"W-Where's A-Azazel?" Pero walang sumagot sa akin. I looked at Grace but she avoid my gazes. Nangilid ang luha sa aking mata. "G-Grace?""I...I...H-He's..." ni hindi niya alam ang isasagot ko.Tumingin ako kay Alec, he was smirking at me."Who knows, love? Maybe in the enemy's den, in Governor Gilberto's."Tuluyan ng tumulo ang luha ko sa sinabi niya. Nanginig ang aking tuhod at napaupo na sa sahig. Naninikip ang aking dibdib sa sinabi ni Alec, nanlalambot ako at nanghihina. Patuloy sa pag-agos ang aking luha, hindi ko na rin mapigilan pa ang paghikbi. Ang takot na nararamdaman kay Azazel ay mas lalong lumalala.But my attention got caught by Alec's laugh, umalingawngaw sa buong paligid ang kaniyang tawa. Halos hindi ko na rin marinig pa ang sinasabi sa palabas na pinapanood ko kanina. My gaze went to him, he was laughing so much like he watched the most entertaining comedy show."Damn, she's really gullible, baby!" nakita kong napatingin pa siya kay Grace.Hindi ako tumigil sa pag
I stared blankly into the void while inside Azazel's car. I was biting my lower lip as I stared out the window. Azazel was on the phone with someone, most likely from their law firm. I just boringly looked at Azazel when I felt his hand on my thigh.He was still on his phone, his brows furrowed as he turned the stirring wheels. I just sat there and watched him do it.Bumuga ako ng hangin ng makaramdam ng pagkabagot. Honestly, I don't feel like attending San Albereda University. I just want to lay on my bed all day and night. Napansin iyon ni Azazel kaya agad siyang napatingin sa akin."Hold on... Are you okay, baby?" mas lalong nagsalubong ang kaniyang kilay ng dahil sa akin. Tumango ako sa kaniya at ngumiti, kahit pa hindi naman talaga ako okay."You sure?"I rolled my tongue on my lower lips and pouted as I think something to eat. Parang gusto ko ng strawberry ngayon tapos isasawsaw ko sa gatas."I-I w-want t-to e-eat s-strawb-berry a-and m-milk?" hindi siya makapaniwalang tumitig
Buntis ako.I am pregnant with Azazel's child.Paulit-ulit iyon na tumatakbo sa aking isipan kahit hanggang sa matapos ang hapunan namin. Tahimik kaming dalawa ni Grace habang kumakain. At alam kong napapansin iyon ni Azazel. After the dinner, Grace immediately left. And up until now, I can't still grasp the fact that I'm really pregnant. Na kahit ang pag-uusap namin ni Grace ay hindi nagsisink-in sa utak ko."Buntis ka, Seraphina..." mahinang sabi ni Grace habang nasa pintuan pa rin kami ng banyo.Hinaplos ko ng bahagya ang aking tiyan habang marahang tumutulo ang aking luha pababa sa aking pisngi. I can sense the fear in her voice. Napapikit ako, kahit ako man ay nakakaramdam rin ng takot at pangamba. Sino ba ang hindi?Having a child is a big obligation and responsibility. And I'm just 18 with a completely complex life. "Malaking problema ito," narinig kong saad ni Grace na siyang ikinalingon ko sa kaniya. I know what she is saying. I understand."H-Hindi k-ko s-siya i-ipapalag
Tulala akong nakatingin sa mga ilaw na nagkikislapan. The city lights calm me a bit. Sa sobrang daming nangyayari sa buhay ko nitong mga nakaraang buwan, hindi ko na mapigilan na makaramdam ng pagod. And of course, I can't be stressed that much, especially that I already have a child in my womb.My tears fell as a particular emotion starts to build upon my chest. Bumuga ako ng hangin habang inaalala ang nangyari noong nakaraan.When Azazel found out I was pregnant, he was so mad. Sa sobrang galit niya ay halos hindi ko pa masagot ang kaniyang tanong. I was so nervous.Kaya hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko malimutan ang nangyari ang noong nakaraan.I was so drown thinking about it when I was suddenly interrupted by heat spreading on my back.Ang aking pagninilay ay natigil ng maramdaman ko ang isang matigas na braso na yumakap sa akin mula sa likod. Sa init pa lamang na pinaparamdam, hindi na ako nagulat na si Azazel iyon. He's the only one who could do things like this on me."It's too co
Nagising akong nag-iisa sa kama, iginala ko ang aking tingin upang pagmasdan kung nasaan ako. It was a bit familiar until I realized that I was inside Azazel's room. Not in the penthouse but in the Galdevero's mansion. His room is still the same as the last time I came here. Simple touches of black and white. Walang pinagbago katulad noong unang punta ko rito.I closed my eyes to sleep again but immediately regretted it when the man earlier flashed in my mind. Mabilis akong napadilat at napasigaw, tinatawag ang pangalan ni Azazel. Tears started to fell again from my eyes. My chest keeps on rising as I catch my breath in so much tremble."A-Azazel, n-nasaan ka?! Azazel!"The memories from the past played on my mind like a film. Lahat ng nangyari noon hanggang sa mapunta ako sa treehouse kasama ng isang lalaki ay paulit-ulit na nagpi-play sa utak ko.Umupo ako sa kama at nagsumiksik sa gilid habang ang mga kamay ay yakap ang aking tuhod. My sobs become louder until I felt someone embra
The day finally came. Hindi ko mapigilang kabahan habang inaayos ko ang aking mga gamit. I don't have classes today but I have an ongoing project that I need to paint. Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ay ang panginginig ng buong katawan ko sa sobrang nerbiyos.Kakatapos ko lang magpinta at mag-isa lamang ako rito sa balcony ng kwarto ni Azazel. I bit my lips before sighing. Ngayon kasi ang araw kung kailan ilalabas ang resulta ng bar exam. Azazel already assured me last night but I still can't help to feel so nervous. At nang matapos ko ang pag-aayos ay mabilis akong pumasok muli sa kwarto. Azazel is already in his office and he actually told me to go there today. Sabi niya ay doon na lang daw namin tignan ang resulta. I don't have a choice since he really became busy this past few days. Hindi rin naman ako nagtagal sa pag-aayos sa sarili ko at agad na lumabas ng kwarto. While I was already descending on the stairs, I heard some familiar voice. Until I realized that the voices were from A
Nagising ako sa munting halik sa aking tiyan. I could feel the cold air on my stomach as those kisses lingered on my skin. Disoriented as I opened my eyes, Azazel welcomed my vision. I saw him between my thighs, caressing my baby bump with his lips. He was even whispering something I can't hear."You okay there, son? Don't give your mom a hard time while I'm gone. Daddy's just going to clear something out."Muli ay humalik siya roon. I smiled at the way he acts. Inabot ng aking kamay ang kaniyang buhok upang haplusin iyon. His attention immediately went to me.I smiled wider as I saw his gray eyes. He looks at me intently. Mabilis siyang umayos at hindi na nagsayang ng oras para halikan ako. Agad akong napapikit ng lumapat ang kaniyang labi sa akin. He kissed me deeper than I expected. At halos hindi pa nga niya pakawalan ang labi ko kung hindi ko lamang siya pwersahang itinulak."You woke up early, amore..." He burried his face on my neck. Napangiti ako roon, ramdam ko ang init ng
It's been a week. Isang linggo na simula noong huling tawag ni Azazel sa akin. After we talk that night, I never received any calls or texts from him. Although Grace keeps on assuring me that he's alright, I still can't ease myself. Hindi ko pa rin mapigilang mag-alala sa kaniya. He doesn't call or text, of course, I would worry about him. My fiance is out there, risking his life for us. Kahit isang tawag o text lang, mapapanatag na ako.Kagat ang ibabang labi na tinitigan ko ng matagal ang canvas. I was currently painting but I can't think of anything but Azazel. I caressed my belly and sighed. Tumungo ako para tignan ang aking tiyan. "B-Baby, d-do you think your daddy i-is fine r-right now? You miss h-him too, don't you?" mahina kong sabi.Nag-init ang mga mata ko, tanda ng paparating ng mga luha. I miss him. I miss Azazel. I keep wondering where he is or if he's really alright. When I sleep, I always dream of being in his arms and I was happy but whenever I woke up, sadness was g
It's been a week. Isang linggo na simula noong huling tawag ni Azazel sa akin. After we talk that night, I never received any calls or texts from him. Although Grace keeps on assuring me that he's alright, I still can't ease myself. Hindi ko pa rin mapigilang mag-alala sa kaniya. He doesn't call or text, of course, I would worry about him. My fiance is out there, risking his life for us. Kahit isang tawag o text lang, mapapanatag na ako.Kagat ang ibabang labi na tinitigan ko ng matagal ang canvas. I was currently painting but I can't think of anything but Azazel. I caressed my belly and sighed. Tumungo ako para tignan ang aking tiyan. "B-Baby, d-do you think your daddy i-is fine r-right now? You miss h-him too, don't you?" mahina kong sabi.Nag-init ang mga mata ko, tanda ng paparating ng mga luha. I miss him. I miss Azazel. I keep wondering where he is or if he's really alright. When I sleep, I always dream of being in his arms and I was happy but whenever I woke up, sadness was g
Nagising ako sa munting halik sa aking tiyan. I could feel the cold air on my stomach as those kisses lingered on my skin. Disoriented as I opened my eyes, Azazel welcomed my vision. I saw him between my thighs, caressing my baby bump with his lips. He was even whispering something I can't hear."You okay there, son? Don't give your mom a hard time while I'm gone. Daddy's just going to clear something out."Muli ay humalik siya roon. I smiled at the way he acts. Inabot ng aking kamay ang kaniyang buhok upang haplusin iyon. His attention immediately went to me.I smiled wider as I saw his gray eyes. He looks at me intently. Mabilis siyang umayos at hindi na nagsayang ng oras para halikan ako. Agad akong napapikit ng lumapat ang kaniyang labi sa akin. He kissed me deeper than I expected. At halos hindi pa nga niya pakawalan ang labi ko kung hindi ko lamang siya pwersahang itinulak."You woke up early, amore..." He burried his face on my neck. Napangiti ako roon, ramdam ko ang init ng
The day finally came. Hindi ko mapigilang kabahan habang inaayos ko ang aking mga gamit. I don't have classes today but I have an ongoing project that I need to paint. Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ay ang panginginig ng buong katawan ko sa sobrang nerbiyos.Kakatapos ko lang magpinta at mag-isa lamang ako rito sa balcony ng kwarto ni Azazel. I bit my lips before sighing. Ngayon kasi ang araw kung kailan ilalabas ang resulta ng bar exam. Azazel already assured me last night but I still can't help to feel so nervous. At nang matapos ko ang pag-aayos ay mabilis akong pumasok muli sa kwarto. Azazel is already in his office and he actually told me to go there today. Sabi niya ay doon na lang daw namin tignan ang resulta. I don't have a choice since he really became busy this past few days. Hindi rin naman ako nagtagal sa pag-aayos sa sarili ko at agad na lumabas ng kwarto. While I was already descending on the stairs, I heard some familiar voice. Until I realized that the voices were from A
Nagising akong nag-iisa sa kama, iginala ko ang aking tingin upang pagmasdan kung nasaan ako. It was a bit familiar until I realized that I was inside Azazel's room. Not in the penthouse but in the Galdevero's mansion. His room is still the same as the last time I came here. Simple touches of black and white. Walang pinagbago katulad noong unang punta ko rito.I closed my eyes to sleep again but immediately regretted it when the man earlier flashed in my mind. Mabilis akong napadilat at napasigaw, tinatawag ang pangalan ni Azazel. Tears started to fell again from my eyes. My chest keeps on rising as I catch my breath in so much tremble."A-Azazel, n-nasaan ka?! Azazel!"The memories from the past played on my mind like a film. Lahat ng nangyari noon hanggang sa mapunta ako sa treehouse kasama ng isang lalaki ay paulit-ulit na nagpi-play sa utak ko.Umupo ako sa kama at nagsumiksik sa gilid habang ang mga kamay ay yakap ang aking tuhod. My sobs become louder until I felt someone embra
Tulala akong nakatingin sa mga ilaw na nagkikislapan. The city lights calm me a bit. Sa sobrang daming nangyayari sa buhay ko nitong mga nakaraang buwan, hindi ko na mapigilan na makaramdam ng pagod. And of course, I can't be stressed that much, especially that I already have a child in my womb.My tears fell as a particular emotion starts to build upon my chest. Bumuga ako ng hangin habang inaalala ang nangyari noong nakaraan.When Azazel found out I was pregnant, he was so mad. Sa sobrang galit niya ay halos hindi ko pa masagot ang kaniyang tanong. I was so nervous.Kaya hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko malimutan ang nangyari ang noong nakaraan.I was so drown thinking about it when I was suddenly interrupted by heat spreading on my back.Ang aking pagninilay ay natigil ng maramdaman ko ang isang matigas na braso na yumakap sa akin mula sa likod. Sa init pa lamang na pinaparamdam, hindi na ako nagulat na si Azazel iyon. He's the only one who could do things like this on me."It's too co
Buntis ako.I am pregnant with Azazel's child.Paulit-ulit iyon na tumatakbo sa aking isipan kahit hanggang sa matapos ang hapunan namin. Tahimik kaming dalawa ni Grace habang kumakain. At alam kong napapansin iyon ni Azazel. After the dinner, Grace immediately left. And up until now, I can't still grasp the fact that I'm really pregnant. Na kahit ang pag-uusap namin ni Grace ay hindi nagsisink-in sa utak ko."Buntis ka, Seraphina..." mahinang sabi ni Grace habang nasa pintuan pa rin kami ng banyo.Hinaplos ko ng bahagya ang aking tiyan habang marahang tumutulo ang aking luha pababa sa aking pisngi. I can sense the fear in her voice. Napapikit ako, kahit ako man ay nakakaramdam rin ng takot at pangamba. Sino ba ang hindi?Having a child is a big obligation and responsibility. And I'm just 18 with a completely complex life. "Malaking problema ito," narinig kong saad ni Grace na siyang ikinalingon ko sa kaniya. I know what she is saying. I understand."H-Hindi k-ko s-siya i-ipapalag
I stared blankly into the void while inside Azazel's car. I was biting my lower lip as I stared out the window. Azazel was on the phone with someone, most likely from their law firm. I just boringly looked at Azazel when I felt his hand on my thigh.He was still on his phone, his brows furrowed as he turned the stirring wheels. I just sat there and watched him do it.Bumuga ako ng hangin ng makaramdam ng pagkabagot. Honestly, I don't feel like attending San Albereda University. I just want to lay on my bed all day and night. Napansin iyon ni Azazel kaya agad siyang napatingin sa akin."Hold on... Are you okay, baby?" mas lalong nagsalubong ang kaniyang kilay ng dahil sa akin. Tumango ako sa kaniya at ngumiti, kahit pa hindi naman talaga ako okay."You sure?"I rolled my tongue on my lower lips and pouted as I think something to eat. Parang gusto ko ng strawberry ngayon tapos isasawsaw ko sa gatas."I-I w-want t-to e-eat s-strawb-berry a-and m-milk?" hindi siya makapaniwalang tumitig
"W-Where's A-Azazel?" Pero walang sumagot sa akin. I looked at Grace but she avoid my gazes. Nangilid ang luha sa aking mata. "G-Grace?""I...I...H-He's..." ni hindi niya alam ang isasagot ko.Tumingin ako kay Alec, he was smirking at me."Who knows, love? Maybe in the enemy's den, in Governor Gilberto's."Tuluyan ng tumulo ang luha ko sa sinabi niya. Nanginig ang aking tuhod at napaupo na sa sahig. Naninikip ang aking dibdib sa sinabi ni Alec, nanlalambot ako at nanghihina. Patuloy sa pag-agos ang aking luha, hindi ko na rin mapigilan pa ang paghikbi. Ang takot na nararamdaman kay Azazel ay mas lalong lumalala.But my attention got caught by Alec's laugh, umalingawngaw sa buong paligid ang kaniyang tawa. Halos hindi ko na rin marinig pa ang sinasabi sa palabas na pinapanood ko kanina. My gaze went to him, he was laughing so much like he watched the most entertaining comedy show."Damn, she's really gullible, baby!" nakita kong napatingin pa siya kay Grace.Hindi ako tumigil sa pag
It was full of uncertainty. Everything went fast that I could hardly even think about other things. In just a blink of my eyes, I found myself tangled with obscure people. The moment that I saw myself with people like them, I knew right there and then that my life will never be the same anymore. I have already accepted it a long time ago, but I just never imagined it to be like this.Hindi kailanman pumasok sa isip ko na mapunta sa ganitong sitwasyon. After what happened on my apartment, Azazel bring me to his penthouse. Nandoon din sina Samael at Grace, lutang ako buong gabi at halos wala ng pumasok sa isip ko. I just can't grasp to the thought about my apartment. Paulit-ulit na pumapasok sa isip ko ang itsura ng apartment na nadatnan namin kanina. I keep on overthinking things.Paano pala kung hindi ako umalis? Paano kung naabutan ako ng mga taong gumawa noon sa partment ko?As of right now, I am thankful that nothing happened to me. Kapag naaalala ko ang nangyari sa akin noon, kun