It had been two days since we had made it back from New York, I was sitting at my desk at work wishing Brooke would hurry up and come back from running her errands. Today had been dead, I think the phone might have rung once all day and all I wanted to do was just go home.
Yawning I got up and grabbed my iPad out of my bag, not having a phone was beginning to annoy me. I was close to taking my dad up on his offer of letting me use his old Motorola. Powering it on I ran to the bathroom before a customer walked in or the phone rang. Sitting back down I swiped my iPad open. I had a couple of messages but nothing that really interested me.
After checking my Facebook messages I scrolled through my newsfeed. Exiting Facebook I saw I had some notifications on my Instagram. Opening my app I saw it was because I had a new follower, @sethgreer had followed me. My mouth fell open. Seeing I had a message I wondered who it could be from. Opening it up I about choked on the air itself when I saw that Seth had sent me a direct message.
Opening it up I read, "I don't even know what to say, or how to begin. I don't know what the fuck he was thinking, I mean I thought you were just saying shit until I asked him about it and he straight-up admitted to it. I want to make it up to you, send me your address and I'll make good on it."
I had to reread the message three times before I let myself believe that it was actually from him. I checked and rechecked to make sure it was his actual Instagram account. Swallowing I looked up at Brooke as she walked in the door. I didn't know what to say so I stayed quiet. My fingers shook as I hit reply, I didn't know what to say either but I didn't want anything from him. I would be lying to say that I didn't want him to respond to my post but I never in a million years thought he would ever do it.
"You're good, I just had a bad couple of days and posted that more out of frustration than anything else. Thank you for responding and showing that you care in some type of way. Anyways it will always be an unforgettable picture."
I hit send before I had time to rethink it, looking up guilty I saw Brooke was now watching me with her eyebrow arched. The girl knew me and my faces a little too well. "So Seth responded to me," I said casually giggling as her eyes bulged.
"What? What did he say?"
I bit my lip, "just that he basically didn't know about it and that he wanted to make good on it."
Brooke stood upcoming and sitting on the edge of my desk, "OMG so we have to make your reply back epic."
I shook my head at her, "no, I have already replied and told him that I was ok and that's that, but I did get a screenshot of his message so I can prove to my kids one day I was cool for like 5 minutes."
Brooke frowned at me, "I guess K, I mean if it was me...."
Leaning back in my chair I shrugged, "yeah well it's not you, I'm not you Brooke, I have never been and I will never be."
Brooke shook her head, "whatever Kennedy, I was just saying..." I watched her walk to her desk and I felt sorry for going off on her but I wasn't her, we didn't look at the world the same. The phone rang and I was glad for the diversion from both Brooke and the direct message that I had just sent out.
That afternoon I left work and went straight to the gym, Brooke usually went with me but she had a migraine, or so she said. The gym usually eased my mind but today it was way too crowded with all the new year's resolution people that might last a month total but for now, all they were managing to do was get in my way. Jumping on the first free treadmill I saw I popped my earbuds in and turned on my Pandora.
The girl beside me was obviously a part of the new year new me club. She was one of those preppy girls who showed up makeup on point, her outfit matched, shoes and nail polish matched. I couldn't help but grin and bit my lip before I turned my music up closed my eyes and just zoned out. By the time I opened my eyes the new girl was gone replaced by a Mexican guy who was more worried about watching me than worrying about what he was doing.
My phone buzzed bringing my attention back to reality, I about tripped when I saw that Seth had sent me another message. I had 15 minutes left of my workout and I was determined to finish it before seeing what he could possibly have to say. It was the longest fifteen minutes of my life. Stepping off the machine I walked to the back shoving my phone in my locker before going to take a shower.
Once out and dressed I walked to my SUV hopping in and cranking it before I allowed myself to read his message.
"We shall see"
I didn't respond, I didn't know how to. Driving home I couldn't get his response out of my head. Brooke was in the living room watching a rerun of some reality show on tv when I walked in. "So Seth DM'ed me back talking about we shall see." Brooke frowned pushing pause on the DVR, "we shall see what?"
I shrugged, "I don't know, I didn't' respond. I mean what do I say to that."
Brooke shrugged, "he probably isn't used to being told no so he didn't know what else to say either."
I sat down beside her, "he follows me on Instagram now."
Brooke shook her head, "look at my little wallflower turning into a social media queen."
I elbowed her, "what the hell ever."
That night I laid in my bed reading and rereading his messages still in disbelief that he had actually sent them. Now that he was following me I suddenly had random people also following me, if they only knew my Instagram feed was boring. I only posted on it once in a blue moon. Rolling on my side I looked out my window at the rain glad that I was off tomorrow. Brooke had to work so I would have the whole house to myself and I intended to be lazy and sleep most of the day.
Waking up the next morning I saw it was after 12, a glance out the window showed me it was still raining. Groaning I pulled the covers over my face not really wanting to get up but I knew I needed to or I would be up all night tonight. Heading to the bathroom I turned the shower on and took care of my business. I didn't feel like putting much effort into getting dressed since I was staying holed up in my house so I skipped my makeup, combed my hair, and threw on a pair of leggings and a t-shirt. I was semi hungry so I headed downstairs and pulled out the ingredients I needed to make an omelet.
I had several missed texts from Brooke so I responded to her as I sat down eating. Pulling up my Instagram I saw I had several follow requests and groaned. I didn't know any of these people. I had no idea having Seth Greer following me would cause my social media to grow, I was glad my Facebook was private. I had never had set my Instagram to private but now I had no choice
. After I ate I washed the dishes I had used before turning and wiping down the counters. With nothing better to do, I gathered my dirty clothes and decided that I had enough to start a load. I hated washing clothes but at least it wasn't a lot.
Going back into the living room I googled Seth Greer on my phone and frowned when I saw a picture of him with his current girlfriend. I didn't' like her. She was way too stuck up for being as wild as she was. I felt like she was using him, but nobody cared what I thought. Flipping through his images I shook my head. The boy was fine. Pulling my pictures back up I grinned at his stupid ass, he was definitely hot in my pictures.
Brooke called me telling me she and a mutual friend of ours Christine was going to grab a bite to eat after work and asked me if I wanted to meet up with them. I told her no but asked her to bring me home something to go. It wasn't that I didn't want to go, I just didn't want to get dressed. I was that lazy. Laying on the couch I read until it was time to put my clothes in the dryer.
I was starting to regret not meeting Brooke and Christine for dinner. I was starving and the two of them were slow. Walking into the kitchen I pulled the freezer open seeing a watermelon Popsicle. Tearing open the wrapper I frowned as I heard the doorbell ring. Who could that be? I knew Brooke wasn't seriously wanting me to open the door for her.Walking to the front door I opened it up freezing in place. I was seriously thinking of pinching my self when he spoke, "are you going to invite me in or what?"I blinked moving to the side as he walked in, Seth Greer was walking into my house. I must be dreaming. I watched as he walked straight to the couch and sat down. "Go get dressed."Frowning at him I crossed my arms in front of my body, "for what?"He grabbed the remote turning on the tv, "we are going to get you a new phone, now go on."Shaking my head I walked in between him and the tv, "What? No, I told you I'm good."
Standing on my porch I watched as Seth's taillights faded into the distance. Instantly I felt a little sad. We had sat and talked for over an hour before he had to leave. Turning around I walked back into the house heading to my room.Brooke had text me telling me they had stopped at another mutual friend's house and that they shouldn't be much longer but I really didn't care at that point. Seth's leaving had left a void that I wasn't sure how to replace. We had exchanged numbers and he had told me he would be calling me soon to get me my tickets to his Shreveport concert. I still wasn't a hundred percent sure that I wasn't dreaming, things like this just didn't happen in real life.Sitting on my bed I looked around the room and wondered what I was going to do after graduation. Seth and I had talked more about Brooke's wild idea of moving to New York and he supported the idea telling me I needed to get out more and assured me he wouldn't let anything happen to us
Walking out the front door I shook my head watching our driver load our bags into the SUV. Seth had insisted that he hire a driver to pick us up and drive us down. His concert was the week before our birthdays so the timing had been close to perfect.I had barely been able to sleep at all the night before and try as I might I was unable to sleep on our ride down. Brooke on the other hand was knocked out. Rolling my eyes I reread the text conversation Seth and I had last night. We were arriving on a Friday, his concert was Saturday, and we would return home Sunday.Pulling out my tablet I started working on an essay for school. I had thought taking my college classes online would be less stressful but instead, I had a huge list of deadlines and little to no instruction. I had wanted to bring my laptop but knew it would have been impracticable although easier to use.A couple of towns over we stopped through McDonalds for breakfast. This woke Brooke up long enough
I woke up the next morning squinting in the harsh morning light. Grabbing my phone I saw it was almost 11. Groaning I headed to the bathroom before walking out to see if Brooke was up.She was indeed up sitting on the couch eating chips. "God I thought you'd never get up, I'm starving."I nodded at her, "I know I couldn't sleep last night. You want room service or are you going to make me go get dressed?"Brooke gave me a look and I already knew her answer. Groaning I turned to head back into the room. I threw some jeans on with a shirt before I brushed my hair. I was not ready to mess with makeup, I would tackle that when we got back. Seth's concert started at 9 but we had to be there at 8 so I had all day to get ready.Walking in the living area Brooke was waiting for me. She had looked up a Chinese place we had wanted to try. The only downfall about not driving was we had to call an uber. I wasn't big on them but Brooke told me I would just have to get
Walking into our room I collapsed on the couch. "I'm tired and crunk all at the same time."Brooke made a face, "I'm about to take a shower, put my pj's on, and lay in the bed watching tv."I nodded at her, "ok, might as well make the most of it before we have to go back tomorrow huh."She laughed, "God I think you are starting to rub off on me."Watching her walk to her room and shut the door I went to my own and changed into some shorts and a tank top before twisting my hair back up in its messy bun. I thought about taking my makeup off but decided against it heading back to the main living room and turning on the tv. Part of me wanted to go watch tv with Brooke but we had opposite ideas of what was good on tv. She was a reality tv junkie where I wasn't a fan.Flipping the channels I stopped on Family Guy knowing Brooke hated it. Stretching out I scanned through Facebook seeing that Brooke had tagged us at the Concert. Shaking m
Monday turned out to be a day straight from hell. Brooke and I worked from the minute we got there until it was time to leave at 5. All I really wanted to do was go home, take a bath, and go to bed. That would never happen. I had several projects due for school and two lectures I was behind on listening to. I had assumed online was at your own pace, I had been sadly mistaken.On the drive home I kept trying to think of how awesome it would be in May when I had my degree. I had a feeling this whole week would be hellish. My birthday was Saturday and Brooke's Monday. We had planned on going out but right now I didn't know if I could make it.Brooke looked over at me sensing my inner frustration. "You stress too much. Call Seth, he always puts a smile on your face."I rolled my eyes at her grinning, "you need new material."She shrugged, "it's true. So have you talk to him since the other night?"I shook my head no. I was tempted to
I awoke to the sound of my door being swung wide open and bouncing off the wall. Groaning I peeked my head out from under the covers, "Brooke what the hell."She completely ignored my reaction climbing in the bed beside me forcing me to scoot over. I knew she hadn't been awake long just from the mere fact her hair was sticking straight up. I tried to squeeze my eyes back closed but her moving was m
Christine and Sarah were the only two reasons I was keeping my calm and not cussing Brooke out as we headed to Dallas. I had decided to sit in the back with Sarah just to give myself some space. Brooke knew I was mad at her but her attitude was better to ask for forgiveness rather than permission. In reality, I knew I would probably end up having fun but right now I felt the car close in around me.
With Christmas behind us, the baby's due date was fast approaching. I was miserable now and Seth thought it was hilarious to bring up the fact that I seemed to wobble when I walked. If I thought I had been tired before I obviously didn't know tired.I had never put much thought or belief in the "nesting" stories I had heard friends talk about or read in books. But with two weeks before my due date, I found myself, going into full nesting mode. I organized and refolded or hung up all of the baby's clothes. Organized blankets by colors and patterns. Even the many boxes of diapers had been stacked in the closet by size all facing the same way.Seth had gone out of town for New Year's, he had asked me if I needed him to stay but I told him I would be fine without him and I was. I spent my time decorating rearranging or sleeping. My cravings were gone and now I had almost no appetite. I don't think my stomach had room for anything but the baby. Getting up and down was no easy
December was moving way too fast for my liking. I stood in front of a massive Christmas tree that hadn't been there the day before frowning. I wasn't ready for Christmas, I had no idea what to buy Seth. I mean it's not like he didn't already have every possible thing he could ever want. I had given his assistant a list of things to buy for my family and friends and now I wished that I would have just gone and bought it myself. It took the fun away from Christmas.I understood why Seth didn't want me walking around shopping though, I was huge pregnant and didn't have that much longer to go. Turning the corner to the kitchen I grabbed a cup of coffee and returned to stand back in front of the tree. It was pretty, just not my style, not that I would have told Seth that. I had no idea how I could have managed to sleep through the house being decorated. It was only 9:30 which was early as hell for me to be up. I preferred to sleep till 10:30 or 11.Walking down the hall I w
With the baby shower behind us, I could now appreciate it for what it was. I think my apprehension had been from the disaster of my previous gender reveal. I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulder and I could now worry about other matters, like spending Thanksgiving with Seth's mom. I had no real reason to worry about that but I didn't know what she thought about me yet.When the time came I was nowhere near ready. I had hoped my doctor would say I wasn't approved for travel but I wasn't so lucky. I knew I needed to be up packing my bags for our trip but I didn't want to get out of bed. I felt like I had just laid down. Seth his bags packed and ready before my feet even touched the ground. He arched his eyebrow at me, "you know if you would start going to bed earlier you wouldn't be so sleepy."I frowned at him, "if you would stay on your side of the bed I wouldn't be up all night."Seth threw my bag up on the bed as I made my way to the bathroom, I ign
At 30 weeks pregnant, I was already over the whole pregnancy thing. My belly was huge and it was hard for me to even get up out of bed anymore. I didn't know if I could go another 10 weeks. I was tired of the "are you sure there is only one baby in there jokes." I was tired of people thinking my stomach was an open invitation to feel for the baby. I was turning out to be grouchy as hell in my last trimesterAlthough nothing had been said I had a feeling the "dinner" Seth was wanting to take me on tonight was actually going to turn into a baby shower. I don't know how I knew but I just did, he had been asking too many questions about things I knew damn well he didn't care about.It wasn't that I didn't want a baby shower, I just didn't want one today. I didn't want to get up, I didn't want to get dressed, I just wanted to lay in bed and sleep. I felt like we had just had the gender reveal and that had turned out to be a huge mess. Brooke and I had cleared the air but things
It had been two weeks since Seth had come back from New York and I was already for him to go back out of town. He had tried to talk to me about what had happened and I had refused to listen. He told me repeatedly that nothing had happened and I told him to stop talking about it.He had been glued to my side. Today was my first time out of the house without him.I couldn't believe I was already 26 weeks but at the same time, I couldn't believe I was only 26 weeks. I felt like I had been pregnant forever. Seth had wanted to come with me but I snapped at him and told him I was more than capable of driving myself. I don't know if he finally realized I'd reached my melting point or if I had just shocked him by going left. I didn't know and didn't care, all I knew was I could finally breathe again.Don't get me wrong he still left and went to the studio, he just never stayed gone long. If he stayed gone more than a couple of hours he would call and if I ignored his call
My flight home had been miserable. I was tired and cranky, my flight had been delayed due to bad weather, and Seth and I had said our goodbyes in anger. Every time I felt better about our relationship something always came along to fuck it up. Was it a sign that we just weren't meant to be?Seth hadn't come back to the hotel till almost 5 am. I had never truly gone into a deep sleep so I heard him when he came into the room. I laid still listening for any signs of his movements or where he was. When the shower came on I grabbed my phone checking the time. I don't know exactly what made me do it but I got on Twitter and searched for Candace.It didn't take me long to find her. I felt my stomach drop and her last tweet, "when he has to leave your bed." It was short and there was no reason for me to think she was talking about Seth but I did. Pulling up Instagram I searched for her again, it was harder to find her but I did, she had the same damn thing posted there but wi
After Seth was gone I laid around most of the day, Brooke had called around lunch and I talked to her for a bit. We mostly talked about Dutch and his Twitter rant he was having for the day. I think she had realized that he still has some major growing up to do. The boy had no filter and no chill mode whatsoever.I ate a pretty basic lunch, a simple club sandwich, and fries had done the job. After googling restaurants I decided to try one called Republique, it was French and I had no idea if I would like it or not but I liked its picture. I figured Seth would veto it out if he didn't like it but when I text him he only responded with and ok.It was around two when Seth came back and I was still in the same exact spot I had been when he left. Walking in he shook his head, "looks like we will be flying out in the morning."I nodded at him as he sat down beside me, "that's fine with me, but what else?"I could see by the look on his face that he had more news
Going to the club when you are pregnant is absolutely no fun. You can't drink, the music aggravates you and the baby, and people stare at you. I hate when people stare at me. I feel as if they are judging me and guess what they are. Now I know being with Seth causes lots of stares and unwanted attention, but being with Seth pregnant in a club brings so much more.Do you think the extra attention bothers him? Do you think he even notices? That answer is a giant no, not until you point it out cause you are uncomfortable and he acts like it's just everyday life, and I guess for him it is.So here I sit at a table beside Seth who is clearly on another level contemplating ways to make him take me back to the hotel. The whole atmosphere just wasn't what I was feeling. I had tried to stay home but Seth put on his sad face and I found myself agreeing like an idiot. Why couldn't he have taken me out to eat, these boneless BBQ wings were good but not what the baby was craving. I h
The first night in LA We just chilled in the hotel which was fine with me. Most of the afternoon had been spent watching tv with a good majority of the time the tv watching Seth. It didn't really bother me, I had finally got my rest and for the first time in a while wasn't overly sleepy.When Seth did wake up he ran out and grabbed us some burgers and Cajun fries. He was in a playful mood and as much as he aggravated me I couldn't stay mad at him. It seemed that was usually the case between us. He constantly found new ways to aggravate me or piss me off but he could smile at me with his goofy ass grin and I found myself smiling right back at him. It drove me crazy but I loved him.The next morning he had left early, when I woke up I ordered breakfast and took a quick shower before it arrived. As I sat and ate I decided to give Brooke a call. She surprised me for picking up after only one ring. I grew a little suspicious when she told me she was in LA. I had thought for s