their eyes and grilled it for Viking, my dog to eat, overwhelmed me. Overpowered me. My hands began to ache, itch and my demons wanted to consume blood. I was barely keeping them at bay. “Did I say something funny?” Annoyance wormed it's way into my chest. “What did Caleb took from you? Just a few arsenal? Are you kidding me?” The leader stepped forward, towering over me like a giant. He should know by now that things doesn't work well because he is a giant. David fucking took Goliath down with just a stone, but me? I’ll be taking him and every motherfucking gangsters in that warehouse with my silver dagger. “Aren't you supposed to be a generous Bratva? Losing a few arsenal won't be the end of you or your clan, hell, it doesn't take a cent from you.” “But
Ruslan’s POVJust when I wanted to disappear into the hallway, the sound of hurried footsteps made me turn around only to see Ivory running down the stairs with Igor and Lara. Raising my brow, I demanded an explanation without having to use my words.“What did I just hear?" Ivory asked, hurrying to my side, her face drained of all its colors and had been replaced with fright. Pressing my lips to a thin line, I facepalmed myself in anger. This was supposed to be a secret. They must have overhead me when I was speaking to Nicko.“Ivana had been kidnapped.” I forced the words through my teeth, my hands balled into my fist in anger. “What did you just say?” She gasped, her chest rising and falling in rhythm. Pushing my hand forward, I wanted to confront her but I had no idea how to go about that so I withdrew my hands.“Ivana has been kidnapped.” I repeated my earlier words. This time slower as I rubbed my temples.My head had begun to ache seeing Ivory all flustered. “How the fuck
Ruslan’s POVThe silence in my office was suffocating.Since last night, I haven't stepped out and no one has come in since Ivana left. At the moment, I was sitting behind my desk, pen in hand and papers in front of me but I couldn’t focus. My mind kept drifting back to Ivana.My guts keep telling me something doesn’t sit right. It wasn't about the fallout we had yesterday, this was different. Last night, I didn't intend to react that way but she was refusing to get the message I desperately wanted to pass on. A lot of things were going through my mind; the Irish clan silence and then Lorenzo’s chilling words. All I wanted was a little time for myself to wrap my head about what was bothering me but she wasn't having it. Falling back on my seat, I shut my eyes tightly as I began to swirl my chair around, trying to forget about her but it was to know avail. Leaning forward with my hands clasped in front of me, I shifted my gaze to my laptop. I had been watching the footage for a w
Ivana’s POVAfter leaving Ruslan's office, I made my way to my room, slamming the door shut and falling on my bed face first.Recalling the way Ruslan had spoken to me made tears roll down my cheeks in torrents and soon I was sobbing but the sound was muffled by the pillow I had buried my head in. “Honey, it's time for dinner." Mother said softly from the hallway. “I had a late lunch, I'm full.” I managed to say without giving out my real emotion. "Alright dear, have a good night's rest.” She replied cheerfully and this was followed by the sound of her departing footsteps.The moment I couldn't hear the sound again, I lay on my back, staring at the ceiling.I didn’t go down for dinner not because I wasn’t hungry. The truth was, I was starving—but because the lump in my throat was bigger than my appetite. The moment Ruslan shouted at me and slammed his hand on the desk, something inside of me shattered. He had never been that furious with me to the best of my knowledge. This was t
IVANA’S POVI owe mom for bringing the idea of a picnic and Lara for pushing forward with it. All the while I thought the picnic was going to be boring but it turned out to be so much fun. My sexcapades with Ruslan were wild, intense and unforgettable. The memory was going to live with me for the rest of my life. Each time I thought of it, I found myself smiling but I was quick to wipe the smile off so I wouldn't be asked why.Instead of joining the rest for hiking, I stayed back at the tent claiming to be in pains so I was left alone with Ruslan who declared his disinterest even before he was asked That cool evening, Ruslan did not only make love to me. He claimed me over and over again and I let him. That night even when they returned, he took me like he owned me, pressing me against the tent wall, with one hand covering my mouth to muffle the sounds that threatened to give us away.It was brutal but passionate, a punishment I welcomed wholeheartedly. Each of his thrust hit
RUSLAN'S POVThe Irish clan was still quiet despite the fact that words had gone round that I had tightened the security of my perimeter. In our world, silence wasn’t peace, it was a prelude to war. And when men like the Irish clan stopped barking, it meant they were getting ready for war. The thought of it made my skin crawl. They might have gone to re-enforce their attacks which were going to be fatal.Still, I kept my composure. To others, nothing was wrong since I went about my duties, my dealings, my responsibilities like I always did without a hitch but underneath, I was on edge. I was watching, listening and waiting for the Irish clan to attack. I wasn't going to relax and watch them swoon in on me when I least expect it.Swirling around in the swivel chair in my home office, my eyes were shut as I hummed a familiar rhyme. I was doing this to pass time.There was a meeting at the Devil's Priesthood which was scheduled for noon. I had an hour left so I decided to spend it m
IVANA'S POVSaturday arrived faster than expected and since I had convinced Ruslan to join us for the picnic, he hadn't raised any objections.From the top of the staircase, I watched as mom and Lara went all over the place putting finishing touches to all we needed for the picnic since dawn.They packed and unpacked bags just to make sure everything was intact. They double checked the supplies they had ordered the previous day, tossing in more snacks than we would ever need. Mom and Lara were both excited like kids who were going on a field trip. If asked my opinion about all this fuss, I would have gladly traded the picnic for a quiet evening indoors but I couldn't.For the sake of mom and Lara, I had to act like I was interested but that was far from the truth. Ruslan felt the same way I did.He had only agreed to go on the picnic, not because of my promise but because I was going to keep bothering him until he gave in. On the other hand was poor Igor who looked like he had sig
IVANA'S POVFinally, it was breakfast time.Last night, I skipped dinner for reasons best known to me and this morning, I woke up feeling hollow.My stomach was empty and my worms which were restless were not helping matters. At the dining table, I was the first to arrive with Lara, followed by mother and Igor and then Ruslan who had his brows arched.Biting the side of my lips, I allowed my eyes to linger on him for a while before taking it off so no one would notice.But Lara did. Nudging my leg from under the table, she leaned in, “Why are you staring at Ruslan like you want to gobble him up?” She asked and immediately my heart stopped beating. Grabbing the edge of the table, I tried to keep still but Lara’s gaze on me was making me feel uncomfortable. It seems she already knew the illicit relationship between me and Ruslan. "Why bother yourself about someone who doesn't care even if the whole world is worried about him?” Lara said aloud, stabbing her pancake with her knife."
RUSLAN’S POVThe silence was strange and unsettling.The Irish mafia clan had gone completely quiet. Too quiet that it seems like they were non-existent. For a month now, there had been no threats, no ambushes, no anonymous calls or strange deliveries.Nothing made my blood boil with anger and I hated it.I wanted action. A war breakout that would send bullets flying between both parties was all I yearned for, rather than sitting around and doing nothing.Holding my glass of whiskey against my lips, my gaze was out of the window as I wondered what they were plotting. Their silence was so deafening and it could only mean one thing.“Something’s off.” I muttered, pacing the length and breadth of my office, occasionally taking a sip from my glass. “Their silence is…” The moment the thought clicked, I made my way towards the mahogany table in my office and then picked up my phone. A few seconds later, my phone was against my ear. “Hey," His voice crackled on the other end while I s
IVANA’S POVIgor’s close friend was celebrating his seventy birthday, so the entire family was invited.That morning, despite having a lot of unused clothes stacked up in her wardrobe, Lara insisted we go shopping for the party. Lara was obsessed with bold and daring dresses. She took down several lace, silk, open back and high slits and was beaming with excitement while I looked on.Shoving a red gown towards me, she said, “It's going to suit you perfectly." My chest tightened at her words. The gown was beautiful but I couldn't risk it.“Lara.” I called, running my fingers against the soft fabric of the dress, “I can’t wear this.”“Why?” She asked with a deep frown. "It will accentuate your curve, giving you the look of a goddess.”“Ruslan wouldn't like it.” I muttered. "He doesn’t like seeing me wearing stuff like this. If I do, he is not only going to yell at me but you too.” “Ugh! He is such a pain in the ass." She scoffed. “I really wanted you to have this dress." She mumbled