Capitulo Veinti y Trésback to where I leftMy life wasn't as abundant as the life I have back at El Salvador. Noong mga panahon na namumuhay ako bilang isa sa mga prinsesa ng Hacienda Illustracion.I have never foreseen this kind of life, honestly. Oo, nangarap ako ng kalayaan pero hindi sa ganitong paraan.But then life is full of surprises. Unexpected circumstances. I got out from the leash of our family's name but at the expense of losing them and the comfort of the privilege as part of the family.Hence, it might have been a tough past years but, it was the life of simplicity and solemnity in Sariaya with Primrose that I was willing to do it over again.I graduated just this year as a Cum Laude in Xavier University's College of Business Administration. Isang semester lang ako sa State College na una akong pinapasok ni Nanay Joyce dahil nakapasok din ako sa City scholarship program na sa Xavier University ang nakalagay na eskwelahan dahil na rin sa tulong at koneksyon nina Bishop a
Jaffen Emmanuel Valiente Jr.Ang malakas na tunog ng bawat kumpas ng mabilis na takbo ng kabayo ang tanging malinaw na tunog sa aking kapaligiran. Unti unti ay hindi na naging malinaw sa akin ang itsura ng malawak na plantation ng pinya sa magkabilang gilid ko. Isang tipid na ngiti ang unti unting namutawi sa labi ko at mas lalong ginanahan na mas lalong ibilis sa pagtakbo si Bruno.Mahigpit kong hinawakan ang lubid na halos lumuwa ang mga ugat ko sa magkabilang braso. Paulit-ulit na kinabig ito habang taas-baba ang dibdib sa hingal ko. Isang ngiting tagumpay ang agad na namutawi sa labi ko nang marinig ang naiiritang boses ng kapatid kasama ang ibang pinsan ko kasabay sa maiingay na tinig ng bawat mabilis na kabig ng mga sinasakyan naming kabayo."Maganda--" hi
Capítulo UnoBraveheartI walked my way to the coffee shop with a big smile plastered on my face. Gracefully pushing the heavy glass door and was greeted by one the shop's server, Jorgina who was holding a salver."Ella! Hala, bakit ka andito oy?" gulat na tanong niya habang dali-dali akong sinusundan papasok sa counter."Your orders will be served in a minute Ma'am." rinig ko pang madalian niyang paalam sa lamesang pinagkuhanan niya ng order. Baliw talaga. I smiled at Evane who's busy entertaining the costumer's bill in the counter."Bran! Ikaw muna bahala sa order nung costumer sa may labas oh. Yung nasa may dulong lamesa ha? Please."
Cápitulo DosCasa ConsoleJorgina:Pumayag si Ma'am Shi. Leave ka nalang daw at h'wag na mag quit. Anytime ka pwedeng bumalik. Nga lang leave without pay. HahaJorgina:Hoy! Bumalik ka ah?! Ipapakilala mo pa ako sa pinsan mong gwapo. Madaya kang bruha ka! Haha jk, love you! Ingat!Napailing ako ng mabasa ang text ng kaibigan na kanina pang isang oras ang lumipas. I typed my reply for a 'okay, ingat!' and immediately rose my eyes when I heard a fake cough.
Cápitulo TresBroken Tango"Amia?" napatigil ako sa pagambang pagsubo nang marinig ang tanong ni Papa. Tumingin muna ako kay Mama na napatigil din sa pagsubo ng kaniyang pagkain. Tumango ako tsaka tumingin kay Papa na nasa gilid niya sa kabisera nakaupo."Amia Sieras po, Pápa. Kasama din naming ang isa pa naming kaibigan na si Farrah Sy po." Ani ko. Binaba ko ang kutsarang isusubo sana at mabilis na inabot ang basong may laman na Ice-tea. As soon as I drop the cup on its place, the lady behind me immediately pour as a refill. Napabalik lang ang tingin kay Papa nang marinig siyang tumikhim.Kabado ako sa magiging desisyon ni Papa. Not that he won’t let me. And even when he disagree, they know I’ll always find a way.Nagkatinginan muna sila ni Mama habang umiinom siya ng kaniyang tubig. At nang mai
Cápitulo Cuatroearth meets the oceanLife has taught me that we can never have everything we want. At my young age, my experience and the experiences of the people around me had help me realize that no matter how much we tried to plan things accordingly, it doesn't really go well on our way, that some things are bound not to end as what we have expected to be.Siguro ganun talaga. I remember a movie adaptation from one of my favorite book. The girl said on her death bed that maybe, things didn't work according to our plan because God has better and greater plans for us than we already have for ourselves. Oo, ganun siguro talaga. Matagal k
Cápitulo ĆincoThe eldestThe Valiente's are known to be the Casa de los Despiadados, where the wolves live. - - -or so they say. Kahit na nangunguna ang kanilang pamilya ay naging mailap sila sa buong bayan. Hindi din namamalagi ang mga apo ng mga Valiente sa El Salvador. Ang alam ko ay tanging ang bunsong apo lang ang tanging namalagi rito upang mag aral. At kahit na ang Don ng mga Valiente ay hindi ko kailan pa man nakita. --oh talagang hindi ko lang nakikita dahil hindi din naman ako madalas lumalabas sa Hacienda. They were the family who stood by their bravery,
Capítulo SeisKaibiganI never thought how a single interaction could eventually result something more of what I actually expected. Siguro ganun talaga? Things happen when we least expected them to. And I guess it all applies to almost everything at least, especially friendship... or at least that's how I assume what we are to be. Ang unang pagtatagpo namin na iyon ni Jaffen ay nasundan pa ng ilang beses. Sure, I have long wish for the reconciliation between the family of Valiente's and mine. A reconciliation after a decade of feud that would lead both members of the clan to at least have the decency to have a civil interaction when placed
Capitulo Veinti y Trésback to where I leftMy life wasn't as abundant as the life I have back at El Salvador. Noong mga panahon na namumuhay ako bilang isa sa mga prinsesa ng Hacienda Illustracion.I have never foreseen this kind of life, honestly. Oo, nangarap ako ng kalayaan pero hindi sa ganitong paraan.But then life is full of surprises. Unexpected circumstances. I got out from the leash of our family's name but at the expense of losing them and the comfort of the privilege as part of the family.Hence, it might have been a tough past years but, it was the life of simplicity and solemnity in Sariaya with Primrose that I was willing to do it over again.I graduated just this year as a Cum Laude in Xavier University's College of Business Administration. Isang semester lang ako sa State College na una akong pinapasok ni Nanay Joyce dahil nakapasok din ako sa City scholarship program na sa Xavier University ang nakalagay na eskwelahan dahil na rin sa tulong at koneksyon nina Bishop a
Cápitulo Vienti y DosMiracleDo you ever believe in miracle?I wasn't really a strong believer with it unlike my faith to fate.Naniniwala ako noon na ang lahat ng bagay ay nangyayare dahil ito ay tinadhana. Na kahit binibigyan man tayo ng mga choices sa buhay, choosing that certain option was already written on the stars.At sa mga lumipas na buwan, despite my fear to the shadows of my darkness, I keep on telling myself that everything happened to me because it was my destiny. Na siguro, maagang kinuha ang batang nasa sinupupunan ko bago pa man mailuwal dahil alam ng diyos na hindi pa para sa akin at sa sitwasyon ko. In those past months silently crying the pain and fighting those voices inside my head, I held on to the thought that maybe I didn't deserve to have my baby right now, hindi lang dahil bata pa ako, o dahil hindi ko din naman siya mabigyan ng kompletong pamilya, I'm pretty sure that whatever I am going through right now, yun ang sasalubong sa kaniya.Ang my lost angel
Cápitulo Vienti y Unobeyond the boarderAabot hanggang sa mag da-dalawang oras ang byahe namin sakay ang barge. As soon as we reach the port, agad kaming sumakay sa isang maliit na private bus na may aircon.Masyadong matagal ang naging byahe namin roon na umabot hanggang walong oras. I sat beside the closed window and during those 8 hours of bus ride, I wasn't able to sleep even a glimpse despite the exhaustion I felt.May mga pagkakataon na sa aking pagkakatulala ay nararamdaman ko nalang ang mainit na likidong tumutulo sa gilid ng aking mata. Tahimik na umiiyak na pala habang tanaw ang mga hindi pamilyar na tanawin na dinadaanan.Minsan naman, ay tahimik na inaabutan lang ako ni Jay ng tubig o di kaya ay pagkain na binili niya kanina sa mga vendor ng bus terminal bago kami sumakay ng bus. I always stare at it longer in my hands before taking a bite. And I appreciate Jay so much for also staying quite.Although, sometimes, I feel him looking at me from time to time. Worried probabl
Cápitulo Vientea light of hopeHope... is something that everyone wants to grasp. In times of need and especially in times of trouble.And most of the time we tend to rely ourselves even to a single grasp of light, praying and begging for it to be our glimpse to hope.Praying for it... to be our salvation.Before we seek for salvation, we first feel that unbearable feeling. Pain.Pain may equate to an extreme emotion. And sometimes, pain fuels the heart to the extent of hatred. And hatred is an excruciating kind of emotion. A strong one that can either drown you or eat your soul, slowly and painfully. To the point when you begin to hate yourself too.And self-hatred is one terrifying thing to feel. Because it will always, always result to self-destruction. So the question is, how do you save yourself from your own self-destruction? Or is there even a way out?And if there is, can I really bare the consequences? Because I know. In this game, we lose to gain. In order to achieve a
Cápitulo Dieci-nuevea betrayed heartChange can really be constant. Even heart and fate are a victim of its change. It's actually cruel, to want something now, only to have a change of heart tomorrow. To say you are in love to that person, only to wake up with an empty heart for the same person. It was never really a promise, stability and consistency is never really a promise. No matter how much we want it. Regardless how much we crave for it. And sometimes, change can really be scary."Abuela is on her way here. The head administrator of this hospital is a friend of hers. They've already informed her what happened before I can even take an action." I heard Zoryne tell Nana that in a tiny voice. "Alam na rin ba niya na..." hindi magawang ituloy ni Nana ang gudtongitanong. She doesn't really need to say it out loud, probably scared that I might actually hear it. Alam ko na naman kasi ang gustong niyang sabihin eh. It took them another set of minutes of silence that I thought I was
Cápitulo Dieci-Ochopromises and heartbreaksI can barely feel my body when I tried to open my eyes. I felt so exhausted from my endless tears that it took me a lot of strength to lift my gaze.Akala ko wala na akong lakas pang tumayo o kahit iangat ang ulo sa pagkakasandal nito sa gilid ng kama. Ngunit nang makita ang pigura ni Nana na saiyang may dala-dalang tray ng pagkain ay parang nabuhayan muli ako ng pag-asa. "N-Nana" humihikbing tawag ko sa kaniya. The lights coming from the outside was directed at me. Ni walang bakas ng ilaw sa kwarto ko, ni wala akong lakas na buksan iyon. Mabilis na iniwan ni Nana ang dala sa lamesa at nilapitan akong hinang-hina sa gilid ng kama. "Caenaella naman, kumain ka na. Huwag na matigas ang ulo, please." maiyak - iyak na pakiusap niya. Malamyos na pinapahiran ang bawat luha ko sa pisngi. I cried again at what she said. Mahigpit niya akong dinala sa kaniyang dibdib at niyakap. I embraced her back as hard as I can, feeling the warmth of comfort.
Cápitulo Dieci-sietea total disasterTime and Fate can either be a friend or an enemy because both are inevitable and uncontrollable.Sometimes, because of this, people tend to rely their future with luck. And I can say that for the past months, I got nothing but all good lucks. Oo, nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na muntikan na kaming mabisto, but it was just an almost. Almost got caught, almost got my luck from fainting. But I guess, this time, I have used up all my luck. "CAENAELLA" napawi agad ang aking ngiti nang marinig ang nababahalang tono ni Nana. Kakapasok ko lang sa Casa Llorona galing eskwela nang marinig ang mabilisan niyang apak galing sa ikalawang palapag.She was sweating all over her face and breathing heavily. Parang kinabahan naman ako sa itsura niya nang malapitan ako. Nang makalapit ay agad akong hinawakan sa magkabilang balikat at halos iyugyog ang katawan."Diyos ko kang bata ka""B-bakit po, Nana?" tanong ko na nakakunot-noo. Nana gulp and her eyes was looking
Cápitulo Dieci-seisdevoted but doomedThankfully, several days have pass that I haven't come across the same path with my twin sister. We were living in the same roof but I guess she was too busy and preoccupied with her school works and hanging out with her friends. Kabila-kabila ang lakad niya ngayon lalo na at parehong nasa Palawan sina Mama at Papa at sa nalalapit na pag uwi ni Abuela at Abuelo sa susunod na buwan.Magkaiba rin ang aming silid pero hindi ko alam kung bakit, tuwing napapatingin ako sa nakasarado niyang pintuan sa kwarto ay tila kakaibang kaba sa bawat kalabog ng puso ko ang nadadama. Naaalala ang kakaibang ngiti ni Xerxes sa pagtatagpong yun sa Don Narciso Cafe."Sol"Naramdaman ko ang pagpulupot ng kaniyang dalawang braso sa bewang ko. Caging me from behind as we both stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling glass window watching the peacefulness and calmness of the ocean with the long see-through curtains flowing on each side. Nasa loob kami ng isa sa mga Villa ng
Cápitulo Quincedreams and my Solace "Jaffen..." I couldn't help but whimper as I felt his hot kisses brushing through my skin. His soft but agressive kisses went down from my cheeks slowly went to my neck making me arc my head to the side to give him more access. The nerve-melting kisses stop on my collarbone. Those calloused hands are now roaming around my upper body. Ang isang kamay ay agad dumapo sa aking dibdib na dahilan ng aking pagdaing. He stop for a second and I felt him smile on my skin because of that whimper. We didn't vocally said our labels, or what we are now.And I believe it's just right for me to assume that he is already my boyfriend, right? We already said those three words to each other and even showed our love physically. Siguro naman, naging karapatan ko na iyon na sabihing kami na. Total naman ay nanligaw siya at sagot ko lang naman talaga ang kinakailangan.So... eventually, it all boils down to my decision, right? And I think, Jaffen already knows my a