65 Getting past the hurt

I walked outside my tears flowing out relentlessly. How could I stop from being hurt so much? How could Matt do this to me again? I was so much out of control and wanted to die then and there. My baby was the reason I stopped myself from doing so. I wanted him to talk to me but he was shutting me out. I was unable to fight him anymore. All I wanted was love and understanding and it seemed like I could never get them again. My father was right maybe I could never be loved. I still wished and prayed he would come back to me.

Matt continued to ignore me for the next few days too. I was too broken to the point that I lost the will to fight against him.

I operated like a mechanical doll always saying what was expected of me. I knew I could never be happy again in the future.

I went back to my office because there wasn't any choice for me. I didn't know what Matt thought or even cared but I was completely abandoned by him. I had no one to blame but myself.

My father didn't show any reaction