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Blue Ribbon Chapter 36
Ten days later...Lilly's POV"My wild heart longs for you; Every part of me is crying out and begging for your return. Your leaving me alone is like some reflex of my bad karma, I had committed years ago. Now that you have left, it's like I am dying a hundred deaths each moment." I read the lines written over the piece of paper out loud, and my heart clenched so tight in my chest. My gaze drifted up for one mere second and I looked into the crowd of people, all seated down in their assigned places, all of their eyes on me. I am not the type to have a stage-fright or to get uncomfortable under people's gazes but today, at this moment, I wished to just run away.Physically, I am in pain. Mentally, I am exhausted. This play is not doing me any good either. It reminds me of him, in every way there is. We practiced these lines together once. We stood over this same stage and read them out loud. "My eyes go numb when reminded of you. It hurts, It really hurts. What has happened to me;
Blue Ribbon Chapter 37
Lilly's POVWith my peripheral vision, I saw as someone walked closer and sat down beside me. I turned my head to find Conner's eyes on me, "Aren't you going to attend the party?" He asked.I shook my head, "No, I am tired."His eyes drifted down to my attire, "You look ready though."I just shook my head and averted my gaze away. He wasn't satisfied with my dead-like state and he nudged my arm with his elbow, "You okay?""What do you think?" I mumbled, my gaze drifting down to my lap."I think you're just as miserable as he is," He said and I turned to him, guilt furrowed my eyebrows, "He is not happy?" How did I manage to ruin his happiness? How?Conner gave me a knowing look, "What do you think?" He said, mimicking my previous question.I curled my hand over the edge of where I am sitting, trying to hold myself, hating how our last memory is so awful like this. It wasn't supposed to be like this. He could've left with us on good terms, I wanted that, I needed that. I needed these l
Blue Ribbon Chapter 38
Lilly's POVThe music starts to play from the other side of the school, and as the ring of guitar and bass kicks in, I blot my face and nose into the arm of my thin shirt.I am such an emotional mess, in the middle of the school's theatre. All alone.I cry some more and realize that I can't do this. I can't handle this. Not yet.I need to see him.I decide to get the hell out of here but I stop when I hear footsteps nearing me again from behind, thinking it's Conner, I sigh, "I told you I want to be alone," I start to say but I am suddenly surrounded by a familiar scent that swirls me into an endless loop of emotions."That's not an option," He says and a shocked exhale bursts out of me, and I use it to my advantage and take a huge inhale, melting into his warm voice.I immediately turn around, my gaze drifting up to fall onto the one boy who has stolen my heart, my mind, and all of my senses.Fresh tears fill my eyes as I gaze at him, his ocean blue eyes dimming a bit when he reads m
Blue Ribbon Chapter 39
Chase's POVShe shivers at my tone, and instead of talking, she pushes herself even closer to me, her legs on each side of mine. I groan at the pressure; thanks to her skirt, the only thing separating us, is my jeans and the thin material of her underwear.I swear she does these things to me on purpose.My heart pounds in anticipation and she doesn't waste time as she flicks the clasp of her bra, letting it fall over her shoulder. And fuck me, she is a sight.Lilly is a girl who is pretty much confident in her own skin, she knows she has it in her, she knows her effect, and she takes full pleasure seeing me lose all of my shit over her."You're fucking perfect," My voice comes out all thick and hoarse. Her smile is innocent, it shows how she liked my words, and reveled in how much I want her. Her cheeks turning pinker, a total contradiction to the wild want in her dangerous eyes.Not wanting her to think more, I just let her feel, feel how much I wanted her, how much I craved her for
Blue Ribbon Chapter 40
Chase's POVI woke up alone.The arms that held Lilly all night long were empty now.It was cold again.I rubbed at my eyes and looked around the room, at the sanctuary that kept us locked in, at the bed where I took her again and again, where I showed her how much I loved her and needed her.I hoped she'd see it, that she'd change her mind.But now, she is just gone. Again.My eyes fell on the nightstand to notice a folded piece of paper laying there. My eyebrows pulled closer and when I edged forward to take it, I noticed the blue ribbon laying on top of it.I fisted the ribbon in my hand, then took the paper and unfolded it. My heart clenched tight as my eyes started reading the words written:'I know it sucks that I am doing this over a small piece of paper, and you can blame me for this later and call me all kind of colorful names, I give you the permission.First, I am very sorry for making you wake up all alone after such an amazing night, but Chase, I can't do this. I can't.G
Blue Ribbon Part Two
Five years later...Lilly's POVI can handle a lot of things in this life.I can handle almost everything.I can handle the truth.It's the lies that kill me.I think to myself as I raise the handbag, trying to squeeze it into the overhead compartment. I push harder, and harder but it doesn't slide inside.I grit my teeth and just think.Lies.So. Many. Fucking. Lies.Dizziness swarms my vision as I put whatever energy I have left into pushing the stupid bag. I groan in annoyance and I just want to scream, every nerve in my body is crying out loud, in pain, in fatigue, and in betrayal."Here, ma'am, let me help you," The stewardess says and I let him take care of it as I slide into my seat. Sitting down doesn't do me any good either. The tightness inside my stomach only increases with every passing second, I just want to throw up.I would've, but having not eaten anything for the past two days isn't helping at all.I open the front camera of my phone and stare at my reflection. I almo
Blue Ribbon Chapter 1
PART TWO Alex's POV I've tasted heartbreak before. It's not a foreign feeling for me. Its bitterness is still embedded deep down in my mind. It's rooted in a very dark place, a one I've locked years and years ago. It's just been long. So long since I last felt it ripping at my inside. It's been a long time since I felt like I could lose everything again. Heartbreak was when they told me the plane crashed. It was when Cara came back. It was when Lilly looked at me and called another man dad. It is now, at this exact moment as she stood right there and called me a killer. It's ironic how I always felt that this moment would come one day. Our past was too complicated, too messed up to stay hidden and buried. I was a fool to think it wouldn't knock back on our doors again. The irony is that I tried to prepare myself for it, but now, as she looked at me like that, with so much blame, so much pain, and something akin to hate; I knew I am not ready. I was never ready. She knows the
Blue Ribbon Chapter 2
Lilly's POV"I can't believe your dad is finally okay with this!" Sally squealed, pulling me into another hug.I hugged her back, "Me neither, but he did make me a big huge list of rules, he is probably just trying to discourage me from going, I swear," Sally chuckled at my words and shook her head, "Still, this is so exciting, we both are going, I might burst from happiness, I can't help it!"I smiled at her enthusiasm and crossed my legs over the bed, thinking about what's to come. It is exciting. A new country, a new place, a new me, and most importantly, a new beginning."Did you tell Chase?" Sally's words broke through my thoughts and my smile slowly dropped. I shook my head, "We haven't talked a lot lately," I mumbled, fidgeting with the cover of my phone, "Actually we haven't talked at all for like two weeks," I pulled into a deep breath and looked at my lap, "He is busy with finals, I am also busy with mine, so it's okay, whatever."I felt her hand rest over mine, "Lilly, are
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The hardness of his voice and his touch had my wide eyes drifting from my hand that I couldn't move then back to his face, "Christian, you are scaring me," I said, my voice low as I tried to break my arm free of his grip."You're scared?" He scoffed, "You have no idea what real fear feels like, Lilly," The look of pure disgust in his eyes had me gulping down, "Fear is opening the door to see your father's body there, killed in the most inhuman way," My stomach churned at the thought and he added, his voice and rage increasing with each word, "Fear is waking up after one hell of an explosion and not being able to move, for five hours, I couldn't move a muscle as I watched all of my friends there die because your fucking family thought that killing one man was worth burning up the whole damn asylum!"Asylum...explosion...the newspaper I just saw."My family?" I asked, weakly, nothing making sense, nothing.He nodded, "Yes, Lilly, your family," He said, "You see, it took everything in my
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The second I opened the door for her, she shot out, "What did he do?" She asked and anger reflected off her eyes, already expecting that he did something.I ushered her to get inside and we sat down as I explained what happened and what he said at the end before he stormed out."Okay, I am gonna tell you something, Lilly," Sally started, her tone very serious, "Something that shows how everything about the way he dealt with this is very wrong."I nodded and she swallowed down hard, preparing herself before she said, "Conner and I kind of had a thing going on," She confessed and I wasn't surprised, "I know, it was kind of obvious, you guys were talking every day."She shook her head, "It's not like that, the summer before he left to uni, one time we were alone and one thing led to another and well," She gave me a knowing look, "We slept together."My eyes grew wide a bit, "Why didn't you tell me?" I asked."Chase had just left and you were not okay, and also Conner and I decided to not
Blue Ribbon Chapter 22
One year later...Lilly's POVI am panicking.So very much panicking.I am in trouble. Big stupid trouble.Fuck.How could I be so damn stupid?My pulse took off a sprint as I stared down at the birth control pack, to see three pills are still left. I am supposed to have finished them all by today, twenty-eight days passed, twenty-eight pills, but no, three are left, which means...Fuck, how did I forget to take it three days in a row?Three freaking days!Jesus, Lilly, how could you be so stupid?I didn't even notice it when it happened.I pulled my phone and with my hand shaking, I checked the calendar, my mind calculating and trying to remember when this must've happened. It had to be about ten days ago, I had my exams and my graduation project presentation, I was so stressed. I usually take the pill first thing in the morning, considering I wasn't sleeping well during that time, I probably just forgot to take them.I am supposed to get my period in the following days, but what if I
Blue Ribbon Chapter 21
****************One month later...Chase's POV"You think your dad will accept to be my reference?" Conner asked for the umpteenth time, "I mean I know that he loves me a lot," He added proudly, "You know that he once told me I am like the son he never had."I lowered my shades and turned around, giving him the most unimpressed look. He just rolled his eyes, "Anyways, I really need his reference, this company I am applying for is really big news, if I get accepted, I would do anything you want," The security pressed the card, allowing us to walk inside and I gave him a thank-you nod, "I might even kiss you from happiness."I winced at his words, "No, thank you."He narrowed his eyes at me before we walked into the elevator, "Uh, do you know that..." Conner cleared his throat, "That Lilly is here in LA for the summer?"I looked at him and nodded, "Yeah, my mother mentioned it the other day."His eyebrows pulled closer, as if expecting a bigger reaction, "Do you plan on seeing her?"I
Blue Ribbon Chapter 20
************Lilly' POVHis words had me snapping and I walked out of my hiding, unable to take it anymore.My words had him leaving Christian and turning around, his eyes wide as they fell on me, "Lilly, what the hell are you doing here?" He snapped.I ignored his question and walked forward, "You want to tell the department about him, okay do it, but be sure that I will go and say it's me," I said, "If you're gonna drag his reputation down, you will be dragging mine along with it."I shook my head, "I am not gonna let you do that," I said, "Because, it's my life, whether I am gonna be with him or not, it's my decision and you can't...you just can't keep controlling my life forever!""Lilly, you are driving me insane, what you are doing is wrong, so do-""No, it is not wrong!"Anger and hurt clouded my chest at the way he's dealing with this, "Christian loves me and I love him as well, there is nothing wrong with that!"Dad looked taken aback, so did Christian and that's when I realiz
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Lilly's POV"Dad, why did you do that!" I snapped as I rushed forward toward Christian, unable to comprehend what just happened.I expected his anger, but not his violence toward this.Christian whipped the blood from the side of his mouth before his eyes fell back on my dad, the muscles of his jaw worked, "I get how this looks like," He said, taking a step forward toward dad and I pulled at his sleeves as not to get close again, "But I am serious about everything that concerns your daughter."Dad's anger seemed to only multiply, "Serious you say?" He grated out in mockery and pointed at the door, "Get the fuck out of here and stay the hell away from her, or else your jaw isn't the only thing I will be breaking."I felt Christian is about to talk again and defend his intentions, but I pulled at his arm, stopping him, or else dad really won't stop, "Christian, just go," I urged and when his eye fell on me, I silently begged him to leave.I swallowed hard and nodded, silently telling hi
Blue Ribbon Chapter 18
Monday"I should head out now," I said as I took the last sip of my martini and placed it down."Oh come on, it's your birthday, stay a bit late," Sally whined, and I only shook my head in return. I checked the time and calculated the time difference between us and LA, "I should head back home, I've got a pretty important call to make.""It's Mr. boyfriend, isn't it?" Sally asked, purposely not mentioning his name in front of our other friends, "I mean you were with him all over the past week," She scoffed, very annoyed, "You already celebrated together, today is supposed to be only ours!"Since I've already celebrated my birthday with Christian, tonight I agreed to Sally's proposition to go out and have some fun, with some of our other girl-friends from class, who also brought their boyfriends. I also asked Noah to join us, so we were not a very little group at the moment.I shook my head, gathering my things into my purse, "It's not Christian," I hissed at her, so no one else would
Blue Ribbon Chapter 17
*****************After Christian took his shower, we went to bed, and almost immediately he fell asleep. He's been working really hard all over the past week, he was pulling on late hours at night to finish working on his project, even tomorrow which is Sunday, he will go to the university, to finish up a few things before his big presentation on Monday comes.So, the moment he placed his head on the pillow, he was a gone case.Me, on the other hand, I couldn't sleep at all. I kept thinking back to today's little incident, something just felt off, but for the love of me, I can't figure it out.Minutes and minutes later and a low groan vibrated from my chest, annoyed at my tired body that won't just rest and sleep.My back was to Christian, pressed right up against his chest and his arm was under me. I smiled again when I stared at his tattoo and finally understood the word written, but still on the inside of his arm and around the word laid different patterns, intertwined together an
Blue Ribbon Chapter 16
Six months later...Lilly's POVI was close. So close.Wind whipped through around me, hot and hard, the sun blazing down from over-head. I increased my grip on the throttle, ticking it back a little more as I eased into the endpoint of the trackway. The engine warbled deep as I set a cautious but still a fast pace.An unstoppable smile crawled up my lips as I took a turn and halted the bike to a stop where everyone else was waiting for us. Adrenaline still pumped into my veins as I climbed off and took the helmet from over my head.I leaned against the bike and crossed my arms over my chest as I waited for Louis, who a minute later arrived with his bike. My eyebrow raised when he went off and shot me a hard glare, "This didn't just happen!""You mean me beating you?" I questioned proudly, "Oh yeah, I think it did."He looked around in frustration, "How in the hell-?" He rushed a hand over his face, "I can't believe this."Christian chuckled, pretty much impressed as he walked closer
