Overcoming My Episodes…Or Not?

 

We continued to move forward even with a lot of things happening in between regardless if things became exhausting. I have to admit that everything was always out of control. There was too much to remember to do, too much to remember not to do, and none of it really made sense.

It was, at times, hard, uncomfortable, and unpleasant. We spent the rest of our relationship doing unnatural things to make each other happy without any idea if the other was still happy. It started to turn into a disaster.

But I still believed in us. The way she told me that she believed in me back then.

We celebrated what would be our last anniversary with her friends in Zambales. We surely were having fun. But as things went, I had a panic attack. Then, we had a conversation that I wish I could go back to and rectify.

“How are you doing, love? You don’t look so good,” she worriedly asked.

“I’m okay. Although, I was still thinking about how to resolve my problems all day. But yes, I’m okay,” I a