The Death of Me
HER :
I had to leave, i had my reasons.
Leaving changed me.
I had to forget my past, to adapt with my present, to face the future.
I suddenly came back, but the problem is...I am different now.
HIM :
She left, without any reason, she didn't even say goodbye.
Losing her changed me.
I couldn't forget my past, my present stopped, i can't face the future.
She suddenly came back, but the problem is...I am different now.
We saw them fight, laugh, shout, cry. We saw them fall in love, we saw them get married and start on with their lives.
But one man from her past -suddenly comes back- knocks on her door, enters her life and everything after goes downhill.
Secret reveals, dreams get shattered, hearts get crashed, old wounds open again, and new scars start to show.
They split apart, they hate , they change.
And right now; they're not dead, yet still not alive.
And the question stays;
Will they ever get their love back, or will it just be the death of them both?
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Chapter: Bonus Chapter IKatherine's POV"Here is number one," Alex said as he handed me Lilly.I gave her to Ashton before I turned around and received the second package, "And here is number two," He added as he handed me Max and his bag. The little boy settled between my arms without making any noise. He rested his cheek over my chest as he played with the piece of bread in his tiny hands, chewing on it and making a mess over my clothes and his."Is that all?" I asked, my eyebrow raising and Alex nodded, "As far as I know, I have only two kids," He said, his eyebrows pulling closer in utter terror, "I hope there isn't more of them out there.""We all have our doubts about that," I said and he shot me a glare.His eyes flickered to Max in my arms and they softened right away before he inched closer and kissed his cheek. He ran his hand over the boy's soft hair and Max looked back at him, smiling as he let out that happy baby noise that makes my ovaries explode.I pouted at his cuteness and tightened my arms
Last Updated: 2023-03-26
Chapter: EpilogueFive months later...Cara's POVI pressed my palm over my bump when I felt my belly tightening and my muscles stiffening. I walked forward shaking that uncomfortable feeling away.My stomach and back muscles contracted painfully and I slammed my eyes shut.Breathe in. Breathe out.Phew.If you think that I am gonna have the baby right now, well I hate to burst your bubble, but you're wrong. I've been having these amazing false alarms all over the past week.I lost count over how many times I dragged Alex to the hospital. Poor thing, I gave him way too many unnecessary heart attacks.Five days has passed since my due date and my baby is not planning on coming out. WHY? Just why?I've never felt more uncomfortable.I walked into the kitchen and my eyes fell on Katherine preparing the meal with Ashton assisting her. She's so lucky, Alex never helps me. Sigh.Ashton's gaze went to me and he smiled, "You're still pregnant?" He asked amused.Is he making fun of me?He is, isn't he?That son
Last Updated: 2023-03-24
Chapter: Chapter 62 - How the story endedCara's POVLove is a pretty powerful drug. When you feel it, you really feel it.It can suspend time, making the whole world seem still except for you two.My mother once told me that there's a vast difference between love and true love. I never understood it, not until now.True love knows no depth. It's an endless tunnel that sweeps you up in the whirlwind and you're never quite free from it. It stays with you and it gets you addicted like nothing else. There is no breaking free after, no moving on.True love isn't ordinary. It doesn't come around often and that's how you'll know it's genuine.I thought I knew what love is when I first met Alex, when he took my hand in his and I fell into his arms, like I was always waiting for it. It felt like a fairy tale at the moment, it was magical..in a way.We had our ups and downs back then, but it was simple. We were just two lost people, learning how to fall in love. It was new for us, to open up and let our guard down, we weren't used to
Last Updated: 2023-03-24
Chapter: Chapter 61 - The Death of MeAlex's POVI never believed in fate or destiny.All the soulmates and meant to be crap, they never made sense to me. The concept that no matter what we do, the outcome is sealed, that we are just puppets in the grand scheme of things...That concept is ill.But what is scarier is that people actually believe in it.They say what's meant to be, will be.That in the end, everything unfolds the way it's supposed to. As if destiny is not the choices we make.I just don't believe in that.Yeah, I believe that I fell in love, but I believe that I chose her, I believe that it was my choice...not something written in the stars all those years ago.It was my choice.Like I chose to be with her; now, I am choosing to leave her behind.I am choosing to move on.For the very first time, I am choosing to be selfish.On a heavy exhale, I stood up, for a moment I gazed at her. I couldn't help but think that what we had was so beautiful, it was everything I ever wanted. She was my everything. But all
Last Updated: 2023-03-24
Chapter: Chapter 60 - Our Story Ends HereAt the day of the incident...PART TWO05:30 amEmma's POVFear.Fear is shackles, it is a knife in the gut slowly twisted, it is a constant hammer on the head.Yet fear is also just an illusion, but not an amusing one brought about by a conjuring trick. It's like the ghosts of a child's nightmare - a fragment of our own imagination. A lie.Whenever fear and I crossed paths, I walked with confidence right past it.For years and years, I didn't feel it because I believed that there is nothing to fear but fear itself.But all of that changed now.All my defenses evaporated as my eyes locked down with his. They were a deep, earthy brown - the color of the earth after torrential rains.He smiles at me. It is soft, so soft, a contradiction with the cruelty in his eyes."Emma," He whispers, my name parts his lips ever so gently. He was never gentle.The fear sits quietly, eroding the person I was born to be. What starts as a contortion of my stomach becomes a feeling of being smothered by a
Last Updated: 2023-03-22
Chapter: Chapter 59 - The One and OnlyONE YEAR LATER...NEW YORKCara's POVLoving someone is one of the biggest chances we ever take.I consider it unfair, because it's rarely a conscious decision we make. It's something beyond our control.That love, it either blossoms slowly and gradually grows, or it hits us hard, shocking us with its sudden intensity.Sometimes it's a cure.And other times it's a curse.In my case, it was both.It was the one thing missing from my life, the thing I needed the most but when I finally had it, like a drug, I couldn't live without it.Falling in love, it was inevitable.This...all of this was inevitable.It was bound to happen. I couldn't avoid it, no matter what, I couldn't run from it.It's weird, but I always had a feeling that something this bad would happen one day. I always sensed a storm brewing at a distance, waiting for the best moment to strike and ruin us in its wake...and the sad thing, it actually did.The storm wrecked us. Took parts of us. Changed us.That storm, it broke
Last Updated: 2023-03-21
Chapter: 39Next day...I promised myself that yesterday was the last day I will ever shed a tear. Last day to be weak and vulnerable. Exposed and bare.Last day to let it all out.But as I laid down now, after the operation, waiting for my recovery, with my cheek pressed up against the pillow, my eyes looking through the window, at the blue sky, at the free birds, and at what's alive.I couldn't hold back the one lone tear the silently escaped my eye.That's all. One single tear.I felt a tender hand reach for mine, I turned around, my eyes falling on the nurse, who smiled at me so warmly, "You can leave now, if you want."I nodded, and pulled myself up."Do you feel any pain?" She asked, concerned.I do. But, it's all on the inside.She helped me get up, she even helped me change the gown and wear my clothes. She took pity on me the moment I said I came alone. No one waiting me outside that door, just me, facing and correcting my mistakes on my own.And I took her help, seeking comfort from a s
Last Updated: 2024-12-27
Chapter: 38There is something seriously wrong with my health. So very wrong. Especially in the last two days. It's no longer just signs of being pregnant. I have a feeling it's more.The cramps tightening my stomach can't be normal. They're so painful, ever so slowly ripping at my insides. I couldn't sleep all night, not just worried about Max, like every day, but this immense pain couldn't let me close my eyes for even a mere second.This morning, I found a few blood droplets, and the sight of them had my panic rising to a whole new level. I was so scared, terrified even of what I read when I searched the internet for the signs, so the first thing I did when I got to the hospital was take a blood test and book an appointment with a gynecologist, just right before dad talked to me and got to know almost everything about Christian.Almost everything...He doesn't know about this child that's probably inside of me. I can only imagine his reaction. If he wanted to kill Christian with such a passion
Last Updated: 2024-12-27
Chapter: 37Lilly's POV"What do you mean you didn't find him?"The words and the furiousness that followed them had me snapping my head toward dad's direction as he talked through the phone. My heart seized and panic rushed through my chest as I understood who he must be talking about."Roman, don't make me lose my mind now," He snapped and got to his feet, he rushed a hand over his face, "I don't care...I told you...Roman, I am so gonna kill you," He threatened frustrated as he listened to whatever uncle Roman must've said. He cursed something under his breath, "He is just a fucking professor, where would he hide, huh?"Oh my god...what did I do again?He listened to whatever Roman was saying and his gaze drifted and fell on me, his gaze cautious and calculating, and I couldn't miss the flicker of blame in them, like he knows it's all my fault. I did this again. I gave him the chance to escape; I could swear dad felt it.He rubbed a hand over the back of his neck, and his gaze flickered away fr
Last Updated: 2024-12-27
Chapter: 36Alex's POV"Roman, you need to catch him fast," I said with a loud sigh, placing the phone over the table, hating Roman for arguing with me over every damn thing."Alex, the moment Max got hurt, I checked, Christian was here, so it's not him, that's for sure," He said through the speaker, pulling on me the good guy act, "So, do you really want me to risk hurting someone innocent, that doesn't seem like you."Nikolas walked into the room, his eyes flickered from me to the phone, where Roman's voice is coming from."For god's sake, just get Christian," I ordered with an annoyed sigh, "I am willing to take the risk with him, he is anything but innocent," Even if he isn't the one behind this. He had hurt Lilly, one way or another, I saw it in her eyes when I decided to trigger her, I am more sure of it now.Maybe he didn't hurt Max, but he has a relationship with everything unfolding. I should've trusted my instincts when I met him. Something about him was just off."Who's Christian again
Last Updated: 2024-12-27
Chapter: 35Nikolas's POVMy chest tightened with every word the doctor muttered, about the surgery, and about the risks it still imposes on Max and his health. His words drove me insane, multiplying all the worry and the fear I have been feeling since Alex called me and told me Max was hurt.I came here as fast as I could. I waited behind the scenes for his health to get better, but it was only deteriorating over the past few days. Then, the doctor suggested the kidney transplant and here we are. Even with this solution, the procedure is still risky and there are some possible side negative effects we have to prepared for.The doctor left the decision to us, then he walked away, leaving us in the waiting room alone to discuss it."What do you think?" Alex asked, his eyes drifting between Cara and up to me as I came to a stop beside them.I shook my head, "I don't know, from my part in this, I would do anything," Fuck, I will give him both of my kidneys if I have to, "But, it's not my decision to
Last Updated: 2024-12-27
Chapter: 34Lilly's POVI thought that was it.No more lies. No more secrets. No more surprises.No more heartbreak.I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I connected the dots of my parent's complicated past, but no.No.This man, he is...he is not him. He can't be. It's not possible. I saw dad aim a gun and fire.I saw dad kill him.But, he is here.How?He is the same man I saw on the phone that made me discover his existence all those years ago. The existence my father didn't plan on ever telling us about.Those eyes, if I focus on them only, it's like I am looking at Max...at my little brother, the one who is fighting for his life inside. The one in danger. The one who can be finally saved, by...this exact man.His biological father.My uncle.The man who ruined everything.The man who hurt my mom.Oh my god..."We still have just a couple of more tests to run and then we can prep him for the surgery," The nurse carried on, explaining the whole transplant procedure, but I wasn't liste
Last Updated: 2024-12-27
Chapter: 62My ears registered the voice that I adore more than anything before my eyes found her among the crowd. I turned my head to the side, my gaze found her as she struggled out of Alex's hold and rushed forward toward our table, "Daddy!" She said in excitement, jumping up to reach me.I didn't waste a second as I pulled her small self up into my lap, my heart calming down as I wrapped her in my embrace, kissing her head and sinking into her sweet flowery scent. She kept her little arms wrapped around my neck as she edged her head backward, looking at me.She smiled, "Hi," She said.I chuckled, "Hey," I said, edging forward and leaving a kiss over the tip of her nose.She giggled, "Why do I keep missing you," I said and her smile widened, "Because you love me," She replied back, so confident and she couldn't be more right.I allowed her to settle down in my lap, "That I do," I said, dropping another kiss to the top of her head, unable to get enough.Alex sat across from us, he threw a wink
Last Updated: 2024-12-08
Chapter: 61One day later...Nikolas's POVI pulled at the neck of my white dress shirt, trying to fix the collar as I knocked at my mother's room, wondering what was taking her so long."Just a sec," I heard her mutter from a distance before her footsteps got closer and she opened the door. My eyebrows pulled closer as I took into her appearance, my confusion faded almost immediately, exchanging it with a small smile.Her eyebrows furrowed before she looked down at herself, thinking something is wrong, "Why are you smiling?"I shrugged, "It's just I haven't seen you look like this in so long."She gaped at me, "Are you indirectly saying that I looked ugly over the past days?"I chuckled and shook my head, "You know what I mean."She returned my smile with a one of her own before she stepped forward, one of her hands clutched into her purse and the other ran over the material of her simple nude dress, smoothing it down."So, what's the occasion exactly for all of this?" I asked."We're celebratin
Last Updated: 2024-12-08
Chapter: 60Alex's POVI was about to leave, go back home, and rid myself of all of the confusion and uncertainty wrapping around my chest. You know, pretend that nothing has changed, that I didn't hear what I heard or learn what I learned.That the moment I step out of here, everything will just go back to the way it was.But for some effed-up reason, as I was exiting the bathroom, my eyes fell on the room at the end of the hall, and I wanted nothing more than to go in there and just talk, ask and get a clear answer for once. My jaw ticked and I rushed a hand over the top of my head, gathering myself before I made up my mind and stepped closer to the room, aiming to find its current occupant.The door was ajar, so I pressed my palm over it and pushed it open, expecting her to be there. My eyebrows pulled closer when I was met with an empty room. I haven't seen her since she and Liam talked in private before he left, I just supposed she'd be here now. Deciding that this was a message from the uni
Last Updated: 2024-12-08
Chapter: 59Nikolas's POVThere are days when I am beyond grateful that I didn't have to grow up with Alex in the same house. Like Today for example. I really would've thrown him off the stairs or something if we were to grow up together. He is unbearable at times. Most of the time. Always actually. He settled his eyes on me, trying to hide his smile and miserably failing, I envy his constant giddy state sometimes, "Why do you keep looking at me?" He asked, his eyebrow raising in utter tease, "Did the kiss make you love me more?" His head tilted, faking affection, "Is it changing your mind about leaving?"I kept glaring at him but a small voice in my head said that I will definitely miss his crazy weird antics when I go. He is beyond annoying, that's true, infuriating even but he has a way of making you get used to his presence and insane personality.Our mother placed a plate full of pancakes on the table ahead of us, her closeness shutting him up. She rested her hand over my shoulder, I looke
Last Updated: 2024-12-08
Chapter: 58Alex's POVDaylight blazed through the edges of the window blind, shaking me out of my somewhat peaceful sleep. Groaning, I tried to roll over to my back, opening my eyes in an attempt to blink away the heavy sleep.I winced as the brightness of the day welcomed me and immediately covered my face with the blanket. The pain throbbing against my skull reminded me exactly why I shouldn't drink as much again. All because of stupid Nikolas...Speaking of the devil, where is he? I lowered the blanket and rubbed at my eyes, finally adjusting my eyesight, my hazy gaze studying my surroundings and slowly recalling back the events of last night.Something felt odd though. I moved my head over what I thought was a pillow and my gaze slowly flickered up. My eyes widened and I instantly shot up from my laying position. My sudden movement shook her awake as well, her head that was uncomfortably pressed to the couch's cushion moved and she blinked her eyes open, meeting my shocked horrified ones.Th
Last Updated: 2024-12-08
Chapter: Chapter 57By lunchtime, Tanya came back, she asked for the kid's attention, and the responsible attendee tried to calm them all down, ushering them to leave the toys, sit and listen. Alex let go of his legos and scooted backward, accidentally laying his back against me as he intently listened. I looked down at him, unable to have enough as Tanya announced that one of the kids was leaving, that he got adopted and she urged the rest to bid him goodbye. I think it's just one of the things they do around here. My eyes were on Alex still, so I noticed the way his shoulders slumped down at the news, a low breath leaving him as he pressed his chin over his pulled up legs, staring at the kid as he hugged the others, happy and giddy that he has his own family now. "What's wrong?" I asked, inching my head closer to his face, so he could hear me through the loud shatter around us. He turned his head to look at me, his brows pinched in sadness, "I want to go too," He said, his voice the softest sweetest
Last Updated: 2024-06-25
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