Broken people tend to hurt others, or if not, they hurt themselves more. There are dark secrets that we don't want others to know. We all have wounds that we can't heal.
Same books, same titles, but different pages. We all have stories that we don't read out loud. Same pains but different reasons.
Pain is what changes people. Some become rude. The others become playful. But most of them become silent.
They screamed in pain. They felt like they are in Satan's hell. Pakiramdam nila ay sinusunog sila ng buhay habang ramdam na ramdam ang sakit na ginagawa sa kanila. And they almost die as they shout in nervousness. But the people behind their pains didn't even feel any sympathy towards them. There was no remorse. All they have is the lust to torture and kill them. The desire of having their own freedom.
The man with a gun in his hand smirked. He playfully plays his gun on his hand. Habang ang isang kamay naman ay may nakasipit na sigarilyo sa pagitan ng kaniyang dalawang daliri.
"Do you think that we're a fool?" He said as he pointed a gun at one of their pawns. The guy nervously shook his head, swallowing his own saliva while looking at those murderous eyes.
The other man whose busy drinking a beer shook his head. He closed his eyes and massaged his nose bridge. Boredom is hitting him now.
He hears those begging voices from their pawns. He chuckled humorlessly, he drink again on the canned beer. Inilabas niya ang kaniyang baril at pinaputukan ang kanina pang nagsisigaw na lalaki. He was irritated. Sumasakit na ang ulo niya sa nakakarinding atungal ng lalaking iyon. The guy was shot straight on his head. Walang emosyon lamang niya iyon na tinignan.
The blood is dripping from the forehead. Nakahilata ang bangkay ng lalaki sa maduming sahig na kinaroroonan nila. Kaya naman ang dugo ay umagos papunta sa sahig.
"Fuck, will you two stop being morbid? Even just for once?" The man with a cigarette in his hand said.
"Dude, stop being gay." He said while playing the canned beer on his palm.
"I'm not gay, you fucking asshole!" The man said in a monotonous tone and puffed his cigarette. Binuga niya ang usok at tumingin sa dalawa. They were busy torturing their pawns.
Napailing siya at walang gana na pinanood na lamang ang dalawa. It's not new to him to see those two being a devil themselves. They're all a fucking demons trying to hide on everyone. Muli siyang humithit, pinatay ng dalawa ang natirang tauhan ng tinatakasan nilang tao. Kaya normal na sa kaniya na makita niyang ang mga ito na masyadong brutal sa pagpapahirap.
He licked his lips before getting the attention of the two. Parehas na walang gana na tumingin ang dalawa sa kaniya.
"We have a problem..."
"Give me a second. I want to be wasted before I hear your fucking nonsense problem." Tinungga nito ang isang bote ng vodka na bagong bukas.
"I said we, it's not just mine." He scowled. Tumingin naman siya sa lalaking tahimik lamang na nakatungo.
The man looked at him and hissed. Tinutukan siya nito ng baril. "Fucking get out before I shoot you on your head."
He was confused so he muttered his what. But he cursed loudly as the man shot him. Mabuti na lamang ay mabilis siya nakaiwas. Masama niya itong tinignan.
"Bloody fucking hell?"
"Fucking solve the problem. The next bullet will be on your head."
Napailing na lamang ulit siya habang naglalakad paalis ng basement nila. Like what the fuck? It's not just his problem. Problema nilang tatlo iyon. But guess what? He will just solve it alone. That's unfair. So fucking freaking unfair. Mas gusto pa niyang manatili sa bar at manlandi ng iba't ibang babae kaysa gawin ang pinapagawa sa kaniya. Ah. He suddenly wants to get laid and bang some ladies.
Pero may trabaho pa siyang dapat gawin. Damn.
"Whatever."
Nakapunta na siya sa kaniyang destinasyon. Nakasandal siya sa isang poste at nagbibilang ng oras. He smiled playfully before getting his gun. His target was on the other side of the street. Currently getting out of a restaurant. He readies it while putting a silencer on the gun.
He pointed it to his target. Malapit lamang ang kaniyang target. Halos limang metro lamang distansiya ang kaniyang layo mula sa lalaki.
Kung titignan ay maaari siyang makita ng mga tao. Someone might recognize him since he was just wearing a black mask that only covers half of his face. But he doesn't care about it. Mas gusto niya ang ganito, para hindi naman boring ang kaniyang trabaho. Well, he can actually use a long-range kind of gun and stay on a rooftop or farther than that. But there's no thrill if he will do his job on a far distance."Only weaklings will use a sniper, this is better." His eyes narrowed when he saw his target stop in front of a car. Binaba niya ang kaniyang baril at lumakad papalapit sa kaniyang target.
He stopped when he was already in front of the man. Tumingin sa kaniya ang lalaki, umawang ang labi nito. Inalis niya ang kaniyang suot na mask. Ngumisi siya ng makitaan ng takot ang lalaking nasa harap niya.
"Miss me, fucker?"
Tinaas niya ang kaniyang kamay na may hawak na baril. He pointed the gun at his target.
"Cosa Nostra." Mas lalo siyang ngumisi. "Montefeltro-Valmarana..."
"Welcome to hell, sabi ni Satanas."
And right there and then he shoots him on his head. Walang emosyon siyang ngumiti habang pinagmamasdan ang unti-unti nitong pagbasak sa lupa. Blood is scattered on the floor. He licked his lips before looking at the girl who witnessed him killing his target. Sa umpisa palang ay nararamdaman na niya itong nakatingin sa kaniya. Kita niya ang nanlalaking mata nito at panginginig ng katawan ng dahil sa takot. Binigyan niya ito ng isang ngisi bago isinuot muli ang mask. Tinago niya na ang baril na hawak niya habang hinagis niya ang silencer sa basurahan na nadaanan niya.
"The world is full of darkness, baby. Don't expect that it will always be colored in a rainbow."
Nakarinig siya ng paparating na sasakyan ng pulis. He sighed and put his hands in his pockets. Fucking associates.
EVERYTHING seems busy. The students are having their own world. Walang pakialam sa ibang tao sa kanilang paligid. But not until Seraphina Fernandez stepped towards the entrance of San Albereda University. Everyone looked at her that makes her bow her head.Hindi talaga siya masanay-sanay sa kakaibang tungo sa kaniya ng mga estudyante sa kung saan siya nag-aaral. Dinaig pa niya ang may sakit, well, she actually have. She have this disorder called dysphemia, on which whenever she tried to speak she always stutter. Not because she's nervous, well, part of.She immediately change directions when she saw a bunch of students walking in her direction. Hanggang't maaari ay ayaw niyang makasalamuha ang mga iyon. Because for sure, they will make fun of her just like before.Seraphina walked faster until she reached the library. Doon lamang siya nakahinga ng maluwag. The library is not the main library at all, kaya kau
EVERYTHING seems busy. The students are having their own world. Walang pakialam sa ibang tao sa kanilang paligid. But not until Seraphina Fernandez stepped towards the entrance of San Albereda University. Everyone looked at her that makes her bow her head.Hindi talaga siya masanay-sanay sa kakaibang tungo sa kaniya ng mga estudyante sa kung saan siya nag-aaral. Dinaig pa niya ang may sakit, well, she actually have. She have this disorder called dysphemia, on which whenever she tried to speak she always stutter. Not because she's nervous, well, part of.She immediately change directions when she saw a bunch of students walking in her direction. Hanggang't maaari ay ayaw niyang makasalamuha ang mga iyon. Because for sure, they will make fun of her just like before.Seraphina walked faster until she reached the library. Doon lamang siya nakahinga ng maluwag. The library is not the main library at all, kaya kau
I am inside of the CAS main library, the College of Arts and Science Library. Hindi katulad sa library na pinuntahan ko noong isang linggo, mas gusto ko dito dahil napakaganda ng ambiance. There's a lot of students here too. And that makes me feel more nervous. Some of them are busy but almost everyone are looking at me. Watching me intently as if I'll do anything wrong. Itinungo ko ang aking ulo at pumunta sa malayong lamesa. The table was hidden from the other student. Hindi masyadong inuupuan. I mean it's far away from the other students.And here we go again, hay.From the very beginning, no one wants to talk to me. Ever since I'm young, people treated me like this, because they thought that I'm not like them. Well, I think of that too. Who would want to be friends with a person like me? I have a disorder and just a few people understand it. Hindi ko alam kung anong mali sa akin bukod sa paraan ng pagsasalita ko. I
Warning: Some scenes are not for young and close-minded readers. This chapter has some sexual harassment scenes.***Truth on what he said. Hindi ko man siya nakikita ay may pakiramdam kong nasa paligid ko lamang siya. Our paths never crossed after that incident in the girl's restroom. But I know he was just there, watching me from afar. Ang takot ko sa kaniya ay hindi nawawala, mas lalo pa iyong lumala habang tumatagal. Akala ko magtutuloy-tuloy na ang hindi namin pagkikita pero mukhang nagkamali ako.My eyes widened when I saw him walking all alone on the path where I'm going. We were inside the main library of our university. Nasa entrance palang ako ng makita siya. He was wearing his usual buttoned-down white long sleeve polo, it was tucked in
Warning: Some scenes are not for young and close-minded readers. Slight SPG and strong language.***I thought when I returned he would have left me, but I was wrong, he's still there. Lumabas siya ng kaniyang kotse at napatingin sa bisikleta na dala-dala ko. Ang kaniyang emosyon sa kaniyang mukha ay naging blangko na naman katulad ng dati. Hindi na bakas ang kaniyang galit pero may pakiramdam ako na galit pa rin siya. Gulat akong napatitig sa kaniya sa sunod niyang ginawa. Walang alinlangan niyang inilagay sa backseat ang bike ko. It was a folding bike kaya madali niya iyong napasok.Then he opened the car for me, napapalunok akong pumasok sa kotse niya. Ilang saglit lamang ay sumakay na rin siya ng sasakyan. I thought we were just going to be silent all the time. But he suddenly talked."What are you doing in that club?"Hindi agad ako nakasagot sa kaniya. Parang may batong nakalagay sa lalamunan ko. I can feel my body shaking. His vo
"Sera, aren't you gonna talk to me?" He whispered on my left ear. Marahan niya pang kinagat iyon na nagpa-istatwa pa sa akin. Lumunok ako bago muling nagpatuloy sa ginagawa ko.We are here inside of an empty classroom. I was busy painting in canvas while he is sitting beside me.I looked at him, nakita ko na naman ang walang emosyon niyang mga mata pero ang gilid ng labi ay nakataas. Instead of speaking, I just looked away.Muli akong nagpinta ngunit napatigil rin ng mapansin ko siyang pumipindot sa kaniyang phone habang ito ay nakatutok sa akin. My forehead creased and put all of my attention on him.He smirked and stop on what he was doing. He sat properly on his seat. I tried to get his phone but he won't let me. I saw him swiping on his phone while smiling, I bet I look so funny in those pictures.Umiling na lamang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagpipinta. Maya-maya pa ay nakarinig ako ng tugtog mula sa kaniyang phone. Desirie by Meg Myers.I shook my he
Warning: Some scenes are not suitable for young readers. Slight SPG.***Lumunok ako habang nakatitig kay Azazel. I saw him creased his forehead. I immediately looked away and continued painting. Ano bang pinag-iisip ko? Nabingi lang ba ako kanina? Baka naman pinaglalaruan lang ako ng isipan ko. Pumikit ako saglit at nag-focus sa pagpipinta.And I almost jump when I felt his hand on my elbow. I was stunned at the moment before I slowly looked at him. He's still seriously looking at me. At hindi ko alam kung bakit naalala ko na naman ang panaginip ko. Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kaniya. I shouldn't have thinking about that. That's so wrong."What are you thinking?" I can hear a playful tone in his
Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses akong nagbuga ng hangin. Nakita ko pa si Azi na nagtatatahol habang tumatalon sa akin. Kinuha ko siya at inilagay sa kandungan ko. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin malimutan ang nangyari."You're mine, hmm." Bulong niya pa sa akin. I just bit my lips and shut my eyes tightly."Holy- sex in the living room? Really, Azazel?"Nanlaki ang mata ko pero mukhang mas nagulat pa ata sa akin si Azazel. He immediately hugged me tightly. Ipinalit niya ang pwesto naming dalawa. Ngayon ay nasa ibabaw ko na siya habang halos nakahiga na ako sa sofa."Fuck! Turn around!" Sigaw niya sa mga kakambal niya. Bakas pa rin ang kalamigan sa kaniyang boses.I can hear how Samael laughed. Pasimple kong kinuha ang puting blouse ko na nakalagay sa counter table. Wala sa sariling napakagat ako ng labi ng magtama ang paningin namin ni Azazel. He was just watching me as I buttoned my blouse. Tsaka lamang siya umalis sa ibabaw ko ng maisuot
It's been a week. Isang linggo na simula noong huling tawag ni Azazel sa akin. After we talk that night, I never received any calls or texts from him. Although Grace keeps on assuring me that he's alright, I still can't ease myself. Hindi ko pa rin mapigilang mag-alala sa kaniya. He doesn't call or text, of course, I would worry about him. My fiance is out there, risking his life for us. Kahit isang tawag o text lang, mapapanatag na ako.Kagat ang ibabang labi na tinitigan ko ng matagal ang canvas. I was currently painting but I can't think of anything but Azazel. I caressed my belly and sighed. Tumungo ako para tignan ang aking tiyan. "B-Baby, d-do you think your daddy i-is fine r-right now? You miss h-him too, don't you?" mahina kong sabi.Nag-init ang mga mata ko, tanda ng paparating ng mga luha. I miss him. I miss Azazel. I keep wondering where he is or if he's really alright. When I sleep, I always dream of being in his arms and I was happy but whenever I woke up, sadness was g
Nagising ako sa munting halik sa aking tiyan. I could feel the cold air on my stomach as those kisses lingered on my skin. Disoriented as I opened my eyes, Azazel welcomed my vision. I saw him between my thighs, caressing my baby bump with his lips. He was even whispering something I can't hear."You okay there, son? Don't give your mom a hard time while I'm gone. Daddy's just going to clear something out."Muli ay humalik siya roon. I smiled at the way he acts. Inabot ng aking kamay ang kaniyang buhok upang haplusin iyon. His attention immediately went to me.I smiled wider as I saw his gray eyes. He looks at me intently. Mabilis siyang umayos at hindi na nagsayang ng oras para halikan ako. Agad akong napapikit ng lumapat ang kaniyang labi sa akin. He kissed me deeper than I expected. At halos hindi pa nga niya pakawalan ang labi ko kung hindi ko lamang siya pwersahang itinulak."You woke up early, amore..." He burried his face on my neck. Napangiti ako roon, ramdam ko ang init ng
The day finally came. Hindi ko mapigilang kabahan habang inaayos ko ang aking mga gamit. I don't have classes today but I have an ongoing project that I need to paint. Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ay ang panginginig ng buong katawan ko sa sobrang nerbiyos.Kakatapos ko lang magpinta at mag-isa lamang ako rito sa balcony ng kwarto ni Azazel. I bit my lips before sighing. Ngayon kasi ang araw kung kailan ilalabas ang resulta ng bar exam. Azazel already assured me last night but I still can't help to feel so nervous. At nang matapos ko ang pag-aayos ay mabilis akong pumasok muli sa kwarto. Azazel is already in his office and he actually told me to go there today. Sabi niya ay doon na lang daw namin tignan ang resulta. I don't have a choice since he really became busy this past few days. Hindi rin naman ako nagtagal sa pag-aayos sa sarili ko at agad na lumabas ng kwarto. While I was already descending on the stairs, I heard some familiar voice. Until I realized that the voices were from A
Nagising akong nag-iisa sa kama, iginala ko ang aking tingin upang pagmasdan kung nasaan ako. It was a bit familiar until I realized that I was inside Azazel's room. Not in the penthouse but in the Galdevero's mansion. His room is still the same as the last time I came here. Simple touches of black and white. Walang pinagbago katulad noong unang punta ko rito.I closed my eyes to sleep again but immediately regretted it when the man earlier flashed in my mind. Mabilis akong napadilat at napasigaw, tinatawag ang pangalan ni Azazel. Tears started to fell again from my eyes. My chest keeps on rising as I catch my breath in so much tremble."A-Azazel, n-nasaan ka?! Azazel!"The memories from the past played on my mind like a film. Lahat ng nangyari noon hanggang sa mapunta ako sa treehouse kasama ng isang lalaki ay paulit-ulit na nagpi-play sa utak ko.Umupo ako sa kama at nagsumiksik sa gilid habang ang mga kamay ay yakap ang aking tuhod. My sobs become louder until I felt someone embra
Tulala akong nakatingin sa mga ilaw na nagkikislapan. The city lights calm me a bit. Sa sobrang daming nangyayari sa buhay ko nitong mga nakaraang buwan, hindi ko na mapigilan na makaramdam ng pagod. And of course, I can't be stressed that much, especially that I already have a child in my womb.My tears fell as a particular emotion starts to build upon my chest. Bumuga ako ng hangin habang inaalala ang nangyari noong nakaraan.When Azazel found out I was pregnant, he was so mad. Sa sobrang galit niya ay halos hindi ko pa masagot ang kaniyang tanong. I was so nervous.Kaya hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko malimutan ang nangyari ang noong nakaraan.I was so drown thinking about it when I was suddenly interrupted by heat spreading on my back.Ang aking pagninilay ay natigil ng maramdaman ko ang isang matigas na braso na yumakap sa akin mula sa likod. Sa init pa lamang na pinaparamdam, hindi na ako nagulat na si Azazel iyon. He's the only one who could do things like this on me."It's too co
Buntis ako.I am pregnant with Azazel's child.Paulit-ulit iyon na tumatakbo sa aking isipan kahit hanggang sa matapos ang hapunan namin. Tahimik kaming dalawa ni Grace habang kumakain. At alam kong napapansin iyon ni Azazel. After the dinner, Grace immediately left. And up until now, I can't still grasp the fact that I'm really pregnant. Na kahit ang pag-uusap namin ni Grace ay hindi nagsisink-in sa utak ko."Buntis ka, Seraphina..." mahinang sabi ni Grace habang nasa pintuan pa rin kami ng banyo.Hinaplos ko ng bahagya ang aking tiyan habang marahang tumutulo ang aking luha pababa sa aking pisngi. I can sense the fear in her voice. Napapikit ako, kahit ako man ay nakakaramdam rin ng takot at pangamba. Sino ba ang hindi?Having a child is a big obligation and responsibility. And I'm just 18 with a completely complex life. "Malaking problema ito," narinig kong saad ni Grace na siyang ikinalingon ko sa kaniya. I know what she is saying. I understand."H-Hindi k-ko s-siya i-ipapalag
I stared blankly into the void while inside Azazel's car. I was biting my lower lip as I stared out the window. Azazel was on the phone with someone, most likely from their law firm. I just boringly looked at Azazel when I felt his hand on my thigh.He was still on his phone, his brows furrowed as he turned the stirring wheels. I just sat there and watched him do it.Bumuga ako ng hangin ng makaramdam ng pagkabagot. Honestly, I don't feel like attending San Albereda University. I just want to lay on my bed all day and night. Napansin iyon ni Azazel kaya agad siyang napatingin sa akin."Hold on... Are you okay, baby?" mas lalong nagsalubong ang kaniyang kilay ng dahil sa akin. Tumango ako sa kaniya at ngumiti, kahit pa hindi naman talaga ako okay."You sure?"I rolled my tongue on my lower lips and pouted as I think something to eat. Parang gusto ko ng strawberry ngayon tapos isasawsaw ko sa gatas."I-I w-want t-to e-eat s-strawb-berry a-and m-milk?" hindi siya makapaniwalang tumitig
"W-Where's A-Azazel?" Pero walang sumagot sa akin. I looked at Grace but she avoid my gazes. Nangilid ang luha sa aking mata. "G-Grace?""I...I...H-He's..." ni hindi niya alam ang isasagot ko.Tumingin ako kay Alec, he was smirking at me."Who knows, love? Maybe in the enemy's den, in Governor Gilberto's."Tuluyan ng tumulo ang luha ko sa sinabi niya. Nanginig ang aking tuhod at napaupo na sa sahig. Naninikip ang aking dibdib sa sinabi ni Alec, nanlalambot ako at nanghihina. Patuloy sa pag-agos ang aking luha, hindi ko na rin mapigilan pa ang paghikbi. Ang takot na nararamdaman kay Azazel ay mas lalong lumalala.But my attention got caught by Alec's laugh, umalingawngaw sa buong paligid ang kaniyang tawa. Halos hindi ko na rin marinig pa ang sinasabi sa palabas na pinapanood ko kanina. My gaze went to him, he was laughing so much like he watched the most entertaining comedy show."Damn, she's really gullible, baby!" nakita kong napatingin pa siya kay Grace.Hindi ako tumigil sa pag
It was full of uncertainty. Everything went fast that I could hardly even think about other things. In just a blink of my eyes, I found myself tangled with obscure people. The moment that I saw myself with people like them, I knew right there and then that my life will never be the same anymore. I have already accepted it a long time ago, but I just never imagined it to be like this.Hindi kailanman pumasok sa isip ko na mapunta sa ganitong sitwasyon. After what happened on my apartment, Azazel bring me to his penthouse. Nandoon din sina Samael at Grace, lutang ako buong gabi at halos wala ng pumasok sa isip ko. I just can't grasp to the thought about my apartment. Paulit-ulit na pumapasok sa isip ko ang itsura ng apartment na nadatnan namin kanina. I keep on overthinking things.Paano pala kung hindi ako umalis? Paano kung naabutan ako ng mga taong gumawa noon sa partment ko?As of right now, I am thankful that nothing happened to me. Kapag naaalala ko ang nangyari sa akin noon, kun