Chapter 7

Maru's POV 

A cold wind was caressing my skin as I looked at the whole view in front of me from my room balcony. 

It's already midnight but I'm still awake, I can't sleep as far as I can remember. I've been like this since that day. 

I took a deep sigh and looked back in front of me, it was a city view in the night time. Lights all over the city, everything seems alive. I'm sure some of them are still awake because of work and some of them are already snoring because of a tiring day for them, they are tired but it makes them feel alive. 

Every time I think about my condition I was hopeless, I feel so hopeless. I'm a sinner and maybe this is one of my punishments, a punishment that can make me suffer even though I'm still alive. I know I've made so many mistakes and I don't think this is too much but I still wanna live.

Sometimes I wanna die but now that I'm dying I wanna live, I wanna fucking live.

I didn't notice that tears are starting to fall from my eyes, they are racing like they're chasing a prize. I smiled out of nowhere before whipping my tears as I inhaled a large amount of breath.

"Just e-enjoy your life Maru, just e-enjoy." I shuttered as I fell and cried. I want to be strong, I don't want my sister to see me like this. I want to look tough but I just can't, some of my tears are traitors that keep on falling from nowhere! 

From all of the crying time, I spent time with myself and my head started to hurt. It hurts like hell, I feel like someone is smashing my brain. I can't take it but I can't make any noise, I don't wanna wake my sister up. 

I hold my head as tight as I could trying my best not to make any sound, I was just holding my body down while holding my head. 

"I-it h-hurts," I muttered while sobbing. I want to bang my head for me to fall asleep and end this hell in the meantime but I just can't. 

Crawling, crying, catching my breath is the only thing I can do for me not to disturb my sister. 

I fell asleep after almost an hour of suffering that hell-like head hurt. I don't have any energy to go back to my bed and ended up sleeping here on the cold floor of my balcony. 

My eyes started to get blurred, how ironic I fell asleep in front of this beautiful scene.

I felt like I was floating and decided to open my eyes. I was shocked that the place I've been to before is in front of me. I looked around in this wide white place until I saw a familiar face that I've seen before. 

Full white clothes from head to toe in what I'm wearing as I realized that I'm in my dream again. My gaze turned back at the girl who's 5 meters away from me. She was still holding the butterfly stuffed toy in her hands. I walked in her direction but she kept walking away. My walk turned into a run just to catch her up but I can't.

After a long chasing scene between us, she was still far from me but she turned around and faced me.

"Maru..." She said with a soft and gentle voice, she's smiling while waving at me. I'm about to run towards her when a strong light source takes over the whole place.

"Maru? Maru?! Maru-"

"I'm still alive," I said as I open my eyes, my sister's face welcomed my newly awake body.  She suddenly hugs me so tight and I just hug her back. 

I heard that she's crying again, sobbing on my shoulder. I took a deep sigh while tapping her back. 

"I'm fine." I hissed but she still hugged me so tight. "Please don't give up, I'll find a way for you to survive Maru. Please don't leave me Maru." She cried, making me tear up. 

"I won't give up, I promise," I muttered as I tapped her back to make her calm. 

After that dramatic scene between me and my sister, I began to clean my room. I was just vacuuming my carpet when I saw something under my bed. I tried to reach it after I bent down. 

My brows furrowed when I saw my old diary, it was so old and I almost forgot about this. Slowly wiping the dust that covers my diary, I keep shaking my head trying to remember what this is for. 

"I used to do something like this?" I asked myself and slowly sat down on my bed.

This journal is covered with a black leather hardbound but full of batman stickers?! What the fuck? I keep on examining the diary until I decide to open it when a message greets my eyes. 

"I'll promise to marry her when I grow up, I like her cause she gives me some of her candies even though I didn't ask for that she's so nice to me so I'm deciding to marry her-"

As I read that message my whole face formed a "huh?" look. I was so confused, who the hell am I talking about in that message. I tried to remember things from back then but everything was a blur, I can't really remember what happened. 

I proceed to explore that diary when suddenly someone calls me from my phone. Klirro's name is on my screen so I picked it up to answer. 

[I'm stopping over.] He said making my brows furrowed, why is he coming here?

"Why?" I asked him, [We're going to school.] He answered making me more confused, 

"What?!"

What the heck is he talking about? I can't go to school with this condition, I won't go to school, it was just making me more stressed! I can die earlier than we thought if I keep on attending school.

[Don't make me wait, we're going to be late. I'm already here.] He said as I ran into our hallway and looked down at our guest area, Klirro was really here talking to my sister and Dr. Renz! 

Deene's POV 

"Baby come down when you're ready." Mommy shouts from afar, I just nod even tho she can't see that. 

I'm here in front of my mirror trying to do some staring contest with my reflection. I think every day that I've been cuter but I just think of that I'm still not sure. 

Light pink body fit nightdress and a blazer is the only thing that I'm wearing. My hair was still in my favorite pigtails but I look so cute. Today was my school fair so we're allowed to wear anything that we want. I walked towards my walk-in closet while holding my butterfly stuffed toy I called her Blaire. 

Now that I'm in front of my closet I was just staring at it, I don't know what to wear!!

I want to look cute today. I picked different colors of my clothes such as Pink, orange, and neon green. I'm hugging Blaire while gazing at the outfits that I hang on something. After a long staring contest with them I picked the pink outfit and rushed down to our main door where Francisco is waiting.

I was wearing a pink sleeveless crop top partnered with a pink high waist skirt and a pair of sparkly belt. I also wore a denim crop top jacket to cover my shoulder and a pair of pink fila heel shoes that mom got me last week. My hair was in a bun leaving small strands on my face, and a small round pair of earrings.

"Oh." My mom said, I looked at her with a big smile that I'm wearing. "Do I look cute?" I asked and she nodded continuously, I was so happy. "My baby looks so beautiful." She said as I walked through my direction and fixed my hair a little bit. 

"Our daughter really follows your fashion taste honey." A voice from behind said as I looked back I saw dad holding a box from his right hand.

"DADDYYYY!!" I shout and can't towards his direction, it's been so long since I saw him. I guess 5 months?  He was always busy! 

"I missed you baby." He said, making me smile, "I missed you daddy!" I answered and hug him back. 

I was so happy because I looked cute today. Daddy came home from work! 

"Of course she will follow my style unlike you, what are you wearing? Six pocket short with a polo shirt and islander slipper?" Mommy hissed making me laugh, I'm about to exit their conversation when daddy called me. 

"Yes?" I answered, I really want to go, I don't wanna be late!!! 

"Here." He handed me the box he was holding earlier, I'm confused but still open the box when I saw a butterfly-designed bracelet! 

"I love you daddy!!" I said and kissed him on his check, I saw him giggled as I smiled. After I say thank you, me and Francisco really proceed to go to my school. 

"Does Maru love butterflies?" I asked myself.