IVANA'S POV
If Ruslan Fucking Orlov thinks he could make me bend to every of his damn rules, he is so wrong. When it comes to what I wear, I have preference and not even God can change my mind from wearing flower dresses. Hell, I have come to love flowers designer gowns that it has become a part of me now. Out of anger. The anger that lasted for a minute before it wore off, only for me to realise the mistake I created myself. ‘You can go to hell. I would rather look like a fucking plant than to look like an elegant lady, which infact, I'm not.’ I already pressed the ‘send button’ before realising what I've done. Ruslan would surely come for me tonight. “Whatever!” I heaved a sigh with an eye roll before shoving my phone back into my backpack. Staring out of the window, we were already at the gate of the college. Once the car got into the college's parking lots, I alighted and made my way into the school. I have no friends other than Aria. Being an introvert, making friends was the hardest of all, but Aria was the one who came to me first, and we became friends afterwards. As I made my way down the hallway, the eyes of other students followed me, causing me to hold my breath and the hold on my backpack strap tightened. I wasn't used to so much attention, so it was rather uncomfortable than entertaining. My legs were quivering on their own, but I was able to enter the class room, seat down before it gave up. I guess my legs couldn't hold up the weight of my whole body, so it gave up once I was seated. Inhaling deeply, I grabbed my backpack, placing it on the desk in front of me. “There you are,” the voice of Aria reverberated inside the class, causing all eyes to fall on her. “Come here.” I whispered, directing her with my hand and she rushed towards my seat. “How are you doing?” I asked and she rolled her eyes, taking a seat beside me. “Do I look fine to you? After the fear your step-brother instilled in me?” She snorted, rolling her eyes once more while I chuckled, amazed by how perfectly she can roll her eyes numerous times. “To me,” I clicked my tongue, checking her out, from her perfect face to her cute chubby cheeks and her small lips. “You look perfectly fine.” “Stop taunting me, Ivana! I was scared when I saw him. I broke out in cold sweat.” Aria said, bringing out her book as lecture was about to begin. “So how did he become your brother? You never told me you had a brother.” Aria paused and turn to look at me. “He is so fucking hot and sexy but that doesn't mean I'm not afraid of him.” “We became family somehow.” The word ‘family’ left a bitter taste lingering on the tip of my tongue. “He is my step-brother and also the Bratva of Vipers Clan.” “Shit! Vipers Clan? The ruling clan in Russia?” Her eyes widened like that of a saucepan and her jaw dropped to the ground that I bet she wouldn't be able to pick it up for the next thirty minutes. “Yes. Ruslan Orlov.” I sighed, adrenaline coursing through my body at the mention of his name. The devil’s name. “God! I don't know if I should be happy or sad for you. You're a mafia princess,” she paused and swallowed. “That explains why you have two hefty hot bodyguards with you always.” “Yeah. To them, I would be in danger if I'm left alone.” I rolled my eyes and snarled. “I wish I can leave Russia.” “Don't even dare!” Aria snapped, making me flinch in fear. It was so sudden that the whole class glared at us. “Your step-brother would find you even if you run to hell. I can feel it in my bones. He is just not an ordinary Bratva.” Aria said, scrolling through her phone. “He’s giving the vibes of a dark Mafia lord just like the male lead in the book I'm reading.” Aria was so focused on the ebook on her phone that she had no idea the lecturer was already in class. “Aria, the lecturer is here.” I whispered, nudging her by the shoulder. “Omg! I'm dead.” She immediately shoved the phone into her backpack and looked up, only to find the male lecturer’s gaze on her. “You!” He pointed out, glaring at Aria. “Me? Sir?” She asked in an innocent voice that one would think she was really innocent of the accusation pointed at her. “Yes, you. Step out.” He ordered and I looked at Aria, my eyes filled with concern. “You’ll be fine.” I squeezed her hand softly, flashing her a short smile. “Thank you.” She muttered and stepped forward in front of the class. “What is so interesting in your phone that you had no idea that I was in the class?” The lecturer, turned towards Aria, his gaze burning into hers. “I…I was just checking a message.” Aria stuttered, the grip on her gown tightened. The lecturer’s gaze was so intimidating that I even felt it from where I was sitting. Aria was indeed in big trouble. And come to think of it, the lecturer wasn't someone we know. I guess he is a new lecturer and Aria turned out to be his first prey. “If so, bring your phone here and let's check if you were really checking a message.” With his hands in his pocket, the lecturer stepped closer to Aria, who also took a step backwards. Shit! My best friend has been thrown into a deep sea by the lecturer. “I don't think that would be possible, sir,” Aria blinked, her fists folded beside her. “I don't think I disrespected you or disregarded you by checking my phone when you entered. I had no idea you were in the class.” What was she saying? She was adding more flames to the already burning fire! I sank my lower lips into my teeth, my breath held, waiting for the lecturer’s next action. The lecturer is a young man of about thirty years and with the way his eyes turned red in anger, Aria would be in hot seat for messing with him. “Ooh… is that so?” He chuckled, clicking his tongue. “Yes.” Aria affirmed. “I guess, you won't be taking my class for the rest of the semester,” he let out a lopsided smile. The kind of smile Ruslan would throw my way when he is angry at me for disobeying his orders. “Leave right now,” he paused, his gaze searing into Aria’s. “Prove stubborn by coming to my class tomorrow, then you will have to kiss college goodbye. I will make sure of that.”IVANA’S POV PRESENT DAY Igor Orlov. Dare I say that he is one of the reasons why I came to Russia.A well-known country, filled with Mafia lords, cartels, clans of all sorts, that even the government doesn't have a say in their activities.He is the retired Bratva of Vipers Clan. My mother's new husband.It's funny how things happened so fast that I was barely able to wrap my head around it.Within a few months of meeting each other at a business meeting, they began to date and then two months later, they were married.And now, I have to go to Russia with my mom, be a mafia princess which I never for once dreamt of becoming.I will have to leave my friends, college, hometown to a place I haven't been and a life which doesn't fit someone like me.As a daughter who is very supportive of every of her mother's decision, I was happy that my mom finally found love after fifteen years of being alone, but the man she married, I wasn't in support of it. I can never be.“Mom, I can live by m
IVANA'S POV After plugging down everything in my stomach, I held the sink in the bathroom, staring at myself in the mirror.For the past fifteen years, the stench of my father's blood remained in my nostril, and at the sight of blood, the memories comes rushing like the wave of the sea, slamming into my head and making it hard to breathe.I thought I was getting better after seeing Dr. Neelam for at least, half of my life.She has always been my therapist and while I attend her therapy session and voice out everything I have held inside of me for fifteen years, I felt a little better, or moreso, I thought.During those time, I couldn't feel the stench in my nostril and I could tolerate the sight of blood, but my saving grace has expired, I guess.Now, that I was now a member of the supposed Bratva family, Mom would eventually hire a more professional therapist, after today's scene at the dining room.I turned on the tap, splashing water on my face, trying to blur the memory of my dea
RUSLAN'S POVI hate not being in control of everything and anything within my grasp.But it seems, today's deal with the Irish mafia clan was beyond my control.They are in charge of the goods, so I have to abide by each of their rules to ensure a successful transaction.When I got a call from them to meet up at an underground building in one of the most luxurious bar in Saratov, I just scoffed.They were all out to provoke me.Who the hell does a business in a damn club?But nevertheless, my clan needs those goods and as the Bratva, I'm in charge of providing the goods for my clan, so left with no option, I found myself in the bar/club.The Irish mafia clan were trying to outsmart me, but little did they know that I'm no ordinary man.I was brought up and trained by one of the top Mafia lords that ever existed, so trying to outsmart me would be their loss.Nonetheless, the transaction was successful in less than two hours and my men took the goods back to the clan while I stayed back
RUSLAN'S POVEven before I became the Bratva, after my father's retirement, showing off or flashy parties has unfortunately not been my thing.I hate so much attention. It gives way for jealousy, hatred and the need to kill.But, Igor, my father, never listened to any of my warnings against flashy parties, because at that very moment, he was throwing a month wedding anniversary with Ivory.Who the hell celebrates a month's wedding anniversary?Well, Igor did.He went against my warnings which needed to be heed, even if he was the one in control before me.He was no longer in control, I am.“Don't tell me Dad is throwing a month's wedding anniversary?” Lara whispered into my ear, her arm locked in mine as we made our way down the hall inside the clan, where the so-called wedding anniversary was taking place.“What do you think? Of course, he is throwing a fucking party.” I was mad, and at the verge of bursting. It was taking the last willpower in me to keep my emotions at bay until t
IVANA'S POVThese past two weeks in Russia were probably the worst moments of my life after the death of my father, fifteen years ago.I had gone through hell and was currently going through it, due to the imprinted blood stains that spilled all over the carpet from my father's head.That image remained imprinted in my head for the past fifteen years, despite seeing different therapists.None could help me end my phobia for blood or wipe those memories out of my head.And currently, staying with the Orlovs topped it all. Especially Ruslan, my overbearing step-brother.He always has a way to make me bend to his demands no matter how stubborn I claim to be.And today, was one of those days I wished would remain a nightmare.“What did you just say, Mom?” I didn't quiet catch what she had said earlier, so I needed her to explain it more clearer this time.“Your step-father and step-brother are in discussion concerning your marriage.” Mom said as drank from a cup of hot tea.“You are jokin
IVANA'S POV How did it all got to this? I just couldn't understand.Just three weeks ago, I was a free bird. Free from family problems and living my life just like every other normal person, but it all changed now.I couldn't blame anyone but my mother. For the sake of her happiness, she has dragged me to hell, to stay with a goddamn, evil, heartless, ruthless man. Ruslan Orlov.I have been confined to my room for the past two days without stepping out.When he told his right hand man to lock the door and not let me out, except with his permission, I thought he was joking.But, devil be damned. He wasn’t playing or joking. He was serious as hell.A sigh escaped my lips, as I stared at the white ceiling up above, lost in thoughts.Who would have thought my life would end up like this?I hate violence to the core, but my step-brother and the whole Orlovs family thrives in violence, conflict, blood, and death.I wasn't fit into their family, but I was shoved in nonetheless.A soft knock
IVANA'S POV My heart instantly scampered off at a crazy beat, not because of anything, but because of the thoughts of having sex with a man I share no mutual feelings or barely know.The Orlovs be damned. They're all crazy for forcing such rules on a twenty-one year old college student.I inhaled and exhaled, fidgeting with the hem of my crop top, below the table.No one must see my weakness, most especially, Ruslan.He would pry on it, feed on it and leave me vulnerable.“I'm barely twenty-one years old.” I let out a heavy shaky breath, trying to calm my racing heart. “Lara was eighteen when she got engaged.” Ruslan fucking Orlov always have a word of weapon to counter my attack, no matter how I try to outsmart him or talk my way out.“She was born and raised in the Vipers Clan, but I wasn't. I joined this family barely three weeks ago.” My gaze shot towards Ruslan, whose face was blank without any form of expression.“You will learn. You have to.” His words came out as a command,
IVANA'S POV Ruslan Orlov is not to be messed with.I thought I could break through his ruthless facade and make him change his mind concerning the arranged marriage, but he just proved to me that he was not to be messed with.The chill that rushed through every nook and cranny of my body after he said those words, back at the parking lots, were second to none.He wants to break me, bend me and make me eat from the palm of his hands. My step-brother wanted to do all this to me.Though, I wasn't expecting less from someone like him, but he exceeded my expectations, or more like, I underestimated what he could do.I stood outside the compound, watching as he got into his car, shut the door and drove off.He meant every damn words!Fury flared in my eyes, burning like hellfire. I wished I could burn him alive, until he is nothing but ashes left, but right now, I can't. I don't have such superpowers.He has the upper hands and to survive, I have to abide, eat from the palm of his hands a
IVANA'S POV If Ruslan Fucking Orlov thinks he could make me bend to every of his damn rules, he is so wrong.When it comes to what I wear, I have preference and not even God can change my mind from wearing flower dresses.Hell, I have come to love flowers designer gowns that it has become a part of me now.Out of anger. The anger that lasted for a minute before it wore off, only for me to realise the mistake I created myself. ‘You can go to hell. I would rather look like a fucking plant than to look like an elegant lady, which infact, I'm not.’I already pressed the ‘send button’ before realising what I've done.Ruslan would surely come for me tonight.“Whatever!” I heaved a sigh with an eye roll before shoving my phone back into my backpack.Staring out of the window, we were already at the gate of the college.Once the car got into the college's parking lots, I alighted and made my way into the school.I have no friends other than Aria.Being an introvert, making friends was the h
IVANA'S POV I was lying more often than usual.It became a new trait I portrayed ever since I came to Russia to join Mom’s new family. The Orlovs.Each time my mind drifted back to Roman, I always imagine him fucking Anna on the bed.Different sounds leaving their lips, with them covered in sweats.That imagination created by my shallow mind, caused my heart to bleed and made it even harder to move on.Once the imagination was registered inside my head and imprinted in my mind, it was hard to get it out. No matter how hard I tried to pull myself together and move on, just the way Roman did, it wasn't working.I bet he already moved on like nothing happened. He just wanted to clear his guilty conscience or better still, make it known to me incase I find out that he has been fucking Anna behind my back.If it weren't the case, he wouldn't have broken up with me over the phone, knowing fully well that I was on a different side of the continent and it wouldn't be easy to fly back to New
IVANA'S POV “Let's begin, Miss Ivana.” The voice of a female reverberated inside the office, it was soft and soothing.Seated on a chair across hers, I stared at the woman, who happens to be my new therapist.She is a beautiful lady with Auburn hair and blue eyes. I bet her cheeks would be hurting soon due to the stretch of her smile.I wasn't comfortable around her, maybe because it was my first time.My fingers fiddled with the edge of my sunflower dress as I inhaled and exhaled, trying to calm the dread that rolled through my stomach.The thought of opening up about my past, my trauma to a strange woman who I just met few minutes ago, didn't seat right with me, but like always, I never had a choice.After the breakup with Roman, I haven't been myself and Mom misunderstood it.Ruslan wasn't helping matters also. He always returned to the clan in clothes covered and soaked in the blood of his prey.I've no idea if it was intentional or not, but each time I came across him, the need
IVANA'S POV Ruslan Orlov is not to be messed with.I thought I could break through his ruthless facade and make him change his mind concerning the arranged marriage, but he just proved to me that he was not to be messed with.The chill that rushed through every nook and cranny of my body after he said those words, back at the parking lots, were second to none.He wants to break me, bend me and make me eat from the palm of his hands. My step-brother wanted to do all this to me.Though, I wasn't expecting less from someone like him, but he exceeded my expectations, or more like, I underestimated what he could do.I stood outside the compound, watching as he got into his car, shut the door and drove off.He meant every damn words!Fury flared in my eyes, burning like hellfire. I wished I could burn him alive, until he is nothing but ashes left, but right now, I can't. I don't have such superpowers.He has the upper hands and to survive, I have to abide, eat from the palm of his hands a
IVANA'S POV My heart instantly scampered off at a crazy beat, not because of anything, but because of the thoughts of having sex with a man I share no mutual feelings or barely know.The Orlovs be damned. They're all crazy for forcing such rules on a twenty-one year old college student.I inhaled and exhaled, fidgeting with the hem of my crop top, below the table.No one must see my weakness, most especially, Ruslan.He would pry on it, feed on it and leave me vulnerable.“I'm barely twenty-one years old.” I let out a heavy shaky breath, trying to calm my racing heart. “Lara was eighteen when she got engaged.” Ruslan fucking Orlov always have a word of weapon to counter my attack, no matter how I try to outsmart him or talk my way out.“She was born and raised in the Vipers Clan, but I wasn't. I joined this family barely three weeks ago.” My gaze shot towards Ruslan, whose face was blank without any form of expression.“You will learn. You have to.” His words came out as a command,
IVANA'S POV How did it all got to this? I just couldn't understand.Just three weeks ago, I was a free bird. Free from family problems and living my life just like every other normal person, but it all changed now.I couldn't blame anyone but my mother. For the sake of her happiness, she has dragged me to hell, to stay with a goddamn, evil, heartless, ruthless man. Ruslan Orlov.I have been confined to my room for the past two days without stepping out.When he told his right hand man to lock the door and not let me out, except with his permission, I thought he was joking.But, devil be damned. He wasn’t playing or joking. He was serious as hell.A sigh escaped my lips, as I stared at the white ceiling up above, lost in thoughts.Who would have thought my life would end up like this?I hate violence to the core, but my step-brother and the whole Orlovs family thrives in violence, conflict, blood, and death.I wasn't fit into their family, but I was shoved in nonetheless.A soft knock
IVANA'S POVThese past two weeks in Russia were probably the worst moments of my life after the death of my father, fifteen years ago.I had gone through hell and was currently going through it, due to the imprinted blood stains that spilled all over the carpet from my father's head.That image remained imprinted in my head for the past fifteen years, despite seeing different therapists.None could help me end my phobia for blood or wipe those memories out of my head.And currently, staying with the Orlovs topped it all. Especially Ruslan, my overbearing step-brother.He always has a way to make me bend to his demands no matter how stubborn I claim to be.And today, was one of those days I wished would remain a nightmare.“What did you just say, Mom?” I didn't quiet catch what she had said earlier, so I needed her to explain it more clearer this time.“Your step-father and step-brother are in discussion concerning your marriage.” Mom said as drank from a cup of hot tea.“You are jokin
RUSLAN'S POVEven before I became the Bratva, after my father's retirement, showing off or flashy parties has unfortunately not been my thing.I hate so much attention. It gives way for jealousy, hatred and the need to kill.But, Igor, my father, never listened to any of my warnings against flashy parties, because at that very moment, he was throwing a month wedding anniversary with Ivory.Who the hell celebrates a month's wedding anniversary?Well, Igor did.He went against my warnings which needed to be heed, even if he was the one in control before me.He was no longer in control, I am.“Don't tell me Dad is throwing a month's wedding anniversary?” Lara whispered into my ear, her arm locked in mine as we made our way down the hall inside the clan, where the so-called wedding anniversary was taking place.“What do you think? Of course, he is throwing a fucking party.” I was mad, and at the verge of bursting. It was taking the last willpower in me to keep my emotions at bay until t
RUSLAN'S POVI hate not being in control of everything and anything within my grasp.But it seems, today's deal with the Irish mafia clan was beyond my control.They are in charge of the goods, so I have to abide by each of their rules to ensure a successful transaction.When I got a call from them to meet up at an underground building in one of the most luxurious bar in Saratov, I just scoffed.They were all out to provoke me.Who the hell does a business in a damn club?But nevertheless, my clan needs those goods and as the Bratva, I'm in charge of providing the goods for my clan, so left with no option, I found myself in the bar/club.The Irish mafia clan were trying to outsmart me, but little did they know that I'm no ordinary man.I was brought up and trained by one of the top Mafia lords that ever existed, so trying to outsmart me would be their loss.Nonetheless, the transaction was successful in less than two hours and my men took the goods back to the clan while I stayed back