"I'm glad you are here ", said Lisa with tears in her eyes. She was scared for our lives. My father on the other hand refused to see me because he thought I was a spoiled brat. I was glad I didn't want my time to be wasted further trying to secure the affection that he never gave me willingly."Please Give me the latest reports Lisa", I told her."Relax Mer. You just reached our office, wait for some time before you dive into work. Don't stress yourself out", said she."I'm perfectly fine. Did we have any board meeting today?", I asked her."Yes post lunch. Tell me how did you manage to make it out alive?", she asked eagerly."I survived because Matt saved me", I said to her."He is a knight", said she."The dinner date was actually with Pierre", I told her."Really? So that bastard did speak some truth", she pondered."Pierre said he delayed the deal until he came to know that he was married. It was one of his conditions to secure the deal. He wanted to see Matt's girlfriend", I said
I came home so much tired. Being out in the blizzard had drained my strength completely. Mrs Morgan had made me coffee but I declined it. She looked a little concerned. I assured her it must be just because of the weather. I decided to sleep in for some time. I needed to do a lot of work. The company was doing slightly better if I'm so much hopeful but we still had a long way to go. I knew Matt wouldn't approve of it if I worked myself to death and there would be consequences for that so I had to be very careful with my well-being for the sake of Matt if not for me.Lisa had called me once but I didn't want to talk to her. She would only pressure me to talk to Matt. She may even think that my sickness had something to do with my unhappiness. I swallowed my anxiety pills just to be safe. I didn't want to get an anxiety attack in the middle of my sleep. Though I hated taking the medicine it would be a lot better than going to the hospital. I woke to a very concerned Matt looking at me h
"Can you just take me to the hospital? I have a doctor's appointment", I said to the silent Rashid."Sure Madam", he said. I rattled the name of the hospital but my mind was elsewhere. I knew I was right. I certainly feel a lot better when I don't eat anything. But I want to be on the safer side if there is any problem hence my visit to the good doctor. I walked to the hospital wishing Matt was here with me. I still feared the hospital since my last memory was kind of engraved in my brain. Maybe it was better for me that Matt didn't accompany me. He will trigger my attacks somehow. I impatiently waited for the doctor to call me.When I went inside I felt my stomach revolt at the stench of sterilizing products. My doctor was an Indian woman in her late forties. She welcomed me with a smile."I'm Myra Kapoor. Mrs Farrell I presume?", she asked me."Yes", I said breathlessly careful not to draw any more air than required because I was on the verge of the next throw-up."I have seen you
"Sorry Lisa you don't deserve to suffer my bitchiness", I said to her."Well don't worry about that. I'm an A class bitch so I can take it as well as I dish it out", she said with a smirk."I need to tell you something but I don't know how. You can't speak about this to anyone", I said."Stop building the suspense and tell me", she insisted."I'm pregnant", I said too quickly."What the fuck?", she said a little too loudly."Quietly please", I begged her."Does Matt know?", she asked me.I gave her an Are you crazy look. She sighed loudly."Please say something", I pleaded with her."I don't know what to say except that you are fucked", she said."I know", I said to her my voice small."When are you going to tell him?", she asked in a whisper."Hopefully never", I said to her."That is not the correct answer babe", she said."I know but I don't know what to do. It is a big mess", I said to her burying my face in my hands."You can't hide it forever you know. He is going to know one way
"Sorry Lisa you don't deserve to suffer my bitchiness", I said to her."Well don't worry about that. I'm an A class bitch so I can take it as well as I dish it out", she said with a smirk."I need to tell you something but I don't know how. You can't speak about this to anyone", I said."Stop building the suspense and tell me", she insisted."I'm pregnant", I said too quickly."What the fuck?", she said a little too loudly."Quietly please", I begged her."Does Matt know?", she asked me.I gave her an Are you crazy look. She sighed loudly."Please say something", I pleaded with her."I don't know what to say except that you are fucked", she said."I know", I said to her my voice small."When are you going to tell him?", she asked in a whisper."Hopefully never", I said to her."That is not the correct answer babe", she said."I know but I don't know what to do. It is a big mess", I said to her burying my face in my hands."You can't hide it forever you know. He is going to know one wa
Matt knows that was the first thought that crept into my brain after I opened my eyes in the hospital. I looked at Lisa for confirmation and she nodded her head. I wasn't talking about my dad hitting me but the baby. I don't know how he reacted. I was really glad that I missed it though. I knew it wasn't going to be a good reaction. The doctor came to us stopping me from asking any more questions to Lisa. But I could tell from her face that it was very bad. I should have listened to her earlier and told him by myself."How is my baby?", I asked shakily."The baby is fine Mrs Farrell. We stitched your head it isn't worse than it looks", said the doctor with a smile. Once the doctor left Lisa gently held my hands."It will be alright soon. I should have told Matt. I only kept quiet because I was afraid he would kill your father", she said."Thanks for keeping my secret", I said to her.The door opened to reveal a very angry Matt. I tried to look at him but he was very adamant to not loo
I walked outside my tears flowing out relentlessly. How could I stop from being hurt so much? How could Matt do this to me again? I was so much out of control and wanted to die then and there. My baby was the reason I stopped myself from doing so. I wanted him to talk to me but he was shutting me out. I was unable to fight him anymore. All I wanted was love and understanding and it seemed like I could never get them again. My father was right maybe I could never be loved. I still wished and prayed he would come back to me.Matt continued to ignore me for the next few days too. I was too broken to the point that I lost the will to fight against him.I operated like a mechanical doll always saying what was expected of me. I knew I could never be happy again in the future.I went back to my office because there wasn't any choice for me. I didn't know what Matt thought or even cared but I was completely abandoned by him. I had no one to blame but myself.My father didn't show any reaction
I was wearing a comfy dress but I was still dressed to boot. My father is a stickler for perfection so there wasn't any scope for me to dress casually. I was excited to have dinner with my father. I wanted to see him relaxed and carefree at home. Maybe he will become the father that I wanted for a long time. U also wanted to thank Mrs Singh who decided to give my father a chance. She made me the happiest person in the world. I don't know how to explain the sudden need to be loved by my father. Maybe that comes from the realisation that Matt would never love me.I had come to terms with that. It was very hard. We always had huge trust issues this was something that was bound to happen. I only feel bad for the baby my little sunshine doesn't have to bear the brunt of the fact that her parents won't be together.Me and Matt hadn't discussed it further but it was very obvious that we won't be together in the future. It was very hurtful but at the same time very necessary because I don't w