Tulala ako buong araw at hindi alam ang gagawin. I can't even find myself doing my project. It's been days since I've been like this. The night when my Auntie visits me, it really bothers me all the time. May mga bagay kasi na kahit anong gawin kong pagtatago, gaano man ako kabilis tumakbo, hahabulin at hahanapin pa rin ako. I just wanted to be free. To get away. Pero mukhang malabo talaga ako makatakas sa napakadilim na anino ng pamilya ko. If just my parents are here...I should have not thought about those.Inalis ko iyon sa isipan ko at tumayo na lamang sa kama. It's time to do some household chores. Hindi pwedeng nakatunganga lang ako buong araw. Rest day ko ngayon at saktong Linggo at walang pasok sa University namin. Gustuhin ko man na gumala ay hindi ko naman kaya. I have so many things to do for this day. Maybe, some other time, I would go out and visit some places here in the city. But as of now, I have to deal with the bunch of trashes here in my small apartment.I was busy
Azazel already left my apartment but not my Auntie. She stayed there a few moments. Nakakapagtaka lang na bumisita na naman siya ngayon. I mean, she just visited me last time. Parang ako ang nahihinayang sa gas na ginamit niya. And one more thing, I'm not really that comfortable being with her right now. Auntie is a good woman but sometimes, she's just so unpredictable. She's hard to read.Matapos kong maihatid si Azazel palabas ay bumalik ako sa apartment ko. I saw my Auntie smiling ear to ear. Pinaupo niya ako sa couch at kinuha ang aking kamay. Hinaplos niya iyon ng hindi nawawala ang ngiti. It's weird to see her smiling like this. Para bang may tumatakbo sa isip niya na hindi ako sang-ayon. Just... Whatever it is, I hope it's good."I can't believe na boyfriend mo ang anak ng dating judge na si Judge Galdevero."I tried to deny it but she just didn't believe me. Alam ko naman na hindi niya ako papaniwalaan, kahit anong paliwanag pa ang sabihin ko sa kaniya."Hija, don't deny it an
I don't know what's happening in my surroundings. My mother is sleeping, and so does my father. But I heard some footsteps downstairs and some unfamiliar voices. Kumunot ang aking noo, do we have visitors? Mama and Papa are still sleeping in the next room with me, should I wake them up? Maybe, I should just peep a little bit.Marahan akong umalis ng pagkakahiga sa aking kama. I silently wore my pink bunny slippers. Is it okay to peep? I jus want to know who the visitors are.Tumingin akong muli sa higaan ko at nag-isip. Okay lang naman siguro no? Lumapit ako sa pintuan at idinikit ang aking tainga para pakinggan ang nasa labas. I hear men's voice, they talk so serious. Napanguso ako ng biglang unti-unting nawala ang pag-uusap.I was about to turn the knob to open my door when the connecting door from the next room opened. Nakita kp doon si mama na hindi mukhang hindi mapakali."Ma, we have a visitors po. Should we go down?" Tanong ko kay mama.Mabilis siyang lumapit sa akin at niyakap
"Fucking answer me, Sera! Who's that fucking guy?"Lumunok ako at pinilit na maialis ang kamay niyang nakahawak sa siko ko pero hindi ko magawa. My eyes pooled in tears. Why is he like this? Para bang hindi siya ang Azazel na kilala ko. He felt so different, felt so dangerous. Sa mga nakalipas na araw akala ko ay unti-unti ng natutunaw ang yelo sa kaniya pero ngayon, para bang bumalik na naman siya sa kung paano niya ako tratuhin noong una naming pagkikita. Natatakot ako pero ni hindi ko iyon magawang isa-tinig ng hindi siya mas magagalit sa akin. But I still tried..."N-Nas-s-saktan a-ako, A-A-za-z-zel." Bakas sa aking boses ang takot sa kaniya.He stopped and parted his lips. "Fuck! Shit." Mabilis niyang binitiwan ang aking braso.Pinalapit niya ako sa kaniya at niyakap. I sighed and let him do what he wants. He looks livid earlier that make me just stood there in fear. Hanggang ngayon ay nakakaramdam pa rin ako ng takot sa kaniya. Pero nawala iyon ng maramdaman ko ang paghigpit ng
I was currently sitting on my couch when I heard a knocked on my door. Mabilis kong binaba si Azi at binuksan ang pinto. I saw Azazel in his usual get up. White polo long sleeves and pants along with his expensive silver watch. He's not smiling but I saw how calm his face is. Tumingin siya sa akin mula ulo hanggang paa. I felt conscious again as he stared at me. Kahit ilang beses niya siguro ako na titigan ay hinding-hindi ako masasanay.Looks like he's examining my clothes. I wore a white off shoulder maxi dress but this time, it can see my thighs. Because I just think that I should wear this kind of dress to fit in. Kumunot ang noo niya kaya kumunot rin ang noo ko at bumaba ang tingin sa aking suot. Mali ba ang suot ko? Hindi naman revealing ang suot, I still look decent.He looked at me, so I gave him a questioning look. He just sighed."Let's go..."I was about to go out when Azi barked. Wait. It's already evening, I don't want Azi to stay here all night and
I immediately looked away when he stopped kissing me. I can feel my whole face burning up in shyness. He chuckled a little and press his lips on my forehead then buried his face on my neck. His arms are pulling me closer to him. Suminghap siya ng gumalaw ako. At mas lalong humigpit ang yakap niya sa akin. I was straddling him while he's sitting in the edge of the bed. Alam king pulang-pula na talaga ang mukha ko sa kahihiyan.Gumalaw akong muli dahil hindi ako komportable sa kinauupuan. I felt something in my inner thighs. Para kasing may tumutusok sa akin doon na isang matigas na bagay. Is it his belt? But he's already in his sweatpants, so what is it? Sa isa pang pagkakataon ay muli akong gumalaw. But this time I heard him cursed under his breath. Tapos ay hinawakan niya ako sa aking beywang upang ipirmi. Napatigil ako at pinakiramdaman siya. Is he okay? May masakit ba sa kaniya?"Stop moving..."My forehead creased, I don't understand him. I looked at him, I saw
Days passed, halos araw-araw na ang pagbisita ng mga pinsan ko sa akin. Azazel's actually been busy for a week, kaya hindi kami masyadong nagkita nitong mga nakaraan. And today is his bar examination. I asked him about his exam, he said the exam will held for two to three days. Sa totoo lang ay ako ang kinakabahan para sa kaniya. I felt so nervous for him, but he was just sitting beside me. He was so chill like it's just an ordinary day for him. But it isn't! Today is his bar examination.We're currently inside of Samael's car. Being a supportive twins to Azazel, sila na mismong dalawa ni Nazarel ang maghahatid kay Azazel. I sighed and looked at Azazel whose busy listening to Samael. Ang kamay niya ay magaan na nakapulupot sa akin, partikular sa aking beywang. One thing that I usually noticed at him, he's really clingy. He likes to wrapped around his hands on me, kissed me eventually, and really likes to play with my curly hair. Just like now. Muli akong bumuntong hininga.
Warning: Some scenes are not suitable for young readers. Spg. Not for minors. And I don't promote anything here. This is only a fiction.***I opened my eyes just to see an unfamiliar ceiling. Nilibot ko ang aking paningin ngunit nahilo lamang ako kaya napapikit akong muli. I was like that for a minute. Gumalaw lang ako ng makarinig ng pagbukas ng pintuan. I tried to sit properly. Nakita ko si Azazel na nakatayo sa aking gilid. Malamig ang kaniyang titig sa akin habang pinag-aaralan ang aking itsura.His jaw clenched. He's mad, I know. Naibaba ko ang aking paningin, pinaglaruan ko ang aking mga daliri."What did I fucking told you?" I can feel the controlled rage on his voice.Mas lalo akong natakot na salubungin ang kaniyang tingin. Hindi ko ata kayang makita ang malamig at galit niyang mga mata. Natatakot ako sa kung anong pwede niyang masabi sa akin. I don't know what am I going to say to him. It's my fault that I didn't listen. It's just that I can't get the point why he don't wan
It's been a week. Isang linggo na simula noong huling tawag ni Azazel sa akin. After we talk that night, I never received any calls or texts from him. Although Grace keeps on assuring me that he's alright, I still can't ease myself. Hindi ko pa rin mapigilang mag-alala sa kaniya. He doesn't call or text, of course, I would worry about him. My fiance is out there, risking his life for us. Kahit isang tawag o text lang, mapapanatag na ako.Kagat ang ibabang labi na tinitigan ko ng matagal ang canvas. I was currently painting but I can't think of anything but Azazel. I caressed my belly and sighed. Tumungo ako para tignan ang aking tiyan. "B-Baby, d-do you think your daddy i-is fine r-right now? You miss h-him too, don't you?" mahina kong sabi.Nag-init ang mga mata ko, tanda ng paparating ng mga luha. I miss him. I miss Azazel. I keep wondering where he is or if he's really alright. When I sleep, I always dream of being in his arms and I was happy but whenever I woke up, sadness was g
Nagising ako sa munting halik sa aking tiyan. I could feel the cold air on my stomach as those kisses lingered on my skin. Disoriented as I opened my eyes, Azazel welcomed my vision. I saw him between my thighs, caressing my baby bump with his lips. He was even whispering something I can't hear."You okay there, son? Don't give your mom a hard time while I'm gone. Daddy's just going to clear something out."Muli ay humalik siya roon. I smiled at the way he acts. Inabot ng aking kamay ang kaniyang buhok upang haplusin iyon. His attention immediately went to me.I smiled wider as I saw his gray eyes. He looks at me intently. Mabilis siyang umayos at hindi na nagsayang ng oras para halikan ako. Agad akong napapikit ng lumapat ang kaniyang labi sa akin. He kissed me deeper than I expected. At halos hindi pa nga niya pakawalan ang labi ko kung hindi ko lamang siya pwersahang itinulak."You woke up early, amore..." He burried his face on my neck. Napangiti ako roon, ramdam ko ang init ng
The day finally came. Hindi ko mapigilang kabahan habang inaayos ko ang aking mga gamit. I don't have classes today but I have an ongoing project that I need to paint. Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat ay ang panginginig ng buong katawan ko sa sobrang nerbiyos.Kakatapos ko lang magpinta at mag-isa lamang ako rito sa balcony ng kwarto ni Azazel. I bit my lips before sighing. Ngayon kasi ang araw kung kailan ilalabas ang resulta ng bar exam. Azazel already assured me last night but I still can't help to feel so nervous. At nang matapos ko ang pag-aayos ay mabilis akong pumasok muli sa kwarto. Azazel is already in his office and he actually told me to go there today. Sabi niya ay doon na lang daw namin tignan ang resulta. I don't have a choice since he really became busy this past few days. Hindi rin naman ako nagtagal sa pag-aayos sa sarili ko at agad na lumabas ng kwarto. While I was already descending on the stairs, I heard some familiar voice. Until I realized that the voices were from A
Nagising akong nag-iisa sa kama, iginala ko ang aking tingin upang pagmasdan kung nasaan ako. It was a bit familiar until I realized that I was inside Azazel's room. Not in the penthouse but in the Galdevero's mansion. His room is still the same as the last time I came here. Simple touches of black and white. Walang pinagbago katulad noong unang punta ko rito.I closed my eyes to sleep again but immediately regretted it when the man earlier flashed in my mind. Mabilis akong napadilat at napasigaw, tinatawag ang pangalan ni Azazel. Tears started to fell again from my eyes. My chest keeps on rising as I catch my breath in so much tremble."A-Azazel, n-nasaan ka?! Azazel!"The memories from the past played on my mind like a film. Lahat ng nangyari noon hanggang sa mapunta ako sa treehouse kasama ng isang lalaki ay paulit-ulit na nagpi-play sa utak ko.Umupo ako sa kama at nagsumiksik sa gilid habang ang mga kamay ay yakap ang aking tuhod. My sobs become louder until I felt someone embra
Tulala akong nakatingin sa mga ilaw na nagkikislapan. The city lights calm me a bit. Sa sobrang daming nangyayari sa buhay ko nitong mga nakaraang buwan, hindi ko na mapigilan na makaramdam ng pagod. And of course, I can't be stressed that much, especially that I already have a child in my womb.My tears fell as a particular emotion starts to build upon my chest. Bumuga ako ng hangin habang inaalala ang nangyari noong nakaraan.When Azazel found out I was pregnant, he was so mad. Sa sobrang galit niya ay halos hindi ko pa masagot ang kaniyang tanong. I was so nervous.Kaya hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko malimutan ang nangyari ang noong nakaraan.I was so drown thinking about it when I was suddenly interrupted by heat spreading on my back.Ang aking pagninilay ay natigil ng maramdaman ko ang isang matigas na braso na yumakap sa akin mula sa likod. Sa init pa lamang na pinaparamdam, hindi na ako nagulat na si Azazel iyon. He's the only one who could do things like this on me."It's too co
Buntis ako.I am pregnant with Azazel's child.Paulit-ulit iyon na tumatakbo sa aking isipan kahit hanggang sa matapos ang hapunan namin. Tahimik kaming dalawa ni Grace habang kumakain. At alam kong napapansin iyon ni Azazel. After the dinner, Grace immediately left. And up until now, I can't still grasp the fact that I'm really pregnant. Na kahit ang pag-uusap namin ni Grace ay hindi nagsisink-in sa utak ko."Buntis ka, Seraphina..." mahinang sabi ni Grace habang nasa pintuan pa rin kami ng banyo.Hinaplos ko ng bahagya ang aking tiyan habang marahang tumutulo ang aking luha pababa sa aking pisngi. I can sense the fear in her voice. Napapikit ako, kahit ako man ay nakakaramdam rin ng takot at pangamba. Sino ba ang hindi?Having a child is a big obligation and responsibility. And I'm just 18 with a completely complex life. "Malaking problema ito," narinig kong saad ni Grace na siyang ikinalingon ko sa kaniya. I know what she is saying. I understand."H-Hindi k-ko s-siya i-ipapalag
I stared blankly into the void while inside Azazel's car. I was biting my lower lip as I stared out the window. Azazel was on the phone with someone, most likely from their law firm. I just boringly looked at Azazel when I felt his hand on my thigh.He was still on his phone, his brows furrowed as he turned the stirring wheels. I just sat there and watched him do it.Bumuga ako ng hangin ng makaramdam ng pagkabagot. Honestly, I don't feel like attending San Albereda University. I just want to lay on my bed all day and night. Napansin iyon ni Azazel kaya agad siyang napatingin sa akin."Hold on... Are you okay, baby?" mas lalong nagsalubong ang kaniyang kilay ng dahil sa akin. Tumango ako sa kaniya at ngumiti, kahit pa hindi naman talaga ako okay."You sure?"I rolled my tongue on my lower lips and pouted as I think something to eat. Parang gusto ko ng strawberry ngayon tapos isasawsaw ko sa gatas."I-I w-want t-to e-eat s-strawb-berry a-and m-milk?" hindi siya makapaniwalang tumitig
"W-Where's A-Azazel?" Pero walang sumagot sa akin. I looked at Grace but she avoid my gazes. Nangilid ang luha sa aking mata. "G-Grace?""I...I...H-He's..." ni hindi niya alam ang isasagot ko.Tumingin ako kay Alec, he was smirking at me."Who knows, love? Maybe in the enemy's den, in Governor Gilberto's."Tuluyan ng tumulo ang luha ko sa sinabi niya. Nanginig ang aking tuhod at napaupo na sa sahig. Naninikip ang aking dibdib sa sinabi ni Alec, nanlalambot ako at nanghihina. Patuloy sa pag-agos ang aking luha, hindi ko na rin mapigilan pa ang paghikbi. Ang takot na nararamdaman kay Azazel ay mas lalong lumalala.But my attention got caught by Alec's laugh, umalingawngaw sa buong paligid ang kaniyang tawa. Halos hindi ko na rin marinig pa ang sinasabi sa palabas na pinapanood ko kanina. My gaze went to him, he was laughing so much like he watched the most entertaining comedy show."Damn, she's really gullible, baby!" nakita kong napatingin pa siya kay Grace.Hindi ako tumigil sa pag
It was full of uncertainty. Everything went fast that I could hardly even think about other things. In just a blink of my eyes, I found myself tangled with obscure people. The moment that I saw myself with people like them, I knew right there and then that my life will never be the same anymore. I have already accepted it a long time ago, but I just never imagined it to be like this.Hindi kailanman pumasok sa isip ko na mapunta sa ganitong sitwasyon. After what happened on my apartment, Azazel bring me to his penthouse. Nandoon din sina Samael at Grace, lutang ako buong gabi at halos wala ng pumasok sa isip ko. I just can't grasp to the thought about my apartment. Paulit-ulit na pumapasok sa isip ko ang itsura ng apartment na nadatnan namin kanina. I keep on overthinking things.Paano pala kung hindi ako umalis? Paano kung naabutan ako ng mga taong gumawa noon sa partment ko?As of right now, I am thankful that nothing happened to me. Kapag naaalala ko ang nangyari sa akin noon, kun