Chapter: Capitulo Veinti y TrésCapitulo Veinti y Trésback to where I leftMy life wasn't as abundant as the life I have back at El Salvador. Noong mga panahon na namumuhay ako bilang isa sa mga prinsesa ng Hacienda Illustracion.I have never foreseen this kind of life, honestly. Oo, nangarap ako ng kalayaan pero hindi sa ganitong paraan.But then life is full of surprises. Unexpected circumstances. I got out from the leash of our family's name but at the expense of losing them and the comfort of the privilege as part of the family.Hence, it might have been a tough past years but, it was the life of simplicity and solemnity in Sariaya with Primrose that I was willing to do it over again.I graduated just this year as a Cum Laude in Xavier University's College of Business Administration. Isang semester lang ako sa State College na una akong pinapasok ni Nanay Joyce dahil nakapasok din ako sa City scholarship program na sa Xavier University ang nakalagay na eskwelahan dahil na rin sa tulong at koneksyon nina Bishop a
Last Updated: 2022-11-24
Chapter: Cápitulo Vienti y DosCápitulo Vienti y DosMiracleDo you ever believe in miracle?I wasn't really a strong believer with it unlike my faith to fate.Naniniwala ako noon na ang lahat ng bagay ay nangyayare dahil ito ay tinadhana. Na kahit binibigyan man tayo ng mga choices sa buhay, choosing that certain option was already written on the stars.At sa mga lumipas na buwan, despite my fear to the shadows of my darkness, I keep on telling myself that everything happened to me because it was my destiny. Na siguro, maagang kinuha ang batang nasa sinupupunan ko bago pa man mailuwal dahil alam ng diyos na hindi pa para sa akin at sa sitwasyon ko. In those past months silently crying the pain and fighting those voices inside my head, I held on to the thought that maybe I didn't deserve to have my baby right now, hindi lang dahil bata pa ako, o dahil hindi ko din naman siya mabigyan ng kompletong pamilya, I'm pretty sure that whatever I am going through right now, yun ang sasalubong sa kaniya.Ang my lost angel
Last Updated: 2022-09-30
Chapter: Cápitulo Vienti y UnoCápitulo Vienti y Unobeyond the boarderAabot hanggang sa mag da-dalawang oras ang byahe namin sakay ang barge. As soon as we reach the port, agad kaming sumakay sa isang maliit na private bus na may aircon.Masyadong matagal ang naging byahe namin roon na umabot hanggang walong oras. I sat beside the closed window and during those 8 hours of bus ride, I wasn't able to sleep even a glimpse despite the exhaustion I felt.May mga pagkakataon na sa aking pagkakatulala ay nararamdaman ko nalang ang mainit na likidong tumutulo sa gilid ng aking mata. Tahimik na umiiyak na pala habang tanaw ang mga hindi pamilyar na tanawin na dinadaanan.Minsan naman, ay tahimik na inaabutan lang ako ni Jay ng tubig o di kaya ay pagkain na binili niya kanina sa mga vendor ng bus terminal bago kami sumakay ng bus. I always stare at it longer in my hands before taking a bite. And I appreciate Jay so much for also staying quite.Although, sometimes, I feel him looking at me from time to time. Worried probabl
Last Updated: 2022-09-17
Chapter: Cápitulo VienteCápitulo Vientea light of hopeHope... is something that everyone wants to grasp. In times of need and especially in times of trouble.And most of the time we tend to rely ourselves even to a single grasp of light, praying and begging for it to be our glimpse to hope.Praying for it... to be our salvation.Before we seek for salvation, we first feel that unbearable feeling. Pain.Pain may equate to an extreme emotion. And sometimes, pain fuels the heart to the extent of hatred. And hatred is an excruciating kind of emotion. A strong one that can either drown you or eat your soul, slowly and painfully. To the point when you begin to hate yourself too.And self-hatred is one terrifying thing to feel. Because it will always, always result to self-destruction. So the question is, how do you save yourself from your own self-destruction? Or is there even a way out?And if there is, can I really bare the consequences? Because I know. In this game, we lose to gain. In order to achieve a
Last Updated: 2022-09-04
Chapter: Cápitulo Dieci-nueveCápitulo Dieci-nuevea betrayed heartChange can really be constant. Even heart and fate are a victim of its change. It's actually cruel, to want something now, only to have a change of heart tomorrow. To say you are in love to that person, only to wake up with an empty heart for the same person. It was never really a promise, stability and consistency is never really a promise. No matter how much we want it. Regardless how much we crave for it. And sometimes, change can really be scary."Abuela is on her way here. The head administrator of this hospital is a friend of hers. They've already informed her what happened before I can even take an action." I heard Zoryne tell Nana that in a tiny voice. "Alam na rin ba niya na..." hindi magawang ituloy ni Nana ang gudtongitanong. She doesn't really need to say it out loud, probably scared that I might actually hear it. Alam ko na naman kasi ang gustong niyang sabihin eh. It took them another set of minutes of silence that I thought I was
Last Updated: 2022-06-30
Chapter: Cápitulo Dieci-OchoCápitulo Dieci-Ochopromises and heartbreaksI can barely feel my body when I tried to open my eyes. I felt so exhausted from my endless tears that it took me a lot of strength to lift my gaze.Akala ko wala na akong lakas pang tumayo o kahit iangat ang ulo sa pagkakasandal nito sa gilid ng kama. Ngunit nang makita ang pigura ni Nana na saiyang may dala-dalang tray ng pagkain ay parang nabuhayan muli ako ng pag-asa. "N-Nana" humihikbing tawag ko sa kaniya. The lights coming from the outside was directed at me. Ni walang bakas ng ilaw sa kwarto ko, ni wala akong lakas na buksan iyon. Mabilis na iniwan ni Nana ang dala sa lamesa at nilapitan akong hinang-hina sa gilid ng kama. "Caenaella naman, kumain ka na. Huwag na matigas ang ulo, please." maiyak - iyak na pakiusap niya. Malamyos na pinapahiran ang bawat luha ko sa pisngi. I cried again at what she said. Mahigpit niya akong dinala sa kaniyang dibdib at niyakap. I embraced her back as hard as I can, feeling the warmth of comfort.
Last Updated: 2022-06-28
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