Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses akong nagbuga ng hangin. Nakita ko pa si Azi na nagtatatahol habang tumatalon sa akin. Kinuha ko siya at inilagay sa kandungan ko. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin malimutan ang nangyari.
"You're mine, hmm." Bulong niya pa sa akin. I just bit my lips and shut my eyes tightly.
"Holy- sex in the living room? Really, Azazel?"
Nanlaki ang mata ko pero mukhang mas nagulat pa ata sa akin si Azazel. He immediately hugged me tightly. Ipinalit niya ang pwesto naming dalawa. Ngayon ay nasa ibabaw ko na siya habang halos nakahiga na ako sa sofa.
"Fuck! Turn around!" Sigaw niya sa mga kakambal niya. Bakas pa rin ang kalamigan sa kaniyang boses.
I can hear how Samael laughed. Pasimple kong kinuha ang puting blouse ko na nakalagay sa counter table. Wala sa sariling napakagat ako ng labi ng magtama ang paningin namin ni Azazel. He was just watching me as I buttoned my blouse. Tsaka lamang siya umalis sa ibabaw ko ng maisuot
Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakauwi ng maayos. Ang natatandaan ko lang ay inihatid ako ni Kate pauwi. She tried to talk to me but I never did. I was just silent all the time. And when I got home, I was just staring blankly at the ceiling while still crying. I can still hear my sobs. I already texted Señora Vetrua that I won't go to the club to do my job. Sinabi ko na lang na masama ang pakiramdam ko. I just can't find myself working from the mean time.Magulo ang isip ko at siguradong hindi ako makakapagtrabaho ng maayos kapag ganito ako.Nakahiga lamang ako sa maliit kong kama, I saw Azi looking at me. Parang alam niya ata ang nararamdaman ko, nilapitan niya ako. Umupo ako at kinuha siya, hinaplos ko ang kaniyang mga balahibo. He looks so cute looking at me. Umuungol-ungol pa siya ng kaunti na para bang pinapagaan a
Triggered Warning: Strong language and explicit scenes.***"Sera..." Mabilis akong tumayo habang nakatingin sa kaniya. "...Seraphina." What is he doing here? Sinubukan kong umiwas pero hindi ko magawa lalo na ng hawakan niya ang braso ko.I can't believe it. He was standing in front of me. Nazarel is standing right in front of me. The coldest person that I've ever met. Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya nandito. Dahil ba sa kambal niya o ano? Inalis ko ang kaniyang kamay na nakahawak sa akin. Like what I said earlier. I don't want to talk to them for awhile.Malamig niya akong tinignan habang umiiling ang kaniyang ulo. Katulad ni Azazel, walang emosyon ang kaniyang mukha. Pero nakakatakot ang kaniyang paraan ng pagtitig. May kinuha siya sa kaniyang bulsa. It was his phone, nagtipa siya roon bago tinapat sa kaniyang tainga.Nagsimula na akong maglakad paalis roon. I don't know why Nazarel is here but I don't care anymore. Hindi ko alam na ganito pala talaga kataas ang pride ko. Kung gaaano
Warning: Some scenes are not suitable for young readers. Slightly SPG.***Matagal kaming nasa ganoong posisyon. I was straddling him the whole time while hugging each other. Wala akong ibang maramdaman at marinig kung hindi ang malakas na pagkabog ng aking dibdib sa hindi malamang dahilan. Nararamdaman ko rin ang magagaan niyang paghaplos sa aking likod. He was trying to calm me but I just can't. Hindi mawaglit sa aking isipan ang mga nangyari sa akin kanina. My face buried on his neck.Paano kaya kung hindi siya dumating? Paano kung natuloy ang nangyari sa akin kanina?I hugged him tighter when I remembered what happened again. Namuong muli ang takot sa aking dibdib. Parang sirang plaka na paulit-ulit na naiisip ko ang muntikan ng gawin sa akin ng mga lalaki. At hindi ko man gusto ay namasang muli ang aking mata at alam kong naramdaman niya iyon. Naghahalo na ang aking mga luha sa kaniyang pisngi ngunit wala roon ang aking atensyon. His breathing become ragged, nagtataas at baba na
"I want to fuck you real fucking hard, mi amore." Hindi ako makapaniwalang tumingin sa kaniya.Muling bumalik ang takot at kaba sa akin. No. I don't want that. Hindi ko ata kakayanin kung may gawin siya sa akin na hindi ko magugustuhan. I swallowed hard and moved hesitantly. Sinubukan kong makawala pero parang tanga lamang ako sa aking ginagawa. He was just staring at me the whole time. I stopped when I felt his hands on my face.He didn't speak. Nakatingin lang siya sa akin ng mariin habang igting ang mga panga. "Fuck!"Nagsimula ulit siyang humalik sa akin. He kissed me on my lips like he is giving me a punishment I deserved. Mariin at mapagparusa ang klase ng halik na ibinibigay niya sa akin at imbes na madarang ako katulad noon ay mas lalo lamang akong natakot. I don't know why. Marahil ay epekto ng nangyari sa akin o dahil sa kakaibang awra na bumabalot sa kaniya.My tears started to fell down. Lalo pa at napunta sa aking kaliwang dibdib ang kaniyang kamay. He started to massaged
Tulala ako buong araw at hindi alam ang gagawin. I can't even find myself doing my project. It's been days since I've been like this. The night when my Auntie visits me, it really bothers me all the time. May mga bagay kasi na kahit anong gawin kong pagtatago, gaano man ako kabilis tumakbo, hahabulin at hahanapin pa rin ako. I just wanted to be free. To get away. Pero mukhang malabo talaga ako makatakas sa napakadilim na anino ng pamilya ko. If just my parents are here...I should have not thought about those.Inalis ko iyon sa isipan ko at tumayo na lamang sa kama. It's time to do some household chores. Hindi pwedeng nakatunganga lang ako buong araw. Rest day ko ngayon at saktong Linggo at walang pasok sa University namin. Gustuhin ko man na gumala ay hindi ko naman kaya. I have so many things to do for this day. Maybe, some other time, I would go out and visit some places here in the city. But as of now, I have to deal with the bunch of trashes here in my small apartment.I was busy
Azazel already left my apartment but not my Auntie. She stayed there a few moments. Nakakapagtaka lang na bumisita na naman siya ngayon. I mean, she just visited me last time. Parang ako ang nahihinayang sa gas na ginamit niya. And one more thing, I'm not really that comfortable being with her right now. Auntie is a good woman but sometimes, she's just so unpredictable. She's hard to read.Matapos kong maihatid si Azazel palabas ay bumalik ako sa apartment ko. I saw my Auntie smiling ear to ear. Pinaupo niya ako sa couch at kinuha ang aking kamay. Hinaplos niya iyon ng hindi nawawala ang ngiti. It's weird to see her smiling like this. Para bang may tumatakbo sa isip niya na hindi ako sang-ayon. Just... Whatever it is, I hope it's good."I can't believe na boyfriend mo ang anak ng dating judge na si Judge Galdevero."I tried to deny it but she just didn't believe me. Alam ko naman na hindi niya ako papaniwalaan, kahit anong paliwanag pa ang sabihin ko sa kaniya."Hija, don't deny it an
I don't know what's happening in my surroundings. My mother is sleeping, and so does my father. But I heard some footsteps downstairs and some unfamiliar voices. Kumunot ang aking noo, do we have visitors? Mama and Papa are still sleeping in the next room with me, should I wake them up? Maybe, I should just peep a little bit.Marahan akong umalis ng pagkakahiga sa aking kama. I silently wore my pink bunny slippers. Is it okay to peep? I jus want to know who the visitors are.Tumingin akong muli sa higaan ko at nag-isip. Okay lang naman siguro no? Lumapit ako sa pintuan at idinikit ang aking tainga para pakinggan ang nasa labas. I hear men's voice, they talk so serious. Napanguso ako ng biglang unti-unting nawala ang pag-uusap.I was about to turn the knob to open my door when the connecting door from the next room opened. Nakita kp doon si mama na hindi mukhang hindi mapakali."Ma, we have a visitors po. Should we go down?" Tanong ko kay mama.Mabilis siyang lumapit sa akin at niyakap
"Fucking answer me, Sera! Who's that fucking guy?"Lumunok ako at pinilit na maialis ang kamay niyang nakahawak sa siko ko pero hindi ko magawa. My eyes pooled in tears. Why is he like this? Para bang hindi siya ang Azazel na kilala ko. He felt so different, felt so dangerous. Sa mga nakalipas na araw akala ko ay unti-unti ng natutunaw ang yelo sa kaniya pero ngayon, para bang bumalik na naman siya sa kung paano niya ako tratuhin noong una naming pagkikita. Natatakot ako pero ni hindi ko iyon magawang isa-tinig ng hindi siya mas magagalit sa akin. But I still tried..."N-Nas-s-saktan a-ako, A-A-za-z-zel." Bakas sa aking boses ang takot sa kaniya.He stopped and parted his lips. "Fuck! Shit." Mabilis niyang binitiwan ang aking braso.Pinalapit niya ako sa kaniya at niyakap. I sighed and let him do what he wants. He looks livid earlier that make me just stood there in fear. Hanggang ngayon ay nakakaramdam pa rin ako ng takot sa kaniya. Pero nawala iyon ng maramdaman ko ang paghigpit ng
It's been a week. Isang linggo na simula noong huling tawag ni Azazel sa akin. After we talk that night, I never received any calls or texts from him. Although Grace keeps on assuring me that he's alright, I still can't ease myself. Hindi ko pa rin mapigilang mag-alala sa kaniya. He doesn't call or text, of course, I would worry about him. My fiance is out there, risking his life for us. Kahit isang tawag o text lang, mapapanatag na ako.Kagat ang ibabang labi na tinitigan ko ng matagal ang canvas. I was currently painting but I can't think of anything but Azazel. I caressed my belly and sighed. Tumungo ako para tignan ang aking tiyan. "B-Baby, d-do you think your daddy i-is fine r-right now? You miss h-him too, don't you?" mahina kong sabi.Nag-init ang mga mata ko, tanda ng paparating ng mga luha. I miss him. I miss Azazel. I keep wondering where he is or if he's really alright. When I sleep, I always dream of being in his arms and I was happy but whenever I woke up, sadness was g
Nagising ako sa munting halik sa aking tiyan. I could feel the cold air on my stomach as those kisses lingered on my skin. Disoriented as I opened my eyes, Azazel welcomed my vision. I saw him between my thighs, caressing my baby bump with his lips. He was even whispering something I can't hear."You okay there, son? Don't give your mom a hard time while I'm gone. Daddy's just going to clear something out."Muli ay humalik siya roon. I smiled at the way he acts. Inabot ng aking kamay ang kaniyang buhok upang haplusin iyon. His attention immediately went to me.I smiled wider as I saw his gray eyes. He looks at me intently. Mabilis siyang umayos at hindi na nagsayang ng oras para halikan ako. Agad akong napapikit ng lumapat ang kaniyang labi sa akin. He kissed me deeper than I expected. At halos hindi pa nga niya pakawalan ang labi ko kung hindi ko lamang siya pwersahang itinulak."You woke up early, amore..." He burried his face on my neck. Napangiti ako roon, ramdam ko ang init ng
The day finally came. Hindi ko mapigilang kabahan habang inaayos ko ang aking mga gamit. I don't have classes today but I have an ongoing project that I need to paint. Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ay ang panginginig ng buong katawan ko sa sobrang nerbiyos.Kakatapos ko lang magpinta at mag-isa lamang ako rito sa balcony ng kwarto ni Azazel. I bit my lips before sighing. Ngayon kasi ang araw kung kailan ilalabas ang resulta ng bar exam. Azazel already assured me last night but I still can't help to feel so nervous. At nang matapos ko ang pag-aayos ay mabilis akong pumasok muli sa kwarto. Azazel is already in his office and he actually told me to go there today. Sabi niya ay doon na lang daw namin tignan ang resulta. I don't have a choice since he really became busy this past few days. Hindi rin naman ako nagtagal sa pag-aayos sa sarili ko at agad na lumabas ng kwarto. While I was already descending on the stairs, I heard some familiar voice. Until I realized that the voices were from A
Nagising akong nag-iisa sa kama, iginala ko ang aking tingin upang pagmasdan kung nasaan ako. It was a bit familiar until I realized that I was inside Azazel's room. Not in the penthouse but in the Galdevero's mansion. His room is still the same as the last time I came here. Simple touches of black and white. Walang pinagbago katulad noong unang punta ko rito.I closed my eyes to sleep again but immediately regretted it when the man earlier flashed in my mind. Mabilis akong napadilat at napasigaw, tinatawag ang pangalan ni Azazel. Tears started to fell again from my eyes. My chest keeps on rising as I catch my breath in so much tremble."A-Azazel, n-nasaan ka?! Azazel!"The memories from the past played on my mind like a film. Lahat ng nangyari noon hanggang sa mapunta ako sa treehouse kasama ng isang lalaki ay paulit-ulit na nagpi-play sa utak ko.Umupo ako sa kama at nagsumiksik sa gilid habang ang mga kamay ay yakap ang aking tuhod. My sobs become louder until I felt someone embra
Tulala akong nakatingin sa mga ilaw na nagkikislapan. The city lights calm me a bit. Sa sobrang daming nangyayari sa buhay ko nitong mga nakaraang buwan, hindi ko na mapigilan na makaramdam ng pagod. And of course, I can't be stressed that much, especially that I already have a child in my womb.My tears fell as a particular emotion starts to build upon my chest. Bumuga ako ng hangin habang inaalala ang nangyari noong nakaraan.When Azazel found out I was pregnant, he was so mad. Sa sobrang galit niya ay halos hindi ko pa masagot ang kaniyang tanong. I was so nervous.Kaya hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko malimutan ang nangyari ang noong nakaraan.I was so drown thinking about it when I was suddenly interrupted by heat spreading on my back.Ang aking pagninilay ay natigil ng maramdaman ko ang isang matigas na braso na yumakap sa akin mula sa likod. Sa init pa lamang na pinaparamdam, hindi na ako nagulat na si Azazel iyon. He's the only one who could do things like this on me."It's too co
Buntis ako.I am pregnant with Azazel's child.Paulit-ulit iyon na tumatakbo sa aking isipan kahit hanggang sa matapos ang hapunan namin. Tahimik kaming dalawa ni Grace habang kumakain. At alam kong napapansin iyon ni Azazel. After the dinner, Grace immediately left. And up until now, I can't still grasp the fact that I'm really pregnant. Na kahit ang pag-uusap namin ni Grace ay hindi nagsisink-in sa utak ko."Buntis ka, Seraphina..." mahinang sabi ni Grace habang nasa pintuan pa rin kami ng banyo.Hinaplos ko ng bahagya ang aking tiyan habang marahang tumutulo ang aking luha pababa sa aking pisngi. I can sense the fear in her voice. Napapikit ako, kahit ako man ay nakakaramdam rin ng takot at pangamba. Sino ba ang hindi?Having a child is a big obligation and responsibility. And I'm just 18 with a completely complex life. "Malaking problema ito," narinig kong saad ni Grace na siyang ikinalingon ko sa kaniya. I know what she is saying. I understand."H-Hindi k-ko s-siya i-ipapalag
I stared blankly into the void while inside Azazel's car. I was biting my lower lip as I stared out the window. Azazel was on the phone with someone, most likely from their law firm. I just boringly looked at Azazel when I felt his hand on my thigh.He was still on his phone, his brows furrowed as he turned the stirring wheels. I just sat there and watched him do it.Bumuga ako ng hangin ng makaramdam ng pagkabagot. Honestly, I don't feel like attending San Albereda University. I just want to lay on my bed all day and night. Napansin iyon ni Azazel kaya agad siyang napatingin sa akin."Hold on... Are you okay, baby?" mas lalong nagsalubong ang kaniyang kilay ng dahil sa akin. Tumango ako sa kaniya at ngumiti, kahit pa hindi naman talaga ako okay."You sure?"I rolled my tongue on my lower lips and pouted as I think something to eat. Parang gusto ko ng strawberry ngayon tapos isasawsaw ko sa gatas."I-I w-want t-to e-eat s-strawb-berry a-and m-milk?" hindi siya makapaniwalang tumitig
"W-Where's A-Azazel?" Pero walang sumagot sa akin. I looked at Grace but she avoid my gazes. Nangilid ang luha sa aking mata. "G-Grace?""I...I...H-He's..." ni hindi niya alam ang isasagot ko.Tumingin ako kay Alec, he was smirking at me."Who knows, love? Maybe in the enemy's den, in Governor Gilberto's."Tuluyan ng tumulo ang luha ko sa sinabi niya. Nanginig ang aking tuhod at napaupo na sa sahig. Naninikip ang aking dibdib sa sinabi ni Alec, nanlalambot ako at nanghihina. Patuloy sa pag-agos ang aking luha, hindi ko na rin mapigilan pa ang paghikbi. Ang takot na nararamdaman kay Azazel ay mas lalong lumalala.But my attention got caught by Alec's laugh, umalingawngaw sa buong paligid ang kaniyang tawa. Halos hindi ko na rin marinig pa ang sinasabi sa palabas na pinapanood ko kanina. My gaze went to him, he was laughing so much like he watched the most entertaining comedy show."Damn, she's really gullible, baby!" nakita kong napatingin pa siya kay Grace.Hindi ako tumigil sa pag
It was full of uncertainty. Everything went fast that I could hardly even think about other things. In just a blink of my eyes, I found myself tangled with obscure people. The moment that I saw myself with people like them, I knew right there and then that my life will never be the same anymore. I have already accepted it a long time ago, but I just never imagined it to be like this.Hindi kailanman pumasok sa isip ko na mapunta sa ganitong sitwasyon. After what happened on my apartment, Azazel bring me to his penthouse. Nandoon din sina Samael at Grace, lutang ako buong gabi at halos wala ng pumasok sa isip ko. I just can't grasp to the thought about my apartment. Paulit-ulit na pumapasok sa isip ko ang itsura ng apartment na nadatnan namin kanina. I keep on overthinking things.Paano pala kung hindi ako umalis? Paano kung naabutan ako ng mga taong gumawa noon sa partment ko?As of right now, I am thankful that nothing happened to me. Kapag naaalala ko ang nangyari sa akin noon, kun