Novels by f0rbiddendesires

With Christmas behind us, the baby's due date was fast approaching. I was miserable now and Seth thought it was hilarious to bring up the fact that I seemed to wobble when I walked. If I thought I had been tired before I obviously didn't know tired.I had never put much thought or belief in the "nesting" stories I had heard friends talk about or read in books. But with two weeks before my due date, I found myself, going into full nesting mode. I organized and refolded or hung up all of the baby's clothes. Organized blankets by colors and patterns. Even the many boxes of diapers had been stacked in the closet by size all facing the same way.Seth had gone out of town for New Year's, he had asked me if I needed him to stay but I told him I would be fine without him and I was. I spent my time decorating rearranging or sleeping. My cravings were gone and now I had almost no appetite. I don't think my stomach had room for anything but the baby. Getting up and down was no easy

December was moving way too fast for my liking. I stood in front of a massive Christmas tree that hadn't been there the day before frowning. I wasn't ready for Christmas, I had no idea what to buy Seth. I mean it's not like he didn't already have every possible thing he could ever want. I had given his assistant a list of things to buy for my family and friends and now I wished that I would have just gone and bought it myself. It took the fun away from Christmas.I understood why Seth didn't want me walking around shopping though, I was huge pregnant and didn't have that much longer to go. Turning the corner to the kitchen I grabbed a cup of coffee and returned to stand back in front of the tree. It was pretty, just not my style, not that I would have told Seth that. I had no idea how I could have managed to sleep through the house being decorated. It was only 9:30 which was early as hell for me to be up. I preferred to sleep till 10:30 or 11.Walking down the hall I w

With the baby shower behind us, I could now appreciate it for what it was. I think my apprehension had been from the disaster of my previous gender reveal. I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulder and I could now worry about other matters, like spending Thanksgiving with Seth's mom. I had no real reason to worry about that but I didn't know what she thought about me yet.When the time came I was nowhere near ready. I had hoped my doctor would say I wasn't approved for travel but I wasn't so lucky. I knew I needed to be up packing my bags for our trip but I didn't want to get out of bed. I felt like I had just laid down. Seth his bags packed and ready before my feet even touched the ground. He arched his eyebrow at me, "you know if you would start going to bed earlier you wouldn't be so sleepy."I frowned at him, "if you would stay on your side of the bed I wouldn't be up all night."Seth threw my bag up on the bed as I made my way to the bathroom, I ign

At 30 weeks pregnant, I was already over the whole pregnancy thing. My belly was huge and it was hard for me to even get up out of bed anymore. I didn't know if I could go another 10 weeks. I was tired of the "are you sure there is only one baby in there jokes." I was tired of people thinking my stomach was an open invitation to feel for the baby. I was turning out to be grouchy as hell in my last trimesterAlthough nothing had been said I had a feeling the "dinner" Seth was wanting to take me on tonight was actually going to turn into a baby shower. I don't know how I knew but I just did, he had been asking too many questions about things I knew damn well he didn't care about.It wasn't that I didn't want a baby shower, I just didn't want one today. I didn't want to get up, I didn't want to get dressed, I just wanted to lay in bed and sleep. I felt like we had just had the gender reveal and that had turned out to be a huge mess. Brooke and I had cleared the air but things

It had been two weeks since Seth had come back from New York and I was already for him to go back out of town. He had tried to talk to me about what had happened and I had refused to listen. He told me repeatedly that nothing had happened and I told him to stop talking about it.He had been glued to my side. Today was my first time out of the house without him.I couldn't believe I was already 26 weeks but at the same time, I couldn't believe I was only 26 weeks. I felt like I had been pregnant forever. Seth had wanted to come with me but I snapped at him and told him I was more than capable of driving myself. I don't know if he finally realized I'd reached my melting point or if I had just shocked him by going left. I didn't know and didn't care, all I knew was I could finally breathe again.Don't get me wrong he still left and went to the studio, he just never stayed gone long. If he stayed gone more than a couple of hours he would call and if I ignored his call

My flight home had been miserable. I was tired and cranky, my flight had been delayed due to bad weather, and Seth and I had said our goodbyes in anger. Every time I felt better about our relationship something always came along to fuck it up. Was it a sign that we just weren't meant to be?Seth hadn't come back to the hotel till almost 5 am. I had never truly gone into a deep sleep so I heard him when he came into the room. I laid still listening for any signs of his movements or where he was. When the shower came on I grabbed my phone checking the time. I don't know exactly what made me do it but I got on Twitter and searched for Candace.It didn't take me long to find her. I felt my stomach drop and her last tweet, "when he has to leave your bed." It was short and there was no reason for me to think she was talking about Seth but I did. Pulling up Instagram I searched for her again, it was harder to find her but I did, she had the same damn thing posted there but wi

Samantha’s POV Sitting in the rocking chair I shook my head listening to Lucien, Damien, Nikko, and Jax all argue about how to put the crib together. They all had their own opinions and almost all of them were wrong. Yesterday the diaper table had almost started another feud between the brothers and Jax always kept things stirred up. It would be funny if it wasn’t me having to break them apart. The boys got along for the most part but the last couple of days and their procrastination were taking its toll on all of them. Today was the last day they had to prepare everything. Tomorrow was the full moon. In the last month or two, Lucien had immersed me into his life. I’d finally been formally introduced to the entire pack. We had been talking to lawyers to legally adopt Jax. There was still a lot of unrest in the pack. Paul’s betrayal had stung deep. Nikko and his pack had been fully accepted in without too many arguments. No more borders, no more treaties, they

Lucien’s POVMy hands shook as I walked up the driveway to Sam. I could see her waiting for me on the porch and it made me nervous. Me. Lucien Blackwood. Alpha of the Blackwood pack. Nothing ever made me nervous. Nothing except that small witch that carried my child. She was everything to me, everything to us.I could feel her eyes on me before I was even close enough for her to see me. What did I say to her? What had she told Nikko? My mind was running away with itself. I was afraid she was going to leave. Leave the pack. Even after being blessed by the moon. She had told me this wasn’t her world. She didn’t understand it and didn’t feel like she fit in. How did I explain to her that she was the missing piece to this puzzle?Samantha walked down the steps meeting me. Looking down at her I had to hold my inner wolf in. He wanted me to remind her who’s she was right then and there. Remind her that she was ours. I couldn’t let h

Lucien’s POV I lifted my arm shielding my eyes from the bright light that erupted out of nowhere. The Moon Goddess’s words still whispered into my ear. “Two brothers chose her fate. Two brothers have to sacrifice. One has to choose the night one the day.” I had no clue what she meant, what sacrifices I w

Lucien’s POVAs I walked with my brothers to meet my father I couldn’t think how ironic it was. I was walking toward the one man I used to think the world of flanked with two of my former biggest enemies. One brother who had slept with my wife and one brother who was attracted to my mate. There had to be some destiny shit happening here.My father had us meet him at the old mills. I had always thought of it as a ghost town. It had been abandoned since the ’70s. Damien and I had been warned of the dangers but we had snuck down a couple of times. It had always creeped me out a little. The whole place creaked and the old building were falling down around themselves.“He’s close,” Damien said looking around.I nodded, “he’s hiding in the shadows up ahead. He has people stationed along the edge of the woods but I can’t read them. They aren’t ours.”As I turned to look at Nikko he shook hi

Samantha’s POVI sat on the swing looking out at the woods. I knew he was coming, I could feel him. The sun had set leaving nothing put stars to light up the night, the moon was nowhere to be seen. I wondered where Lucien was, I could feel him but he wasn’t approaching. Why would he send Nikko to me?The minute Nikko broke through the tree lines I felt a little twinge of excitement and I had to ball my hands at my side to not rush up to him. It was important for me that things go smoothly for him, I didn’t want him to lose everything he had gained because of me. Yet still, as he walked closer to me our eyes connected and that same forbidden bond was there.It drove me crazy. This place was turning me into someone I wasn’t and it scared me. Nikko paused at the foot of the steps looking up at me. “Are you ok?”I nodded unbarring my fits at my side, “yes. No. I don’t know Nikko I’m confused.”

Samantha’s POVSeeing the tears in Lucien’s eyes was my undoing. Even in his own pain he wrapped his arms around me and held me until it was time for him to go. As he left I clutched Aunt Violet’s journal to my chest, I was determined to learn more about her. Maybe I could even decipher some of the visions others couldn’t.“I love you,” I sent Lucien as he reached the tree line.Turning back to look at me his voice appeared in my head, “I love you too. My Luna. My moon.”As he disappeared behind the dense trees I wiped more tears from my eyes. Lucien loved me, he loved me even after my betrayal to him. I would have lost my mind if he had told me he had kissed another girl but he, he had accepted it for what it was and moved on.Walking inside the house I went and made a cup of coffee before I opened Aunt Violet’s journal. Her handwriting was at times hard to read. She wrote wit

A little after a year after from the notorious front porch talk Ed walked Cheyenne down the aisle to Nick. It was a day that he never could have imagined happening in a million years. He was giving his only daughter away to his best friend.After Nick's talk with Ed, he has moved on to Lindsey. She had acted just as he had expected she would. She went ballistic and drug Nick back to court. Things however didn't work out the way she wanted. She had gone after more money and Nick had gone after more visitation rights. In Lindsey's pursuit of more money, she had succeeded but fell short at the same time. Nick had to pay her an additional 500 a month but he now only had to pay half of Tate's cell phone bill and extracurricular activities. Nick had won more time with Tate in the summer months when he wasn't at school.Lindsey still talked plenty of shit but in the end, there was nothing she could do. As much as she tried to bad mouth Cheyenne and Nick to Tate it was all to

Pulling up at Nick's Cheyenne was a ball of nerves. She had no idea what her dad would say to Nick. The fact that he wanted to talk to him in private worried her even more. What would happen?Nick wasn't in the house so she walked to the backyard finding him in his shop. "Hey," she said walking up slowly.He looked up from his workbench, "where have you been?"Cheyenne shrugged walking up beside him leaning in to kiss him. "Why didn't you tell me my dad hit you?"Pausing Nick looked down at her, "so you went and talked to your dad today? How did that go?"Sighing Cheyenne tilted her head, "Nick, don't bypass my question."He smiled down at her reaching out and pulling her closer to him. "It wasn't worth upsetting you with. Besides he didn't hit me that hard. You'd have known don't you think?"Cheyenne laid her head against his chest, "I guess. He is coming over tonight to talk to you. He asked me to stay away. I don't know how I feel

It was two weeks before Ed said another word to his daughter. Each and every day he avoided the office, he avoided Nick, he avoided having to face the situation altogether.Rachel had tried to take to him about Cheyenne and Nick but it only resulted in a fight between them each time. He didn’t understand why she was ok with this. Cheyenne had no clue what she was getting into. Nick came with baggage. She was making a fool out of him and his business.Today however he couldn’t avoid her. Today she was sitting on the front porch steps waiting on him. Oh sure he could just back up and leave, refuse to talk to her but what kind of dad did that make him. He knew he had to face her eventually.As he approached her Cheyenne looked up and he could see the exhaustion all on her face. It was hard to be mad at her, she was his baby girl, but he was so disappointed in her. He had raised her to be so much better than this.Sitting down beside her he took a

Cheyenne had been a nervous wreck when they made it to Nick's house. She knew Nick wasn't telling her the whole story and it bothered her. She was sure he was only protecting her but she didn't want to be protected. Left to her own thoughts she would make things ten times worse than they probably were. But what if what she was thinking wasn't bad enough?To keep busy she decided to cook dinner, maybe if she could get everyone to just sit down for a bit tempers would calm down. Nick didn't object

Cheyenne had never been as nervous as she was now sitting outside of her dad’s office. Nick was in there now talking to her dad and although she had gotten him to agree to let her come he refused to let her inside the office. Confusion had been written all over Ed’s face when Nick and Cheyenne had walked in together.Ed’s face has fallen the moment he saw Cheyenne. “Cheyenne, what kind of trouble have you gotten yourself into now?”

It had been over a year since Cheyenne had seen Nick. She rarely thought of him at all anymore. Not during the day anyway she thought of him every night. She dreamed of him most nights. Still, she had for the most part moved on.She had managed to make all A’s last semester helping to relieve some of the damage her first year had caused. School was almost a vacation for her. It was a way to fill her mind with anything but Nick. It had helped push his memory back and fill it with other facts.Cheyenne had casually dated a guy named Ryan for a few months. Nothing serious had ever come from it and they still hooked up from time to time. She had no feelings for him, he was only a means to an end that didn’t require any commitment.She had only gone home twice since she had left. Once for Thanksgiving and once for Christmas. Both times she came down and stayed two days leaving the first chance she could. Those times had been hard on her. She refused to leave the house a

It had been a month since Chloe came into our lives. Lucas had done good on his promise and had been spending a majority of time home with us. He would still make an appearance once a week at the club. David was helping out with the Dom situation so Lucas had been working a lot from home.I couldn’t ask for Chloe to be a better baby, she hardly ever cried and if she did she was just letting you know a she was hungry, or because she was wet. She even slept for a good stretch of time at night. That little girl had her daddy wrapped around her tiny little fingers. I loved watching him with her. His whole demeanor changed when he held her.Things were still the same with my parents. I had given up on them ever coming around. I knew they blamed Lucas for Cody’s disappearance. Even if I straight up confessed to murdering Cody they would turn it around on him. I wished things could have been different. I wished that mom and dad would be understanding for the sake

Taylor POVOpening my eyes I realized I must have fallen asleep in the recliner. Looking at my watch I saw it was just after midnight. Going to get up I felt horrible and debated on how bad I really needed to pee. Lucas was at the club and wouldn’t be home till sometime early in the morning. Closing my eyes I grabbed onto the arms of the chair to help host me up when I felt a sharp contraction hit. Oh shit I thought, I was only 36 weeks and at my appointment earlier in the week I wasn’t even dilated.Shaking my head I forced myself up thinking maybe I was tripping, maybe it was something I ate. Getting up I wobbled my way to the bathroom flipping on the lights before I quickly did my business and washed my hands. Heading back to the living room I grabbed my phone before going upstairs to the baby’s room to make sure the diaper bag and overnight bag wasn't still on the floor. I had told Lucas to put them in the trunk of his car and I guess he finally l

Lucas POVClosing my eyes I leaned back in my chair trying to drown my thoughts with scotch. I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders and no matter how much I shoved back at it, it just came down harder. I had a huge weakness now, a weakness that my enemies were determined to try and use against me. Taylor, Taylor and our baby to be exact.I knew she was probably upstairs still semi mad at me but I couldn’t focus on that right now. I was determined to strike back at every person who threatened us. To show them I hadn’t grown soft. If anything I had become more cold hearted. Taylor had no idea what I was up to when I left her, she had no clue the things I had done the last couple of months. She had no idea that even now I had the cop that snuck into our house tied up in one of my safe houses.Sighing I took a sip of my drink wishing David would hurry up and call. I had a clean up crew out tonight taking care of some loose ends. Normally I would

I sat with my arms crossed glaring at Lucas. He had found out pretty quickly that the two guys from earlier had indeed been cops but that one just happened to be a dirty cop. I had sat and listened as he spat orders out about bringing this guy in but not killing him he wanted answers. Well damn it I wanted answers too. I was more than a little put out at him and he didn’t seem to be noticing.It seemed like hours later before our house was silent again. The house had been bugged, the alarm system had been hacked, everything brought back my question of how. How had Lucas let this happen? He had enemies and right now I wasn’t sure if I could even trust his men. Everyone was a suspect in my eyes.“You hungry?” Lucas asked looking up from his phone. I shrugged which brought an automatic sigh from him, “Taylor baby you need to eat. I can go get something, or we can go out.”I rolled my eyes at him, “you can do what you want b

Sitting at the bar I looked up angrily at the clock on the stove. It was after 10 and I had yet to hear a word back from Lucas. Both my calls and my text remained unanswered. Part of me feared he had gone missing again but the other half of me knew he was still dealing with whoever had rushed him out of the house.I had finally gotten hungry enough to cook but was lazy so I settled for a grilled cheese sandwich. Taking a bite I dropped it back down aggravated at the whole situation. Was this what my life would become, a lot of nights left wondering where he was or what he was doing? I knew I couldn’t really complain, I knew who he was, I knew what he was. Hell, I willingly stepped into this new lifestyle.Even though I had known better I tried to call my Mom, the phone went straight to voicemail. I left a brief message telling her I heard Cody was still missing and if she needed anything to call. Part of me knew she wouldn’t but at least I had tried. I got

I sat on the edge of the bed watching an angry Lucas slide into a fresh white button-up shirt. We had just made it in the doors when David called him back telling him there had been some “changes.” I didn’t know what the change were but I knew it had pissed him the hell off. Any and all plans of messing around before he left went out the window.Looking up at him I sighed, “how long do you think you’ll be gone?”Lucas shrugged not answering me. Frowning up at him I shook my head, “why can’t this meeting wait? We just got home.”Turning to look at me Lucas sighed, “Taylor you know I don’t want to go but this is important. I have to get things set up so I can lay low when Chloe gets here for a few months without things falling all apart.I rolled my eyes, “I thought that’s what David is for.”Lucas shot me a look, “Taylor.”I knew I was aggravating